A/N: I'm really sorry for how long it's taken me to upload this chapter, I hope this chapter somewhat makes up for it. I start university in under two weeks so if I don't update in a while, it's down to that! Anyway, I hope you enjoy and like always, feedback is always welcome.

Chapter 5

Waiting for Callie to open the door, Arizona stuffed her hands into her jean pockets. Yet again, she was nervous but the nerves had simmered down a little, mainly due to the fact this was their second date and the apprehension of them going on their first date had passed. The date she had planned felt like a trip down memory lane, though it wouldn't be quite similar to the one she had always remembered.

The door opening caused Arizona to look up, a bright smile on her face. "Hey you!" She said cheerfully, moving a little closer to Callie as she leaned in, kissing her cheek. "You look gorgeous, as always."

Callie blushed slightly, something which always seemed to happen whenever Arizona complemented her.

"So do you." Callie smiled, taking Arizona's appearance in. As the years had passed Callie had seen Arizona's style change slightly but she never tired of seeing the blonde wearing a blazer; it made her look powerful yet so hot. Arizona was equally pleased to see Callie in that leather jacket again.

"Are you ready to go?" Arizona asked to which Callie responded with a nod before stepping out of the door, closing and locking it behind her.

Arizona moved her arm out so Callie could wrap her own around it. "I'm driving tonight, it'll be quicker than walking." She told the brunette as they approached the red car. Opening the door to the passenger side, Arizona allowed Callie to climb in then walked round to the drivers side, following suit.

The two didn't sit in silence for long before conversation started to flow naturally between them. "How was work?" Callie questioned, turning her head to glance over at Arizona who was concentrating on the road ahead of her.

"It was good, a little overwhelming but I'll get over that." The blonde chuckled. "I performed a c-section so that was a good one to go into my first day with."

"I'm glad," Callie gave Arizona a soft smile. "And what about New York? Are you getting used to it?"

"I'm not gonna lie, I do miss Seattle but this is going to be my new home and that's okay with me." Arizona replied truthfully, earning another smile from the brunette as she placed her hand on top of the blonde's thigh, squeezing lightly.

The warmth from Callie's hand radiated onto Arizona's thigh, but her hand being so close to the blonde's core sent shivers through her. This had been the first time in quite some time she had been touched in this way, even if it was just a hand on her leg by Callie, it still caused Arizona to feel something. For Callie, it felt natural to do and she didn't even think, she had always done it in the past and it felt like no time had passed between them.

It wasn't surprising that as soon as Arizona had arrived in New York, things felt natural between the two of them. Yes, there was regret; regret from Callie for leaving Seattle to be with Penny and regret from Arizona for not telling Callie how she truly felt. Having said that, conversation flowed naturally and the spark they had always felt was still present.

Arizona could no longer ignore the pure chemistry she felt when she was around Callie, it had already been hard enough to do so. She had always been drawn towards Callie and never been able to put up enough self resolve to stop the forces from drawing her in. Even when they had been on breaks, her mind would never stop thinking about her and seeing her in the corridor only made it worse. She had always wanted Callie, the one time they were in the elevator together alone and in moments Callie had been pushed up against the steel wall with Arizona's soft lips against her own had proved that.

"I felt exactly the same after I had left Seattle." Callie admitted with a small sigh. "Some days I still miss it. I mean, Seattle was a huge part of my life and career, it's the place I'll always think of as shaping the person I am."

Arizona nodded her head in understanding. "I get it. I'm not entirely sure if it did that with me though." She shrugged in response.

"Wrong, it did." Callie was adamant. From what she knew Arizona was a totally different person before she arrived in Seattle.

The blonde frowned, turning her head to look at Callie for a moment. "How so?"

"Well, from what I know you were a little.. Promiscuous before then but then you met me and the rest speaks for itself." Callie stated playfully, squeezing Arizona's thigh lightly in the process.

Arizona laughed lightly, shaking her head. "And what makes you think you played a part in changing me?"

"Oh, come on," Callie chuckled as she rested her head against the head rest of the seat. "you couldn't bare to be without me or be with anyone else." The brunette smirked as she eyed Arizona. "On a serious note, you didn't run when I told you I was pregnant, you asked me to marry you.. They prove how much you changed."

"It looks like I can't argue with that." Arizona smiled as she pulled into a car park, a car park that seemed dead to say the least which was brought to Callie's attention instantly.

Looking around the area, Callie was questioning what the night was going to hold. All she could see around her was trees, trees and more trees as well hearing a stream of water in the distance.

"Where are we?" Callie quizzed tentatively, this wasn't what she was expecting when the word date sprang to her mind.

