The light of the moon lit up the fire in Edward's eyes. I felt the burn run through my body as he inspected every inch of me.

"I love you, Bella." Edward's hands gripped my hips, yanking me up to straddle him.

"I love you back."

I kissed him, hard. I never wanted this to end. Come to think of it, I never usually got this far with Edward. Something wasn't right.

"Bella, are you OK?" Edward shifted us back to our original position. I trailed kisses down his jawline, choosing to ignore the distraction.

Fisting a hand in his soft hair, I felt something… different. More length?

I peaked one eye open. The moonlight was doing weird things to me. I could swear Edward's hair looked blond.

"Bella, why are you dreaming about me?"

Jasper Hale smiled, pushing a lock of hair from my face.

I woke up to a scream ripping out of my throat. Edward was immediately by my side, shaking my shoulders.

"Bella! Bella, love. What's wrong?"

The scream was still coming. I side-eyed Edward with confusion.

"It was just a dream, love."

I felt a surge of calm overcome my body. The screaming stopped, finally. The star of my dreams stood against Edward's bedroom door frame, looking curiously at me.

Fingers clicked in front of my face, it was then that I realized I was staring. Woops.

Jasper was always in the background, part of the scenery. Something pretty to look at it, but with nothing much to say. I accepted him as part of my new family as I would accept a flower growing in my yard. He was there, but he never made much of an impact.

I did wonder, though, about all of the times Jasper had slipped up. His personality from the sidelines screamed old man behavior, but his afterhours activity yelled ravenous vampire. I wondered was his actual personality somewhere in the middle? Obviously, I was never around after he slipped up, or I may have become dessert. I was, however, used to the burgundy tinted irises that accompanied a diet of variety.

"Bella!" My name was called louder than normal in a house full of vampires, owing to the fact they have super good hearing.

"Mm, yes?" My mind was still elsewhere. Jasper was leaning in the same spot, head tilted in curiosity.

It wasn't until Edward stormed out of the room, literally stomping his feet, that I noticed I'd been staring at his brother for longer than necessary. I suppose if I had a sister and the roles were reversed, I'd be pretty pissed too.

"Aw, Edward, come on! I'm still half asleep, what are you huffing at?" Sometimes he could really act like the 17 year old boy he's frozen at.

"Don't worry, little lady. Edward isn't used to not being the center of attention," Jasper spoke with a slight smile, more fox than rabbit.

The front door slammed shut. "Was that him leaving?"

"You bet it was," Alice waltzed into the room, giggling.

"What's he so mad at anyway? All I did was daydream." I pulled my hair off my face, tying it in a top knot.

"Yeah, in my man's direction," Alice laughed.

I felt the blush rise in my cheeks. I did not want to think about that dream. "Whatever." I threw my pillow at her.

"Your man, huh? What happened to the divorce of '73?" Jasper pushed himself off the door frame, standing with his arms crossed. This was the stance I was used to. The relaxed one before was throwing me for a loop.

Wait, divorce?

I looked between them with shock. "He's joking, right?" Jasper and Alice are thee couple. The one I based my happiness with Edward on.

Alice's tinkling laugh draped over the room. "Sorry, force of habit. If there's anyone I'd want to bone my ex, it's you, Bella," she winked.

"I, uh, I don't..." I spluttered. "I didn't dream, er, I mean, I don't understand? You told me you were together," I managed to get out.

What hope is there for Edward and I if the definition of perfect couple aren't even a couple?

"I know, we were together. We just aren't now. Sometimes we forget to make that clarification. It's not like we're seeing other people."

"Strange how you chose today to let out that piece of information," I said.

"Why is it strange, Bella?" Alice gave me a knowing smile. Oh God, surely not.

"I mean, it just is. Like why today? Why not yesterday? You know, in general." I was aware that I was rambling again, out of guilt for my dream. At least I was only half guilty now. At the time of my dream, I was with Edward and Alice was with Jasper. Now, I'm only dream cheating on my partner, not my best friend too.

What kind of twisted logic is that?

"Edward's sulking in the forest, and he plans to all day. What would you like to do today?"

&&DB&&

My new outlook on Jasper was starting to ruin my damn life. Every time I walked into a room, I noticed him first. Before, I wouldn't have even said hello to him and he wouldn't have acknowledged me. I secretly thought he viewed me as a walking talking blood bag. I was probably accurate in that assumption.

I didn't know if my overactive imagination was making an appearance, but I could swear that Jasper's reaction to me was different too. When I entered a room, his eyes immediately flicked to mine, as mine would him. His gaze was assessing, as though sizing me up.

There was a fire behind his eyes that I hadn't noticed before. It promised adventure and fear. A dare.

Had he always looked this way? Had my focus on Edward blinded me to it?

Edward.

What was I going to do with him?

He had huffed the whole day after my dream. Thank God he couldn't read my mind, then he really would have been in a strop. Sometimes it was like dealing with a little brother, one that you kiss. God, that came out wrong. My head is seriously back to front these days.

I was sitting beside Edward on the couch, feeling pretty awkward. No one was speaking, well, to my ears anyway. I could tell they were all having a vampire level conversation and it was starting to piss me off.

"Hello? Human in the room. This is bad manners, you know," I scolded.

"Sorry, love," Edward cooed. I rolled my eyes. "Someone in the room just can't keep his thoughts to himself."

There was some awkward shuffling, something vampires don't naturally do. This was obviously for my sake.

"Ok, then. Care to elaborate?"

"It's nothing, love," Edward fake smiled.

That was the last straw of exclusion I could take. "Right. Nothing. I'm going for a walk. Try not to listen to 'nothing' again."

That was Saturday afternoon. My patience with Edward was slowly dwindling into the abyss. I left that day and spent the afternoon walking on the beach in La Push. I was trying to clear my head. My anger at Edward had left almost immediately. Instead, I was haunted by a pair of not quite gold eyes. Jasper's damn eyes. My boyfriend's brother.

That day I had decided that, yes, I have a crush on Jasper Hale. I had also decided that it was natural – in a group of people who are all unbelievably attractive – to have a school girl crush on him. It was human nature, damn it.

After having my revelation, I knew I could put it past me and focus on my declining relationship with Edward. It was surely worth saving. If I lost him, I lost his whole family again. I couldn't have that.

It was Monday morning before school, I was giving myself a pep talk in the mirror. Yeah, things had changed since Edward came back from his distractions. I had grown up, I was developing into a woman at a fast rate. My mom had always told me I was born middle aged, but truly that comes with wisdom and that's something I'd lacked. I'm different to what I was before he left. I'm not that naive little girl anymore, and I wouldn't be treated like it.

Edward forgets that things have changed. I was starting to bloom, but he was still closed.

I drove to school with the rain pelting on my windscreen, my ideal day. A rainy day made for happy vampires.

Three of those vampires were waiting for me in Edward's Volvo when I got to school. My heart rate skipped for all the wrong reasons.

I did my best to ignore him, but it only made it all the more obvious. I could see him from the corner of my eye, smirking. Edward growled something under his breath that made Jasper's back stiffen, and I couldn't pretend he wasn't there anymore.

He looked scary. Scary good.

Edward shrunk under his gaze, and I melted. That's what a real man looks like. Not this man-child that keeps dictating what I do like I'm another toy in the box.

What was I saying about making things right with Edward?

These boys could fight over it, I'm out.

I walked away.

"Wait, Bella!" Alice chased after me, linking my arm. "I know things are changing. You have changed. I love you more for it."

&&DB&&

Edward was trying to make up for his behavior. He brought me flowers everyday. They're OK, I suppose.

Today we were celebrating Esme's birthday. I know, right? Vampires.

The Cullen house was decked out in decorations, with soft lighting setting the mood. The only vampire that was missing was the star of my daydreams. No, not my boyfriend. His brother.

Alice was looking solemn, I was trying my best to make her smile but she was halfhearted. It was unusual to see her this way, but not unlikely. If I wanted to spend my life with these people I had to accept them on their off days too.

Rosalie had returned from her 'gap year' early because she missed Emmett. That was the story so she could be seen around town. Emmett and Jasper came back to school to finish credits for college, they were bored but it kept us entertained having a larger group.

Rosalie ignored me as usual, but Emmett had grasped me in a hug before I had noticed his arrival.

"It's good to see you, Bells." Emmett always found a way to tug on my heart strings. It confused me that his wife was genuinely terrifying and he was a sweetheart. I suppose they balance eachother out.

"You saw me the other day, Emmett," I smiled up at him.

There was a crash outside. Normally, I wouldn't be worried being in a room full of vampires, but when the vampires looked worried…

Alice flitted infront of me, acting as a shield. Edward was snarling, venom dripping from his lips. I'd never seen him look more like a vampire than in that moment.

Rosalie rolled her eyes.

The front door smacked open and Jasper strolled in looking nonchalant, except for the blood smeared down his front and in his hair.

He caught my eye and a slow smile spread across his face.

I couldn't look away, people were shouting around me but I couldn't hear a word. Carlisle and Emmett were infront of Jasper in less than a second trying to push him out of the door. Jasper's eyes stayed locked on mine, while Edward's hands grabbed either side of my face trying to get me to look away. My head turned but my eyes stayed on Jasper. Emmett managed to get him out of the door and I clicked out of my trance.

"Wow," I said, exhilarated.

"This isn't the Opera, Bella. Have you no value for your life?" Rosalie snapped at me. "Do you even care if he rips your throat out?"

I laughed derisively. "What do you care?"

"You're right, I don't. Let's get Jasper in here, dessert's out of the microwave. He likes his blood warm," she growled out.

