A/N: I will warn you now. This one is a bit smutty. Very AU-ish and Kyoko may or, may not be OOC. LOL. This one is an alternative version of one of the many possibilities after the Auditions and Morizumi. It's also not for fans of RenXKyoko, because once again, he's a dummy in this one. It's a little something that I had sitting, finished in a folder on my desktop begging to be published. Hope you like. 8)
Broken
Yes... One could say that something happened that day. The day of the audition for Momiji. Something changed, changed dramatically. She wasn't herself anymore. No one saw it immediately, she didn't allow them to. Something inside shattered to dust. Shattered into billions of tiny pieces... it was her heart. She had thought that her heart had been broken when Sho and her mother rejected her, but to see for herself, the affection clearly displayed on Kimiko's pinky, painfully introduced her to what real heart-break was. In her mind it was confirmed with Yashiro-san's questions and behavior. She tried to breathe, she tried to deny it, but she was too far gone. And then there were the photos. The photos of Ren's kiss.
"Mogami-kun... could you please tell me what happened? Yashiro-kun told me that you did quite well until you spoke to Koga-san and Morizumi-chan." Lory asked as the broken girl sat before him.
She looked up at him and gave him her best false smile. "I'm sorry Takarada-san... I failed."
"Oh... Well, it was just an audition. I'm sure there will be other parts." He consoled.
She shook her head. "No Takarada-san, I failed to keep my emotions in check. I just couldn't do it. When I found out she was the one that Tsuruga-san loves... I... I couldn't bring myself to do what I had promised myself." The tears began to fall. "I couldn't wish them all my best."
Lory sat in shock. "Mogami-kun? What do you mean? I haven't heard of Ren dating anyone."
She sighed and began to explain. "He told Bo in confidence that he had a girl that he loved that was four years younger. He described her to me. At the audition, Morizumi-san showed me the promise ring that Tsuruga-san gave to her for White Day and... and I just couldn't do it... Takarada-san... I... I can't stay. I can't take it. It just hurts too much. It hurts more than my mother or, Sho. I don't know how to make it stop hurting. It feels like my heart has been ripped out of my body. I need to leave... I can't stay here another minute. I'm sorry." She confessed as she handed him an envelope and stood.
"What is this?" He asked with worry.
She swallowed hard. "It... It's my resignation. I need to leave. I can't be near him. I don't want to cause him trouble with my feelings. The feelings that I can no longer hide. When Sacred Lotus is finished, I'm leaving."
Lory stood abruptly. "Wait! No... We'll figure something out together. You have too much talent to just throw it away like this, Kyoko-chan." He sighed and convinced her to sit back down as he shuffled through some papers on his desk. Perhaps I've been pushing her too hard. "Let me see if I have something to occupy your time. Something that will give you a break from here." He grabbed six scripts he had been saving for her debut. "I have these six parts that I have been reserving for your debut. Alone... One will keep you out of Japan for three months. All six, consecutively will keep you out for at least a year and a half. You will need to learn French for one of them, take vocal lessons for another and one requires ballet, but I don't think that will be a problem for you. I can occupy your down time with modeling contracts if you like..." He looked up and she nodded with a relieved look on her face.
"I... I think I will take all six Takarada-san..." She told him without hesitation.
He looked at her with surprise. "Are you sure. It would mean leaving your friends behind for more than a year." He reminded.
She gave him a small smile. "I think they'll understand." She was right Kanae and Chiori would.
He nodded. "Alright... R'mandy needs a new female model that fits your profile, but you would probably run into him at some point." He looked up in thought. "Although... He models for the Japanese branch and you would be representing Japan in America and Europe... So I doubt you would run into him for awhile, at least until the Gala." He pondered the others. "Let's see... There is one for Secrets and Cygne Blanc. They have asked for you because of your Natsu and Cygne Blanc, wants you for a new makeup line. I think you would like that." He smiled and she nodded.
"Sir... I trust your judgment. Um... Could you email everything to me when you have all of the details and I'll stop by to finalize everything?" She told him.
He nodded solemnly. "Alright Mogami-kun. I will try to have everything ready for you by the end of the day, tomorrow." He looked up at her again. "Will you be in the office then?"
She shook her head. "No Sir... I... I can't. I would like to avoid here as much as possible until I leave."
"I see. I will bring them by your home then." What he saw in her eyes broke his heart. How could he have been so wrong about Kuon? He thought for sure that the boy loved her. He sighed. "Kyoko-chan... Ruto will drive you home. You shouldn't be out and about alone, without protection."
"But..." She began to protest.
