Of all the people that she thought that could be her love rival, Natsu Dragneel is the last person she would expect to be.

Her Gray-sama. Even though she and Gray-sama have been an official thing for a while (though they keep it a secret), that does not stop from getting jealous over anyone that talks to him, less alone shows interest in her Gray-sama! Not because Natsu-san is a man, but because of the fact that it is Natsu-san who is in love with Gray-sama.

Is this what people call the attraction of polar opposite?

After all, Natsu-san is fire and Gray-sama is ice. They always fight. That is how they communicate. For Natsu-san to be in love with Gray-sama, she has to admit she did not see that coming. At first, she has reacted like how she would always react to all of her potential love rivals: Being intimidating and scaring the crap out of them. Gray-sama is hers. She would not let anyone take him away from her after she has fought for his love for so long. That was what she has thought when she found out. But then, she saw it. The look in Natsu-san's eyes when he looked at Gray-sama.

There was something in those eyes made her stop.

The eyes that tell more stories than the mouth ever could. She saw them, that one time. They stopped the jealousy she felt but also haunted her for many nights. There was just something about those eyes that bothered her. So she decided to pay attention to Natsu-san every time she saw him.

It was not a one-time thing. Every time Gray-sama is near, Natsu-san's eyes would lit up. When he turns away, those eyes soften. The way Natsu-san's hands linger longer than necessary on Gray-sama when they are fighting, how his eyes would always tell her how he truly feels when Gray-sama is near,...There is no way for her to be mistaken.

Natsu-san is truly in love with Gray-sama, just like Juvia is.

But the love Natsu-san has, it is not like hers, she realizes.

For someone who is usually so loud, Natsu-san loves so quietly. He does not express his love boldly like her. She expresses herself like a wave of Tsunami: strong, bold and over the top. Natsu-san, however, loves with the gestures. Those lingering touches whenever they fight each other, that soften gaze whenever Gray-sama is not looking,...The small little things that are hard to see and yet so clearly displayed. Natsu-san loves like a small fire on a winter day. Small flickering light, but it is gentle and warm.

For the longest time, she wonders why he has not made a move if he loves Gray-sama so much. Why has he not said anything? Is it because of her? She loves Gray-sama too, after all. Or it is because he knows? She is not sure why. But when you love, you should confess. What the point of being in love but not expressing yourself?

The day Gray-sama and her finally announced their relationship in the guild, Juvia has her answers when she heard Natsu-san asked Gray-sama. For a moment Juvia would have thought Natsu-san would confess right there and then. That he would take Gray-sama away from her in this very moment. She felt anxiety, waiting for his response. And he once again surprised her.

"Are you happy?" - She heard him ask suddenly. It seemed that Gray-sama was taken by the sudden question, for it took him a moment to answer.

"...I am."

There was a short silence between them. And then-

Natsu-san smiled.

A smile was so sincere, so bright, like the fact that she has everything he has ever wanted did not, does not hurt him. It stunned her. The smile that is so beautiful, so sincere, so bright that no one would have thought beneath it is a heart breaking in two.

"Congratulation."

Just like that, the Fire Dragon Slayer gave them his blessing before disappeared in the crowd. She looked after that pink hair in the crowd, feeling a mixture of emotions.

Has he...given up?

For her?

His actions confused her to no end.

It was the last time she has seen Natsu-san. It has been three weeks since the Salamander took jobs after jobs so that he has excused to be away and not had to pretend he is okay. Former Love Rival, Erza-san and Gray-sama are worried. They barely see him anymore. Gray-sama is so worried that there is barely time for the two of them. Not that she can blame him. It also gave her time to think about everything. She even went to Gajeel for advice. The Iron Dragon Slayer is like a brother to her after all. Their conversation has her thinking.

"You ask me about your relationship?"

"Yes."

"So...be me or play nice?"

"Gajeel does not play nice. Juvia trusts you. So Juvia wants an honest truth."

"Okay. Just don't cry. You are like a sister to me and if you tell anyone I say that I will murder you. All I can say about your relationship is that I am very surprised the Ice Bastard even agreed to be in a relationship with you after all the craps you pulled."

"What do you mean?"

"Sit back, and think Juvia. What have been you doing ever since Phantom Lord attacked Fairy Tail?"

She was surprised by the tone Gajeel used. It was gentle...probably the most gentle she has ever seen him given to anyone else but his mate, Levy. Juvia did what he told her. She thought about it. What she has been doing after that event was-

...

...

Oh.

"Oh."

"Yeah."

"I thought...it was..."

"It was not love, Juvia. It was obsession. You obsessed with Gray because he spared you, showed you kindness when no one else did. You obsessed with the fact he saved you. And you wanted to have him. You fucking follow him anywhere he goes. You steal his clothes. You have dolls with his shapes, there probably are more which I don't know about but honestly, I don't want to know. You get mad with literately anyone that is so much as breathing near him. You literately forced him to choose you. Without any regarding of his feelings. When he tells you no you convince yourself that he was playing "hard to get" and kept on pursuing him. His no literately means no and you discarded that, many times. "

"..."

"..."

The silence between them was heavy as what he said sunk into her. Her blue eyes looked intensely at her shaking hands. The last part hit her more than she has thought. Without regarding of Gray-sama's feeling. Has she truly been that selfish? She has never noticed before-

No. She realized. She has always noticed, always known. Deep down from her very consciousness, she has always known that she is a selfish person. Love is something that is foreign to her, after all. She is water, she is rain. Her power has brought her misery. She desperately yearned for love. For acceptance. She has...she has wanted to feel okay. To love and to be loved. Gray-sama came in and saved her like a prince. And she has thought he was the one for her. She has wanted her savior to be her prince. She needs that. The love and care and acceptance that he has. She wanted that. She strove for it. She has changed herself many times after all. To be worthy in his eyes. To be accepted by him. To be chosen as his. But...has she been so blinded by her own want and need that she has forgotten about his?

Natsu-san...

Realization hit her so hard that it was almost suffocating.

"Juvia?"

Now she understands. The looks she has seen, why she has hesitated when she saw them. Because it was a look of someone that loves so sincerely.

"Are you happy?"

Those words and the action from that time became clear as well.

"...I am."

Because Gray-sama has told him, Gray-sama is happy. Gray-sama told him he is happy with Juvia. Small simple words. But it is all that mattered to Natsu-san.

"Congratulation!"

Natsu-san has back down.

He has given up.

But it was not for her.

It was never for her.

Juvia can never compete with a person that is willing to sacrifice everything for the man he loves when her own reason is so selfish.

Because above everything, Natsu-san's ultimate wish is for Gray-sama's happiness, even at the cost of his own.

And then the sky weeps.