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Chapter 2

His hand slipped under her shirt, finding the satin skin of her back and, distressingly, the hard protrusions of her vertebrae: more prominent than fitness would dictate. He'd feed her properly, he decided, and promptly parked the problem, because she was making pleased, contented noises and hadn't stopped kissing him for a second. Still, it recalled him to his intentions: changing up didn't mean hard or rough or rapid. The first time, he wanted love, not blazing passion. He would make love to her, delicate and gentle and slow. No doubt that they would reach fast, scorching, even angry – but presently, it should be about nothing more than love, and joy, and connection.

His strokes swept her spine, in time with his kisses, and she explored in turn: light fingers untucking his own shirt and finding hard muscle, shifting round and carefully, intently opening buttons until his shirt slid from his shoulders and she curled into the warmth of his flesh, caging her so that he could perform the same slow, seductive unpeeling.

When that was done, he set her back against his enclosing arm and assayed her as if she were fine platinum, smooth creamy-white skin set off by a blood-red bra. He ran a finger along the scalloped edge, teasingly slow, and watched as her breathing deepened and her eyes turned dark. She reached for him, glided a barely-there touch across the slight swell of his pecs and down to his sternum, tracing the faint, light chest hair, and stopping some way above his belt buckle.

He wandered as lightly as she into her cleavage, nothing intent, nothing hasty, but the tips of his fingers couldn't help dancing over the curves and stroking; his lips couldn't help but redescend to hers, and there, skin touching skin and hands smoothing over backs, they stayed, making out in slow, quiet serenity, finding those still small spaces which pleased the other, moving from lips to jaw or neck and pulsing the nerves there, feeling the beat of their hearts slowly accelerate.

Hands gripped more tightly, mouths became more demanding, the temperature between them began to rise. All Castle's good intentions regarding slow, gentle love-making were starting to cinder as the embers roared into flames and everything that had always been there, but that had been buried, sparked into life.

She sneaked her hand from his waist to steal across to his belt buckle, and before he noticed her thievery she undid it, followed by the button of his pants. Only the metallic sussuration of the zipper caught his attention: too late for him to stop or stay her sensual assault. She glided fingers over him, and he sprang to instant attention. When she did it again, just as flickering and light as the first touch, all consciously smooth suavity and sophisticated sensuality took flight.

Fortunately, he didn't need conscious thought to be smooth, suave, sophisticated or indeed sensual with Beckett. All he needed was her, and here she was. For the first time that evening, he touched her with deliberate eroticism, palming her breast. She pushed into his hand, wriggling a little, and he followed his hand by leaning her back over his arm so that he could put his mouth to the mounds and start to discover what she liked. She had already found at least one thing he liked: delicate hands meeting soft skin over hard weight. Despite her overtly sexual action, her touch was almost tentative, as if, at any moment, he might withdraw from her.

Withdrawal was the very last thing on his mind.

"I'm not going anywhere," he rasped, and then smiled wolfishly. "Except maybe your bedroom."

She gazed sleepily at him. "Mmm," she hummed with serene assent, and moved her fingers teasingly.

He played a little with her nipple, rolling a little, kissing a little more, lipping and then sucking: with intent but without haste. No nipping, no tiny flicks of oh-so-pleasurable edginess: nothing but deft, painstaking fingers and mouth; nothing from her except the same care; as if both of them were fragile crystal, like to break, and yet the delicacy they were displaying was as intensely arousing as any heated, forceful collision of mouths and bodies.

Delicate strokes took his fingers down to the fastening of her skinny jeans, where he found buttons not a zipper. So much the better: he could undo them slowly, one by patient one: wind her higher before he gave her more.

As the first brass button opened, her teasing fingers stilled and her breathing sharpened and shallowed. He paused, and kissed her, deep and slow, sure of his welcome and her response. Her hands moved back to his neck, holding him tight to her so that she leaned in, and shifted a fraction so that there was no barrier to his questing fingers. He accepted her open invitation, and undid another button, allowing one long, thick finger to sneak under the denim, over the silky fabric below. From the confession of the arch of her hips towards him, it wasn't enough. He continued kissing her: despite his best intentions probing more deeply, pressing her harder as her fingers began to bite into his shoulders.

Another button fell open. Beckett – that strange, fey, receptive Beckett – gasped softly and squirmed against his nearly-there hand; nails beginning to mark grooves in his skin; a small, encouraging nip. She wrested control of the kiss, exploring his mouth as he had explored hers, more confident now, that careful half-uncertainty dissipating in his sure clasp.