Arizona could see the apprehension on Callie's face, it was rather amusing. "This is where we're having our date, don't worry it's not as bad as it may look." She reassured, opening the door and climbing out of the car thereafter. Walking round to the passengers side, she opened the door and allowed Callie to also climb out.

Shutting the door behind Callie, Arizona walked over to the boot as she opened it and pulled out a blanket along with food. Moving back over to where Callie was waiting, she laced her free fingers through the brunette's as they began to walk towards their not so far destination.

"We're in a woods, right?" Callie asked, although she knew the answer was more than likely yes.

"You'd be correct in thinking that but it's not your average creepy woods like you'd expect, I did some research." Arizona replied confidently with a slight smirk on her face.

Callie raised her eyebrows, uncertain if that was actually the case as they walked further, the cracking of twigs could be heard beneath their feet. "Yeah, they'll probably be some psycho hiding behind some trees ready to murder us, I've seen episodes of Criminal Minds you know." She said as no signs of joking was evident from her which only caused Arizona laugh.

"Tell me, how is this any different from when you took me to Derek's trailer for a night?"

Callie narrowed her eyebrows, ready with her comeback. "That was totally different. For a starter, we were literally in a trailer which made it harder for us to be hunted down."

Arizona shook her head in disagreement. "Yeah, it was still in the middle of nowhere."

"Maybe so, but you didn't seem to mind when I was making you scream my name inside the said trailer." Callie replied, her voice more seductive and lower than previously.

"Callie!" Arizona blushed through a laugh. Callie wasn't wrong, the particular Valentine's night in question was a particularly noisy one, especially when it came to Arizona but she was never going to apologise for it, it was that good.

The pair continued to walk for a little while until they arrived in an area which Arizona deemed adequate. Placing the items she had brought with them down, she laid the blanket out on the floor and sat down on it, tapping the space next to her for Callie to take.

Ahead of them was a small waterfall with no trees obstructing their view but there was the odd brightly coloured flowers. Callie looked around the area, taking her surroundings in carefully; it wasn't as bad as she had first anticipated. It was tranquil and a place to relax, something which had to do with the fact they were far from the hustle and bustle of the main city area. The calming sound of the waterfall made the area even more serene. She didn't even know this particular woods existed but she was so glad Arizona did. Something told her that as a whole, the night was going to be a good one.

Callie sat down beside Arizona, her legs stretched out in front of her as she leaned back on her hands. "Okay.." Callie started, a sheepish expression on her face as she turned to face Arizona. "It's actually nicer here than I expected it to be."

"See!" Arizona exclaimed at Callie's admission. "I told you." She shrugged, loving the fact she was right as a smug grin appeared on her face.

Looking around, Arizona really did think she could get used to this. The calmness and serenity of the area. Being here with Callie. She envisaged coming here again in the near future but also with Sofia, the three of them there as a family again.

"I brought some food and wine for you, if you want some." Arizona added as she retrieved some of the food she had brought along with the wine.

Callie watched Arizona and she couldn't help but feel a flutter in the depths of her stomach. Arizona had always seemed to have that affect on the brunette, she made Callie feel more than anyone else had ever made her feel.

"You've done good with this date." Callie smiled as she reached for a strawberry and moved it towards Arizona's mouth as she opened her mouth and bit down on the sweet, red fruit.

Arizona smiled at Callie's words, her blue eyes shinning under the sun as it began to set. "If I'm being honest I haven't organised a date like this in a long time." She shrugged, picking a strawberry up herself as she copied Callie's previous movements.

"Really?" The brunette frowned before biting into the fruit.

Arizona nodded in confirmation. "Eliza and I and Carina and I never really went on these kind of dates. My relationships with them were nothing like the one I had with you, so maybe I was just longing for someone to come into my life who I actually loved to take on a date like this." She chuckled.

"It's a good thing I waltzed back into your life then, isn't it?" Callie replied playfully which resulted in a shake of the head and a laugh to emit from the blonde.

"When you think about it, you never really left my life." Her voice was serious as she replied to Callie.

Given everything Callie already knew and the fact the two of them had to stay in touch for the sake of Sofia, Callie really did never leave Arizona's life. "I guess you're right there."

Moving her hand to her pocket, Arizona pulled out a white envelope which had the letter she had written inside. She was apprehensive about giving it to Callie, when she thought about it she didn't even need to write it but half of her wanted to get it all out and the other half wanted to let Callie know how she really felt which she believed what she had wrote did just that.

"So," Arizona started as she fidgeted with the corners of the envelope. "I wrote you something and I know it might come across as a bit corny but I needed to do it for myself as well as for you." She smiled as she handed the pure white envelope over to Callie who looked at the blonde in confusion.

Without a reply, Callie decided to open it straight away as curiosity about what the blonde had wrote took over. Opening out the piece of paper, Callie smiled as her eyes were met with the cursive writing which belonged to Arizona.

