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Chapter 4: Hitting a Wall

Naruto was walking up and down in his apartment. He was angry, restless and heartbroken. He was angry that Sasuke treated him in that way, when he knew that this was not how he felt. He was trying to deny his feelings, but the signs were so obvious that even Kiba could recognize them. On the other hand, even though he understood that, the words that Sasuke had told him hurt him a lot. No matter how angry and desperate he was to keep him away, it was still too much. It's true that Naruto might have taken it a bit too far with the teasing, but he still didn't have to put it that way. Saying that he will never be part of his personal life had really shaken Naruto. How was he going to face him after that? He started having a headache from all these thoughts and his chest felt heavy.

"This sucks…" he muttered and sat on the couch. If things were to continue this way, maybe giving up was the only option he had. After all, this was suffocating for both of them.

After calming down, Sasuke was able to finish the lessons for the day and quickly headed home. It seemed like his words had finally made Naruto understand that this was hopeless. He couldn't afford to completely destroy and lose the few important things that remained in his life. Even if it meant that he had to forget everything about Naruto. It hurt him a lot, since the idiot had managed to reach his soft spot – even if he never showed him that – but his decision was final. He had to stop this. It was the best for everyone that way.

Upon reaching his house, Sasuke noticed a fancy car parked outside. He immediately recognized it and sighed.

"Why now?" he muttered and slowly walked towards the door. Once he was inside he heard people chatting in the living room. He sighed one more time and went to greet them.

"You know, just because I gave you the keys, this doesn't mean that you can come here whenever you want. You need to let me know first." He said and sat on the couch.

"It's good to see you too, little brother. How have you been?" Itachi said calmly. Sasuke glared at him for about five seconds before he gave up.

"Marvelous." He simply said sarcastically. The blonde who was sitting next to his brother chuckled.

"How typical." Deidara said teasingly. Itachi chuckled as well and Sasuke glared at both of them.

"If you came to make fun of my shitty life then you might as well just leave." He said annoyed and stood up. He desperately needed some wine.

"Hey chill, no one is making fun of you. We only came to see how you were doing, since you had disappeared the past few months." Deidara told him, seriously this time.

"That's right. What's going on, Sasuke? You seem worse than before." Itachi asked him. Sasuke sighed and sat down.

"Everything is fucked up." He said in a low voice and took a sip from his wine. His brother stared at him with worry. Sasuke was only twenty-six years old, it was unfair how hard life was for him. He knew how bad things were for him for the past eight years, but they would always discuss their problems with each other. For him to just disappear and not talk to anyone only meant that Sasuke was really bothered by something.

"Did something happen between you and Sakura?" he asked him worried. Sasuke shook his head.

"No, it's not about Sakura… I mean it is about Sakura. It's always about Sakura…" he started saying, trying to find the words to explain how he felt. Itachi and Deidara waited for him to continue. Sasuke took another sip of wine and tried to clear his mind.

"The thing is… I started feeling things about someone and… Well, you know what happened last time. It's really bothering me…" he managed to say. He really wanted to avoid the fact that that someone was one of his students, but deep inside he knew that his brother would manage to make him say it one way or another. Itachi sighed and Deidara cursed under his breath.

"When will that bitch finally leave you alone?! What you do in your personal life has nothing to do with her anymore! You guys broke up years ago!" the blonde yelled furiously. Sasuke didn't really like Deidara and neither did he approve him as his brother's boyfriend, but he was always there for him when he was down, so he appreciated him for that.

"You know it's not that simple, Deidara. You know how unreasonable she can be. Things could get really bad for Sasuke if she finds out about this." Itachi told him. Deidara scoffed and crossed his arms.

"I know, I know… Poor Karin must be still traumatized by all that shit that happened…" he said and looked down. Sasuke cleared his throat. Maybe it was better to be completely honest with them.

"It's not just that…" he said in a low voice and avoiding eye contact with any of them. Itachi furrowed his eyebrows.

"Don't tell me…" he said, facepalming when he saw his little brother fidget in his seat and drinking the rest of the wine in one go.

"Damn it, Sasuke…" he said, sighing. Deidara looked at both of them confused.

