Fill for a prompt i swear up and down i was gonna let someone else do lol that never happens

mac/murdoc crack/ sole mate
i want a really fucked up au where the first words your soulmate says to you are written on the inside of your wrist, murdoc has a very common "ok im here " but it gets pretty obvious who belongs to him seeing as mac has a whole verses of home on the range tattooed up his arm , there encounter gets hella awkward

i took a more dark tone to this

also i screwed with the time line just a little

enjoy all :)

murdoc accepted pretty early, that hed never actually have a soulmate, or at the very least even if he did hed never find them , the words plastered in pretty black letters on his skin are to generic , so many have said those exact words , some right to him , some right near him , but none have ever had the words he said back to them written on their own skin

after a time that fact suited him ,he'd lost faith in the subject far after the time he should have , far after knowing his father had been his mother's soulmate , far after knowing that hadn't made her suffer less , far after she lay crumpled on the floor in a heap with blood dripping over his father's words branding her as his , red mixing with black as she still looked up at him with a love that to him had looked more like madness

His father gave him little but hate and bitterness towards the world, bitterness that leached out and manifested itself in the form of wanting to hurt others and taking great joy in it , as if he can rectify all his past sorrows on the flesh of man , and he thinks then what room is there left for love ?

So yes , he throws the notion away

then he meets a woman , she doesn't bare his mark , but he doesn't bear hers ether ,and it shows , he doesn't love her , not really , not the way a soulmate does , but she tolerates him , both his crassness and the man he must pretend to be so , no not love , but fondness blooms in his chest

She still dies

dies just as cassain is born , and as he looks into green eyes, even as he feels that fondness wither crippled in his ribs, something long and forgotten throbs to life in his chest , it flushes outward and fills his whole being , he sees the words "your beautiful" scribbled in cursive on the babes shoulder , and couldn't agree more , and thinks this , this is what it must be to love , or as close as he will ever come to it ,and cassian becomes the first thing he's loved since his mother

it does nothing to stop him from growing even more cynical, or realizing a blatant truth, that his soulmate would have to bear him, bear the brunt of him the way his mother had bore his father, bear his blood and hate and pain ,the way his mother bore his father's fist ,his crass hummer and hurtful wit , bear it all and throw it back at him like waves battering off stones and still be able to forgive him afterwards ,and that , that soul he will never find

so he gives up and ravages the world in the mean time

angus macgyver accepted pretty early that fate might hate him ,it's the first thought he'd had sitting in first grade as he learned about soulmates , as he learned what all the black marks all over his classmates meant , only to look down at his own arm ,and see not words but..

Music notes

they dance up his arm all the way to his elbow, at first hed liked them very little, "it's a whole verse!" his teacher had said as she'd gently clasped his arm "it's alright angus , its unique, its cute " he hadn't thought so at the time , it had just been one more thing to make him different , to separate him from others like his name or his brain , tho MS peters had said those were cute to

To his first grade mind they were like a vex, what good was it ? He couldn't read them , tho he wanted very much to , he could read his classmates very well , but not his own , and he'd feared he'd never be able to , feared his soulmate would walk or run by humming or singing , and he'd never know it

The prospect had had his shoulders slumping , until wilt, small and nowhere near as painfully shy , bounded over to him hand held out and sad smile plastered on his face

"I can't read mine ether"

and he'd looked at the small oh so very small scribbled writing on wilts hand , and smiled just as sadly as he'd looked back in wilts eyes and told him what it'd said , and wilt had beamed , hugged him long and hard , said "you to ! ill help you read yours to !" and he'd wrapped his arms around the other boy "thank you wilt" "call me bozer"

They'd been friends ever since

his mother dies , his father breaks , and that familiar fear tickles in the back of his head , his father stays for 2 years with his broken and jagged edges, until he to disappears , his faith in soulmates wavers all over again , but his grandfather sits him down , makes him promise not to , so he does , says he'll keep looking even as he doesn't know for sure if that's quite true , but he loves him , so he agrees to try

He learns to read music after that , learns to read it very well , so he knows the intricate notes that clime up his arm are indeed a whole verse..

