AUTHOR'S NINTH NOTE

Oh, God! It's finally over! This fic has been putting the rest of my life on delay so I'm relieved that I'm done, even though a bit sad. This chapter is again more free and filled of my imagination. As it's the last chapter, which means that it needed to resolve some things, I also made it longer than the others. Again, thank you to you who have been reading the whole poem and I hope the last chapter lives up to your expectations. Let's do this...

5.

Suddenly air refills your lungs
The hands are pulled off your face
"What were you doing to him?!"
John... His words fill the killer's place

You gasp until your vision clears
Explains how it all happened
John curses repeatedly over and over
In the end it was just like you had imagined

The killer is taken briskly away
John's focus fully changes to you
His gaze is different now than before
Now when he knows what you've been through

Maybe it's pity?
Maybe he's completely unaware?
To you it doesn't matter
At least he looks at you with care

He holds his phone to his ear
Paces restlessly while he talks
His words declares that it's finally over
"Send an ambulance. Yes, from here to Barts."

He goes on to check your pulse
Presses his fingers against your skin
You're feeling yourself relax under their touch
Almost have to resist the urge to lean in

Ambulance staff enters and get to work
Swiftly they lift you off the bed
"One, two, three." they steadily count
John is there to secure your head

The drugs were switched hours ago
Against this torture they no longer allay
Does John see the pain in your features?
He breathes deeply and looks another way

There isn't going to be a wait
The ambulance has already arrived
A nurse asks if John wants to join them
He hesitates, doesn't know what to decide

You sit up with your last powers
The medics gently push you back down
They don't understand, you have to see!
John glances towards you with a frown

You have no energy for a struggle
In the end you just have to surrender
"Lay down, Mr Holmes. It'll be fine."
No, nothing will if you can't remember

You manage to look below the stretcher's edge.
Why should John have forgiven you for your crime?
If this is the last time you'll ever see him
Let me just memorise him one final time...

But then you see him step into the ambulance
Taking his usual seat by your side
"Please, give him something for the pain."
And your relief is almost impossible to hide

The vehicle moves calmly on the roads
The way it rocks you makes you tired
It's too difficult to keep your eyes open
Now when you've done what was required

John sees how you're persisting
After all, that's what you always do
"Sherlock, relax. No need to fight it."
And for once you know that's actually true

So you're allowing your body to let go
Soon your mind becomes overtaken too
And you whisper softly as it happens
Only two words: "...Thank you..."

John says nothing in reply
For a moment only silence exist
The answer isn't given in any words
Only by him placing his palm on your wrist

You turn your lower arm upwards
Make your fingers grasp around his hand
And when your grip loosens he holds on
Guiding you securely into dreamland

Things can't be like they were before
That much you've already been shown
But for now you lose consciousness without worry
Because John is here and you're not alone

AUTHOR'S FINAL NOTE

And there it is! I'm done and the ending is bittersweet and so much Hurt/Comfort it can be. I'm crying over here, okay?! And yes, change "Thank you" to "I love you" if you want to. I'm aiming to write platonic super-close friendship but you can interpret it as you want. I would like also to hashtag this chapter #john'sbloodyguiltyconscience. Especially that part when he looks away because he sees that Sherlock is in pain and knows that he is the primary cause of it. My favourite part is the one with that "At least he looks at you with care". Yes, in general I'm very pleased with this ending. And again, I know I've written Sherlock as extremely needy but I thought it fitted the situation and after that has happened, he's trying to enjoy every moment with John because he doesn't know how long it will last.

Now when I'm done, pleeeease comment your thoughts and favourite the story if you liked it!

Thank you!