AN: This chapter was very hard for me to write, Lucy thinks about her suicide and has a lot of irrational behavior due to it. As someone who has tried years ago although not like Lucy did, speaking about it and being confronted about it can make you lash out the way Lucy has at Farron. Please do not give up on this story because she is acting out of character. Depression is hard to face and it's something I want to show in this story, that it can affect you even when you thought you had moved past it. Thank you for reading.

Chapter 6: Confrontations

Waving bye to Vander Lucy made her way towards her apartment, just wanting to get some more sleep in before she had to talk with people more. She knew they would be angry she had snuck away especially after everything that happened. However she just needed some time alone.

It seemed fate was working against her however because she could smell them before she even opened her door. Farron, Bix, and Kaleb had somehow gotten into her apartment. Honestly she wished she knew how so many people kept breaking in. Maybe she should ask Freed to put some runes preventing entry from anyone who wasn't invited in, even if her landlady had said adding runes would make her rent go up. The amount of rent increase couldn't be as bad as the repairs and food bills she currently had.

A downside to her secrets meant she couldn't just turn back around without making them suspicious, they were being extremely quiet probably wanting to keep her from running in the first place, and if she did run they would only wonder why.

"Lucy Layla Ann Heartfilia never bloody do that to me again!" Farron growled the second she opened the door, his arms wrapping around her for a brief moment before his eyes were scanning her for injuries. Or perhaps he was scanning her to make sure she hadn't aggravated her preexisting injuries.

Pushing him away she growled, "have you forgotten your manners Farron? I don't ever remember inviting any of you into my home."

"What in Hades name do you expect when you disappear from the damn infirmary without a word to anyone else? After everything that happened do you really think you should just be sneaking off by yourself?"

Lucy glared at him. Hating that he had been so worried, but at the same time she didn't like the look in his eyes. It was a mixture of determination and guilt, something she usually saw when Farron was doing something he knew she wouldn't agree with. Usually landing with them fighting before he seduced her into forgiving him. They were not going to fall back into old habits. Lucy had to keep him at arms length treating him like her best friend, not her occasional lover, that role wasn't his anymore.

"It's not like I was fucking kidnapped again or anything. I just got a few minor burns from a dragon's poisonous blood. You don't own me Farron. I do not need to let anyone know when I'm leaving if I don't feel like it. Sometimes a girl just needs some time alone. And clearly I can't get that in my own house because people are always breaking in. Do you know how annoying that is?"

Bix was just laughing in the background and Lucy turned her full on scary Lucy face on him, watching in satisfaction as he blanched and hit behind Kaleb. The mind bender was looking at her with curious eyes as if he couldn't really figure her out. Lucy wondered how long it had been since someone had been able to keep him out of their mind for so long. Probably hadn't happened to him in years.

"Just tell me why your here so that I can get some rest for Mavis sake!" she demanded after neither of the men spoke.

The three of them exchanged a look that had Lucy itching to go and run right back out her door. It was one that meant they were clearly here for some sort of intervention and by the bleak look in Bix's eyes Lucy was fairly certain she knew why. Farron had fucking told him about her suicide attempt 8 months ago! He couldn't even give her a chance to speak to him about it privately, instead bringing one of her guildmates into her private business. She wanted to hate him for betraying her trust. Yet at the same time she felt a spurt of warmth at the act that showed Farron still cared.

No way was she letting Kaleb Pradesh into her head. That was probably what this was about some sort of soul therapy session with Kaleb there to make sure she didn't lie. Knowing Farron he probably thought he had some sort of leverage that would make her agree to the bloody intervention, but she wouldn't let anyone into her head. Especially when there was so much at stake. Farron had looked broken enough when he had seen her body hanging in front of him, he would only be broken more if he found out there had been a slim chance he could have been the father of her still born child.

Musa was gone. Lucy was dealing with it. No one else needed to know about it. And as long as Vander kept his mouth shut, deciding he didn't want to risk finding out the cost of betraying a promise to a celestial summoner, no one would ever know. Her baby girl had been her world for the few moments Lucy had known about her before she found out she was dead.

Cramps had started in Lucy's stomach in a painful way. Screaming she had been worried that some mage was using some type of torture magic on her. Wanting to use her to get to her father's fortune. Why did she sneak out of the house to Magnolia today of all days? Just because she had wanted to see Mira's magazine shoot in person, now she was far from home in more pain then she had ever felt before.

"Damn that some set of lungs you have on you jiggles," a maroon haired man snickered holding his head. Lucy was afraid that was the man who was trying to kidnap her and glared through her tears. "We need to get you to a hospital."

The man hadn't given her a chance to deny it and she didn't fight when another huge wave of pain hit her. Something was seriously wrong. She thought the man was just putting on a show for the people around them, but was surprised when he lifted her into his arms and actually started heading in the direction of Magnolia's hospital.

Each step he took was pure agony for Lucy as her stomach felt like something was tearing on the inside. And she became embarrassed when liquid flowed from her, she hadn't felt like she had to use the washroom and was afraid the man would just drop her and leave her to her pain after the humiliation of being used as a toilet. Instead the man had paled some sort of realization hitting his eyes and he started running with her in his arms.

