Hello! i shouldnt be writing a new story but ive been reading dark romance manga and i wanted to write something myself. this is based off the manga sachi-iro no one room. WARNING WARNING WARNING! this story will have attempted rape, mention of rape, mention of abuse, and underage sex. lucy is 15 and natsu is 19. they dont have sex right away, but youll read that lucy literally has zero fucks about what happens to her. natsu doesnt take advantage of that or anything, but she tests him a lot and he wont be able to stop himself eventually. if any of this bothers you, then dont read. ive warned you right here, so if you still comment, then dont blame me for getting angry. thats all i have to say so have fun and tell me what you think!

"One believes things because they've been conditioned to believe them."

That's a quote Lucy read for the first time today. It had been raining after school ended and she didn't bring an umbrella. She stopped at a book store and saw a book of quotes. She reached for it, and flipped to a random page. And it landed on that page. Once those words registered in her brain, Lucy felt a weight settle down her throat that extended all the way to her stomach.

"One believes things because they've been conditioned to believe them."

It was a foreign concept to her. Things have always been this way, but is it different for other people? Is it normal for her dad to hit her every night, lock her out of the house all night or refuse to give her food for days in a row? Is it normal for that teacher to call her alone into the classroom and lift up her skirt? Is it normal for this same teacher to make her touch him and do other things she didn't want? And was it normal for her teachers and classmates to write messages on her desks and to ignore it even though they have authority? Is all that really not normal and she just thinks it is because it's been conditioned that way? Is it normal to want to die?

"It's not normal." A man next to her spoke up, seeming to read her mind. He was tall and muscular. Probably around 19 years old. She couldn't see his hair because he had a hat on and and even a hood thrown over his head. There was also a mask covering his lips like he was sick. The only thing she was able to make out were his dark emerald eyes.

"None of what you go through is normal, Lucy. It's not okay."

She tilted her head to the side curiously. "How do you know all that?"

"I know everything about you."

Even though she didn't know this man and he seems to know about her, Lucy wasn't scared. She just stared up at the man curiously. "Who are you?"

"That's not important right now." He held his hand out for her, which was quite large and rough looking. He was very tan like he was often under the sun. "I'm here to kidnap you, so come with me before I force you."

"Really? You'd do that?" She took his hand and jumped up and down in excitement. "You're really taking me away?"

The man swallowed hard as he stared at her in disbelief. "Why aren't you scared that I know all this and said I'm kidnapping you?"

She tilted her head to the side curiously. "I don't care what you do to me. Hit me, touch me like my teacher. Or I could touch you it doesn't matter. I already feel like dying just thinking about going back home. And for some reason, I feel like I won't care if you hurt me."

She turns to head towards the door, but the man tugs her arm back. Lucy still just stares up at him, almost confused. "Don't say shit like that. I'm not like those assholes, Kay?"

"Okay." That's all she said. Her expression didn't change. "So are we going or no?"

The man rolled his eyes and led her out the door. It was still raining and the man didn't have an umbrella either. So with their hands together, they ran through the rain until they arrived at an apartment in a street you couldn't reach with normal roads. It was more dislocate and on a one way street. Once the door was open, Lucy tilted her head at what she saw. Hundreds of photos were taped to the wall. All at different angles and in different locations. But one thing in common was that they were all of her.

"Wow, you've got quite the hobby mister. Makes me feel special." She sat on the cushion near the kotatsu table and leaned to the side so her elbow was on the floor with her cheek resting in it, and her knee raised up. "Feel free to take more photos. I can pose however you please."

"Stop that." The man threw the coat he was wearing on her head, causing the girl to pout as she tore it off herself.

"Hey! What was that for?"

"I just don't get how you're so calm." He plopped across from her at the table as he tore his hat off. "You're 15 years old in an adults apartment who just kidnapped you and has hundreds of photos of you. Doesn't that freak you out?"

"You have pink hair. How interesting."

The man groaned. "Focus, Luce. How aren't you scared?"

"I already told you. I don't care what you do to me. I've already been through it all, so it doesn't matter. I'm used to it." She sighed boredly but looked over at him nonchalantly. "So, what's your name?"

