REVIEW, Favorite and Follow if you want to. I'm very obsessed with Degrassi right now which is why 4 of my stories are all about Degrassi. I'll probably have some Degrassi crossovers if anyone is interested. Enjoy. I do NOT own Degrassi.

Maya's POV:
"Maya, do you want to hangout tonight? We could watch movies and spend time together." Zig said as he held my hand while we were walking to Degrassi. "Yeah. I would love that." Zig smiled at me and I smiled back. When we got to Degrassi we kissed for a few seconds. "Ugh. You two are so adorable together, but sickening at the same time." Tori said, standing beside Tristan, Grace, Tiny, Jonah and Damon.

Zig and I laughed as Tiny and the rest of them smiled. "It's good to see you happy again, Maya. Tristan, Zig and I were worried about you after...everything that's happened, especially Zig." I looked at him and noticed that he was glaring at Tori. "Thanks, I guess." He looked at me, worried that I was going to break down in tears or something.

"Zig, I'm fine." I assured him, smiling. "I promise." Grace spoke up. "Wait, what happened last year?" She looked between the two of us.

"Zig can explain it to you four," I looked at Tiny, Grace, Jonah and Damon, "later. I don't really want to talk about it right now." I walked past them and went inside. The trophy case immediately caught my eye. Cam's hockey profile picture was still in there. I took a picture of it with my phone and then looked at him. His eyes looked so sad and it broke my heart all over again.

"Hey, are you okay?" Zig asked as he wrapped his arms around me. "What are you looking at?" He asked before he sighed. "Maya, it's okay for you to miss him. I'm not mad at all, I promise." He said, as I suddenly felt anger running through me. "I know." I started crying.

"Maya. It's going to be okay. You have me." He said, smiling. I looked at him and smiled. "That's the happy Maya I know and love." Zig said, softly. I blushed. "Come on. Let's get through today and then we can watch Netflix and chill tonight, okay?" I nodded as he took my hand and we walked to class together.

As soon as he was distracted, I saw his phone on his desk. I quickly grabbed it, put in the passcode and went to the contact I needed, took a picture of it, closed the app, locked the phone and put it back before anyone saw me. "Hey," he came over to me and put his arm around me. This is going to be a long day.

Later that day, Zig and I were sitting on the couch, when his phone beeped. He looked at it and frowned. "Zig, are you okay?" He put his phone up and looked at me before he sighed and paused the movie. I could heart his heart racing since my head was resting on his chest. His arms were wrapped around me. "Yeah. It's just that...Vince wants me to come back and deal again, but I'm not going to. I promise." He said looking at me. I didn't know what to say so I didn't say anything.

I love Zig and I don't want to see him getting hurt or worse. I wouldn't be able to handle it if anything bad happened to him after I lost Cam.

I sighed and put the popcorn bowl and empty soda cans up before I placed my hands on the counter. "Maya, you don't want to talk about this?" I didn't look at him. "What's there to talk about, Zig? The fact that I'm terrified at the thought of you getting hurt...or killed because of Vince. You know what happened to the last person who left?"

Zig looked at me as I ranted and I'm happy that he didn't interrupt me. He didn't look happy when I referenced Cam, probably because he knows how upset and worried I am about this. "They NEVER came back, Zig. I can't take that chance with you because I can't handle the though of anything bad happening to you. I love you so much and the thought of you injured due to one of his guns or lying dead somewhere because of a knife breaks my heart, Zig. I can't go through that pain again. I've failed Cam and as a result I lost him but I'm NOT going to risk it this time." I ranted as he walked over to me and held me while I cried.

"Maya, I'm not going back. I promise." I looked up at him. "It's not enough, Zig. What if he forces you to go back somehow?" My phone rang, but I ignored it. "Maya, stop. I'm not going back to the gang because I would rather be with you." His hands grabbed my arms while my hands were on his chest. "Zig, I'm scared for you." His green eyes locked with my blue ones. "I know, but I'm okay. Maya, trust me. Everything will be alright." I sighed and looked at him. "I trust you."

"Good." I frowned, "but I'm still not happy about this." Zig nodded. "I know." I was going to say something else, but instead I got cut off with a kiss. His soft lips on mine made me lose all concentration. I loved his kisses. He's the best, besides Cam.

"I love you." He smiled and he held onto my hand. I grabbed my phone and looked at it. No notifications.

I got the contact number and started texting. Hey, Can we meet somewhere? I wanna talk to you. I looked at Zig. He looked so hot. I'm lucky to have him. I sat down next to him in the same position we were in before Zig's phone went off about 10 minutes ago.

