Title: My Conscience is clear Chapter 26

Slash/Mature: Don't like, don't read.

Summary: Moral compass, principles, right and wrong, inner voice, conscience…whatever you call it. Gibbs isn't sure he can keep his conscience clear when someone he cares about is missing. The one thing he is sure of, his conscience is clear when it comes to a past transgression between them. Will that memory help or hinder the future.

All mistakes are mine, this has not been proofed.

Well a change in jobs kept me away for a awhile, but hopefully I'll be back on track. Enjoy

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Tony was just putting the coffee pot back when he felt the arm around his waist. Smiling he settled back against man behind him. His body was tugged gently against the older man. "Are you trying to start something again?" Tony chuckled.

"Maybe." Gibbs sighed dropping a kiss on Tony's neck.

"I'll say it again we don't have to make up for years in one day." Tony snickered.

Gibbs didn't respond just held the younger man tightly in his arms.

Tony's fingers gently brushed across the hands at his waist. "And again I'm not going anywhere." He heard the soft sigh from the man behind him.

"Still seems like a dream."

Squirming in Gibbs' arms, Tony managed to turn around and face the man he loved. "It's not a dream, I promise." That playful smirk curled onto the corner of Tony's lips. "If you were dreaming I'd have a lot less clothes on."

Gibbs chuckled.

"I can drop to my knees and suck your cock, prove I'm real."

"Oh I've had that dreams thousands of times." Gibbs sighed. "That wouldn't prove anything."

"Thousands?" Tony's eyebrow went up.

Gibbs shrugged.

"Was the dream specifically the kitchen?"

"The kitchen, the basement, the living room, the-"

"Okay I get it." Tony laughed wrapping his arms around Gibbs' neck.

"Any room will do."

"Well I have a way to make you realize this isn't a dream." Tony watched as Gibbs' eyebrow went up. "I need to call Jimmy." Tony grinned. "Bet I never said that in your dreams."

Gibbs shook his head.

"It's getting late. I need to see if he's dropping Tali off or if we need to go get her."

"Okay." Gibbs gave Tony a quick kiss on the cheek.

"And we need to tell her about all this."

"We?"

Tony's brow furrowed. "Yes we." He watched as a tender smile appeared on Gibbs' face. "What's that for?"

"Including me." Gibbs' fingers danced across the small of Tony's back. "I don't want to over step or-"

"You love her like she was yours, I couldn't ask for more." Tony saw the emotion well up in Gibbs' eyes. "And her two dads will help her become the strong, intelligent, and amazing woman she's going to grow up to be."

Trying to swallow the emotion, Gibbs nodded holding back the tears.

"But-" Tony tried to put on his best stern face. "If she runs to you every time I say no and you say yes we're going to have a problem mister." The words had the desired effect, Gibbs chuckled lightening the mood.

"Can't promise I won't mess that one up now and then, but I promise to try not to."

"I already see she looks at you with those big brown eyes and you melt."

"Yeah well."

"No yeah well." Tony balked. "We have-" The rest of the sentence went unfinished as Gibbs' captured his lips in a kiss full of love and all the deep emotions between them.

When Gibbs' lips pulled away, Tony's eyes were closed and the younger man sighed. Gibbs could tell there was a question underlying the sigh. "What?"

Tony's eyes slowly opened. "I haven't been with anyone since Tali."

Gibbs tugged Tony closer knowing exactly what he was asking. "You make time whenever you can, you learn to be quiet, and you have great friends that are willing to babysit."

Tony gave him that wide DiNozzo smile. "We definitely have that last one."

"I'm sure she'd love Uncle Nick to babysit." Gibbs smirked as Tony let out a groan.

"Seriously Nick's great, but she's already googlie eyed for the sexy bad boy."

"Sexy?" Gibbs' eyebrow went up.

Tony rolled his eyes.

"He's a good man and I think she'll get over it." Gibbs chuckled.

"Can you imagine the first boy that picks her up for a date?" Tony started laughing. "You and me standing there with the team and Senior all standing behind us."

"No the team will be positioned at the restaurant, the movie theater or anywhere else they might go."

"Oh right." Tony laughed. "Two over protective fathers, that girl is never going to date." He saw Gibbs' face suddenly soften and his eyes fill with emotion. "She loves you and you're already like a father to her."

Gibbs nodded.

"Okay before you get all emotional, I need to call Jimmy."