"The hell just happened? I don't get it so spit it out." he said. Sasuke took a deep breath.

"It's a… guy… And umm… He's actually a student…" he said, looking down and scratching his head.

"Oh, for fuck's sake…" Itachi mumbled and shook his head. Deidara didn't say anything, but had that "oh, shit" kind of face.

"Whatever you might be thinking, you are right." Sasuke said, feeling both awkward and relieved at the same time.

"What are you going to do?" Itachi asked him.

"Well, at first I thought I would just ignore it, but the kid started hitting on me and in the end, I yelled at him and told him that I won't do anything with him…" he started saying.

"Ok, that's a good thing. That should make him stop." Itachi said and Deidara nodded his head in agreement.

"Uhh... I don't know about that. Because this and that happened, so he kind of knows that I have some feelings about him and I just deny them... I guess he's angry now that I told him all those things, but considering how stubborn he is, that might have also backfired. Honestly, I'm afraid to go to class next Friday." he told them. They both stared at him.

"Um... When you say this and that happened what exactly do you mean?" Deidara dared to ask. Sasuke hesitated.

"Well… You could say that he kind of kissed me out of the blue and maybe I kind of kissed him back..." he mumbled, looking at the ceiling, which happened to seem very interesting at the moment.

"Sasuke… You know that if this gets out of hand, your personal life will not be the only thing you'll have to worry about, right?" Itachi told him seriously. Sasuke sighed and nodded his head.

"I know, I know… It's just… He makes me forget all of my problems for a while with all these stupid questions he makes all the time." He said, smiling as he remembered the blond idiot's happy face. Deidara looked at the two brothers and fidgeted before speaking.

"You know… I think that Sasuke should be honest with the kid." He said a bit hesitantly. Itachi glared at him.

"Tell me one reason why this is a good idea." He told him.

"Well, expressing his feelings will actually make him feel better. If he properly explains to the boy why he can't be with him, I think he will understand. Denying his feelings and putting on an act in front of him will only pressure him even more." he explained. Itachi thought about that for a bit.

"That will only give hope to the idiot. He won't stop." Sasuke said.

"No, this actually might work. Deidara said that you should also explain the reasons why you can't be with him, not just confess. If you choose your words carefully then he won't have a choice but to give up on you." Itachi told him. Sasuke looked at his brother and his boyfriend and sighed. It's true that Naruto was actually quite smart, despite the fact that Sasuke was always calling him an idiot. He would probably understand. And even if he didn't, Sasuke didn't really have much to lose anyway. But, somehow, that didn't satisfy him. Probably because a part of him didn't want that. A part of him wanted Naruto to keep chasing him. A part of him wanted to give everything up and just be with the blond boy. Somehow, he wanted to believe that there was still a chance for him to be with the boy, without the rest of his life falling apart.

"I guess… There's nothing to lose…" he said in the end and rubbed his forehead.

A few days later Naruto had called Kiba and Hinata over to discuss about what happened and decide what he would do from then on. It was supposed to be like that, but…

"Umm… Guys? I'm truly sorry, but can we focus on me for, like, five minutes without you kissing, hugging or saying cheesy-lovey-dovey things to each other? I'm honestly happy for you guys, but this is getting annoying." Naruto said while watching his two best friends making out… Again. Hinata pushed Kiba lightly away and they both chuckled.

"Sorry, mate. You know how much I love this girl, I just can't get enough of her." Kiba said and kissed Hinata's cheek again. Naruto rolled his eyes and sighed.

"If it's so hard for you keep your hands away from her even for a second then maybe you should just take her and go to your house… Or would you rather me to leave you alone in my house?" he told him sarcastically.

"You know, that's not a bad idea. Sounds exciting, so go take a walk." he said playfully. Naruto glared at him.

"K-Kiba! Naruto called us here for a serious reason." Hinata scolded him, blushing like crazy. Naruto shook his head. He knew that everyone called him an idiot, but his friends were worse than him.

"Ughh… I don't know what to do. Why is Sasuke being like that? I know he likes me, why does he have to treat me like that?" he whined for the millionth time that evening. His friends sighed and looked at him.