"Rosalie, please!" Esme dry sobbed. She came over and put her arm around me. "Don't worry, Bella. Jasper won't hurt you."

I know he won't. What is with these vampires? He's already fed.

Edward walked out of the house after them. I couldn't help but feel excited. I had just witnessed the side of Jasper I was always curious about.

Alice skipped toward me looking happier than before. "That played out a lot better than I foresaw. Want me to take you for ice cream?"

I smiled wide. Dessert.

&&DB&&

A week had passed since the Jasper incident. Things had turned back to normal. It was amazing how fast vampires moved on. Rosalie even smiled at me today. It was weird. My retaliation was sort of a half smile half grimace.

Jasper was back to being bored. We were in the library for study period. My teacher was absent, so we were thrown in with another teacher - Jasper's.

This was the first time we'd shared a class.

We sat beside eachother at a round table, joined by other classmates. I was trying to focus on my calculus homework, but I couldn't stop side-eying the man beside me.

He was reclined in his seat, reading a book. His long legs were spread apart, one fist held his head up, the other hand held up his book. He was facing me rather than across the table, which made it all the more difficult to concentrate.

His expression said bored, but I knew better. He was watching me.

I passed him a note. He took it and pressed it out against his book, making it look like he was still reading.

Are you making me squirm on purpose?

I stared at him, waiting for a spark of reaction. His eyes flicked up to mine and a lazy grin spread across his face.

I felt my cheeks redden and my stomach roll. That was the devil's smile. I liked it too much.

He pulled a pen out of his pocket and began scribbling.

My note landed back on my calculus homework. His knee knocked my thigh.

Stop smelling so good and I'll stop staring.

I rolled my eyes. Typical vampire.

I quickly wrote a reply, pressing it into his waiting hand.

Do you flirt with all of your blood bags?

He read the response and looked at me. Approval shone in his eyes.

Jasper went for me once at my birthday party. He was liable to do it again. I shouldn't be sitting with this guy never mind passing flirty notes back and forth.

Hadn't I always been this way, though? Wanting what's bad for me. And what about Edward? Well, what about him? I think we've got to the point in our relationship that it's blatantly not going to work but neither of us can be bothered to end it.

The thought of ending it terrifies me. He would make his family leave again.

A note dropped back onto my homework.

Just you. What's got you so worried?

Crap, empathic vampire.

If Edward and I weren't together anymore, would you all leave me behind again?

Jasper's face gave nothing away.

Did they leave me behind after the divorce of '73? You're stuck with us. Sorry.

I smiled.

It's not fair of me to intrude if Edward and I break up.

What makes you think your relationship is coming to an end?

I looked at him with a raised eyebrow. Edward and I were going nowhere fast.

You can feel emotions. I'll let you guess. So you're saying the family will be mad if you eat me?

Jasper let out a quiet laugh.

You never know, you might like it.

My heart stilled.

&&DB&&

Esme was out in the yard. The spring flowers were coming through.

She told me this was her favorite time of year, when the garden blooms and everything looks brighter and beautiful. Looking into the Cullens yard, I have to agree.

Edward was hunting with Carlisle, Emmett and Rosalie. Alice was shopping in Seattle, which left Esme and I at home and Jasper flitting in and out.

I wanted him to ask me to come with him, but God knows what he gets up to in his own time.

We hadn't spoken since our notes in the library, except for greetings.

I was watching a movie on the gigantic TV, snacking on almonds, when Jasper appeared on the seat across from me.

The almonds flew up in the air. "Jesus, Jasper, you scared the shit out of me!"

He smirked. "You were in a world of your own. Where's your lover today?"

I glared at him. "You know he's hunting."

"He brings a napkin with him, you know."

I fought back a smile. "No he doesn't."

"He tucks it into his shirt like a bib."

I laughed out loud this time. "What do you do when you hunt?"

"Pray you never find out."

With that statement, he was gone.

&&DB&&

My small verbal conversation with Jasper had me craving more. Edward was trying to grab my attention in Biology, but my mind was elsewhere.

"Bella, love. I want to talk to you about Jasper."

My ears perked up. "Jasper?"

Edward nodded, his teeth clenching slightly. "He slipped up again. I don't think you should come around this weekend."

"Jasper won't hurt me." I went back to doodling.

"I don't want to take that risk, Bella. You're my whole life and I can't lose you."

I laughed. "I am lost, and you're the last person who could find me."

Hurt flicked across his eyes, but he settled with rage. "He'll kill you, you know. He won't love you."

"This is about me and you, Edward. Not Jasper." OK, it's much easier to lie than I thought. "I don't even know the guy."

"I see the way you look at him. You used to look at me like that."

I scoffed. "You're crazy."

"About you. I'm not letting him have you."

&&DB&&

At gym, I was up on the baseball pitches watching the guys have a game. Small raindrops were falling but it wasn't enough to dampen the mood of the girls of Forks High. There were giggles and squeals of excitement. I rolled my eyes. They were like cats in heat.

I could understand to a point. But dear god, stop the drooling over the Cullen men.

Jasper was smirking and twirling his bat as he spoke to Emmett.

Emmett caught my eye and waved. I lifted my hand lazily in return still in a Jasper haze. Emmett elbowed him and laughed but Jasper had his eyes on me. He tilted his head up in greeting. I bit my lip, and he smiled slowly.

What was I saying about cats in heat?

I watched Jasper show off with a home run, slightly panicking when I saw him walking my way.

He sat down on the grass beside me, pushing his navy cap up. "Baseball fan?"

I rolled my head in his direction. "When you're playing, I can be a fan of anything."

What did I just say?

The burn of embarrassment spread across my face.

Jasper laughed. "Now, now Bella. We don't want Edward getting jealous." I glanced up to see Edward looking murderous.

"Shit," I muttered. "Why did I say that? Are you manipulating my emotions?"

"Just a little bit." He shrugged his shoulders. He didn't even have the decency to look guilty.

I slapped his arm. Smiling, he grabbed my hand. "Don't hurt yourself, little girl."

"I'm not a little girl," I muttered.

He inspected me from head to toe. "You're right. You're not."

I looked at him smugly, until I snapped back down to earth.

"What are we doing, Jasper?" I asked suddenly.

"I'm getting to know my little sister." The words made me cringe.

"Those words sound wrong together, and they shouldn't."

"I know."

&&DB&&

I was stranded at school. Edward left early due to a vision Alice had.

He had driven me there. Great.

I had been standing in the lot for no more than a minute and I was already soaked. The rain was the heaviest I had seen it in Forks yet. Typical.

While I stood and deliberated what to do, a black car pulled infront of me. The window rolled down and I saw a head of honey blond hair.

"Get in, Bella."

"I'm soaking," I called back. "I'll ruin your car."

"Get in the damn car."

I trudged over, and dropped myself into the passenger seat. "Your seats, your problem, I suppose."

He rolled his eyes. My back stiffened at the close proximity, suddenly very aware of myself. I hadn't been this alone with him before.

If I thought Jasper smelt good before, it was killing me being in a car full of his scent. Spices and woods.

"Thanks for coming to get me. I thought I was going to have to walk home."

He nodded curtly, but didn't reply.

"Are you OK, Jasper?" I asked, concerned.

"Your scent. I'm fine."

I got the picture. His was doing things to me. Though, I suspect our situations were slightly different. His right hand lifted to tug on my ponytail.

"Do you want to eat me?"

Jasper laughed. "Not in the way you think."

My eyebrows creased. "What other way is there?"

He glanced at me. "A way that would make your boyfriend very mad at me."

My mouth formed a little 'O' shape.

"Why are you so shocked, Bella?"

"I thought I was your little sister?"

He just smiled.

&&DB&&

"Emmett?" I asked tentatively.

"Yes, Bella?" He was working on his car, doing whatever car people do.

"Why does no one care when Jasper slips up?"

He stopped what he was doing. "What makes you think we don't care?"

"No, I mean, why aren't you all more mad at him, or encouraging him to do better?" I twisted my fingers in my hands, wondering was I overstepping my boundaries. "I'm just asking because I feel like if it was Edward, Carlisle would be pretty disappointed."

Emmett looked at me with tenderness in his eyes. "Jasper comes from a different life, you already know the story. There is more to our life than just drinking animal blood and going to school. I know that's all you've been shown. We've been arguing with Edward trying to make him show you what it means to be a Cullen, it's why he's been acting off. Jasper has been challenging him."

I was confused. What else could there be to their life? I know that sounds harsh, but I spend nearly every day with this family... they acted like they were eternally bored.

"You have a family secret? What has that got to do with Jasper slipping up?"

Emmett laughed a little, as though confused that I hadn't worked it out yet. "Jasper is our protector, he is the strongest of us all."

&&DB&&

I stayed at the Cullens that night... it was a bad idea. As soon as I was asleep he was there, in my dreams.

I was awoken by shouting and crashes downstairs. It was still dark outside. I quickly checked my watch – 1:26am.

I threw on a hoody and my slippers to go and investigate. I tried to creep down but it's impossible in a house full of vampires, they hear my heart louder than my footsteps.

When I got to the bottom of the stairs, I wasn't sure how to process what I was seeing. There was smashed glass all over the cream carpet which had been soaked from the flowers and water inside of the vase that must have fallen.

Edward was tearing at the couch, literally ripping it to shreds. Fluff was flying everywhere. Esme was on his back trying to stop him, screaming and clawing. She was terrifying.

Rosalie and Emmett were bent over laughing in the corner of the room. That was confusing. Carlisle was pacing back and forth and Jasper was chilling on the opposite couch, looking bored by the whole situation.