A final button gone, and Castle lifted her without effort – she blinked, his sheer strength clearly a surprise to her, and then smiled, cat-like, and let him whip her jeans away. They should have been more difficult to remove, he thought – his experience of skinny jeans not being entirely favourable – and again he resolved to feed her more, remove that undue leanness. But she was sitting in his lap in panties and bra, perfectly poised and just plain perfect, still curled in, nestled – almost protected.

"You're overdressed," she whispered.

"We're in the wrong place," he answered, set her away from him for an instant, stood, and swept her up; aimed for the only possible place for her bedroom and proved himself right; laid her down gently on a deep forest-green coverlet and let his own pants drop to the floor. She blinked once more, surveying him with appreciative surprise, before he joined her on the bed.

"Like what you see?" he teased.

"Mmm."

He would need to learn the tenor and flavour of her hums, since it seemed that Beckett's reluctance to use one word when none would do was not confined to work. That hum, however, carried considerable pleasure, and he preened a little and caught her close to him, skin to skin.

"I've got you now," he noted. "All here, and all mine." But for long moments he simply held her, nuzzling into her hair and neck, one arm beneath her, one draped around her, ending on her rear but not – yet – stroking or pressing. Her arms wrapped around his chest in turn, cuddling close, petting.

Castle rapidly decided that he liked being petted. It wasn't something that had often happened to him – generally his previous...um... interests had been far more interested in heated sex. Meredith certainly had. Gina... yes, well. Gina's interest in him had been variable, chiefly downward until all that had been left was their shared interest in the success of his books. She certainly hadn't wanted to pet him.

He really hadn't realised how comforting it was to give and receive affection without instantly progressing to sex, even if they were mostly naked in Beckett's bed and – no. Sex was not on the menu. Making love was on the menu. And making love in Castle's mind meant starting right here, with affection. He petted in his turn.

Gradually petting strayed into more sensitive areas, running over Beckett's silk-clad rear, dipping over her hip to her thigh, slipping across the soft surface but not, so far, searching out her centre. She played around his pecs, light kisses, twiddling tiny knots of chest hair, surprisingly indefinite.

"I thought," she began, and stopped.

"Yeah?"

"I guess I never thought it would be like this."

"Like what?"

She blushed fiercely, and hid her face against his chest. He crooked a finger under her chin, and tipped her face up so he could see her. "C'mon. You can't just leave me hanging. I'll think I'm doing it wrong or something." He widened his eyes at her, and batted his lashes.

"Stop that," she snipped, but then she tried to hide again.

Castle tipped her face up, again. "Stop hiding, then, and I'll stop fluttering my eyelashes at you. Though it's totally unfair that it doesn't turn you to mush." He saw her eye-roll with some relief.

"I..." she gulped... "I thought you... um... it would... um... I never thought it would be sweet."

Castle stared at her. "You don't want sweet?" His heart sank.

"Yes... No..." she flustered, and then a spate of words gushed out. "I do. I do like it like this right now. But somehow I always thought it...we... would be angry or there would be a crisis or ...or..." The flow cut off.

Castle gathered his thoughts and took care with his answer. It was too important for missteps. "Me too," he began. "But... I want to" – he hesitated, and changed the sentence – "I want more than one angry or terrified night and then we never talk about it ever again. I don't want this to be a one-time thing." He looked down into her nervous face, but she wasn't trying to run. "I want to start this off right."

"Yes," she assented, and rather than emit further words, hugged him hard and then stayed as close as two bodies might be: his Beckett, always so much more comfortable with actions than with words, showing him as clearly as she ever could that she was all in. Though, he mused, tucking her in, if she hadn't managed those first words... Well, she had. She'd made the first move.

He turned her face up to his again, leaned down slowly, and took her lips once more, sweeping away the moment of uncertainty – but oh, they'd made admissions that couldn't be unmade; would never be unsaid – in the sure heat of their connection. His hand smoothed over her back, brought her heat against his hardness; they gasped in unison when she opened so that he could press right where he should be, through the fabric still between them.

Castle smoothed up her back again, unclasping her bra and drawing it from her arms, gazing reverently at the pink-tipped curves and then worshipping them with fingers and lips until she moved and gasped and rubbed over him, ran her hands down his flanks and rolled his boxers down till she couldn't reach any further and Castle broke from his attention to her breasts and finished the job, kicking the boxers away and then returning to her breasts, briefly, then sliding slowly downwards. His wicked, experienced fingers dipped beneath the silk at her hip bones, played there for an instant, and then eased the panties away so that they were both naked: open and exposed in more than merely bodies.

