I took this Audioslave song and changed the lyrics to suite in idea I had. This little imp muse on my shoulder won't stop whispering in my ear till I write this. It maybe a two parter. We'll see.. Sookie didn't survive the attack in the basement. Gabe had a hidden blade and mortally wounded her. Godric saves her life only to pass on maker status to Eric and meet the sun. Sookie looses her cool.

Responsible: for my life

I felt something was wrong the moment I went inside that church. It was the way I was suddenly hyperaware of everything and the way my gut churned. But I was foolish enough to think there was no ardent followers of Steve Newlin. That no one would actually try to kill me to save my soul. I mean the Spanish Inquisition was over centuries ago. Yet, I now find myself being dragged down to the basement. I thought at least I'd see where Godric was, but it seems this basement is bigger then what I thought. Once we were in the storage part of the basement Gabe backhands me, hard. I fell onto my side as I taste blood in my mouth. I must of cut my cheek on my teeth from the force of Gabe's hit. I was really afraid of what he might do. Rape crossed my mind obliviously.

The way Gabe stalked across the room at me, I felt like that had to be it. I tried to push away from him with my feet, but the damn shoes slid on the floor. Gabe pushed me down onto my back as I started to scream. Or, at least I thought I was. At this point my thoughts were on my unfinished life and how it was going to be ruined. How could I live with the shame?

However, I blanked out when I saw Gabe pull out a blade. It had crosses and engravings. It had to be a consecrated blade. Gabe started to say these words like he was preforming a ritual. I heard clips of words along the lines of to save my mortal soul. While I kept flashing in and out of my life flashing before my eyes. Gabe was sitting on my waist and I couldn't move. All I could to was scream for help. Tears ran down my face and from my eyes, I knew this was it. Where was Bill? Where was Eric? Hell where was my brother? I was alone.

Then there was a sharp pain and numbness after. My vision started to fade as I thought I heard a roar and a man scream for mercy. My head wouldn't move when I told it too. I was cold and I felt like I was leaving slowly. I barely felt strong arms lift me slightly into their embrace. I mumbled, "Bill? Eric? Who is it? I'm cold."

"I know little one. I am Godric. I am sorry I was late. The bars where sliver that they held me in. I can still save you. If you wish it." The voice named Godric, Eric's maker, said to me.

My eyebrows knit together confused. Thinking was so hard now. I didn't know what he asked, but I knew what I wanted and said, "I don't want to die don't here. Please promised me I won't die down here?"

I started to fade as I heard Godric say, "I promise you little one. My child."

I woke up in strong arms in a damp place that smelt like earth. I felt the owner of the strong arms pull us out of what I now believe is dirt. Someone tried to bury me. Did Godric think I died? Is he fixing his mistake? I feel fine so surely I can't be dead. Even though I don't know what being dead feels like. It has to be very different. I keep my eyes closed tight even though I am now standing while in the arms of the one who saved me. I think if I don't look then I don't have to face any of this.

I can smell an ancient forest and water, maybe peat moss, as I bury my face into the neck of my savior. He smelt like those things, something powerful and old. Like he was full of magic. I used to think elves would smell like that when I was a child. I heard his voice smooth and full of age from a young voice without a clear accent say to me, "I need you to open your eyes my child. Do not be afraid to look upon the world. Nothing shall harm you I swear it."

I opened my eyes to see a pale neck and a bare chest with a tribal tattoo around the collar bone in black ink in the form similar to lined up daggers, or knives, or swords maybe. In my head the thoughts like instinct said Godric, maker, my master, my father. I could sense it had to be night or else Godric wouldn't be here holding me. I felt the urge to nuzzle into his neck as I said in a coo, "Godric."

I felt what I thought was a foreign emotion, that was not my own, that couldn't name yet. I felt Godric embrace me tightly as I curled my form into him seeking comfort. I heard say as he hummed and lulled me into a sleepy daze, "Yes my child. I'm here. No one shall harm you. You are safe now."

I felt the love I never got from anyone except my grandma. Except this feeling was intense I felt both a family oriented love and a sort of passionate love that you feel for a boyfriend or lover. I didn't think I could feel two different feelings for one person. I look up at Godric who met my gaze. His eyes were so full of love for me. So warm and kind and felt like I'd be consumed by his gaze. I stretched up and kissed Godric fully on the lips. He did not deny my affection and cupped my cheek and took a deep breath as he kissed me like a lover would. As we broke the kiss I heard Eric, who I didn't know was there, say, "I am jealous of your luck master. To have a child to naturally act like lover. I wish could have been so lucky."