"Where is it?" Edward roared.

"Get your claws off my damn sofa!" Esme screamed.

"What the hell is going on?" I whispered perplexed.

Everyone stopped immediately. They hadn't even noticed me, I could have came down the stairs on an elephant and they wouldn't have looked up until I said 'Howdy'!

"He stole your damn ring, that's what's going on!" Edward yelled.

"What ring? I don't even own a ring. Why are you shouting?"

Edward looked embarrassed. That was when Jasper stood up. "Edward thinks I've stolen the engagement ring he was going to give you."

My face went white. "E-Edward. We've talked about this. I don't want to get married."

"He took it, Bella! He doesn't want me to have you!"

Wait, what?

"Uh, oh," Rosalie giggled.

"I'm not something to have, Edward. I'm not a toy. I'm tired of you treating me like I'm less than you, I'll never be equal in your eyes," I spluttered out. Angry tears were forming in my eyes. "Stop blaming your brother for our failed relationship. We did this. Not him."

"Bella," he warned. "We're meant to be together." Edward's teeth were clenched.

"Do you really believe that? I mean, I think we are in some way, but not romantically."

This had been going on too long. It was time to accept it. Edward had been getting more and more distant every day in his effort to make it work. What he thought was reeling me in was actually pushing me away.

The lack of intimacy was one thing, sure, but neither of us had any fun together. There was no real spark. I could see from the look in Edward's eyes, he felt the same way. He was fighting hard for something he saw in Alice's vision. I suppose it's hard to literally see your life one way and then have to accept that it's not actually going to happen.

Alice had been gone for the last few days and I wondered was it so Edward couldn't see what was in her head.

I felt as though a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Months of confusion and pain were dissipating. Without the fear of losing the Cullen family, I could accept my withered relationship. This was the right thing to do.

"Still doesn't explain where the engagement ring has gone," Edward said, pointedly at Jasper.

Jasper pulled a small velvet box out of his coat pocket and shrugged. "Alice," he said, in explanation.

I don't know what to think anymore.

&&DB&&

Someone had stolen a red blouse from my room. Alice saw a bunch of vamps with it.

In her head.

Can my life get anymore complicated? Just let me graduate, please!

The Cullens had taken to patrolling the outside of my house. I felt like a prisoner. Alice had returned from her trip immediately to help, although Edward had left for Alaska so I guess he didn't care if some vamp came and ripped me to shreds. It might actually make his life easier.

I was putting clothes into my closet when I heard rustling outside. "Shit," I whispered.

"What's wrong with you?" A voice said behind me.

I whirled around, my heart in my throat. "Jesus, Jasper! Don't you know how to knock?" Jasper was laying on my bed, limbs stretched out. God help me.

He smiled. "I was in the neighborhood, thought I'd stop in and see how you're doing."

"In other words, you're on 'mind the human' duty," I sneered.

"Precisely." He smiled wide, showing his straight, white teeth.

"I'm sorry you have to waste your night hanging around my house," I said quietly, looking at my feet.

"I was free tonight, anyway," he said, and I could hear the humor in his voice.

I glanced up at him through my lashes, trying to inconspicuously ogle him. How did I not immediately notice him on day one at Forks High? My head must have been up in the clouds, looking at him was taking my breath away.

He had a white t-shirt on that clung to his abs, blue jeans and boots. His hair was in his eyes but it didn't seem to bother him. His lips were smooth and curvy, asking to be kissed. I bit my lip at the thought.

He giggled.

"What's funny?"

"You do know I can feel your emotions, right?" He cocked an eyebrow.

"Yeah, so? Alot of things run through my mind," I countered.

His lashes lowered, a wicked smile coming across his face. I immediately felt suspicious.

In a flash he was infront of me, his thumb pulling my lip free of my teeth. His other hand was placed on the door frame, essentially locking me in.

I gulped.

"So when that overwhelming feeling of lust rolled off of you, you were thinking about… what?" He whispered.

"I was thinking about the time Dave at the Café accidentally gave me two extra chicken nuggets."

He stared at me, unsure. "Chicken nuggets turn you on?"

I burst out laughing. "Yeah Jasper, chicken makes me moan," I giggled, elongating my words.

I thought he would either throw a strop or scoff like Edward, but instead he smiled slightly. "I like you," he decided. "You're not boring like I thought you were."

I looked at him in shock. "You thought I was boring?"

He shrugged. "Sorry."

&&DB&&

My car was making a funny noise.

Any time I heard something weird coming from my car, an instant sense of panic settled at the bottom of my stomach.

How much is it going to cost? What if it's on its last legs?

Rosalie promised she would take a look at it, even if she thought it was a slow, waste of space.

But I loved the car my dad got for me when I first moved here. I called him Buddy.

I was currently waiting on Rosalie's call for her to give me the prognosis. My fingers tapped on the kitchen table, nerves were settling in, a bad omen.

My cellphone rang making me jump, even though I was expecting it.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Bella. I've had a look at Buddy," Rosalie said.

"Thank you so much. How much is it going to cost?" I asked apprehensively, waiting to hear how my bank balance was about to be torn through.

"I'm afraid it's bad news." My heart dropped. "I thought it was just the steering pump and an oil leak, but the beam that holds the engine up has completely rusted away. It's going to cost a lot and I don't think it's worth it. I'm sorry, Bella."

"Oh, OK. Well thank you for checking for me. I'll be over later to pick him up."

I hung up the phone feeling numb inside. It wasn't until I got up to my bedroom that I felt the tears starting. Why was I crying over a car? But the tears wouldn't stop. I felt an overwhelming sense of guilt that the car that had been with me through everything was going to be dragged away to the scrapyard.

What if Buddy overhears Rosalie say that he's going to the scrapyard and starts to panic thinking I've abandoned him?

I spent the day wandering about my house on and off crying. Alice popped in to see me, but left after 5 minutes because she said I was being ridiculous. Yeah, well when you're not materialistic, things aren't so easily replaced.

Emmett came to take me to his house. I was silent the whole way.

He looked at me with concern. "You're going to have a million cars in your eternal life, are you going to cry over them all?" I shot him a look, but was secretly curious. They were still willing to turn me even after Edward and I broke it off? "What? You didn't think I was going to give up my little sister again, did you?"

Tears welled up my eyes. Although, this time they were tears of happiness. "I guess not," I replied. "I did think that Edward wouldn't allow it, though."

Emmett glanced at me. "Edward? What's it got to do with him?"

I giggled. "I guess nothing, now."

He shook his head. "No, Bella. It was never his decision, Jasper had already decided."

Jasper? It has less to do with Jasper than it does Edward. We also have the issue that Edward and his family left me once with no clear intentions of turning me. How would he explain that one?

Emmett seems to be the only person giving me the impression that Jasper's in charge here. He was always in the background, not contributing to the conversation. Although, having seen a new side to him, I wondered was it new at all, or maybe I was just completely unobservant. Under Edward's daze.

"Why do you keep making out as though Jasper makes all the decisions?"

"I've already told you, Jasper is our protector. He's the one that protects us from the people who don't agree with our life, who see us as a threat. I've already said too much, it was his plan that we tell you when we discussed your introduction into the family."

"You sound like the damn Mafia," I snorted.

"Well, if you wanna call it that. Like I said, there's more to life with us than you know. It's your choice after you hear it whether you still want to join us. Although, and I don't want to freak you out, but Jasper has decided and it's for your own safety.

My own safety. It's lucky I like these people.

&&DB&&

Jasper and I were lumped together for study period again.

He had flung me a note when I started staring off into space. The reason I was daydreaming was his close proximity, much closer than the previous time. I could feel his knee pressed against my thigh.

Can I ask you something, Jasper?

He nodded and passed me the note back.

Emmett made out like you're in charge of the family

He smirked. What do you think?

I know that the family tell me you slip up, but Emmett makes out as though you do it for their protection. So why would Edward ask me to stay away from the house because you had slipped up again?

He spent longer than necessary reading it.

This isn't the right time to have this conversation but, I'll tell you this and only this for now. Edward told you what he wanted you to believe, he has his own agenda. Take that how you must.

I sighed loudly, making Jasper laugh under his breath.

Obviously Edward had been telling me half truths. I knew this already. What I can take from this is that Edward wanted me to believe Jasper was the bad guy, the threat, someone to avoid. For what reason?

Why hadn't Edward told me about the damn Cullen initiation? Did he want me to believe that being a vampire was chasing rainbows and butterflies?

That doesn't add up because he didn't want to turn me. He should have told me the bad sides if he wanted to keep me away from it.

Maybe he thought the threat of Jasper was enough to keep me scared? Little did he know how much it was reeling me in.

Why does Jasper want me to be a vampire and Edward doesn't?

Assembly was called between classes. Something about what to do when school ends, I don't know I wasn't paying attention.

The classes were split on either end of the hall, with the teachers on a podium in the middle. Wouldn't it have been easier to just stand on the ready-made stage?

I was unable to come to the phone that day because Jasper Hale was sitting beside Emmett on the opposite side from me looking all kinds of sexy.

Does he do that on purpose?

His head was lowered like he wasn't paying attention, but I could see the slight smirk on his face, his eyes pointed in my direction. When I caught his eye his head tilted back in a nod. His smile widened when I winked back.

It was OK to acknowledge a friend that way, right? I mean my ex boyfriend's brother who is the ex husband of my best friend?

What does he want with me anyway? He sure ain't giving those eyes to anyone else in the room. But I've never been one to look a gift horse in the mouth. If he was giving me attention, I was going to gobble it up.