He raised an eyebrow. "No... It would make me feel better knowing you were safe."
She sighed heavily, she wasn't in the mood to argue. She just didn't have it in her and if she ran into Tsuruga-san, he would probably bully her into accepting a ride from him or, Yashiro-san. "Yes Sir."
Three Months Later:
"Mō..." Kanae sighed. "I never suspected." She growled. "Well... I suppose I understand, but you better keep in touch with me and Chiori." She scolded. "I want at least one text from you a day." She demanded. "Even though I would love to do nothing more than bury him... I won't do anything, just because you asked. God, that man pisses me off!" She slammed her hand into the table.
"It's not his fault Mōko-san... You can't help who you fall in love with... I'm a good example of that." Kyoko explained meekly.
"Yeah but..." Kanae shook her head. She knew that nothing that she could say would help her friend. She sighed. "Well..."
Chiori stood from her seat and pulled Kyoko into a hug. "Senpai?... Congratulations, I know you'll do well. I'm looking forward to seeing your movies. Just don't forget about us, okay?" She smiled.
Kyoko gave her a watery smile. "You guys are my best friends. My first and only friends. I could never forget you." Kyoko told her as she pulled both her best friends into a group hug.
"Mō... Have you figured out how you're going to solve your little problem with Bloodline?" Kanae asked with worry.
Kyoko chuckled wryly. She flashed a tiny package at her best friend and gave her a Natsu smirk. Chiori gasped. Kanae nodded. "At least your covered in that department." She shook her head.
"I learned my lesson from my mother. I refuse to make the same mistakes." She told them. "Especially with that one."
Kanae looked at her in confusion. "Which one are you planning on?" She asked gravely.
Kyoko smirked sexily and laughed. At least the subject had lightened her mood a bit. "Oh... He's a special one and I don't think he'll have a problem helping me out in this situation. His type usually doesn't. If he does... I have a reserve. I'm not leaving Japan without the experience that I need to complete these movies."
Kanae felt her heart clench. "If they hurt you..."
Kyoko laughed. "Don't worry Mōko-san... They can't hurt me, if I don't love them... And I don't." She had a week left before she had to leave and she would complete this self imposed educational mission.
"What are you doing here?" He asked as he reclined on the sofa in his manager's office. The question had taken him awhile to ask. He had been too stunned by her appearance to think with his mind.
She smirked sexily. "I have a little proposition for you." She purred.
He looked at her warily. "I'm listening."
"Well... It's like this... There's something I would like to get rid of and you can help me do it." She explained.
"And why would I help you get rid of anything? What do I look like? A charity?" He scoffed.
She narrowed her eyes and raised an eyebrow, then turned her back to him. "Well... If you don't want to help... I'm sure that Reino or, Kijima-san would be more than happy to help." She casually mentioned as she examined her nails, knowing that mentioning those two would peak his interest.
He spun her around to find her smiling mischievously. "What is it?" He scowled at the mention of the two men.
She pulled him down to her by his collar and whispered in his ear, then giggled.
Sho's eyes went wide and he felt like the air had been sucked out of the room. "Like hell I would let those two help you with that! Why?! What is wrong with you woman?"
She sighed in irritation. "Fine... If you don't want to... There are others that will." She began to leave.
He grabbed her and pulled her to him. "NO! Kyoko... I can't let you do this!"
She had a hunch bringing him in on her little plan would be a somewhat bad idea. She sighed. "Never mind Sho... I just thought you would help me, seeing that you are such a playboy, but I can see that I was wrong." Very wrong, the boy was just that, a boy. A boy who was all talk and no action.
He sat her down on the sofa he had occupied. "Kyoko... I thought you didn't want any part of that unless you were married to someone you loved... What happened to your pretty boy actor?"
He watched her eyes grow dark. "I need the experience. I will never get married. I will never be good enough for anyone to even say I love you to and I'm tired of living the life of a good little girl that does everything that everyone else wants and expects. I am doing this for myself. Now if you won't help... I'll find someone that will. It's not like I'm asking you to love me... God no!" She rolled her eyes. "That's the last thing I want in this lifetime." She told him as she stood up.
He flinched from the pain she inflicted on his heart with her words. "I... But... I do." He whispered his confession.
She looked up at him surprised. "Oh... Well... That's very unfortunate. I suppose that disqualifies you." She told him and pulled from his arms as they fell to his sides. "I'm very sorry Sho... I can't return those feelings and I suppose you can't help me." She turned and left.
Sho fell to his knees and buried his face in his hands. "What have I turned her into?" He asked himself as the tears from her rejection began to fall.