Dear readers,

To everyone who came here for an update… a thousand apologies. A million, even.

MTMDF is my biggest fanfiction to date, and, as you can see, the fanfiction in which my learning curve as a writer is most visible, since it's also my very first. That's simultaneously extremely flattering and extremely embarrassing-I began writing it to cope with a very bad situation IRL and my life has changed completely since then. So many people have interacted with it-still interact with it, in fact, which surprises me-and so many of them give me positive feedback that I feel guilty for the way I've left this story, especially because it helped me get through such a dark place.

I have tried continuing it in the almost two years since my last update. However, I'm such a different person from the one who started writing this that I don't think I can promise to finish this and mean it.

To be clear, I am discontinuing this story. I probably won't finish it.

I'm sorry. I really am. Even those of you who told me what they didn't like about MTMDF were doing it to help me tell the story better. (I appreciate it, by the way. As a better writer I can agree with a lot of your criticisms.) And here I am… writing this.

Quite honestly I feel like a garbage person. But, also quite honestly, if I try to pick this story up again now, I won't tell the story I wanted to tell when I started. I don't even remember what story that was anymore. (This was before I did outlines, so you can blame my rebelliousness for that, lol.) Some people might be okay with me telling a different story, but I don't know how to do that with what I've already done, so I'll just leave it.

Why am I writing this then? You all deserve to know. As bad as it is to simply stop like this, I think it's worse to give you hope that won't be realized. You can imagine for yourselves what happens in the story after this. You can even explore if you want. (Let me know if you do.) (I'm getting a little big-headed, aren't I. I'm just covering all my bases here. I wouldn't mind seeing more of this premise anyway.) Thank you, each and every one of you, for your time and your attention. Thank you. Here's a virtual cookie plate! Take as many as you like; there's more. If you want a hug before you go, that's yours too. You have no idea what you've done for me, and I can't put it into words.

Who knows, I might someday gain the distance and experience necessary to make something out of this tangled web after all. But I won't count on it, so you shouldn't either. I have other stories and other fandoms, but as far as I'm concerned, this one is staying incomplete.

You can find me on Tumblr (laurusalexandercrown) and on AO3 (fanficcornerwriter19), if you want to yell at me for any reason.

Thanks, guys. A bunch.

~ Alex.