'Hello,' he mouthed.

'Hi,' I mouthed back.

Emmett glanced between us with suspicious eyes, but then he looked resigned. I wondered was he upset that Jasper and I had gotten closer. We had never been before, but surely he would want me to be close with all of the family members.

Alice sighed beside me. I felt a mini panic attack rearing when I realized that maybe he wasn't looking at me and he'd been communicating with Alice this whole time…

"You know, he used to smile at me from across the room. I don't remember seeing that much sex in his eyes though, and I have a good memory," she whispered.

"Alice," I reprimanded. "He's not giving me sex eyes. He's giving me hello eyes."

She giggled. "Sure, Bella. If we're sticking to that story then Manolo Blahnik are releasing potatoes carved into shoes this year."

I rolled my eyes. Yes, I know those were sexy eyes but it didn't mean they were sex eyes. There was a difference.

"If you keep looking at him with drool dripping down your chin, he might put a leash on your neck and build you a kennel in the backyard. But knowing you, you'd probably like that." Her eyes went blank for a second. "No, scratch that. I know you'd like that." If she could shed tears, her silent laughs would be squeezing them out right about now.

Mrs Goff shushed Alice from the side of the aisle. It was too late, Alice raised her hand in apology and attempted to say sorry but it came out as a squeak. That was a first, seeing a vampire lose control in public.

Watching her trying to stop laughing had me holding back my own. I dropped my head and bit my bottom lip. It wasn't helping. Alice grasped my forearm, using her other hand to shield her face from Mrs Goff, she was laughing so hard she looked like she was crying. I couldn't hold the noise in as good as Alice, squeaks were coming out of my mouth rapidly and I had to pretend I was coughing. The most unrealistic cough ever.

Mrs Goff had enough and marched the two of us out of the hall. I couldn't look up, Alice was still gripping my arm painfully. We were essentially carrying eachother, high pitched fake coughs coming out of my mouth.

"Now, when you ladies decide to take this assembly seriously, feel free to regain your seats," Mrs Goff whispered harshly.

"Pfft!" Alice scoffed. "It was a bunch of balls anyway!"

I was bent over with my hands on my knees, breathing slowly.

Jasper and Emmett strolled out into the hallway. "What the hell was that?" Emmett laughed.

"If I told you, you wouldn't believe me," Alice said.

"You OK, little lady?" Jasper asked, awkwardly patting my head.

"Yeah, yeah," I slapped his hand away. "I'm good." Tears were running down my face, I did not need him to see me looking like this.

"Come on, Emmett. Let's leave these two love birds alone," Alice smirked.

My jaw dropped and my cheeks flamed. Why did she have to say that? Now I can't even look at him.

"Love birds? Nuh uh, he's not touching my baby sister," Emmett said with his jaw clenched. He was looking at Jasper suspiciously, as if he was hearing a different side to the story.

"I'd like to see you stop me," Jasper said, wrapping his arm around my shoulder. "Come on, darlin'. We've got business behind the bike shed."

I literally didn't have words, I just followed. Behind the bike shed, is he serious?

Emmett was spluttering behind us but Alice was giggling and dragging him in the opposite direction.

"Calm down, Bella. I thought you would like the chance to talk," he whispered in my ear.

Oh, so no kissing.

He pulled back so he could look me in the face. "Disappointment? I thought you wanted to hear family secrets?"

"I'm not disappointed," I mumbled. "I'm just confused. I thought you wanted to talk about it with the whole family."

His burgundy eyes twinkled under the fluorescent lights, mischief lurking behind them. I didn't get the impression he was in the mood to have a serious talk about the Cullens. He was brimming with anticipation. Over what, I don't know.

We walked into the parking lot, his arm still wrapped around me. Students had already started trickling out of the hall towards the benches for lunch. I felt calm for the first time in a good while. It might have been because Edward had been AWOL since we broke up. He was still in Alaska. I knew I would have to face him again one day but I hoped we could put what happened past us and move on as friends.

"There you two are!" A booming voice called. I whipped my head around. Emmett, who else?

"We were gone barely 2 minutes, Em. Hardly enough time to play hide the sausage or whatever weird games you had running about in that head," I said impatiently.

Jasper appeared to choke. I looked at him curiously. Alice was shaking her head, sniggering. "This is too perfect," she muttered under her breath.

I didn't think he could get much paler but Emmett seemed to whiten before my eyes. "You-you. No. You will never see saus- nope. Not happening."

I raised an eyebrow at him. "OK, Emmett. Just chill out, you look ill."

There was an almighty bang.

My heart jumped into my throat. I felt Jasper's cool hands grab my hips, lifting me up into his arms. One hand gripped my thigh hoisting it around his waist, I lifted my other leg in reflex to wrap around his other side. My head was spinning, we were moving so fast. His arm around my back was like a metal bar, locking me in. I tucked my head into his neck, unsure of what was going on but aware there wasn't much I could do at that moment.

I could hear the rustling of leaves around me and gathered we must be in the woods. A few minutes later I could tell we were slowing down. I chanced a look up at Jasper, he was staring over his shoulder towards the forest. He muttered a curse and picked up his pace.

After a while of running, Jasper adjusted his hold on me, wrapping his arm tighter. We were weaving in and out, it seemed like he was dodging something. Then I heard them. The growls and snarls.

I could smell the ocean. Jasper ran straight into the water, until I was submerged up to my waist. Goosebumps ran up my back, making me jolt.

He came to a stop and held me to his chest. The growls were still behind me and I turned my head. Three massive wolves were on the sand, waiting for us.

"Just stop, OK?" Jasper called. "We need your help. Five vampires were in the trees around the school, I had to get her out of there. This is the only place they won't follow."

My blood ran cold. Five vampires? The ones who have my shirt? I was shocked, I guess I didn't take it seriously when the Cullens told me a vampire was in my room, but right now I can't understand how it didn't petrify me.

A vampire was in my room, and stole my shirt. Now they had come for me infront of my vampire family.

One of the wolves shook violently before turning into a very large, naked Quileute man.

"You're breaking the treaty by being here, bloodsucker. Tell me why I shouldn't rip you to pieces right now."

Jasper's back stiffened. "I thought you were all about the protection of humans. She wouldn't have got here alive if I hadn't have ran with her. Surely you can give us refuge, under special circumstances."

"Your life means nothing to me, human drinker," the Quileute man sneered.

"Does Bella's? What about the other 300 lives I saved by leading the vampires away from the school?"

The Quileute man shuffled his feet in the sand, looking torn. "Seven more of my men are hunting the vampires as we speak. You can stay here with her until the threat passes. After that, you can get the hell off our land."

Jasper shrugged. "Thank you."

"Humans feel the cold more than you do, perhaps you should bring her onto the sand."

I silently thanked the man for reminding him that I was freezing. Jasper waded through the water until we reached dry land. He turned my face towards him.

"Are you OK?" He asked.

I shrugged. Was I OK? I was physically unharmed and definitely under the best protection I could have. Was I scared and confused? A resounding yes.

He gently lay me down on the sand. Ugh. There's nothing worse than wet jeans caked in sand. My hands were already covered and I had nowhere to wipe them.

The wolves backed off, giving us some space. Jasper looked completely at ease, he lay on the sand with his hands behind his head, though I could tell he was keeping an ear out for any more visitors.

I stared at his purple lids wondering what the hell had just happened. His eyes opened as he caught me staring. "Just ask, Bella."

"What was the bang before you ran with me?" I rushed out.

"That was Emmett. He could smell them and he banged his fist on a car to get their attention towards him." He closed his eyes again.

"Was it the ones who stole my shirt?"

"We don't know, yet. Probably. Alice hasn't been able to see exactly who took your shirt, but who else could it be?"

I nodded slowly. This was shaping up to be the weirdest day I'd ever had. Here I was, chilling with Jasper on First Beach while he caught some cloudy rays.

"Are Alice and Emmett OK on their own?"

"They can handle themselves. It's you we need to take care of."

I pouted.

"OK, I could understand if you were feeling scared, confused or even excited. But what's with the angry worthlessness?" He raised an eyebrow.

"I'm tired of having to be taken care of, I want to be able to defend myself, and others if it comes down to it."

Jasper smiled softly at me. "Bella, I promise that one day if bad vampires come for us you'll be able to carry me to safety. God knows you owe me one."

I slapped his arm, but his bigger hand grabbed mine, stopping my assault. "I won't always be the weak one?"

"You're the strongest person I know, Bella. Even without the venom."

My heart skipped a beat.

&&DB&&

My head was fried. I had gone straight past confusion into oblivion. I was aware in some small part of my brain that I knew exactly what was going on – that this was my body going into shock from the fear of almost dying. To the naked eye, I looked normal, but these vampires can sniff out a dud a mile away. My head was in the clouds.

Jasper said I was the strongest person he knows. Which has to be the biggest bunch of BS I've ever heard. I had barely opened my mouth since hiding in the little shell I'd mentally built for myself. How anyone with that level of strength could view me as strong was beyond me.

Looking at him, which I hadn't stopped doing since he said those words, I couldn't visualize anyone he couldn't beat in a fight. He had long, strong limbs and an air of superiority. There wasn't an ounce of fear leaking out of him at being in the presence of wolves.

It made me wonder why Alice didn't run with me instead of Jasper. Surely he would have been the most practical person to keep around during a fight? He made Edward look like a pussy cat. Also, considering Jasper is their protector, shouldn't he have been there instead of running off with me and hiding at First Beach?

"Spit it out, Bella." He raised his head to look at me.

Damn.