"You know, Naruto, maybe he doesn't really like you that much. I mean, he could have just been swept by the moment that time and kissed you back, but after what happened this time, I'm not so sure that this can work out." Hinata honestly told him. Naruto scratched his head and pouted.

"I agree with Hinata, buddy. I think it'll be better for you if you just forget him." Kiba agreed. Naruto sighed again. After a few seconds of silence, he stood up.

"I'm going to buy some beers." he said. Kiba grinned.

"Make sure you take your time!" he told him and started kissing Hinata again. Naruto stared at them in disgust.

"You're starting to make me sick." he commented and got out. He thought about going to a bar or something, but that would be too noisy and he wasn't really up to that. In the end he decided to buy some beers and head to the park nearby.

The mini market was empty the time Naruto got in. It was already nighttime by then. He quickly went to where the beers were. He picked up a few and went to pay for them. The minute he turned around, though, he saw a familiar figure entering the store.

"Sasuke?!" he said surprised. Sasuke's eyes widened the minute he heard Naruto calling him. He quickly looked away and cursed under his breath.

"Oh, fuck…" he muttered. Naruto glared at him.

"What kind of reaction is that? I'm not exactly happy myself for meeting you here, but I don't act like that." he said annoyed. Sasuke stared at him.

"You are not happy?" he said, slightly confused. Where did the hyperactive boy that didn't leave him alone go?

"Not after all that shit that you said, no!" he exclaimed. Sasuke stared at the boy like an idiot and blinked his eyes. Then he took a deep breath.

"I suppose I said a bit too much the other day…" he admitted looking away. Naruto arched an eyebrow.

"A bit?" he said sarcastically. Sasuke sighed.

"Ok, a lot… Actually, this is a great chance. I… Uhh… Have some things I need to tell you. Things I can't say at the college so… Do you have time?" he asked him hesitantly. Naruto was completely taken aback by that. Did Sasuke Uchiha just ask him to spend time with him?

"I-umm… Yeah, sure. I've already bought all this beer, so… Shall we go to a nearby park?" he suggested. Sasuke seemed a bit hesitant and thought about it.

"A park… isn't really a good idea. My house is close by, would you mind going there?" he asked him. Naruto's eyes almost popped out of his head. What. The. Fuck.

"Sasuke… Do you have dissociative identity disorder or something?" he ended up saying, still a bit dumbfounded by what he just heard. Sasuke glared at him.

"Congratulations, you just earned a 5000word assignment on dissociative identity disorder. Are you coming or not?" he said and started walking outside of the store. Naruto groaned and quickly followed him. Three minutes later they were standing outside of a high-class apartment complex. Naruto's jaw almost dropped on the ground the minute he realized that this is where they were going.

"Umm... That's a nice place you've got here…" he said, still in awe of all the fancy furniture inside the apartment.

"Sit down." Sasuke told him strictly. Naruto shook his head a bit to return to reality and sat next to Sasuke. After two minutes of silence, he decided to speak.

"Beer?" he asked.

"Yeah." Sasuke quickly answered, exposing his restlessness. Naruto gave him a beer and took one for himself as well. Sasuke raised an eyebrow.

"Are you old enough to be drinking?" he asked him. Naruto paused and slowly turned around to stare at the older man as if he had asked the stupidest question in the world.

"Umm… Sasuke? You do know that I'm twenty-two years old right?" he told him without being able to contain his sarcasm. Sasuke looked at him surprised.

"Oh… I thought you were younger." he simply said and took a sip from his beer. Naruto rolled his eyes and scoffed.

"So… You wanted to talk about something." he started. Sasuke looked away and took a few more sips. He took a deep breath and turned to look at the blond boy.

"Yeah, it's about last time. You were right. I was lying to you. And myself. And honestly, I really like you. A lot." he told him awkwardly. This was really not his thing. It was usually the others that always confessed to him, so he had no idea how to act. Naruto was looking at him like an idiot with an open mouth. Sasuke stared at him for a few seconds.

"Still on earth, Uzumaki?" he asked him. After three seconds Naruto closed his mouth and shook his head.