She stroked down and over his ass, trying to pull him over her, but that wasn't Castle's game: not yet. Slow and easy, loving and giving. He loved to give, and he was going to give her the best (and, he hoped, the last) first night she'd ever had.

"Stop hurrying," he murmured. "We've got plenty of time. I want to know you inside out." She made a cross little mew, as he refused to be shifted. "Let me." He wanted to add love you, but that was one step too far – until, perhaps, the morning.

She emitted a small humph, and her lips formed a tiny pout, so ridiculously adorably not-Beckett-like at all that he couldn't help but kiss it. While kissing, his fingers wandered, learning the texture of her skin, the spot a little below her waist that made her squeak and wriggle, the too-sharp jut of her hip bones and the concavity of her stomach; the rack of her ribs and the tight-strung muscles of her lean legs. Her skin was satin-smooth, unlike the hard points of the structure below. She'd not been taking care of herself, he thought again, and stroked the skin until his concern eased, until she purred and arched to his hands, until they were lost again in the new delight of each other's close embrace.

Castle could listen to Beckett purr for a very long time, but since they were both eased and comfortable, the maudlin mood over and done, he began to stroke more intimately, flirting with the neat curls, skimming the edge of eroticism, beginning to kiss lower, twirling his tongue at her navel, catching her hands before she could pull up his head.

"Just let me," he mumbles into her stomach. "I wanna give you this." I want to give you everything, because you have no idea what you've given me. Someday, someday soon, I'll tell you.

"I want you," she said.

"You have me," he replied, and, made brave by proximity, added, "You're not getting rid of me now." He slid down, and any words she might have said were swallowed up in the cry of Castle as he tasted her for the first time, raised his head to open her fully to him and dipped again, holding her still for his delight. He orchestrated her reactions, loving her frantic movements, the noises that spilled from her lips, her hot, slick arousal and finally, once he'd had his fill of the slow slide, flick and entry of his tongue; the gentle scrape of teeth and the tease of breath over her in place of touch or taste, he brought her up and over with wicked motions and she gasped and cried out his name and shattered under his mouth.

He slithered back up the bed to gather her into him, by no means finished – indeed, barely started. He looked into her eyes, searching for some sign that she was pleased, and found them hazed and profoundly satisfied, softer than he'd ever have believed she could be. She stroked slim, strong hands over his back, down, round, took time to explore and arouse him further, until he was growling deep in his chest and pinned her down to rise above her and be guided home –

And it was home. She was so perfect around him; better than he had ever imagined. His other half. He was never, ever, going to let her go. He kissed her, mouth and body keeping rhythm, she gripped his shoulders and pulled him closer, arched to his thrusts and wrapped her legs around him and then they rose and flew and shattered together.

Castle rolled on to his back and took Beckett with him so that he didn't have to lose an inch of contact with her, revelling in the sensations and the fit of her form to his. She snuggled in, holding him tightly, her head on his shoulder.

"If you hadn't called me," she said, and it took him a second to catch up to the thought, "I'd never have known." Her voice had dropped almost to nothing: half-dreamy, almost melancholy. "Never have been here." She buried her head into his neck.

"But you are here. We're here. Alive, and together." He embraced her, and petted gently. "Always together."

"Together..." she said sleepily. It seemed that she was more asleep than awake, for he was sure she didn't mean to say the next words aloud. "Don't leave me. I so nearly never had you..."

When he looked down, her eyes were closed. He nestled her in, and peacefully closed his eyes himself, thinking her sleeping, but just as he was dropping off, she murmured again.

"I'd never have known. Never have realised... I could have been dead and never knew you like this."

"You're not dead, though. You're here with me, and you're staying with me. Never going to let you go. Never alone, Beckett. Never alone."

"Never?" she queried, hope bleeding through her word.

"Never," he said firmly. "You're mine, and I'm yours. Never alone ever again," and he kissed her hard, proving on her willing mouth the strength of his feelings, and then the heat rose and ignited and he rolled them so she was open beneath him and took her in one smooth, forceful movement so that there was nothing, could be nothing, between them: reaching for heaven and finding it in each other.

"If it were the last night of my life," he whispered, curled together and close to sated sleep, "It would be like this. I'd spend it with you."

"If this were the last night of my life," she replied, "I'd spend it with you too." She paused, and drew a quiet, sighing breath. "This is the last firstnight I'll ever have."

Fin.

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