"It's just, I thought you were the protector. Why did you run from the vamps? You should have stayed with Emmett and let Alice take me," I rushed out, suspicion laced heavily in my words.

He tilted his head back in a silent laugh. "I know things don't seem clear right now, but when you realize, you'll see it's been staring you in the face this whole time."

I wrinkled my brow in confusion. "Why do you always speak in riddles? Why can't you just tell me straight?"

"If you weren't so oblivious you would have worked it out before you had to ask. You'll know when you're ready to know," he shrugged.

I threw my head back, growling in frustration. What else could I be missing about the Cullen family? Never mind me spitting it out, they should be doing it. "I have to tell you everything all the damn time. You can feel everything I'm feeling. This is an unfair advantage."

He let out a sigh. "It's just not the right time."

I could feel life coming back into my fingers, anger shooting through them. "When is the right time, Jasper? Or will I be human forever, everyone pretending they think I'm strong? Aw, poor Bella, let's make her feel special for a second to stop her asking questions."

"Did it stop you? No," he smirked.

"I'm not done yet!" I interrupted. "I'm not taking any more of this leaving me in the dark business. Edward did it all the damn time, I'm not going to let you do it, too." I was on my knees, fists clenched at my sides. Jasper seemed to clock this.

"You done?" He raised an eyebrow. I nodded, stiffly. He looked around sharply before catching my eye again. "I don't know if you're aware of our surroundings but I'm not going to spill everything about our family infront of the dogs," he sneered in their direction. "When the threat has passed we can talk about it at the house, OK?" I nodded again. "So stop your whining. All we do for you, we do for love. It would be nice if you could see that."

I felt guilt running through me. They did love me, and they were risking their lives trying to keep me safe. I never acknowledged this, only caring about my own agenda.

"We may be indestructible, but we ain't dispensable," he finished. I hung my head in shame.

We sat in silence for a while, both of us trying to get over our moods.

We were eying eachother now and again. It struck me that Jasper was actually in a strop. The thought made me giggle.

"What are you laughing at?" He huffed.

"You," I giggled. "I've never seen you throw a tantrum."

He glared at me. "I wouldn't have to throw one if you weren't so unappreciative."

That only made me laugh harder. "I'll work on it, promise."

He smiled a little, and tilted his head, asking me silently to come closer. I crawled towards him, wary. My eyes never left his.

He was up on his elbows, when he reached a hand towards me. As I got closer, his arm wrapped around my back, pulling me into him. My heartbeat picked up, I could feel it thumping in my chest. This close, I could smell the ocean on him mixed with his warm scent. We were so close our noses were centimeters apart. I could feel his cool breath on my neck making me shiver. I wet my lips, and he caught the movement, his eyes flicking down. A small smirk lit up his face. When his eyes lifted to mine, my breath caught in my throat. He was perfect.

I could feel his hand snaking up between my shoulders to rest on my neck. The action had me arching into him, this only spurred him on. His other arm wrapped around my lower back, pulling me impossibly closer.

My head was spinning. All I could see and smell was him. I reached my hand up to run through his hair, it was as soft as it looked. I didn't let go when I reached the back of his head. I couldn't.

We were leaning closer, I could just about feel his lips on my bottom one when a growl shook me to the core. Before I knew what was happening, I was on Jasper's back, and we were backing away slowly. The wolves were faced away from us, snarling towards the trees. It was then that I realized the vampires had found us.

Jasper visibly relaxed. He squeezed my thigh to reassure me. "It's only Em and Alice," he breathed.

"Aw, look it's the little pups. Doggy want a cracker?" Emmett called.

"That's for birds, dipshit," Alice snorted.

I was confused. Why were they so relaxed? Where did the scary vamps go?

The wolves were pawing at the ground in anticipation, looking for some form of vampire to fight. Jasper turned to face them, while I was clutched to his back.

"Thank you for letting us stay here. We owe you one," Jasper promised.

"I don't need a favor from your family, leech. Get back to your own side and stay there."

Jasper shook his head slowly. "You would be wise to accept my offer, this may not be the end."

The man growled under his breath, exploding into a mass of fur. He nipped at our ankles until we took off into a run from their land.

&&DB&&

The Cullen house was a magical place. It was literally my ideal home. Hell, I would become a vampire just so I could be a resident.

Windows. They were my thing.

I wasn't even sure if I cared about answers anymore. Everything was so fucked up. Two months ago I thought I wanted to spend my life with Edward. Now I was dreaming about dry humping his brother and fighting for my life from a bunch of random vampires. I'm getting bored now of people who want to kill me. They can join the ever-growing list, thanks.

Let's not even get into the fact that Jasper and I almost had the best kiss ever. No, actually, let's get into it. We didn't even have the kiss and I was foaming at the mouth. Now I have to pretend to care about vampires while he sits across from me looking more pleased than he should.

It doesn't help that he's just… staring at me, smiling like he knows a secret.

The family were around the dining table ready to discuss the day. Edward was still in Alaska, I guess he doesn't care if we live or die.

Esme had a worried expression on her face while she clutched Carlisle's hand. Rosalie was fuming that she missed the fight. Emmett and Alice were standing at the head of the table ready to divulge.

I was… not paying attention because the man sitting across from me was holding my eye.

"Bella? Bella!" Alice waved her hand infront of my face.

"Present," I called back.

"Sure you are," she giggled. Jasper gave a silent laugh, knowing his effect on me. Well dammit, I had one on him too. "OK, so, five newborns; didn't recognize any scents. The blouse thief wasn't there. They are all dead," she smiled smugly. "We think they were sent by the blouse thief to test our strengths."

"You think this is all part of a bigger picture?" Carlisle asked.

"Most definitely. Although, there won't be anyone left to report back to the person behind this.

"We know from my previous visions that there were a large group of vampires handing around Bella's blouse to get a sniff." Alice smiled apologetically at me.

Jasper stood quickly, moving to the head of the table. His back was straight, standing in a well practiced pose, like a soldier. "Rosalie and Emmett. Can the two of you follow their scent, see where they came from? Keep a distance, don't let the group know we're tracking them.

"Carlisle, can you meet with the tribe to discuss the wolves running a perimeter on their land?"

Carlisle nodded once.

I sat back in my chair, observing the situation. Things were starting to click into place.

Where I thought Carlisle should be standing, Jasper was. I wondered now, did Carlisle act as head of the family for appearances? Was he the peace keeper?

Jasper was the military man, all tactics and well thought out plans. It was strange watching him direct the patriarch.

It only made more foam dribble from my mouth.

&&DB&&

Jasper caught me in my dad's cruiser outside of the mall this evening. I refused to go in with Charlie while he looked at fishing gear. Nope.

I was staring out of the window trying to see through the trail of rain beating against it. It was that time of night – when it's still day but car lights look brighter. My favorite.

I was humming along with the radio when I heard a greeting behind me.

"Hey," a voice said quietly.

I yelped. "Jesus, Jasper! You always scare the crap out of me!" My heart jumped, and I immediately looked at his lips, remembering our last altercation.

He laughed. "Look, Alice told me we won't get much time alone to talk and I need to take this opportunity to explain a few things to you."

I nodded. "What if Charlie comes back and sees you? You did break in to a police cruiser after all." I raised an eyebrow.

"He's going to be another 30 minutes, don't worry."

"OK, what do you want to talk about?" Please let it be what I think it is.

"I know Emmett made it sound like the Cullen house was the Corleone house, but it's not as bad as that, I swear.

"Yes we have threats, and the family does need a protector. With my background, that title falls to me.

"Carlisle is our diplomat, he keeps a level head. It's why he appears to be the head of the family. In a way, he is, but when it comes down to it I make the final decision.

"Yes, I drink human blood from time to time. When Alice foresees a large enough threat, I need to be strong enough to fight it. There are a lot of rumors about us in the vampire world. Most of them are untrue, the most popular one is that we intend to force all vampires under Volturi rule to follow our diet. Which is the biggest load of shit I ever heard," he rolled his eyes, but barreled on. "Some vampires are properly stupid and in panic mode constantly. Any nomad traveling alone would take this information and spread it along in the hopes of building an army to fight against us. Sometimes, a few of those vampires will come looking for us, and I take care of that.

"I'm not drinking human blood for fun, I do it for the family and for you. My control has been fine for decades no matter what Edward tells you.

"You need to ask him what the deal is on that end, it's not my place to say. He will take it that I'm trying to pull the two of you apart even further if he thinks I've talked."

I shook my head quickly.

"I know you aren't together, Bella. You don't have to tell me.

"The Volturi have one rule and that's to keep our existence a secret from humans. This is why I'd already decided on you joining our family, I can't take the risk that they'll find out about you and kill all of us. They would love an excuse to get rid of us.

"Edward told you about the Volturi a long time ago but I know you remember the reputation they have. The sooner we turn you, the better. Before anyone else finds out that you're human. The five vampires were enough and that's the last risk I want to take.

"You can finish high school, but after that you're fair game."

He was gone before I could respond.

&&DB&&

OK, yeah, I was kind of pissed off. Who did he think he was? Fair game, my ass.

I had thought about this over and over, I could tell he had told me a lot of the truth. I couldn't help but feel there was just something missing. Fair game was so cold and callous. I know I mean more to them than that, was he trying to make it sound like he didn't care? Did he forget that we almost kissed at the beach?

He didn't explain either why he ran with me to the beach and not Alice.

Other than that things were settling back to normal. My life became all about finishing final exams so that I could actually graduate for the first time. Clearly not the last, after that conversation.