"Natsu." He slipped the mask off to reveal his perfectly white teeth. He was attractive. Very attractive. He has thin lips and a defined jawline. His nose is straight and the pink hair somehow looked great on him. It was spiky and his bangs were clipped back. It looked kind of cute like that.

"Natsu…" She hummed and let her eyes drift across the room again. She wonders if he really won't be like papa or if he'll do the same things like everyone else. She doesn't want to ask for anything or make him angry so it's best that she doesn't joke around too much. She doesn't want to anger him since this is her new home.

So Lucy sat quietly and gazed around the room some more. None of the photos were inappropriate. They were all of her face or shots from afar. Though she even saw photos of her dad, her teacher and the girls who were mean to her. And some were pictures of them hurting, bulling and abusing her.

"Are you hungry?"

Lucy blinked up at him, but smiled big with her eyes closed. "I'm alright. I can go a few days without eating. Don't worry about me."

Natsu frowned with his brows furrowed. "You're three meals a day here. What do you want for dinner?"

"I-I'm Okay, really." She put her hands in front of her which trembled slightly. "I don't want to be a burden."

"You're not a burden. You can ask for whatever you want. I'll give you it no matter what, okay?"

She looked down at her lap with a small sniffle. "Can I… take a bath then?"

"A bath?" She nodded, looking awfully nervous. "I don't have girl shampoo."

"That's alright!" She stood up and clasped her hands behind her back, and slightly leaned over. "You want to join, Natsu? Hmm?"

"Got take your bath Luce."

She pouted but skipped into the bathroom leaving him alone in the room. He gazed around his room and frowned at the photos. She was always so empty and hollow before so this strange and flirtatious behavior must be an act. A coping mechanism or something because this is really weird. He kidnapped a 15 year old and brought her to his apartment filled with photos of her. You think she'd have a different reaction.

"Natsu?"

He snapped his eyes to the closed door.

"Yeah?"

"Can you wash my back? I can't reach it."

What in the world is wrong with this child? She shouldn't invite him into the bath like this. It's bizarre and worries him. What have these people been doing to her? Well, Natsu knows exactly what they've been doing.

He rubbed his chin and groaned. "Yeah, I'm coming."

He stood up and walked to the door, then opened it. Lucy was completely naked with her back towards him. Her long hair was over her shoulder and her small, malnourished body was covered in bruises, cuts and scars. His eyes softened and he pulled up a stool behind her. She handed him a washcloth and watched him from over her shoulder. He just scrubbed, removing the dirt and grime from her pale skin.

"Are you testing me?"

"Ha ha ha. Natsu is smart despite looking so stupid."

She watched as he raised his hand, not even flinching when he brought it to her face, but her eyes lowered. Natsu guessed correctly and lightly poked her on the nose. She popped her head up with wide eyes. She must have have been expecting him to hit her.

"Don't call me stupid." He resumed scrubbing her back, and swallowed. "I'm not going to hurt you like others have. Did you want to test me? See if I'd touch you or hit you?"

"Yeah, I did. Though I was just curious. I really don't care what you do to me."

Really? She really wouldn't care? Maybe he should scare her into having some self worth? Make her realize that she should care what happens to her.

Deciding on that, Natsu grabs her shoulders and pulls her around so she's facing him. He holds her chin and leans down, his breath ghosting against her lips. He thought she would get scared. Having a place where she could maybe feel at home, but that same place was exactly the same. But instead, Lucy wrapped her arms around his neck and gazed back it him.

"Natsu, you can't seem to understand something. I really don't care. You could even kill me and I wouldn't weep one tear. I'd thank you for giving me a reason to die. You can do whatever you want to me. Use me as a punching back, practice medicine on me by giving me weird scars. Or… you can use me." She leaned up closer to him. "You know I'm used to it. You had photos of that guy touching me. I'm numb and don't care. It's really up to you."

Natsu stared at her for a little while longer, but sighed and pulled back. He stood up and left the bathroom. That girl is really too dangerous. If she keeps saying shit like that, he really will want to. After all, he loves her.