Dear Calliope,

I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this, in fact I'll probably only just end up embarrassing myself when you read this, but I needed to get some things off my chest as well as say some thing to you. This letter doesn't have the purpose to make you feel bad, it holds the purpose of letting me tell you how much I loved you, how much I still do love you. There'll more than likely be things written in this that I haven't told anyone, except for you now.

I'm not 100% sure where to start but, I'm guessing from the beginning of our story would be a good place to start. I remember the day I first saw you as if it was yesterday. You were on the peds floor talking to one of the nurses at the nurses station and the minute I walked down the corridor and spotted you in my peripheral vision, I had to do a double take. In those light blue resident scrubs and the white lab coat, God, Calliope, you looked amazing. Sometimes I heard hospital chatter, I didn't want to get involved too much because I was only new, but the way people spoke good of you only made me more intrigued. Walking into the Joe's Bar that night a few nights later, my heart fluttered when I saw you sat at the bar wearing that leather jacket that I grew to love. It may sound a little creepy, but I couldn't take my eyes off you that night. I wanted to speak to you, I wanted to walk up to you and kiss you actually but that would have been more creepy without a proper introduction.. So I waited. I waited until you left the bar for the bathroom, feeling as though that would be the best place to speak to you. I'm sure you thought I was weird, hell, I would've thought I was weird too but as soon as I kissed you in that dirty bathroom, I knew. I knew I was going to fall for you. And I did.

I remember the first time I nearly told you that I loved you, it was after your dad had visited. When I walked into the on call room and saw you crying, I knew I had to hold you. That's when I almost said those three words but it didn't feel right under the circumstances, you were sad and I didn't want you to think I was just saying it to make you feel better without actually meaning it, so I waited. The days leading up to me telling you I loved you made me realise how lucky I was to have you in my life and on my side. You were there for me, you cared enough to throw a surprise birthday party for me, even when I came back home after leaving, you still tried your best to make me feel happy.. I couldn't hold the words back any longer.

I know so far this letter sounds completely soppy, but it feels good to talk about it.

I had never imagined myself falling in love with someone as much as I fell in love with you, it was a shock to myself when I asked you to marry me. The only regret I have about that was the place I asked you.. Getting into a car crash straight after wasn't the most romantic way I could have asked you even though that wasn't part of my plan. That time of my life was a whirlwind, we had no idea if you were going to live or survive, if Sofia was going to live or survive and I blamed myself because well, it kind of was my fault. Mark and I found ourselves praying for you. During the time you were in hospital I had too many sleepless nights but I didn't want to leave you and then you wake up when I wasn't there. I don't know if you could feel my presence, hear me talking to you but I liked to believe you did. I couldn't wait for you to wake up and meet our baby. When you did wake up, I was relieved but never in a million years did I imagine you would accept my proposal, especially when none of us knew if you would even remember us. Nevertheless, I couldn't wait to be your wife.

While there was the good times, there was also the bad. It would be wrong to say that there wasn't times where we didn't hurt each other.

My life was perfect leading up to the plane crash. I was insanely happy. I had you and I had Sofia. Everything was amazing and then the plane crash turned my whole world upside down. I have no idea what you were thinking, but when I was missing in those woods, the only thing that got me through each day was you and Sofia. I tried to give the same courage to Mark but it wasn't as easy for him, he had lost Lexie. I imagined all the things we would do together when I got back home but never did I imagine that I would come out of the plane crash needing my leg amputated. Losing a leg made me lose all the confidence I once had. It made me feel bitter. During that time I didn't acknowledge that you were hurting too. I felt as though you had betrayed me, I believed you had cut my leg off and I was holding a grudge. When Alex told me it was him that amputated my leg, things changed in my mind. I wish I had known long before because maybe if I didn't blame you, things could have been different but I also understand you wanted me to have Alex to talk to, and I'm grateful for that.

I suffered more than I cared to admit to anyone after losing my leg. Looking back, maybe I needed some help. You helped me, though. The nightmares I had were worse than awful, it was as if I was back there when I had them but when you woke up with me during the middle of the night, held me close and told me I was okay, you made me feel instantly safe. For that, I can't thank you enough.

One thing I regret the most during that time was sleeping with someone else. I can't even imagine how much it hurt you. There is no explanation that will make it feel any better for you and I know it's in the past, but I'm still truly sorry and I regret it every single day.