Rosalie and Emmett followed the trail back to Seattle, where they picked up on at least 30 scents of different vampires that were congregating in the area.

Carlisle spoke to the tribe, the Chief agreed to a truce for the time being while we solved the threat. The Cullen's wouldn't be hunted by wolves if they went on tribal land but they were encouraged not to bother crossing the treaty line.

Also, Jasper was acting like nothing had happened in the car. He was treating me like he normally did. Like a sister.

The thought made me want to vomit.

I was sitting at lunch with Alice, Emmett and Jasper. Alice was chatting animatedly about redoing her walk-in closet, while Emmett tossed a football. Jasper was, as usual, reading.

I sighed in frustration. I saw him, from the corner of my eye, glance at me. He was trying to hold back a smile. That only made me angrier.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked.

I gave him my sassiest shoulder shrug, "Nothing."

He laughed and turned his page.

Alice was looking between us with a slight smile. I immediately got nervous, with that look nothing good ever came. Her eyes went blank for no more than two seconds; when she refocused, her smile widened. I sunk into my chair, do I even want to know?

"Hey, Bella?" Alice singsonged.

I stared at her, wondering was it worth even answering.

"You know, I could really do with some help clearing out my closet," she smiled all too innocently.

I looked at Emmett and Jasper in disbelief. Emmett wasn't paying attention but Jasper was pretending to read his book still holding back a smile.

"You need help from me, the human, when you can do it in like 5 minutes vampire speed?"

She pouted. "Don't you want to spend quality time with me? Or is there only one doorknob you want to pull?"

Doorknob? What? "Why don't you just come out and say it, Alice?"

She blinked. "Say what, dear sister?"

"Say what you've wanted to say this whole lunch hour. Please, put us out of our misery."

"I'm not in any misery," Jasper said, knocking his knee against mine, smirking.

I growled in frustration, choosing not to give them any more bait.

I stood up, my chair squealing behind me. "I'm going to class early. When you feel like sharing, you know where I am."

I swiveled on the spot, trying to make a hasty exit. Except, things never work out how I want them to. My foot twisted around the chair leg, I yelped in surprise, throwing my arms out to balance myself. It was too late, I was going down and I was taking the vampire next to me along for the ride.

Jasper's book landed on the table with a thud, my hand grasped his shoulder, trying to find an anchor. His body moved with mine and I subconsciously registered that I shouldn't have been able to move him unless he wanted to.

He slipped off his chair, his arms wrapped around my back in an attempt to steady me.

We were going to the ground.

Jasper landed under me, softening my fall. My hips were straddling his waist, hands on either side of his head. I was aware how this would look to the rest of the cafeteria. One of his hand's was gripping my thigh, the other holding my waist.

"Woops," he whispered. His teeth were biting into his bottom lip as his eyes raked over me; not in embarrassment like I'd been known to do, but in a predatory way, like he had found something he'd been hunting. I could feel something under me growing harder by the second and a wave of lust washed over me, making my head drop. He was mixing his feelings with my own creating something I didn't want to show in public.

The feeling got stronger, along with another that warmed my whole body from the inside out. It made me feel content and safe. I forgot myself, staring at his pouty lips, and started to lean down. He encouraged me, pulling my back closer to his body.

"Get a room!" Someone shouted.

I blinked, and the moment was gone.

&&DB&&

Buddy – my car – was going to the scrapyard in the sky today. My dad drove my new car from the dealership back to our house. It was dark gray, shiny and with only one previous owner. I wanted Buddy back.

It had too many damn gadgets, and the blinker was on the wrong side of the steering wheel. It's going to take me a while to get used to that.

I was driving it to the Cullens house, trying to get a feel for it. OK, it wasn't so bad.

I zoomed up their driveway, enjoying the extra poke I was getting going up the hill. Buddy will always be my favorite, but he crawled up hills.

Alice ran out of the house, clapping excitedly. "Oh, Bella, you look so good in your car!" She squeaked.

Edward followed out behind her, smiling sheepishly. Great.

I parked the car and stepped out reluctantly. His hands were in his pockets as he approached me.

"Hey, Bella. It's been a while," he mumbled.

"It sure has. Thought you were never coming back to help the family."

He shrugged. "I didn't know anything about it, they chose not to tell me. Now that I do know, I will stay and help."

I nodded sharply and went to walk around him. He grabbed my arm. "Hey, look, I want us to be able to get along. I'm sorry it didn't work out the way we thought."

"You lied to me, Edward. Our relationship was a lie, of course it didn't work out," I snapped.

He threw his arms out. "What do you want me to say? I lied to protect you, OK? He always had these ideas about you, that he shouldn't have. You should keep your distance."

I wrinkled my eyebrows in confusion. "Ideas that would save my life better than you could? Ideas about telling me the truth?"

"This isn't a world for you, Bella. You're too good, too pure," he pleaded.

I laughed at him. "Why don't you finally admit why you didn't want me to become a vampire? You don't even have to say it out loud. Just admit it to yourself, maybe it will help you move on." His eyes were downcast. "They won't let you have what you want," I finished.

Edward stared at me for longer than necessary. "I don't know what you're talking about," he finally said.

I smiled softly. "You're the person I should be avoiding. Not him."

This was something that had become apparent since Jasper and I had the car conversation. Jasper said that Edward had his own agenda, one that seemingly differs from the rest of the family.

What's different about Edward from everyone else?

I am his singer.

Edward needs me to be human because Edward is obsessed with my blood. He never loved me, but he damn well wanted to because what else would keep me around? A loveless relationship sure wouldn't.

When my interest in Jasper started to develop, Edward panicked and planned to propose. He wanted me for all the wrong reasons. This was a dangerous road, and I didn't know it at the time but my dream saved my life. An obsession with blood for a vampire can only lead to one thing.

"If you can control your urges, I have no problem trying to be your friend," I whispered, and walked away.

I couldn't hear his footsteps following me and I breathed a sigh of relief. Alice came out of the woodwork, linking arms with me. "You did the right thing," she said.

The Cullen house was full of activity today. Carlisle had a day off work and Esme was lapping it up. Emmett and Rosalie were watching a movie on the couch, I joined them.

"Yo, Bells. How does it feel having your ex back in the picture? Ruining your new romance?" Emmett smirked.

I gave him a look. "What romance?"

"Bella, Bella," Rosalie said. "Don't rise to the bait."

I sighed, turning to pay attention to the movie. No more than a minute later, Jasper stormed through the door, fists balled, looking murderous.

I looked at Emmett and Rosalie. "What's wrong with him?"

"Your ex is home," Emmett laughed.

I know Jasper and I have almost kissed – twice – but why would Edward coming back make him that angry?

Jasper saw me on the couch and immediately diverted, reaching down to grab my arm. "You're coming with me," he demanded, starting to pull me towards the stairs.

Edward was infront of us in a second. "You're not taking her anywhere," he sneered.

Jasper pulled me behind him slightly, making me crane my neck around his large shoulder. "You going to try and stop me? We all remember what happened the last time you challenged me."

Edward looked like he was going to explode with anger. "Stop thinking about her like that," he screamed.

Jasper didn't say anything but Edward was tugging at his hair, shaking his head.

"What are you doing to him?" I asked.

"Nothing," Jasper replied. "I'm just thinking about some home truths."

"She wouldn't let you," Edward yelled, venom dripping from his lips.

Jasper smirked, which made Edward roar with anger.

"OK, enough of this. What the hell is going on? I'm tired of the secrets," I shouted, gaining attention.

"Jasper is under the impression that you're his mate," Edward spat.

I looked at Jasper, but his attention was on Edward. "He doesn't think that," I laughed, unsure.

"He's deluded himself that you can love him. He thinks you'll let him turn you and bear his mark," he said through clenched teeth.

My body felt funny. I wasn't sure if it was fear or sheer anticipation. The thought of Jasper being mine made a shiver run through my body. Jasper's head snapped towards me and a slow smile spread across his face. His eyes were intense and that warm feeling spread through me, which I now recognized as love.

"NO!" Edward growled. He smashed a vase and other trinkets off a nearby table. I jumped back in fear. I felt Esme grab me and move me away from Jasper, I tried to cling to him, but he told me to go.

Jasper's back went rigid as he stalked towards Edward who was throwing the definition of a hissy fit. "Control yourself or leave," he hissed.

Edward was panting heavily even though he didn't need to breath. Carlisle approached him, wrapping his arm around his shoulders. "I'll take him," he whispered.

I suppose it shouldn't shock me that Carlisle still had Edward's back even though he only wanted me for my blood.

The tension in the room left as Edward did. I blew out a sigh of relief.

Rosalie chose that moment to intervene. "Do you notice that there's always drama when you're around?" I faced her, expecting her to be angry, but she was smiling.

I turned to Jasper, he was smiling as he beckoned me to him with his index finger. Esme let go of my shoulders, giving me a nod of encouragement.

"I guess the big secret's out, huh?" He said.

I shrugged, "I didn't realize that was the secret. I've always known you wanted me."

He threw his head back in a laugh. "Well, now you know how bad."

&&DB&&

Things had changed since the Jasper revelation. Everything was making sense, including why Jasper takes such good care of me… he thinks we're mates.

I felt lighter, my life seemed to be falling into place in time for graduation.

Yeah, there was the ever-looming threat of a bunch of vamps who wanted to kill me, but nothing's perfect, right?

Alice was getting snippets of visions. Nothing was clear yet but we were getting a fair idea of how many and when.

I don't think she really cared to be honest. I wondered did she have a vision of us winning but didn't tell us in case we became too cocky. I'm not sure why I'm saying 'we' because I'll surely not be involved.