I jumped in surprise and hissed bearing fangs I didn't know I had. At that everything came crashing down into my fragile mind. I started to cry and buried my face into Godric's chest and neck. I heard Godric say, "Yes you were dying. I wanted to save you. You are now my child."

"A vampire." I said as I understood that the weight of his words. I am dead. I am a vampire. I heard Eric apologize for scaring me. Godric says to me as he lifts my chin to get me to meet his gaze, "We need to get back to the nest so I can feed you."

"Godric there was an attack on your nest while you were with Sookie. Everyone that survived is at the hotel. That is why I am here. I knew you would want to know." Eric interrupted as I look up at Godric wondering what he will do. I felt concern and heard Godric say, "How many losses?"

Eric's became expressionless and his body all 6.4 of him became tense. I found myself interested in the subtle changes in Godric's and Eric's body and face. I never noticed these changes as a human when I was alive. Then a thought crossed my mind and I was overcome with disappear. In my mind the fantasy of marriage, pregnancy, and babies just shatters. I realize my old life is over. I am dead.

Godric looks down at me concerned and says, "What distresses you my little one?"

"I am Dead. I can never get pregnant and have babies of my own." I say as blood tears run down my face. I see the concerned expression exchanged between Godric and Eric. Godric nods to Eric and rubs my back as he holds me close. Eric comes up to me and say solemnly, "Sister, Sookie I am so sorry that I didn't find you in time. I failed you."

I look at Eric as he looks at the floor ashamed. Yes, he promised me, but I was not mad at him. I say as I am still crying, "I wish Newlin comes to understand what it is like to be a vampire. The only way to truly understand is to become one. It is his fault I died. I don't blame Godric or you Eric."

Godric says, "We need to go to the hotel. I feel that we slept too long, dawn is coming in a few hours."

"Yes, you both overslept. We need to leave." Eric says as he flies up into the air and towards the hotel. Godric pulls me flush against his body and wipes my tears. He kisses me lovingly and then says, "Hold on my little one we will be flying to the hotel."

"Flying? I hate flying. Please don't tell me I'll fly too." I say in a panic as I bury my face into his neck.

Godric laughs and says, "Precious little one of my blood, you will lose the fear when you fly at your first Centennial."

I screamed as Godric shot up into the sky. I had a death grip around his neck and I heard him laugh. That was the longest most terrifying experience of my dead life. I heard Godric say, "I can help you forget about your fear." I felt him grasp my hips and started to move his hips against me. Normally I should feel embarrassed, but I just didn't care. I died, why worry about vanity. I never noticed we touched down. All I knew was he had me in the hall of the roof out of sight as he kissed my neck says, "How do you feel now?"

"I want you." I said forgetting about everything else.

Godric looks at me and asks me, "Are you afraid of flying with me now precious one?"

It hit me then. It was underhanded really. He used sex to distract me. Now I was angry at him for tricking me. I grumbled in irritation at his trickery and crossed my arms. Godric took by my shoulders and turned me to look at him. I turned my head away. Godric leaned closer to me and says with his unique accent thick and his voice low and smooth like something sexy and sinful, "Are you, really, mad at me for tricking you? Or, are you mad, because I stopped?"

I felt embarrassed and I would have blushed, if I could. Instead I pointed out a revelation and says, "You taught Eric to be this flirtatious?"

"I taught Eric many things. You would be amazed at what I could teach you." Godric says as he stroked my cheek with the back of his index finger. Godric's face became more serious as though he remembered something. Godric looks down at me and says, "We need to retire to our room so I can feed you."

"I was staying with Bill." I pointed out.

"I cannot let you out of my sight. It is against my nature. You are of my blood. Younglings are emotional and wild. We don't even know how others will receive you. I don't know Bill, but vampires that were lovers to a former human can rarely accept the new vampire if they did not make them. If he survived, he may see you as a threat. My blood is stronger, therefore you are stronger. Now my precious one, come with me. Eric is waiting to give us our key."

I walked with Godric down the rest of the stairs and through the steel doors into the hallway where Eric and a hotel manager waited. The Manager says to us as he bows his head in respect, "Ah Mr. Bas of Rominus line Welcome Sheriff of section 9 to the Hotel Camilla. I hope you and your guests enjoy our hospitality. Mr. Northman has your key to the penthouse suite. If you'll excuse me I must return to the front desk. Call if you need anything. Good morning."

Godric looks to Eric who hands him our key cards. Godric puts his hand on the small of my back and guides me down the hall following Eric who is escorting us to our room. I couldn't hear anything except our sounds of walking, which I guess means the rooms are sound proof on this floor. Eric stops at a set of black double doors and says, "Here is your suite Master. They insisted on putting you on this floor. I had my room changed so I am now down the hall from you. I already have your things Sookie waiting inside for you. Everything as been arranged for Master."

