She thought she was seeing things when she saw him standing on the edge of that cliff overlooking the water.

She knew she wasn't when he jumped.

She let out a scream, gutteral and sharp and scratchy to her throat, before dropping everything she was holding and currently doing and sprinting toward the water.

And she hadn't even hesitated before stripping off her jacket and diving in, ignoring the alarmed cries of onlookers as she tapped into that latent, dormant energy that had been inside her for a while. After all, Admin powers couldn't be destroyed forever. They eventually grew and resurfaced.

She shivered at the feeling of the familiar energy spreading across her with a feeling of hot glue, her skin greening an odd colour and her hair seeming to gleam and become a more intense chroma as she began to push herself through the water.

The freezing cold would had likely normally rendered her immobile, but the energy pulsing through her seemed to flood her with warmth that left the cold a mild discomfort as opposed to a deadly hindrance.

Looking through eyes that felt oh so familiar yet so foreign she saw him floating close to the floor, eyes closed and skin almost white.

There was something odd about the pallor of his skin. There was no way the water was the only contributor. Had he taken pills or alcohol?

Eyes widening in panic, she shot toward him, trying to ignore the almost steam-like effect his blood gave to the water as it mixed with it that also somewhat worked to make it harder to see. She also tried her best to ignore the very much open cuts on his wrists that were causing said blood. She had to get him out the water first before worrying about those. He didn't seem to be moving in any capacity, even to shift or struggle, which set off alarm bells in her head.

She pulled him up into a hold not unsimilar to bridal style and placed her feet against the seabed..

Before shooting upward, ignoring the painful rush of water against her head as her magic propelled her higher and higher...

And she shot out of the waters surface, before collapsing after hovering for a moment, magic drained. Yeah, she may have went full admin there, but she sure as hell wasn't used to using that potential anymore.

Hacking up water she rushed to him and did the standard procedure one gives to someone who has just nearly drowned - cpr.

Not that she was very good at it, but hey, she didn't crack any ribs! That must be an accomplishment.

...not the time to think about that, Xara. Focus.

She jumped back as his body seemed to jerk or jolt violently before he shot up into a sitting position and began to rather violently cough up water (and maybe a bit of blood) and she drily noted on how pills came out too.

And her attention was instantly drawn to the still freely bleeding cuts all over his wrists, ignoring his protests as she tore off a corner of his shirt and wrapped them in a makeshift bandage.

"So" she said quietly, voice dangerous. "What just happened?"

The yellow-green colour began to recede from her skin and her hair dulled slightly. She felt her eyes gradually normalise, the intense detail of the surroundings returning to her more degraded human vision.

He swallowed and refused to look at her, expression uncomfortable and full of self loathing. He didn't speak.

Rage flew through her and she punched the ground with a shout. He jumped up as the earth seemed to shudder beneath them, a small crater where her fist had just been with spiderweb cracks jutting out for several meters.

She looked up at him, and knew there must be admin purple wisps coming from her eyes, fist glowing as she pulled it back. Her expression was furious. "FUCKING EXPLAIN!" she screamed, throat sore. He paled and clutched at his arm, swallowing thickly.

"I think it's pretty obvious what happened" he muttered, flushed in shame. "I... Gave up. There's nothing else to add to that, so i don't know what you expect from me"

Her eyes narrowed. "You think it's that fuckin' simple? I'm an admin right now, Romeo" her voice became poisonous. "I literally re-became what I hate the most to save you. Instinctively. You keep throwing your life around like no one would notice but we do!" she ran her fingers through her hair in frustration, either not noticing or not caring when the tie that held her bun up broke and her hair cascaded around her shoulders like a curtain, the pale sunlight bouncing off of her.

"I'm.. I'm sorry" he breathed, looking still like he didn't quite understand what he'd just done. "I didn't think, just-"

"That's right, you DIDN'T think!" she shouted, feeling like her entire body was composed of rage even as concern and affection burned beneath the surface, emotions she fiercely hid.

"I just... You lot wouldn't even notice. None of you care if i die-"

She slapped him as hard as she could, and utterly broke, tears starting to roll down her face. "SHUT THE FUCK UP!" she screamed, ignoring the pain in her throat, the pain in her heart currently overriding it. She grabbed him by the shoulders, expression filled with so much turbulence that he recoiled, shocked. She didn't stop. "HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT, YOU IDIOT. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU IMPLY I WOULDN'T CARE!"

He flinched, shaking slightly. "I-i didn't mean to imply-"

"YOU CAN'T JUST.." she paused and made a choked sort of sob sound, before collapsing into him, he quickly raised his arms around her to steady them both. His breathing was erratic and he couldn't stop the tears now running down his face. "I'm... Xara, I'm so fucking sorry" he gasped out before hugging her with an intensity she hadn't felt in a while, like she was the only thing he could hold onto to stop himself from just falling apart.

And maybe.. A bit of that applied to her too.

So she let him hug her desperately, listening to him gasp and make strangled sort of noises as he tried to repress his sobs. She shook her head, feeling emotionally exhausted. "I hate you. You dick. How dare you do this to me"

He chuckled without humour. "I love you"

She froze, eyes wide, before an odd sort of comforted smile crossed her face. She ignored the slight flush that crossed her face, the still rampant negativity inside of her blocking out any kind of budding romanticism she was feeling. "I know.." she closed her eyes. "Shit... I k-know"