Maybe....
I don't own anything here but the words. The characters are obviously not of my own creation. Don't be stupid and sue. Thanks(
Chapter 1:
So what if he calls me names and is incredibly fuckin' rude to me. It's not like I've always been nice to him either. It doesn't matter that he constantly lets me know that I will never be the duelest that he is....it is true after all. I won't be. I know that, I'm not stupid ya know. Contrary to popular belief. I may speak with an accent but I don't think with one!
He may treat me like dirt most of the time..well that or act as if I don't exist, but I still can stop watching him. He has a certain charisma that draws me to him. Maybe I want to be famous like him and have everyone worship the ground I walk. I'll pretend that's it. I know its not. I find him attractive..something I've never really thought about a guy before. That's definitely a new thing for me. Liking guys. Well not guys, just one guy. And I still haven't totally figured out why.
Maybe its cause I think we are kinda alike. I mean, no I'm not famous though I did come in 2nd place at Duelist Kingdom but nobody really knows my name. But both do have shitty childhoods. I mean, his folks kicked the bucket and he was left all alone. Ok well he had Mokuba..but that's different , he's just a kid. I know my parents are still alive but they are divorced and I was pretty much abandoned by my mom, which doesn't feel so great, let me tell ya. Plus my dads a fuckin' drunk. Alcohol doesn't make him the nicest person in the world. He's very protective of his little bro and I am of my little sis. He doesn's quite fit in anywhere...and as much as I pretend I do I know I don't. To tell ya the truth my friends are all so innocent. You'd think it was an act but its true. I bet they don't even know what sex is. Or alcohol or drugs or reality. They are great people, don't get my wrong. But they don't really have any loneliness in their lives. Not like me and Seto. Weird. Saying his name...his real name and not some insult. I wonder if he's ever said my real name. It sounds sappy but I'd like to hear him say Joey for once and not Mutt or puppy.
And maybe we are alike because we both act all tough to cover up how we really feel about ourselves. I know that his toughness is just an act. He is too nice to Mokuba for him to be that tough. I think he just made himself that tough exterior because he had to, like me. To cover up the loneliness and pain for the past. To pretend to move on with life. I'd like to move on for real. No tough mask covering me. But I have this feeling I cant do it alone. And I think he cant either.
That's why he shows up here and there. He's started to come around us now. At first he was an asshole, insulting us as usual. But gradually he became nicer. When he'd ask us to duel he just meant it for fun and not just to show off. He even started giving me tips while I was playing Yugi. It was so strange. It freaked everyone out. I was too caught up in the game to hear him correctly. I heard him say something but it was quiet. Figured he was just insulting me under his breath. But then he put his hand on my shoulder to get my attention. Not rough, real gentle. Then he said "can I see your hand?" so dazed I did. Then he pointed at my red eyes and said "I think you should play that...i don't think he has a card to beat that right now". I was amazed, and normally when I might have insulted him or told him to fuck off, I did as he told me to do. After that I kept asking him what I should do when I wasn't sure. I was actually beating Yugi! But then Seto had to go to a meeting so then I lost horribly. Such is life!
It's weird how people can come around . It's been a gradual change but a change none the less. And it's a change I like. I hope he comes around some more...maybe just to my place with out everyone else there. Get your minds out of the gutter! I don't mean for it to be like that. Well not that quickly anyway. I just want to hang out with him alone to start. Get to know him better. And THEN get to KNOW HIM BETTER. Hey! Come on! He's hot! Can you really blame me??!!!
I don't own anything here but the words. The characters are obviously not of my own creation. Don't be stupid and sue. Thanks(
Chapter 1:
So what if he calls me names and is incredibly fuckin' rude to me. It's not like I've always been nice to him either. It doesn't matter that he constantly lets me know that I will never be the duelest that he is....it is true after all. I won't be. I know that, I'm not stupid ya know. Contrary to popular belief. I may speak with an accent but I don't think with one!
He may treat me like dirt most of the time..well that or act as if I don't exist, but I still can stop watching him. He has a certain charisma that draws me to him. Maybe I want to be famous like him and have everyone worship the ground I walk. I'll pretend that's it. I know its not. I find him attractive..something I've never really thought about a guy before. That's definitely a new thing for me. Liking guys. Well not guys, just one guy. And I still haven't totally figured out why.
Maybe its cause I think we are kinda alike. I mean, no I'm not famous though I did come in 2nd place at Duelist Kingdom but nobody really knows my name. But both do have shitty childhoods. I mean, his folks kicked the bucket and he was left all alone. Ok well he had Mokuba..but that's different , he's just a kid. I know my parents are still alive but they are divorced and I was pretty much abandoned by my mom, which doesn't feel so great, let me tell ya. Plus my dads a fuckin' drunk. Alcohol doesn't make him the nicest person in the world. He's very protective of his little bro and I am of my little sis. He doesn's quite fit in anywhere...and as much as I pretend I do I know I don't. To tell ya the truth my friends are all so innocent. You'd think it was an act but its true. I bet they don't even know what sex is. Or alcohol or drugs or reality. They are great people, don't get my wrong. But they don't really have any loneliness in their lives. Not like me and Seto. Weird. Saying his name...his real name and not some insult. I wonder if he's ever said my real name. It sounds sappy but I'd like to hear him say Joey for once and not Mutt or puppy.
And maybe we are alike because we both act all tough to cover up how we really feel about ourselves. I know that his toughness is just an act. He is too nice to Mokuba for him to be that tough. I think he just made himself that tough exterior because he had to, like me. To cover up the loneliness and pain for the past. To pretend to move on with life. I'd like to move on for real. No tough mask covering me. But I have this feeling I cant do it alone. And I think he cant either.
That's why he shows up here and there. He's started to come around us now. At first he was an asshole, insulting us as usual. But gradually he became nicer. When he'd ask us to duel he just meant it for fun and not just to show off. He even started giving me tips while I was playing Yugi. It was so strange. It freaked everyone out. I was too caught up in the game to hear him correctly. I heard him say something but it was quiet. Figured he was just insulting me under his breath. But then he put his hand on my shoulder to get my attention. Not rough, real gentle. Then he said "can I see your hand?" so dazed I did. Then he pointed at my red eyes and said "I think you should play that...i don't think he has a card to beat that right now". I was amazed, and normally when I might have insulted him or told him to fuck off, I did as he told me to do. After that I kept asking him what I should do when I wasn't sure. I was actually beating Yugi! But then Seto had to go to a meeting so then I lost horribly. Such is life!
It's weird how people can come around . It's been a gradual change but a change none the less. And it's a change I like. I hope he comes around some more...maybe just to my place with out everyone else there. Get your minds out of the gutter! I don't mean for it to be like that. Well not that quickly anyway. I just want to hang out with him alone to start. Get to know him better. And THEN get to KNOW HIM BETTER. Hey! Come on! He's hot! Can you really blame me??!!!