Yuzu,

As the wind blew the door and the curtains, I only think about you - just you, hovering freely in my mind. I watch it go back and forth, following the wind that has blown it in uncertainty. I almost felt myself wandering in a dream world where I saw a woman figure, hopelessly waiting and still waiting for her lover to come home - leaving her hair unkempt and letting her skirt blown by the wind, holding to a gold ring, resembling their marriage, tightly. Her place is the same one as I am right now, hopelessly waiting for our return, while the winds of uncertainty and the breeze of dilemmas began to sweep away the possibilities of our reunion, slowly. As the music cue the next scene of the play, I feel the loneliness inside you, as well as the loneliness inside me – we were both together in this, yet we have to figure out a way out from this cycle of Hell that has taken a toll on both of us.

The wind blew very slowly and steadily as if it was the winds of an opened window of a train, cruising the lovely countryside as it finds its way to a rural train station. Dropping me and some other people off, and went to another nostalgic journey to the unknown, with different people, different story to tell, but similar way of life. Then, I realize that I have to leave my beautiful sister to the winds, with an inevitable future of her life, and a better way to deal with things that I couldn't even deal myself. I have to leave you in our beautiful apartment not because I stopped loving you; I go because I love you, and that's what matters. Nothing more, nothing less.

As for Sunday approaching in a mere three hours, I cannot think of any words for your kindness, for your excellent care, and how enormous your love for me. In this letter, I would like to talk about my actual current state. I am in excellent health, and many people take enormous care for me, and yet I have to see my new university by Wednesday. It is not too far from where I live right now, but I assure you, the university matched the Aihara family criteria for an excellent education. I cut my hair, but I am not planning on coloring it, as it will tear apart our memories. I did very good in school and graduated with honors, and yet I am still single, as you are to expect me to have a boyfriend in a school where all of its students are females. That seems unnatural, isn't it?

You are not losing me, emotionally. But I had to leave you, and carry on. For the sake of our love. For our relationship - as a family member and lovers alike. Although it's disappointing that you can never meet me again, it is also a burden that I haven't got enough bravery to see you in person, chatting like we used to do together. Eventually, we will meet again. Someday.

I am looking forward to it.

And I am looking forward to our marriage.

Have a good one and keep your bad habits at bay as well. I am also counting on you!

Mei Aihara.

Author's Note: It's finished, this seems a good ending for me (after numerous changes and re-reading the whole story). Please provide me constructive reviews or comments so I can write something like this, but with better quality and non-scattered timeline.

Have a beautiful day, everyone. Thanks for reading.

Cheers!

Abah.