"Uhh… Are you playing a prank on me or something? Is this revenge for all the times I teased you?" he asked him, unable to believe that what he just heard was true. Sasuke sighed.

"I'm not a child, Uzumaki… Unlike someone else inside this house." he told him seriously. Naruto still had a stupid look on him.

"Oh… Ok." he simply said. Actually, there were a hundred things he wanted to say at that moment. Why hadn't Sasuke been honest from the start? Why did he wait for so long? Why did he have to act so cold all the time? Why did he have to say all those mean things last time? There were so many things Naruto wanted to ask, but his body felt numb and he couldn't utter a word.

"I know this must sound very weird to you. Honestly, it's very weird for me too. I was trying so much to deny those feelings and stay away from you. That's why I said all those unfair things last time. I thought it would be much better if you just hated me and got over me. But that wouldn't be like you, am I right?" he told him, smiling sadly at the end. Naruto couldn't say a thing, so he just nodded his head. Sasuke also nodded his head in agreement and sighed.

"That's the problem, though. We can't be together, Uzumaki. It's not just that I am your teacher, there are a lot of things in my private life that you can't just get into. Everything would get completely messed up and the one who would get hurt the most would be you. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want to lose the few important things that I still manage to have. I can't let you get into this, Uzumaki. You don't deserve it. You should find someone better. You are worth so much more than me. You understand?" he asked him in the end. Naruto tried really hard to follow him, but he just couldn't comprehend the whole situation. He closed his eyes and shook his head, then turned to look at his professor.

"Umm… How are you going to lose anything by going out with me?" he asked him. It was a simple question with a simple answer. That's what Naruto thought. Sasuke sighed and looked down.

"That's something… You don't need to know. I just can't afford to take such a risk. I thought about this a lot, trust me, and I decided that some things are way more important to me than… Getting closer to you." he managed to say. Naruto could see how much Sasuke was struggling. This was really something that bothered him. He swallowed hard and nodded his head.

"I get it… It's really impossible, then?" he asked with a voice full of hope that Sasuke would reconsider. But he didn't. He just simply nodded his head and drank some beer. The sorrow was obvious in his eyes. Naruto cleared his throat.

"Ok… Ok. Still, I care about you, so… If you need anything, anything at all, you can count on me. I don't know what you are going through and why it's making your life so hard, but if there's something I can do to make you feel better, then tell me. It's the least I can do." he told him. Sasuke chuckled.

"No, I don't think that's a good idea. I think it's better if we return to a simple professor-student relationship. It would be best if we could stop seeing each other completely, but that's impossible, at least for this year, so let's just try to keep as much distance as we can." he told him in a low voice. Naruto bit his lip, trying to keep himself composed.

"Ok…" he muttered and stood up. Sasuke took a deep breath and stood up as well. Naruto turned to look at him.

"Thanks, um… For letting me know." he told him as calmly as he could. Sasuke's gaze pierced through his heart. It was the first time he could stare at him from so close. Without realizing it, he lifted his hand and took his hair away from his face, so he could look more into his deep, onyx eyes. Sasuke smiled sadly and caressed Naruto's cheek.

"Sasuke…" Naruto muttered and leaned in for a kiss. One last kiss. That's what he told himself. Sasuke, thinking about the same thing, kissed him back, sending chills through Naruto's spine. A few seconds later they pulled apart and stared into each other's eyes.

"Uzumaki…" Sasuke said in a low voice and gave him a light kiss. Naruto's cheeks were bright red and his gaze was hazy. He slowly shook his head without breaking eye contact.

"Call my name." he told him with a voice full of lust. Sasuke breathed deeply. He could feel himself losing all of his composure and control.

"Naruto." he growled and pulled the boy for a deep kiss. Naruto placed his hands around his neck and pulled him closer. His body felt hot as Sasuke's tongue battled with his and his hands were caressing his entire body. Just a little bit more. That's what they both kept telling themselves. Just a little bit more.

Soo, that was the fourth chapter! I hope you guys enjoyed it! Please leave a review and let me know what you think about the story so far! Things are finally getting started, so what is going to happen from now on? It'll be really fun to see what you guys think it's going to happen next. Thanks again for reading my story! See you again next time! :3