Rolling his eyes, Gibbs kissed Tony's forehead then stepped back.

Grabbing his phone from the coffee table, Tony made the call, two rings and he heard the voice on the other end.

Gibbs heard Tony's end of the conversation, talking about how much fun the kids had, funny moments of laughter, then a surprised face and Tony looking concerned.

"I'm not sure I'm ready for that." Tony glanced at Gibbs. "Thanks for the offer, I appreciate it." A pause. "Yeah we'll be over in about a half hour or so." He put the phone down and looked at Gibbs.

"It has to be your call." Gibbs already knew what Palmer had offered.

Tony ran his hands down his face. "Am I being an over protective father?"

"No." Gibbs shook his head and walked over kissing Tony's forehead. "That time will come."

"Thank you." Tony squeezed Gibbs' hand. "I'm just not ready for her to stay somewhere without me."

"I get it." Gibbs pulled their joins to his chest. "Let's go get her. I just need to make a stop on the way."

"A stop?" Tony's brow went up.

"You'll see." Gibbs gave Tony a wink.

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Hearing the knock at the door, Palmer made his way over and opened it without a second thought. His wide smile was already in place when he saw the two men standing there. "He guys, come in." Stepping aside, Tony and Gibbs walked in surprised to see McGee, Torres, Jack, and Bishop sitting at the table with Victoria and Tali playing a board game.

"Daddy, Gibbs." Tali jumped down from her chair and ran to Tony immediately she was scooped up in his arms.

Tony hugged her tightly and within seconds she was rambling away as she pulled out of his embrace.

"I got to hold a frog, watch the elephants get a bath, we saw lions, pandas, ravens and…" She went on and on listing the animals.

Tony listened intently nodding and smiling until she finally paused and took a breath. "Wow that sounds like an amazing day."

"Jimmy is friends with the lion tamer." She announced excitedly.

"Lion tamer." Tony looked at her confused then glanced at Jimmy.

"The lion keeper." Jimmy explained. "He let us go behind the scenes."

Tony chuckled. Jimmy seemed almost as excited as Tali. "We'll I'm glad you had fun."

"Did you and Gibbs have fun?"

"We did." Tony smiled as he forced himself not to glance over at Gibbs.

Tali however, glanced over at Gibbs then back at her dad. "Did you decide if we can live with Gibbs forever?"

"Tali." Tony's eye went wide.

The group at the table tried to hide their smiles and laughter.

Tali looked over at Gibbs.

"Yeah, you're staying forever."

Her face lit up and she reached out for Gibbs. He took her in his arms and she wrapped her arms around his neck hugging him tightly. Pulling back she gave him that wide DiNozzo smile. "When can we paint my room?"

Gibbs smirked. "Soon." He glanced over at Tony, the younger man staring at him with a shocked expression on his face. Gibbs leaned towards Tony. "They already knew."

McGee stood up and walked towards Tony. "And we're all happy for you, both of you."

The shock faded from Tony's face and he took a deep breath and blew it out. "Thanks." Tony wasn't sure who made the first move, but the two embraced.

"I missed you." McGee sighed as he hugged his friend.

"I missed you too." Drawing back, Tony looked at McGee and saw the emotion in the man's eyes. He patted McGee's cheek.

"Welcome home." As he said it an ornery grinned spread across McGee's face. "But even though I love you brother, don't think for one minute I'm not going to tease and torment you about this."

Tony smirked. "I wouldn't have it any other way."

McGee suddenly grew somber. "I wish I could have been there."

"You were right where you were supposed to be to help." Tony knew exactly what McGee meant. He had no doubt McGee had put up a fight about going to Paris with Gibbs.

McGee nodded fighting back the emotion.

Sensing the two men needed a moment, Gibbs headed towards the table with Tali. He sat down in the empty chair with her in his lap, without a word about him and Tony; the team started talking about the game. They knew when the time came more would be said, but now wasn't that time.

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Gibbs held the front door open as Tony walked in with a sleeping Tali in his arms. The little girl had fallen asleep almost the moment the car pulled away from Palmer's house. Tony made his way up the stairs as Gibbs closed the door and headed to the kitchen.

When Tony came back down the stairs, Gibbs was walking into the living room carrying two beers. Gibbs unscrewed the cap off one and handed it to Tony. Taking it, Tony took it taking a long swig from the bottle.

"Thanks." Tony felt the cold liquid hit his stomach and warm him.

