Authors note

This is the last thing I ever wanted to do. But I want to apologize to my readers. I will no longer be posting on . I have account on Ao3 you can find me there under the name RogueNyte22. My a Pradesh holiday is already up there I will be taking a break ob Botl. Brittanylynn2 is my co-author for that story and also has an account on ao3 ( ) her name there is brittles_06.

I will not lie to you all about why i am leaving. I was first given a negative review which is fine ppl are entitled to their own opinions. However that first neg was in no way a form of constructive criticism. I've alway believed in my own my way..if there is a story I do not like or that I am not interested in. I simply close the tab I have open and move on. I wouldn't post a neg review on someone's hard work. Because it is their hard work. They put their fears, their tears, stress, anxiety and sometimes panic attacks into their works. If there is something beta wise that I spot (misspellings, grammar..etc) I will bring it to their attention in a private pm. This person failed to give me that same courtesy. Maybe they like to disparage peoples work I don't honestly know. But I suffer from depression, anxiety and panic attacks. I have been hospitalized, put to sleep and downright drugged to keep control of my anxiety and panic attacks that have caused me to hurt myself. (running into walls, tripping down stairs..those kind of hurts.)

My depression is a different matter altogether, I have been in therapy for it, for many..many….many years. (12 years to be exact.) so when this person posted that review while it did affect me, I was able to brush it off. However when this person's friend started attacking me in reviews (A Pradesh Holiday) you may go see for yourself. She started ripping my stories, my hard work, my imagination apart. That badgering, and in no way constructive criticism not only ruined at least 2 years worth of therapy that it took for me to even have a small amount of confidence, it shook my very being. I have lost confidence and have fallen back into myself. Born of Two Lights was the first story I posted here. Desna's Light of the Sea inspired me to write the story. I was so nervous and scared, I about had a panic attack when I sent it to Desna to have posted in her Pradesh story.

I checked every hour filled with anxiety pacing back and forth in my bedroom waiting for the first review. When I saw it, I damn near fell over and cried that one person Loved it. I refreshed the page and their were more! I could not believe so many people liked my work. Everyday that there was a new review made me happier and gave me confidence to continue it. To post it on my own profile.

Fanfiction has always been my escape from reality like I am sure is the same for many others. I've always read, liked, followed, reviewed and even pm'd authors begging for more.

That's why I am so sad to be disappointing my readers. The ones who actually have been with me and brittanylynn2 since the beginning of this adventure. I want to say I am Sorry to you all the most. You don't deserve the hiatus I'll be taking because you all did nothing wrong

Fanfiction is just fiction. None of what we write is real to the public. But they are real to us in our minds and hearts. Sure the facts and things we right don't always make sense or the characters seem to always take the easy way or not have to work for it too hard but it's how we've choose to write.

I am not very good at angst or letter my characters suffer too long. I've seen fairytail like i am sure many of you have. Lucy always seem to have more potential then she was given. So I wanted her to be stronger, different and a princess to the celestial realm as she is favored by the king. Celestial beings themselves were very divulged in the show. So I created my own way. They have unknown powers and unknown potential. Could the celestial king remake a key, I don't know...they never said yes or no in the show. So I made it that if the king could make a key then why shouldn't his heir. And given that she is his heir she should be able to do what he can. How many containers can a wizard have idk. It wasn't in the show. So mine can have however many i want. It is fanfiction. The place where our imaginations can run wild and be free. It is all i ever wanted.

I rambled I am sorry, if you are still with me and reading this then thank you. I am not sure when I will be back...I need to regain and find that confidence in myself once more. I know you all will go and read the reviews that drove me away and some will want to say something to both persons. I ask that you don't. I know why give bullies sympathy, but I am a firm believer in the golden rule. Treat others onto how you want to be treated yourself, be honest and be kind. Those are mottos I live by. So please don't go bash their stories or work because I know how it feels and it sucks. No one deserves this feeling.

I thank you all from the bottom of my heart and soul for reading my work, for loving it and making me smile when I was having a bad day. I have saved every single review and every single follow and favorite in my email box in a folder. I literally go over them when I needed some inspiration and smiles. You all are the best and I want you to know everytime I wrote it was to look forward to y'alls reviews and they were always wonderful and nice. I hope you call can forgive me for stopping. I'll be around beta-ing for Brittany right now. I am trying to get back into the swing of things.

Thank you.

P.s: if/when I come back I'll be posting in Ao3 so if you are still interested please look for me there because that is where i'll post from now if should I come back.