She had taken it upon herself to plan a graduation party. She invited the whole year to the Cullen house. I wasn't sure if this was a good idea, all things considered.

I mean, five vamps tried to get us at school. Imagine the smorgasbord the house represented for 35 of them.

First, I actually had to get through the graduation ceremony. My dad was there to cheer me on. We already had the college chat, him thinking I was leaving for Alaska in the fall. I was glad I had that plan.

The Cullens didn't know this but I had absolutely no intentions of losing touch with my father. I was going to email him all the damn time whether they liked it or not. He didn't need to mourn me, and I certainly didn't need to ruin his life for my own gain.

The yellow gown was the ugliest thing I ever saw. My dad had a good laugh at me in it. I really shouldn't wear that color.

My hands shook as I made my way onto the stage. The heels I had on made me clumsier than normal. I felt a sense of relief as I took my diploma. An end of an era, but the start of an amazing one.

I met with Alice when the time came to throw our caps in the air. She was beaming. "This is it, Bella! The definitive start to our lives as sisters!"

It warmed my heart to hear that. It was her way of telling me that everything was going to be OK. Especially now that Jasper confirmed after graduation I was fair game.

An arm snaked around my waist, and my body was pulled back into a much harder one. I turned my head to see Jasper smiling down at me, his eyes were sparkling.

"Well done, Bella. The first of many."

"I sure hope so, sweetcheeks."

He rolled his eyes, pulling me tighter. "Don't I get a graduation kiss? I passed too, you know," he whispered.

I turned to him fully, reaching up to meet his eyes. "If you want a kiss," I breathed, and he leaned closer, eyes hooded. "You'll have to go through my dad first."

Charlie appeared behind his shoulder and he froze.

"Um, hey, dad," I laughed uneasily.

He gave Jasper a long look before sticking his hand out. Jasper took it and they smiled at eachother. I sighed in relief. That could have been awkward.

Jasper turned back to me widening his eyes for a second. It was nice to see him panic over meeting Charlie. Finallysomeone who scares him.

Alice was bent over laughing.

"No warning, huh?" Jasper hissed at her.

The party was a massive success. The whole year turned up and then some. I suppose the allure of the Cullens was too hard to overlook.

I stayed in my graduation outfit. Alice told me the heels would benefit me, and sometimes I chose to trust her.

I was leaning against a pillar in the living room watching people dance when a shiver went down my spine. This was a sign that Jasper was close. I turned my head and there he was, beside Emmett, his eyes raking over my body.

He caught my eye and mouthed: 'Fair game'.

I swallowed thickly, nerves and excitement taking over. I sipped at my water, wetting my throat.

He began stalking towards me, like a predator approaching its prey. "You wanna go somewhere more private?" He asked.

I shrugged, playing it cool. "Sure."

He grabbed my hand, leading me towards the staircase. My heart rate picked up at the implication. He turned back to laugh. "Relax."

"I'm fine," I faked.

We were walking on the second floor hallway, when we saw Edward chatting to a bunch of kids from school. "Oh, shit," Jasper and I said in unison.

We ducked into the closest room, giggling. Edward was the last thing we needed right now.

The room was completely dark except for a flash of moonlight glinting on the mirror. I realized we were in a bathroom.

It was silent, except for our breathing. I could see his eyes reflecting the little light. It wasn't dark enough in here to hide the fire in them.

He cupped my cheek, using his other hand to pull my hip into him. My hands ran up his chest, feeling the hardness of his abs. My curiosity got the better of me and I slipped one hand underneath his shirt to feel his smooth skin.

He sucked in a breath as I trailed my fingers up and down, choosing to flatten my palm against his upper back, bringing him closer. His hands ran down either side of my hips, gripping underneath my ass to lift me. I wrapped my legs around him, moaning quietly at the contact between our lower halves.

Jasper licked his lips, staring at my own. "It's about damn time I get to do this," he whispered, before wrapping his mouth around mine.

He sucked on my bottom lip, making me gasp. I kissed him back with equal vigor tasting him for the first time. It was like honey and cinnamon; sweet and spicy.

We opened our mouths, our tongues joining together in a sensual dance. I could do this for the rest of my life.

His mouth moved down to my jaw placing wet kisses onto my neck and beyond. He pulled the thin strap of my dress down and kissed until he reached the low neckline. I threw my head back, jolting at the sensation.

My hand fisted in his hair, pulling his head backwards so I could return the kisses on his neck. He groaned quietly, turning to back me into the wall. His hips were pressed squarely against me and I wanted nothing more than to take his jeans off and feel his skin on mine. He seemed to have the same idea as he shifted my dress higher, slipping his hands underneath to grip my bare ass.

"You're so fucking beautiful," he whispered.

Our kisses became so frenzied I was close to exploding there and then. I shifted my hips, grinding against him, he groaned louder this time, pushing back. One of his hands lifted both of mine above my head, he had me in the perfect position.

Knock, knock.

I ignored it, continuing to grind against him. "Undo your belt," I demanded. His head dropped onto my shoulder, my words affecting him.

He let go of my hands using it to undo the buckle. The sound of it coming off made my insides turn to jelly. I had never been turned on like this. Everything he did made me want to scream for more.

Knock, knock, knock.

"Fuck off!" Jasper shouted.

I laughed and his mouth met mine again, shutting me up. I felt his jeans get lower, only the barrier of our underwear between us. His hard length was pressed up against me and when he moved I could feel the tip run along my center. My heart was beating through my chest in anticipation, wetness seeping through my flimsy underwear.

He kept moving against me, breathing heavier and moaning. Our kisses became sloppier as I paid more attention to the growing sensation in my lower stomach. He grazed his teeth against my neck, teasing me, heat throbbed across my body as a foreign feeling overcame me.

"Jasper!" I stuttered out. Intense pleasure overcame my senses as I gripped his hair. I wasn't able to keep quiet as my body jolted against him. His eyes were closed, he was holding back a growl as he smashed his mouth to mine, giving in to his own release.

His kisses turned more gentle as we came down from our high, our tongues lazily moving together. He rested his forehead against mine, looking into my eyes.

"You're all I want," he breathed.

"Ever," I agreed.

&&DB&&

I practically skipped to breakfast the next day. There was a new confidence in my walk. Who knew that all it took was an orgasm?

Esme made me pancakes, the absolute legend.

I was squeezing a happy face of syrup onto them when the rest of the family entered. All of them had smiles on their faces.

"You know," Rosalie began. "Something interesting happened last night."

I raised my eyebrow. "Oh?"

"Yeah, one minute I was dancing with my husband and the next, well, everyone in the room – including ourselves – seemed to experience intense pleasure."

"That must have been some dance," I replied.

"It seems a certain empath learned a new trick," she smirked.

Carlisle coughed awkwardly. "Wait, what?" I asked, confused.

"Y'all had fun last night and projected it over the damn house, you hear?" Emmett snapped. "The last thing I needed was Jessica Stanley watching me fill my underwear." His face was like thunder.

My face went bright red that we had been caught out but I couldn't stop the laughs bubbling out.

Edward looked particularly put out. "It's not funny," he said. "Mike held my shoulder while he did it. I could hear what he was thinking," he shuddered.

That didn't help, I was hysterical. Jasper walked into the room with a big smile on his face. "What did I miss?"

Emmett picked up one of my pancakes, lobbing it at him.

"Hey!" Jasper shouted, ducking. "What was that for?"

"You know what it's for!" Emmett shouted.

Jasper grinned wide, walking in my direction. He knew exactly what had happened.

Alice froze, gasping harshly. She dropped the vase she was holding. It smashed into little pieces on the kitchen floor.

Edward flashed to her side, grasping her shoulders. My heart was in my throat.

"What is it, Alice?" Edward said.

Her eyes were blank. "They're coming!" She yelled. "The decision's been made, they're coming. Today."

Panic blurred my vision. Not after my perfect night. How could I have led myself to believe this wasn't going to be a big deal. My family could get hurt. Jasper could get hurt.

I looked into his eyes, my panic wasn't reflected in them. He shrugged. "Finally, we can end this."

"What if it's too late," I whispered.

He furrowed his brow. "Too late for what?"

"Everything was falling into place. I could have helped, now I'm just a burden."

His arm wrapped around my shoulder. "I wouldn't turn you out of panic. We do this on our own terms, not theirs."

I nodded, but didn't feel reassured.

I couldn't help but feel I should have anticipated this.

&&DB&&

The Cullens were dressed in their battle gear. Who knew that was a wardrobe staple? Alice never mentioned shopping for battle gear before. Do Fendi do a battle range?

Jasper was slowly pacing at the head of the group, pointing at different areas of a map that was pinned on the wall. Alice was swiftly writing information from visions, trying to decide a time and place.

No one seemed panicked. I had reverted to a happy place – staring at Jasper and remembering what we'd done the night before.

Looking at him now, I couldn't believe how much had changed. He thinks we're mates, I know for a fact that we are. There's a pull between us that I can't deny. This is nothing like it was with Edward. This is real. I loved this man, and he'd better not get hurt so I could show him just how much.

Carlisle was leaving to meet with the wolves, they needed all the help they could get. They wanted me to stay in the house and wait it out, which sounded like the most tedious thing ever.

I didn't want them out there risking their lives while I ate popcorn with a movie. I'd be going out of my mind.

"Please let me help. I can't let you go out there without doing anything," I pleaded.

"Bella, you can't. You'll get killed. You're much safer here where we don't have to worry about saving you aswell as ourselves," Rosalie said.