Sitting down at the end of the couch, Gibbs opened the other beer and swigged half the bottle.

"How long do you think they've known?" Tony sat down in the center of the couch, one leg pulled up under him as he faced Gibbs.

"They suspected." Gibbs' hand came to rest on Tony's knee.

"Even before I left?" Tony placed his beer on the coffee table.

Gibbs nodded.

"Then you went running off to Paris to save me." Tony sighed. "It just made them realize it wasn't just a suspicion."

"And seeing us during all this…seeing me."

Tony's fingers gently caressed down Gibbs' arm and he placed his hand on top of the older man's resting on his knee. "You are sexy when you're protective."

Gibbs chuckled and entwined their fingers. "I don't think that's what they were noticing."

"Well I notice that." Sliding closer to Gibbs, Tony smiled. "And Tim was right…this is home…not just here with you, but DC, with my family."

"Yeah." Gibbs pulled their joined hands to his lips and kissed the back of Tony's hand.

Smiling, Tony tried to push away the ever present desire for the man. "So guess Tali doesn't get her surprise to night."

"It will be there when it's time."

"She's going to go crazy when she sees the paint you bought." Tony grinned. That was Gibbs stop he had to make on the way to Palmer's, the hardware store to pick up the paint for Tali's rooms.

"Tomorrow night we can show it to her, after I get home from work." Gibbs watched as Tony nodded the younger man's eyes drifting downward for a moment. "You okay?"

"It's just-" Tony shook his head. "It's going to be strange not having you here all day."

"I know." Gibbs already felt the growing anxiety at having to leave Tony gnawing at his gut. "But you'll be busy with interviews."

Groaning, Tony's head drooped forward. "Interviews."

"You'll be fine."

Tony slumped forward leaning against Gibbs. "Leon, Fornell, probably Jack in there too worried about my sanity after it all." He pulled his head up and stared into the blue eyes before him. "Not exactly my idea of a fun day."

"I'd worry if it was." Gibbs chuckled.

"Delilah and Jack are going to watch Tali."

"I heard."

"It's good for her to have them around." Tony always did the best he could for Tali, but have strong female role models is important.

"It is." Gibbs downed the rest of his beer and put the bottle on the end table. He leaned back settling deep into the couch. "Plus Bishop and Brenna, she'll have plenty of strong women in her life."

"I missed that. Having people I trust around, people I can depend on, both for me and Tali." Tony sighed.

Gibbs knew what Tony was thinking saw it written all over the younger man's face. "You know Josie would have protected Tali with her life."

"I know." Tony let the somberness set in for a moment then shook his head. "And Tim and Jimmy."

"I know they missed having you close, even though you talked."

"Yeah." Tony sighed. "It's not the same."

"Tim fought to go to Paris."

"He's Senior Field Agent, he needed to be here. That's the hard part about being your Senior Field Agent." He paused squeezing their joined hands. "Watching you run into the danger and holding the reigns back at home." He paused. "Definitely don't miss that part of the job."

"Yeah." Gibbs chuckled.

Smiling, Tony let go of Gibbs' hand and climbed onto the older man's lap straddling his hips. "But you know what the best thing is about being home?"

Gibbs stared at the younger man as his hands caressed up Tony's back.

"You. Being with the man I love."

"Part of me never wants to let you out of my sight." Gibbs hands clutched at Tony's back. "But I know that's unrealistic."

"It is." Tony placed his hands on Gibbs' chest. "But I understand and I love you even more for it." Leaning in his lips brushed against Gibbs in what he intended to be a brief kiss, but Gibbs' arms tightened around him crushing their bodies together.

Gibbs demanded more trying to express the depth of his love and devoting to the man. Words failed him so often that this seemed a better expression. Yet it still would never be enough. As he let their lips slowly part, Tony's green eyes locked on blue.

"It's going to be a long day for both of us tomorrow." Tony's hands caressed up Gibbs' chest and around his neck. "We should get some sleep."

"We should." Gibbs' fingers brushed back and forth across the small of Tony's back feeling the muscles under his fingers contract.

"I know the comfy bed would be nice-" Tony glanced down the length of the couch then back at Gibbs. "But I love this couch." He grinned. "I spent a lot of night on this couch fantasizing about you."

"After you left, I slept on this couch every night and fantasized about having you here with me."