When we had the '30 day break', the night we slept together before the last day was something I'll never forget. I had missed you more than anything and to feel you so close to me once again was the best thing to happen in those 30 days. The next day when we went to therapy, I couldn't comprehend why you were ending it. It hurt and I never truly got over it, whenever I saw you at the hospital all I wanted to do was run up to you and kiss you but I knew I couldn't. At night I felt lonely and when the odd nightmare about the plane crash hit, I had to learn how to soothe myself when you weren't there. In hindsight, our separation was something that we both needed. I grew more than I could have imagined and learned more than I thought I would, but that didn't mean I ever fell out of love with you. I didn't.

The first time I found out you were seeing someone new, I got that feeling you get when you hear or see something you didn't want to. All of this probably sounds selfish, I know, but while I was sad, deep down I was happy that you had found someone you liked. Knowing you had found someone only told me that it was time for me to move on and find my own happiness. It was hard to dip my toes into the dating pool at first, it had been some time and I'd almost forgotten how to flirt with women that weren't you. I needed help, I even asked April if she would like to go to a trivia night at a lesbian bar with me, ha! As you probably knew, Richard then appointed himself as my official wing man and he was great at it, there was some girls I liked but not enough to make me want to spend some more time with them so in the end, I gave up a little. I was happy for you, though.

I don't want to go too much into detail about the custody battle we went through, but in the end it felt only right of me to let you leave Seattle for New York with Sofia, to let you spend time with the person you were in love with. I couldn't allow myself to be the person who kept you in Seattle, sad and unhappy. You happiness meant too much to me.

I'm not sure if it's fate that made me buy those plane tickets for you and to bring Nicole back into my life which would result with me moving to New York, but if it is I'm so glad fate exists because I wouldn't want to be anywhere other than here with you right now.

Arizona, xx

Placing the letter down on the ground, Arizona waited for Callie to say something, mainly due to the fact she had no idea what to say herself. After reading the letter, Callie felt a little overwhelmed, she knew Arizona loved her but she never truly knew the extent of how much the fetal surgeon loved her until she had read the letter. She was glad that Arizona had wrote it, it gave her a little insight to some part of their lives from Arizona's perspective that she didn't know about beforehand.

Shuffling closer to Arizona, Callie placed an arm around her waist. "Thank you." She gave Arizona a warm smile which was reciprocated.

"Honestly, you don't need to thank me." Arizona added, turning to face Callie slightly.

"For the record, I wouldn't want to be anywhere other than here with you right now." Callie looked into the bright blue eyes that were looking back at her, an honest smile on her face.

In that moment, everything felt right. The moment she had been waiting for hit her as she moved her hand to Callie's leather jacket, gripping onto it slightly as she began to lean in. Callie's breath hitched in her throat as she realised what Arizona was about to do. Pairs of brown and blue eyes met momentarily, their surroundings completely forgotten about; the only thing the two of them could hear was their respective breathing. Arizona couldn't wait any longer as she closed the gap between them, her soft lips meeting Callie's plump lips as she began to kiss her slowly. As soon as Arizona began to kiss her, it felt like no time had passed since they had last kissed. It felt right for both of them as those familiar sparks they had both previously experienced in one another's company began to ignite in their stomachs as their eyes both fell shut.

Reacting to the kiss, Callie moved her hand to side of Arizona's face as she pulled her in more, deepening the kiss which Arizona gratefully accepted, her hand moving to the back of Callie's neck. Neither women wanted to stop the kiss they were sharing, they had missed the way they felt when in each other's presence, they wanted it to continue for just that bit longer. Arizona could taste the sweetness of strawberries that Callie had been eating on her lips, making kissing her just that bit more enjoyable, but kissing Callie had always been enjoyable.

Callie had missed kissing the blonde, kissing her was different to kissing any other person. It made her feel safe and loved and not only that, Arizona was a really good kisser. Pulling away slightly for some air, it wasn't long before Callie's lips were back on Arizona's. She was addicted to her soft lips, the feel of smooth skin beneath her hand and the sparks which were flying inside of her.

Unfortunately for the two surgeon's, oxygen became a necessity causing the two of them to pull apart. They could still taste each other on their lips, a nice reminder of what had just happened as wide smiles covered each of their faces.

"I missed that." Callie said, licking her lips slightly before looking at Arizona, her eyes having darkened slightly due to their kiss.

Arizona grinned, her cheeks almost aching from grinning so much. "I missed that too and more." She winked slightly causing Callie to chuckle.

"Well, I hope they'll be that and more to come soon." The brunette replied teasingly.

Leaning forward slightly again, Arizona gave Callie a lingering kiss. "Don't worry," she mumbled against the ortho surgeon's lips in between kisses. "They'll be much more of that to come." She grinned, kissing her again as she smiled into the kiss.

Kissing her back, Callie smiled into the liplock which only caused butterflies in Arizona's stomach when she felt the other woman smile. She wanted to steal as many kisses from Callie as she could tonight and she was sure Callie wouldn't mind that either.