I nodded. I'll get in the way for being a weak human, as usual.

I guess I'll just sit here and pray that my life is as normal this evening as it was this morning.

They were leaving. I felt sick.

Jasper flashed infront of me, giving me a searing kiss. "I'll do that and more later. We shouldn't be more than a few hours. Try not to worry, we got this."

I laughed sardonically. "Try not to worry? I know I love you and all but I'm not going to take that advice on board, that's just stupi –"

I was cut off by another kiss and a feeling of love and happiness flooding through me that softened the panic that was threaten to bubble over. "You love me?" He asked.

"Um, yeah, I," I stammered. "I thought you knew that already."

"I did, I just wanted to hear you say it," he smirked. "I love you, Bella. I'll see you tonight."

With that he was gone.

&&DB&&

I may aswell have paced a hole in the carpet. My nails were bitten down to stubs, it was not attractive. It had been 3 hours and I heard no signs of life. Every time there was a gust of wind or a rustle of leaves my ears perked up and I ran to the door. This had happened over 10 times and each time I was left disappointed.

What if none of them came back?

What if the vampires came here?

The front door flew open. I screamed.

Alice was infront of me in a second. "Good, you're OK." She looked frantic. "I don't know where they are, Bella. I can't see them," she cried.

"What do you mean?" I wailed. "Where's Jasper?"

"We had to split up, there were so many of them," she said, her eyes flashing in every direction. "Edward and I went with Carlisle and Esme. Jasper went with Rosalie and Emmett."

I tried not to be sick. "When was the last time you saw them?"

"Just after the wolves arrived. We wouldn't have been able to do it without them. I saw the blouse thief. I tore his fucking head off." I blanched at Alice's aggression. "The wolves affect my visions. I can't see anything when they're involved."

Carlisle, Esme and Edward tore through the door.

"Oh, thank God," Esme cried.

Edward ran straight to Alice, checking her over for injuries. "We thought you might have come back here. We couldn't find any more of them," he rushed out

I could smell a strange burning smell coming from them. "What is that?" I wrinkled my nose.

"That's what a burning vampire smells like," Carlisle said.

"We built a pyre and threw all the pieces in," Alice said smugly.

"So, where is everyone else?" I urged, panic starting to take control.

A scream tore through the air from outside. All of us stopped to look.

There was a flash of fire moving through the woods, weaving in and out.

Another scream of rage bellowed through the trees.

"Where is she?" A woman's voice yelled, sounding manic.

"She's in the house," a seductive voice replied. "Come get her."

I instinctively took a step back. Cullens were infront of me and behind me. If that didn't confirm this person was looking for me, I don't know what would.

Jasper appeared in the drive, facing away from us and I breathed a sigh of relief. He was alive.

I grabbed Alice's shoulder before I dropped to the ground. Her thin arm wrapped around my waist, supporting me.

"What are you waiting for?" Jasper asked. "She's right there," he pointed in my direction. "Don't you want her to suffer like James did?"

The fire stalked out of the trees, making eye contact with me.

Victoria.

"'Cause, boy, did he suffer," Jasper taunted.

Victoria's eyes never left mine as her rage built. "You're dead," she snarled, venom spitting from her lips.

Rosalie and Emmett stalked behind her. She didn't seem to notice, rage overcoming her.

They each grabbed an arm, pulling it back behind her head. She twisted and thrashed, snapping at them, but Jasper was too fast. He was on her in a second, tearing her head straight from her body.

The flash of fire flew across the drive, landing beside the front wheel of my new car.

Her body was in pieces before I could blink. Jasper took a lighter out of his pocket, dropping it onto the remains.

My mind gave up as I fell to the floor.

&&DB&&

I slept for a whole day and missed the rest of the weekend. Great.

Here I am, getting ready and pretending my family didn't just kill over 30 vampires like it was a sport.

I couldn't help but feel a little scared that I was going to have to fight someday. Then again, sitting around feeling sorry for yourself is somehow worse, at least I could protect them like they protect me.

The familys decision was made, bar Edward, that the time was right for me.

"You're coming with me next weekend," Jasper stated, as I arrived at the Cullen house. He was strolling out of the front door with Alice, hands in his pockets.

"Um, OK? Where are we going?" I asked, slamming my door shut.

He smiled. "It's about time we had a weekend to ourselves, don't you think?"

My stomach erupted into butterflies.

He laughed quietly. "That's all the answer I need."

&&DB&&

The day had come. Jasper and I were going to a property he owns in the woods. At first I was unsure, no people around for miles? Then he told me about the lake, the waterfall, and the fire in the cabin. I was sold.

We hadn't spoken about the whole vampire thing yet, and I wondered if this was his plan to get me alone and change me where I felt safe and secure.

When we arrived, I was shocked. This wasn't a dingy cabin in the middle of nowhere, it was a multi story log house with large windows and neat driveway. The yard was immaculate, he must pay someone to take care of it.

We parked behind the house and my jaw dropped open. Just there, right on our doorstep, was a massive lake and waterfall.

I could live here.

I took my stuff up into the only bedroom, gulping when I saw the giant bed. This really was going to happen.

"Are you OK?" He asked.

I whirled around, clearing my throat. "Yeah, I'm great," I said, over-enthusiastically.

He laughed quietly. "You know we don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with."

I shook my head. "It's not that. It's just, I feel like I've waited so long for this without thinking about how I'd feel when it actually happens..."

"Are you having second thoughts?" He asked, wrinkling his brow.

I pressed my hands against his chest. "Not at all. I'm just shocked that I've finally found something that I feel sure about. I've always been so fickle, changing my mind at the last minute. I think I've turned a corner," I said, surprising myself.

He pressed a kiss on my jaw. "Come on, let's go enjoy the lake."

We spent the day swimming and exploring. It was the most fun and free I'd ever felt.

After I showered, I put on some underwear with only a robe covering it. I bit my lip before turning the door handle, knowing what was waiting for me on the other side.

I puffed out a breath when I saw him. He was reclined back on the pillows, bare chest and gray sweatpants. He patted the bed.

I summoned all the confidence I had. He watched me curiously. His head tilted to the side when I didn't move.

I pulled at the tie on my robe and let it drop to the floor. I watched his eyes follow the movement, darkening by the second.

I began walking towards him. He moved to the edge of the bed to meet me.

I put a hand on his cheek, staring into his eyes. "I trust you," I whispered, giving him my permission.

I could feel his fingertips ghosting up my thighs. Goosebumps broke out all over my body, and I suppressed a shiver.

This made him happy. "You sure?" He asked, trailing a finger to my throat. "You want it all?"

I nodded slowly, staring into his eyes to show sincerity.

He leaned in to press a kiss against my stomach. Arching my back against him, he pressed more until he got to my panty line. I fisted a hand in his hair, pulling it back so I could lean down to kiss him.

This was the first time since before the battle, and my God I had missed it. We didn't waste any time, opening our mouths, trying to fight for dominance.

He grabbed my waist, twirling me on my back. My legs wrapped around his hips as he trailed wet kisses down my neck. He pulled the straps of my flimsy bra down until it was just hanging there, useless.

"Please," I begged. "Touch me."

He looked me in the eyes, before roaming them down my exposed body. A hand ran up my thigh, over my stomach until it reached my chest. His fingers lightly brushed over the peak, making it pebble at his cool touch. He reached down and put his mouth over the skin making me push my back into him.

I was gasping and pleading for more when I felt him pull my panties down. I nodded and reciprocated by pushing his sweatpants. He didn't have anything on underneath.

The V low on his hips became visible before everything sprang loose. My eyes widened at the size, but I lost attention when I felt his mouth on my inner thigh.

"Can I kiss you, Bella?" He asked. My whole body throbbed with anticipation when I realized he didn't mean my mouth.

I nodded, as he inched closer and closer until finally his cool tongue was sucking on my flesh. I moaned loudly, unable to hold it in.

He continued in a rhythm until I felt the tell tale hot flashes burning my skin, as I came undone beneath him.

He kissed up my stomach, lifting one of my thighs to hitch me over on top of him.

I could feel his hard length beneath me, no barriers. He twitched at the sensation. The wetness had me slipping on him, and I began to grind gently until I could feel the tip poking at my entrance.

We both gasped. His eyes were black, lust practically dripping from them.

He flipped me onto my back again, lifting one of my thighs around his waist. His length was pressed right against me, if I could just inch forward slightly…

"Ah, ah, ah," he reprimanded, pulling back slightly.

"Don't you want it?" I teased.

He smirked. "I just want to be sure I see your face when I'm inside you for the first time."

I gulped. He had me there.

Slowly, he rubbed himself on my center making me wriggle with pleasure. The pressure increased as he pushed himself inside.

His head dropped and he fisted the pillow. "Damn Bella, you're so hot." he growled.

I must have felt hot to him because he was much colder than normal inside of me and it felt so good. I pushed into him, sheathing him further.

We gasped in unison. He was filling me the whole way.

He began to push in and out, slowly, as he caressed every inch of my skin. "I love you, Bella," he said, his voice thick with emotion.

"I love you, Jasper," I replied. "Forever."

His eyes flicked to mine. "You ready for this?"

I nodded. "You know I am."

He picked up the pace, sweat was starting to form on my skin. For the second time that day, pleasure exploded all over my body as Jasper's teeth sank into my throat.

Hi everyone, hehe. I've been a reader for so long but I thought it was time to stick some of my writing on here to add to the fandom. I hope you enjoyed it. Leave me a wee review if you have the time.

P.S. can anyone tell my first car broke while in the middle of writing this lol? and yes I did cry a lot hahaha.