"I want to sleep here with you." Tony started to unbutton his shirt as the steely blue eyes followed his every move. Pushing the shirt off his shoulders he let it fall to the floor then he stood up slipping off his shoes. He was just about to unbutton his jeans, when Gibbs stood up and grabbed his wrists. Gibbs placed Tony's arms back down at his sides.

Gibbs pulled his sweatshirt off over his head and dropped it to the floor with the other clothes. He sloughed off his shoes then let his fingers play with the button on Tony's jeans before popping the button free and slowly pulling the zipper down. His hands went to Tony's hips and gently tugged the jeans off the younger man's body. They pooled at Tony's feet and he stepped out of them. Gibbs allowed his eyes to skim over the younger man's naked body lingering momentarily on Tony's already hard cock before dropping his hands back down to his sides.

Tony reached out mirroring Gibbs' actions on the older man's jeans. As he was about to push them down Gibbs' hips, his wrists were gently grabbed against and stopped. Gibbs leaned in and whispered in Tony's ear. "Lay down." Waiting, Gibbs watched as Tony lay down on the couch. Slipping off his jeans, boxers, and socks, Gibbs placed his body over the younger man's staring down into the sparkling green eyes. Reaching behind the couch Gibbs grabbed the blanket and haphazardly through it over their bodies.

Tony's hand touched Gibbs' cheek, his thumb brushing over Gibbs' lips.

"Is sleep what you want?"

Tony shook his head. Sleep was the last thing he wanted. His eyes suddenly closed and his head went back as he felt the fingertips sweep up the underside of his cock. Involuntarily his legs parted already desperate for Gibbs to take him. His mouth fell open as the fingers brushed across the head of his already dripping cock then the touch disappeared. Tony's eyes opened and he was about to protest the loss of touch when he felt the fingers between his legs and they parted further.

Slipping two fingers inside Tony, Gibbs' lips fell to Tony's swallowing the moan that poured from the younger man's lips. Gibbs took his time just enjoying touching the man he loved, until Tony ripped their lips apart and stared up at him.

"Enough." Tony said breathlessly pushing at Gibbs' arm wanting more than Gibbs' fingers. He groaned as the fingers left him his hand was pushed away.

"So impatient." Gibbs sighed shaking his head.

Tony's dilated green eyes silently begged as he felt the slight movement against his body. He told himself every time that he was prepared, ready, but it always surprised him. The slight pressure, the momentary sting, and then the overwhelming warmth and pleasure that surged through his body as Gibbs' cock entered him, filled him, and connected them in ways no other lover had made Tony experience.

Gibbs' right hand latched onto the arm of the couch behind Tony's head as the entire length of his cock settled into the man he loved. The sensation was like the first time every time. His body tensed as he tried to calm the all-consuming need that engulfed him. His left hand caressed up Tony's chest to the younger man's neck as he struggled for sense of stability. Stability was such an unusual dichotomy with Tony. The man was such a stabilizing force for Gibbs in most situations, but loving the man, making love to the man was complete chaotic instability. Gibbs normal control constantly tested and failing miserably. The truth of the statement hitting him square in the chest as Tony's hands cupped his face and their eyes locked. Tony wrapped a leg around Gibbs' hip digging his heel into Gibbs' ass and driving the older man's cock deeper into him.

"Tone." The affectionate name came out as a growl as he instinctively started rocking his hips back and forth. His blue eyes stared down into lust filled green begging and pleading with the younger man to offer a sliver of stability that Gibbs so desperately wanted in this moment. The green eyes dilated further but softened in their intensity, the bond between them filling Tony with some of Gibbs usual control.

Taking a slow calming breath, Tony accepted the control, the stabilizing essence of the older man and offered it back to Gibbs. He heard and felt Gibbs take a deep breath and then gently let it out. That was that last thing Tony consciously remembered as a single being. After that they made love as one body, one mind, the tenderness more searing and devastating then the violent fierceness of the uncontrollable chaos. It was a wordless silence, the only conversation taking place between their bodies and eyes for what seemed like an eternity.

It was the change in Tony's gaze that finally made Gibbs break the silence. "Let go." The dryness of Gibbs' mouth caused the words to come out in a rough cracking sound. Gibbs watched as any sense of control faded from Tony's eyes, the green pools instantly flooded with the suppressed madness begging Gibbs to descend into the madness with him. And Gibbs gleefully followed the two of them plunging into the madness of release together.