ALONE-MAYU'S TRIBUTE

In this house I sit

Ever Alone

Although the lights are on, people are home-

I'm forever alone

Trapped with fools I do not know

Trapped with those who profess to love me, but do so falsely.

Trapped with entertaining my new daddy nightly-doing things that hurt, hurt a lot-and I try to be a good little girl, so he won't hurt you.

Trapped with keeping up the act, lest he hurts you.

Oh yes, dear mother, I know-I know how much you love him over me.

I know how you'd discard me in a heartbeat if he told you to-

how much you love, trust and regard a member of the family who is not

will never be, could never be family

you put him above your own child

you continually put his needs above those of your child's-

and you think I'll trust you again?

No, you make me want to die-you love him more than me.

While I scream with chains plummeting me to hell

You laugh and giggle with him.

None of it matters to you.

All that matters is that your silly little man is happy-dance with him, screw him daily and kiss him-

but care not for how your child feels, or is feeling.

Because you've already proven just who you love, and it's not me.

You love him over me, I know this.

You told me I wasn't wanted.

You practically threw me out of your life, the second that man entered-and kept doing those horrid things to me-did you think for a second, how I felt?

Did you?

Did you?

Did you care for me, when you slapped me in the face and said you're the one we don't need?

Did you care, when I ran away in the cold and freezing rain with no underwear on-and was alone with only a stray dog for company?

Did you care while I endured cold night after night without either a mother or father?

No, all that mattered was him, him, him.

He could never do anything wrong.

You did not care that I was assaulted by him-you didn't care about my feelings.

I, Mayu, deserve better-thankfully I am with people who love and care for me unconditionally.

Goodbye, cowardly mother-who ditched the right to call herself my mom when she slapped me.

Goodbye, monstrous stepfather-who abused me nightly until it really, really hurt.

You're not my family, and you're never going to be.