"Maternity ward," the man gasped when they ended up at the hospital much to Lucy's confusion, but the pain was getting worse and she figured she had just misheard him.

The next few minutes was a flurry of activity as the maroon haired man left her with the doctors. Lucy had wanted to argue and get him to stay not knowing what was happening.

"Miss how far along are you?" a doctor asked too her confusion.

"What do you mean?"

"Your in labor miss."

"That's impossible ... I would have noticed if I was nine months ... pregnant. I had my period two months ago, but it's ... always been ... irregular, I'm not ... even showing." She gasped throughout her pain.

"Your water broke miss there's no mistake. Is there someone I can call for you?"

"No your wrong!" She screamed out. There was no way she could be pregnant. She would have noticed. She couldn't have made it to labor without realizing. There had been no symptoms.

The doctor looked at her sadly, "unfortunately your too far along to stop the labour. I'm sorry."

Then she was feeling pressure down below and screamed again. Barely hearing the doctor as he urged her to "push," over and over again. Tears streaming down her face when he finally took a baby from her, but there was no sound from the child. There was a flurry of activity as the doctor spoke to the nurses trying to get her baby to breath. But it was already too late, Lucy knew that before they said anything. Her baby that she hadn't known of was already gone. Her precious little star.

Someone handed her the baby. Allowing her to say goodbye and Lucy cried as she looked down at the child. She didn't look like she was premature and she could have been sleeping for how perfect she looked. From the look of her reddish hair she was most likely Farron's, but she had known she wasn't pregnant the last time she saw him three months ago she had gotten injured in the stomach and Alec had done a pregnancy test just in case, it had come back negative. Yet as a dragon born she probably had shorter time for pregnancy, she just didn't think it would be less then three months.

Maybe if she had known she would have gotten to the hospital faster. Her baby wouldn't have suffered and died in the womb. It was her fault.

"Do you have a name for her?"

"Musa Ganier Heartfilia."

"Lucy, Lucy what's wrong!" Farron shouted drawing her out of her memories of Musa's birth.

The man who had ran her to the hospital had surprisingly been Cobra of Oracien Seis, but he had never let on that he recognized her when he had fought Fairy Tail shortly after she had joined. Due to how hard he had tried to get her to the hospital in time Lucy couldn't find it in herself to hate him for almost killing Erza with his poison. She actually wanted to try and visit him and see if there was any chance of rehabilitation. Someone who helped a pregnant woman couldn't be all bad could he?

"Nothing's wrong Farron I was just lost in my thoughts."

Never had she been so glad that she could keep Kaleb out of her mind. What had she been thinking dwelling on that with the mindbender in the room?! Just one slip in her shields and he would have known everything.

"You clearly aren't fine. Lucy let us help you. Bix and Farron have a lot of experience with victims of trauma, they can help you get through this."
"I'm fine Farron!"

"No you bloody well aren't. If you don't let us help you I have no choice, but to tell your Guildmaster what I should have told your father 8 months ago."

Lucy laughed at that. That was his big play. He thought telling Makarov would make her see someone. Her secrets were her own.

"Go ahead Master already knows I tried to commit suicide before I joined the guild."

"What?!"

The shocked look on Farron and his brother's faces was hilarious. Did they honestly think Makarov didn't have a way of knowing how his mages were faring? She had weekly meetings with Master after she had first joined the guild. Kept completely private as he made sure she was healing fine mentally from her suicide attempt. It was also why she hadn't been allowed to go solo, she had to be a year clear before he would allow her out on her own.

"Master has a degree in psychology, didn't you know? I've been talking through most of my issues since I joined the guild. Just because he's not a mindbender doesn't mean he doesn't look out for the mental health of his children."

Of course he didn't know about her being a dragon, he just knew she had found out a secret from her family and lost someone dear to her that caused the emotions and the depression she had been battling for years to win for a brief moment. He never pressured her for more then that, saying she would tell him everything when she was ready. Lucy still met with him once a month. To work through how frustrated she was with everyone breaking into her apartment, and how they treated her like she was glass. None of them even knew about the suicide attempt, but they still treated her like she would break easily. Master helped her work through it all and promised he would keep her secrets.

"Lucy I..."

"No Farron. You betrayed my trust without even asking me if I was getting help, you just decided to bring your brother's in on a private matter. Whatever explanation I might have owed you, well you lost that privilege. Obviously you can't be trusted to keep my confidence."

"Cosplayer he was just trying to help."

"Ha, he only wanted to alleviate his own guilt from leaving me like that Bix. I'm getting better and that's all you need to know. Now please leave, I can't bare to see him anymore right now."

Betrayal was just rushing through her veins, she knew in her pain she was lashing out at Farron again, but she couldn't help it. He had betrayed her trust. The one person she had thought would never do that to her had and it hurt more then she had ever thought possible. She barely acknowledged when they left, just collapsing onto her couch and crying. Only moving when Natsu snuck into her window and became her leaning post. Holding her tight at she cried fearing this was the end of her friendship with Farron.