A whole verse of home on the range

And even then so young he'd thought , what the actual hell ,and he'd floundered again ,he'd thought he'd never meet someone singing to him , he knows he'll never meet someone who sings that at him ! But he finds he can't betray his promises , he doesn't stop looking , but he pushes the concept to the side

when he meets penny parker he thinks , maybe he hasn't given up after all, but the first thing he says to her is stuttered and it's nowhere on her skin , but he loves her in a way and she loves him back in her own , and he thinks that's good enough , may be the best hell ever get

when he meets jack he can't stand him , when he gets to know jack he almost wished it was him, he doesn't think he's ever loved someone the way he loves jack , it's like jack is his friend , his father, and his brother all wrapped into one , jack loves him back , and jack sings ... a lot , but jack has never belted home on the range at him despite his roots , and mac knows deep in his bones , that while he loves jack deeply it is not in that way, nor does jack love him in that way ,he comes to realizes that jack is a different kind of soulmate ,and it suits them just fine

nikki gives him hope, and crushes it all at once, he wasn't hers, shed known that , they both had but she'd loved him , or said she had , and in equal measure a part of her had dug inside him and made a home in his chest , and in hind sight he'd accepted it if only to be loved after losing so much , but even he can only take in so much water before he needs to come up for air

So he accepts fate hates him ,he gives up , but he saves the world in the mean time

angus macgyver throws him off a balcony , with nothing but a wine bottle , and murdoc feels passion fill his dead and empty veins for the first time in years , and his limbs tingle with the feel of it , and he finds he wants this , wants it more than anything he's wanted in a long time

he doesn't have to separate macgyver from his little rag tag group , they do it for him , luring the boy to the junk yard from there is easy ,he knows he fanboys over the phone , can't help it he's more than impressed at this point , the boy comes running , and by the time the boy gets there he's revved up and ready to play

"I'm here" that's the first thing mac says but murdocs heard it so many times, maybe that's why even as his gut twist in some deep instinctual way , he brushes it to the side , instead he comes out from the cars he's hid behind , whistling "their song" stalking forward like a predator, until he come to face macgyver then he struts like a peacock

he tells the boy to remove any weapons , the boy removes his jacket instead ,the little moment of vulnerability has shivers going down murdocs spine, this boy , macgyver ,is more fascinating then he ever imagined, and he tells him as much , acknowledges it out of respect , and maybe something else

It will do nothing to stop him from killing him

macgyver isn't sure what to expect as he walks through the junk yard but the last thing is soft drones of home on the range to echo in the air around him, it's hardly the first time he's heard it, but it sends chills down his spine and his hair on end, his gut twist hard , finally he's had enough

"ok, I'm here !"

murdoc comes to face him , and something in him twist further , but he ignores it , he's not ready to give up just yet, which is why when murdocs done dolling out praise mac nether expected nor wants , he pulls a stunt and runs under a cover of smoke as his heart pounds

murdoc yells to him, telling him there's no one quite like him and he's exactly as advertised, that he's delighted ,and something in it has him running faster , all the while his guts still twisting

macgyver is dragging that passion from him again, so much so that even in his frustration that mac is finding new ways to elude him even on his own turf, murdoc can't be completely pissed, he's trying still to focus, but it's hard through his excitement , the chase through the junk yard as mac barley escapes him is exhilarating , he hasn't felt anything like this , hasn't felt anything period in a long time

It comes crashing down tho, right when murdoc corners him in a wall of destroyed cars, and for a moment, murdoc thinks on the irony, how fitting that the destruction of something so beautiful should take place among so many broken things, then the thought is cut off as mac smirks at him "look" he says

And murdoc does

And he's caught

the Langley, jack , comes around , a gun held to murdocs head , but he only has eyes for angus , if he's going to be beaten he'd rather make it all the way to third base so to speak , he tells the boy as much , but to his surprise he sees only empathy reflected in the eyes staring at him a hint of something sad underneath , and he knows somehow he's being vaguely forgiven his trespasses

something deep throbs in his very bones and it has his hands rising, before he can really stop himself, he's brought down to his knees ,he pays it no mind tracks the boy with his eyes instead , macgyver has now not only brought passion back into murdocs life but also did what no other has, he's survived him, confirmed the potential murdoc had seen in him along with his respect

And that's the moment he fell in love

murdoc can't keep his eyes off him, they roll over him taking in every detail , drinking the boy up like water , that's how he sees it

a sleeve caught on all those sharp edges , as macgyver tried to round a tight corner and treas terribly right passed the elbow , and murdoc sees the music notes that dance up his arm , in the same tune, same chores he whistled not moments ago , and he can't help it

He laughs

And mac looks at him, startled, and right before the Langley can snap the cuffs on him twist his hand around ,in a way that makes his own sleeve slip down easily past his wrist , past where bold black letters stand stark against pale skin

And macs breath hitches as he reads

I'm here

The shock makes it hard to see anything, but mac drags his eyes back up to meet black and murdoc is smiling, all teeth and want , and 2 people think a very different thought at once

No

Yes