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So, if you're listening to this, that means I'm already dead. All joking aside, you asking me to record audio logs for you to listen to in the future after I'm long dead is kind of morbid, not that I don't understand the logic behind it.

To tell you the truth, I don't really know how to process this whole thing. At the moment I'm recording this we'd just gone out to lunch at the Indian place near my apartment and you dropped this whole thing on me.

I don't know how you were expecting me to react to your news that you were choosing space over the people who care about you, but you can't really expect me to be happy about it. I don't understand. I really don't.

You only told me about what you were doing after you committed to the Initiative and it was too late to back out. I think it's because you know I'd be able to talk you out of it, to make you see that this might not be as great idea as you think it is.

You're my best friend and I don't know if you realize what that means to me. We met when we were junior high and now as adults, I can't imagine living a life without you in it. I know that you won't really be dead, but to me this is like you're either committing suicide or choosing to let everyone die while you isolate yourself in the future where we can never get to.

I'm really never going to see you again, am I? One day hundreds of years in the future you'll be listening to this. I'll be long gone, who knows if anyone on earth will know my name at that point. I doubt it.

Look, I'm doing this because you asked me to but that doesn't mean I'm going to give up on trying to change your mind. I really hope that right now I'm just talking to myself and this never sees the light of day.

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