Notes:

Hello!

Staff sorry for the delay to update, more I was busy with several things and no extra time to write.

I changed some things about this story and added a lot of new things that would not happen.

Thanks to all who are still reading :)

Have a good reading!

Louise looked into her own hands. She did not feel ready to speak to anyone else. She was very emotionally charged for one day and all she wanted was to lie down on a warm, cozy bed. Trying not to look at the slaughter around her, Louise walked out of the church when the two brothers Seed left her alone. Their words stayed in the poor woman's head all the time. Jacob could leave the same fort and Joseph offer his salvation and a new prison.

She would be lying if she denied that she was still afraid of what would happen if she remained in the service. The young woman chose to just stop worrying about it for an hour and try to rest.

When she left, Louise saw that her aunt Lana and Matt were waiting. Fortunately they were no longer with any members of the Seed family, which made Louise relieved, as she did not want to have to deal with more of them asking questions and gossiping about her life.

"Can we go home?" Louise asked to draw the attention of the two in question.

"Are you okay, sweetheart?" We saw those men from the farm of my parents come in. "Lana seemed to be worried and Louise liked to know that someone still cared about her.

"It will not be today that my grandfather and my grandmother got rid of me. Jacob has taken care of them, they will no longer be a problem." Louise answered and Lana sighed. "Well what did you decide, dear?"

For a moment Louise had not understood the sudden question, but then she realized what her aunt meant.

"I'm going to give this place a try and I'll see if I like it. But if I do not like it here, I'll go away." She answered and yawned. "I'm so tired! Can we go home, please?" Louise asked anxiously to lay her head on some pillow.

"Of course, my sweet." Her aunt finally agreed.

(...)

It was late at night, when Louise was turning in her bed. Memories were tormenting her so Louise wanted to have amnesia. She finally awoke from her restless sleep and sat on the bed. Lying on the headboard, she looked at the dull ceiling of her aunt's house.

And so she allowed herself to travel through her memories. Some good things she still had, for example, she remembered when she dated a police officer. It was good, my god it was very good for the same. While she could not maintain this relationship Staci wanted to help him, he wanted to take the girl out of this immature life that she always took, but Louise never wanted it and even though she had loved him, she sent him to the end of her life.

When she lost her boyfriend, she became sad and tried to fill it in the only way she knew, meaning drinking until she turned her blood into alcohol or drawing until she could not take it anymore or using drugs until she was extremely stoned.

She always believed that she never deserved a man like Staci and that he did not deserve a woman as broken as she. This was also one of the reasons for the end of the two. Louise said to herself that it was better this way.

"Come on, you need to sleep and stop thinking about the past," Louise murmured to herself and lay down again.

The young woman could not resist the urge to cry and as always she cried until she fell asleep, as she always did. She cried for everything she missed and Staci could be included on that list.

(...)

The next day, Louise woke up feeling awful at last the weight of abstinence was falling on her. She knew she could never use her drugs again if she decided to stay with the Eden Gate, but she was stronger than she. The Bliss was a type of drug, she knew and so she had not suffered from abstinence before.

Now all I wanted was a dose of ecstasy or whatever. She needed to control herself, she had to control herself. Louise rose quickly, opening the window and jumping. She felt her feet hurt and some of her bruises opened again.

She wandered aimlessly around the compound trying to find a way to get to her drug. In her head she would return before anyone could notice. What she did not know was that she was being watched from a distance.