"Good, I have much to do before dawn. I will see you tonight Eric." Godric says as Eric nods and leaves down the hall. Godric opens the door and leads me inside as he closes it behind himself. I look around this room is much bigger then my old room in this hotel. Godric takes my hand and says as he walks down the small hall, "We need to bathe ourselves."

I stop and say embarrassed, "We can't bathe together. It's not proper."

Godric stops not letting go of my hand. He turns around and stops mere inches from me and takes my chin in his free hand and lifts it so I have to look into his eyes. He lightly chastises me saying, "As maker and child, there is no space between us, my precious one." I swallowed hard a little scared and let him lead me to the bathroom. Godric opened the bathroom and gently pushed me inside as he closes the door behind him. Godric looks at me and said, "I already seen your body. You never noticed you're wearing a sheer black thigh length dress and not the bloodstained sundress. I thought you wouldn't want to remember what happened. I also put your hair into a bun. But since you didn't notice I must be in shock still. I will run the bath you undress."

"But?" I tried to protest as I finally took my state of dress.

"Undress my child." Godric says as turns on the water on the large black spa bathtub. I gave up and tried to reach the zipper but couldn't reach it. I groan in frustration and say, "I can't. Godric."

Godric turns his head and sees my struggling and gave a small smirk. He stand up and walks over to me. He moves my hands out of his way and slowly unzipped the black dress. I could feel him so close to me. I could feel his breath on my neck. I felt his hands on my back as he glides of to my shoulders and smooths the dress off my body. The with two fingers on his right hand he undoes my bra. Which was not the one I remember wearing but fit me better then my old one. I look at him as he gives me that smirk again. It reminds me of Eric. I slide off my bra and panties and then reach down to slide off my flat shoes that are now ruined by all the dirt. I notice my skin is dirty. I must look like hell. I use one arm to cradle and cover my breast and the other to cover my privates as I stand there too embarrassed to move.

Godric had his back to me as he undid his black leather belt. He wore thick black working pants the kind that don't get dirty easy. He obliviously thought this out. Around his hips was more knot work tattoos that look like Celtic knots. They seem to wrap around his hips and go down to mid thigh. My God did he have nice ass. I shouldn't look but I couldn't stop myself. As the pants pooled on the floor I saw more of the same daggers and knots on his calves below his knees. As he turned I closed my eyes for modesty sake. I hear Godric say, "Look at me. Look at your maker Sookie."

I opened my eyes and my mouth ran dry. He was breath taking and big in a certain place. He turned and shut off the water and walks to me. He moves my hands with little effort and says, "There is no hiding from me. You are beautiful."

I thought being in the bath with Godric would be weird, but it was not. He washed me like a parent would a small child. He didn't make any advances and I thought he would because Bill did. But I was wrong. To him a bath is just a bath. I admit the touches and caress was hard not to be aroused by. I know I felt his hardness, but he did not pursue it. I found another treat that I got to see him wash. It still felt wrong as I couldn't shake the human part of who I am.

Later we sat on our bed. I understood what he meant now. He would be with me at all times for awhile at least. Godric says to me as he holds my hand, "I will be with you at all times for the first three Centennials of your life unless it becomes clear your views are violent. For your first Centennial you will feed solely from me. This way you will learn control. I will introduce feeding on human but you will only see that once or twice in your first Centennial. Now I need you to bite me. I will compel you to stop when you have had enough."

I look down at my towel wrapped around my body and say in a shy voice, "But won't that lead to sex? I heard baby vamps get turned on easily."

"Yes it would. It is unavoidable." Godric says as he rubs my hand absentmindedly.

"But, I don't know you that well." I say surely blushing now.

Godric bites his lip and breaks out into a smile and a little chuckle. Godric says then, "We were just making out earlier. I know your attracted to me. Just trust me to take care of you."

I lean into Godric and sniff at his neck. Godric rubs my arms to reassure me. I kiss his neck and I can taste the power in his very skin. I take an unneeded breath and bite into him. The power and magic in his blood hits my tongue. I moan in ecstasy as I start drinking in fever. I move to sit on his lap never breaking the hold. He holds onto my hips. My hips starts moving on their own as I feel this near painful ache in-between my legs. Godric grows hard under me. I hear Godric say in a low gravelly voice, "As you maker I command you to stop."

I felt the overwhelming urge of compliance within me as I released his neck. I licked his neck as it healed and whined. The ache was still there as I reached down and started to rub Godric. He growled and says, "I know it hurts so much. The ache, I can fix that for you." Godric flips me over onto the bed we were laying on. Godric then says, "Let go. Sookie."