"Zig, can you please be honest with me about something?" He looked at me and nodded. "Sure. What is it?" I looked down and wondered if this conversation would turn into a fight. Deep down, I knew that Zig loves me and would do anything to make sure I'm safe and happy, but I can't help but feel like I failed the two most important guys in my life.

"Do you think I'm a horrible person for not reacting the way people wanted me to? Because I was partying and getting drunk?" He lifted my head up to look at him. "No. I don't. Maya, I was so worried about you when you did that. I've never been more terrified in my life then seeing you fall apart and not being able to help. I didn't expect that you would have done any of that, but it doesn't change my feelings for you. Cam would have wanted you to be happy and eventually move on with your life. Drinking and partying wouldn't do anything but make it worse."

I nodded. "I'm sorry for scaring you, Zig." He looked at me and grabbed my hand. "Maya, as long as you're safe and happy that's all I care about."

I smiled. "Thanks." He smiled back and we continued the movie.

About 30 minutes later the movie was over, so Zig went to sleep and I went to my own room so I could pretend to go to sleep. I still had about 30 minutes until I had to leave. It wouldn't take me long to get to Degrassi.

Zig has done so much for me: he's been there for me when Cam died, he's never abandoned me when I at my worst and darkest moment, he's never made me feel like it was wrong to grieve differently like everyone else did and he never made me feel like I was screwing everything up. Sure we were fighting that day I threw out my cello, but he got it back for me.

I couldn't believe that I was doing this as I stared at my phone, reading the text message that said to meet in the alley behind Degrassi.

I couldn't believe that I was doing this. It was 10:15 at night, which was my curfew. Zig and mom were asleep which is a good thing because I didn't want either of them to find out what I was planning. Katie was away at college, so she wouldn't know.

Zig and I were finally dating, but it's been one year ago that I found out the horrifying truth. My first love, Campbell Saunders, killed himself in the Degrassi greenhouse a few hours after he texted me, I'm not coming. Sorry. It's over. He didn't even tell me he loved me for the last time. I miss him so much, but can you really blame me? He was my first love and he always will be. If he was still alive, I don't think he would be very happy that I'm now dating Zig.

I recently found out that Zig is involved in a gang which is being lead by Tiny's older brother, Vince. Zig didn't grow up with much money so in order to make some, he started dealing drugs and stuff. He knew that he would get into trouble, but he did what he had to do to survive. Vince is the leader of the gang that Zig and Tiny are involved in. Vince is the only family that Tiny has.

I have to talk him into letting my boyfriend out of the gang because I don't want to lose him like I lost Cam. I have to try, so I decided to text him and ask where he was. I got his phone number from Zig's phone when he wasn't looking. Knowing that I could be in danger for doing this didn't matter to me as long as Zig was safe. I can't risk losing him like I lost Cam.

I walked to an alley closest to my house. While I plugged my headphones in my phone I searched for a song I could listen to. I picked "Confident" by Demi Lovato. I've always been a fan of her music.

Soon I realized I was sketchy area of the neighborhood, but didn't care. Zig's safety means everything to me. I arrived to the alley and looked around. "Maya Matlin. What do I owe this pleasure?" A voice asked to my left. I looked at him. Vince. He looks like an older Tiny, but more dangerous and deadly. He could kill me if he wanted to, but it would hurt Zig. I have to try and get him out of this. I walked toward him. "Vince," he nodded. "I need a favor." I told him, confident. I pulled out my left headphone. The right one had the controls for my phone so I kept that one in.

"Oh and what would that be?" He asked, smirking. "Let my boyfriend out of your gang." He raised an eyebrow and then laughed. "You're Zig's girl, aren't you?" I nodded. "Yes. I am. Now let him go." He looked at me, still smirking. "I'll let him go on one condition."

I raised an eyebrow, "What is the condition?" He said he would think about it and that he wouldn't tell Zig anything about this before walking away.

I walked back home, regretfully not wearing a sweater. It was cold outside. After a few minutes, I got back to the house and quietly closed the door before I went up to my room and shut the door. After I grabbed my pajamas, I changed and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. While I walked back to my room, I noticed that Zig was sound asleep. He looked so cute when he's sleeping. I shook my head and got under the covers thinking about what happened tonight.

Zig can NEVER find out what I did. He would be very angry if he knew. I did what I had to do to protect him. After I lost Cam, I couldn't risk losing Zig too because he is the reason why I got past Cam's death.