Chapter 1

My name is Johnathan Frost, but I prefer to be called John. I used to be a kid who believed that he had the greatest family in the world and that nothing could break them apart my dad Andrew, my mom Jane and my little sister Milly who had red hair just like mom. My life was great, I got good grades in school, had plenty of friends, but because of this I was bullied a lot. My dad who used to be mixed martial artist before becoming a sergeant for the Chicago police department offered to train me. It was hell at first, but all the hard work paid off, because through out elementary school no bully would dare mess with me, I was one tough eleven year old.

But as I began to enter my teenage years I began to notice that my parents weren't interacting with each other like they usually did. When I turned 13 I noticed that my parents were becoming distant it was like they didn't even love each other anymore, and when they did interact they would always fight and yell at each other. Milly who was only eight years old at the time and she would just cry and ask me if mommy and daddy still loved each other, it broke my heart to see Milly cry like that. I would just tell her that things were going to be alright, even when I didn't know myself. Dad was still trying to maintain his relationship with mom, he brought her flowers, offered to take her to a fancy restaurant, take her to the movies or just spent time with her, but she would always turn him down.

One week after my fourteenth birthday I found out why dad was struggling with mom. When I was hanging out with a friend I saw something that I didn't want to see. My mom was kissing some blonde woman. I was beyond shocked, then it all made sense now, why she was distancing herself from dad and turning down his advances on her. She was cheating, and to add salt to the wound she was cheating with a woman, I was furious on the inside, how could mom do this to dad, to me and to Milly. the following night I confronted my mom about it, I remember that night, how I tore into her about.

(Flashback)

John was waiting for his mom to show up, Milly was already asleep in her room and his dad was working late, he was a cop and at times he works all night. He saw his mom walk through the door and close it quietly thinking her kids were already asleep. The redheaded woman turned around and saw her son John standing in the living room, causing her to jump in surprise.

"Oh honey you scared me, I thought you were in bed, what are you still doing up?" Jane asked her son. "Where were you today mom?" John asked his mother ignoring her question entirely.

"Oh I was just hanging out with a couple of friends from work." said Jane.

"Oh so you around more than one person today" asked John sarcastically not buying her story. "So tell me mom how many friends do you have and is one of them really special to you?"

"Um sweet heart what's with all the questions?" she asked feeling a little uncomfortable with the way her son was staring at her while asking her all these questions.

"How long has it been going on?" asked John his voice losing the sarcasm and becoming serious.

"Honey I-I don't know what your- John then pulled out his iPhone 6 and showed his mother the photo of her kissing the woman from today"

"THIS HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN GOING ON!" shouted John losing his patience.

Jane was shocked to see that her son had found out about her affair. Knowing that she can't lie anymore she decided to come clean.

"Two years it's been going on for two years" she said looking down at the floor. "Two years, so you've been screwing around with another woman behind dad's back since I was twelve, why in god's name would do that!" screamed John.

"John your father and I have been struggling for a long time now" said Jane trying to calm her son down. "Really with what, what have you two been struggling with?!" asked John raising his voice some more.

"Our relationship isn't what it used to be anymore, it's like the spark died out" said Jane.

"Bullshit dad's the only one who's trying to keep his marriage going, it's you who's not even trying instead you're.. you're, what are you like a lesbian now?" said John as he was beginning to tear up now.

Jane also begin to tear up as well at her son's question "I- I- don't know am still trying to figure things." said Jane.

"What about you and dad? do you even love him anymore? When was the last time you told him that you loved him?" John asked who was now shedding tears. Jane was now crying. It broke her heart to see her son so broken like this, she went to hug him, but stepped back.

"Don't just don't" he said, as his anger came back "You're a lying cheating whore who's been screwing around with some woman behind dad's back for two years now. Dad works hard everyday to put food on the table and to take care of us because he loves us and you, and you have been spitting on that love for far too long, and I am going to show dad this." said John holding up his phone.

Just then a voice spoke up, "show me what?" Both John and Jane turned around to see Andrew walking into the living room. John walked up to his father "show you this" said John as he showed the photo of Jane kissing a woman. Andrew eyes widened at this.

"You and mom have a lot to talk about" said John as he headed upstairs to bed. He bumped into Milly who was wearing her pink pajamas and holding her teddy bear, "Johnny why is daddy yelling at mommy?" she asked while rubbing her eye. John could hear his dad ripping into his mom downstairs. "Don't worry about it Milly, just go back to bed" said John, but Milly was hesitant, her parents yelling was making her uncomfortable, "do you want me to sleep with you tonight?" asked John, Milly nodded yes. That night he wondered what his dad was going to do in the morning.

(End of flashback)

The following Morning Mom wasn't around, Milly asked where she was, dad told her that she was going to be staying at grandma and grandpa for a while. For the following month I didn't to speak to mom, I didn't answer her calls or even read the letters she sent me. Things changed in school too, my grades started dropping and I began resent gays, lesbians, Bisexuals and transgender people, every time I looked at a homosexual couple kissing or holding hands, it just made me sick and angry because it reminded me of my mom. I started calling them faggots and started getting into so many fights, after the 6th fight I was expelled and lost most of my friends.

Dad was furious with me, he grounded me until he could find me a new school to attend. Two months have passed I was still being home schooled, one day I was running an errand and I was approached by this gang who call themselves the Bx9 gang. They heard about the gay bashing I did at my school before I was expelled and they offered me a place in there gang. I accepted and became a member. We went around vandalizing property, selling marijuana, fighting rival gangs and attacking homosexuals at night I was with the gang for at least three months. At first I thought I could trust this guys, but one night as we went to attack a gay couple, but it turned out they were actually police officers posing as a gay couple.

The rest of the gang took off and left me to the cops, I was arrested and was looking at four years in Juvie and after the four years it would be 10 years in prison. The cops offered me a deal, two years in Juvie if I if I gave the names of the members of Bx9. At first I wasn't going to snitch, but the officers reminded me that those guys left me behind and didn't give a shit about me and that they were actually wanted for rape and murder and they showed me pictures to prove it. After seeing those photos I gave them what they wanted and they were true to their word I got two years in Juvie.

I was 16 by the time I got out and my dad and Milly were waiting for me right outside. I hugged them both happy to see them. Dad told me that he got transferred at work at that we would be living in Michigan in a place called royal woods.

end of prologue