A/N: Thanks to everyone who's followed/favorited and/or is reading but not reviewing!:)
GeekGirl2-I'm glad you enjoyed it! I wanted Elsa and her father to actually communicate properly for once...Elsa herself is better at explaining herself and talking about important things now, and while her dad still doesn't like magic, he does care about her. He just doesn't know what to do with her, really. (Not saying that's okay, obviously, but I wanted the fact that he does care to actually be clear since he has quite honestly treated her like crap in the past./) Elsa's still a little nervous around him but she loves him and her mom, so she still wants them to come back and visit.:)
Elsa Tomago- The catch is they don't even need four. The characters don't know it, but they only need two. However which two is the question.;) They just assumes they needed everyone present to do it lol. One reason Elsa asked Agdar about it is simply because she knows he will tell her the "pessimistic" view of magic and right now she needs that AND Anna's optimism so she can eventually come up with a realistic happy medium, if that makes sense. And she still rather wants his approval even if she claims she's not trying to anymore.:P
IndyGirl89- I thought it was about time that the two of them were able to do that.:) I'm so glad you liked it!
On to the story!
Elsa found Anna and the others out in the stables giving a very grumpy looking white horse a bath. She did not want to get her dress Rapunzel had let her borrow wet, so she just waved and stayed a safe distance away to watch.
"Hi Elsa! Come help us finish washing Maximus!" Anna shouted happily.
Elsa thought she saw Maximus give her a HELP ME look. She stifled a giggle. "I don't think Maximus wants a bath," she said, clearly amused.
Anna's eyes twinkled as she carried a soapy bucket of water toward Elsa. "Maybe you want a bath," she teased.
"Do not dump that on me!" Elsa exclaimed, but she was laughing.
"Aw, why ever not?! It's just water!" Anna was giggling. Whenever she teased Elsa, she would make sure the older girl wasn't mad or upset, but otherwise teasing Elsa was fun. Right now Elsa was laughing, so Anna knew it was okay to tease her. "Ready?"
"Don't you-" Elsa yelped as Anna tossed the bucket of water towards her, and the water instantly froze into an arch of ice before ever touching her.
"Aw rats." Anna was completely unsurprised. She threw the bucket aside and gave Elsa a hug.
Olive stared, thinking that the ice mage did have good reflexes and reaction time, but not for actual fighting. Elsa reacted pretty much instantly. But she doesn't really do that when she's fighting...this means she can, though. "Cool."
Elsa knew Anna was getting her all wet, but she would not push Anna away when she was giving her a hug. Not now, not ever, not unless she thought it was somehow dangerous for Anna to do so.
"Did you have a nice talk with Dad or...?" Anna whispered in Elsa's ear.
"Yes. I told you I'd be fine." Elsa hugged Anna back and tugged her out of earshot of their friends. "Honestly, Papa was very nice to me, and he didn't make any kind of fuss. He doesn't like my magic, but I knew that already. I am trying to not worry about it anymore. What matters that he cares, and I know he does. I asked them to come visit for the festival."
Anna frowned. Obviously Elsa genuinely believes that, but was Dad really nice to her like he should be? Or was he just doing what he thought he was "supposed" to? That I am not sure about. "Why did you do that?"
"Because I want us to be able to do something as a family. Anna, you don't need to worry about me. I can always retreat to my room or the castle gardens if I need to." Besides, with Anna there I am fairly certain I would be fine anyhow. Elsa looked down at her hands and then back at Anna. "I still do not understand it, but I really appreciate everything you do for me," she added. "Especially the way you just treat me like a normal person."
"But you shouldn't have to do that in the first place. You're supposed to feel safe to be...you at home. And you don't need to thank me for doing stuff I should be doing anyways!" Anna squeezed Elsa's pale, cool hands reassuringly; then worried she might be hurting Elsa's sore arm and let go of that one. "Sorry, I didn't mean to squish that hand if your arm still hurts some."
Elsa shook her head and gave Anna a rueful smile. "I don't mind you 'squishing' me. Come on, Anna, you know me. I would go off by myself sometimes anyway, whether I'm upset or not. And I do need to thank you, because it means everything to me. I would not be alive today if it wasn't for you." I know that, and that is not me being morbid. It's just a fact.
"Every time I see you with Mom and Dad, you're all anxious and jumpy! Like more than usual-sorry Elsa that doesn't sound nice but it's true-so why would you go and purposely put yourself in a situation where you'll feel like that?" Anna didn't address Elsa's other comment because that knowledge was still a little scary to Anna, to know she was the only reason Elsa was still alive. She wondered what Elsa would do if something happened to her. I don't think I want to know honestly...
Elsa smoothed her skirts and sat in a pile of soft clean hay in the shade of the stables. Anna plopped down next to her. How do I explain that to Anna when I can't explain it to myself...? "I love them and miss them quite a lot, even though they do make me feel anxious," she said slowly.
"I don't want you to feel like that!"
"But Anna, you have given me plenty of healthy coping skills by now. I know what to do when I feel that way. You want to see our parents, don't you?" Elsa asked hopefully. "And Papa hugged me. He told me to master my magic..."
I hope Dad had good motives for telling Elsa that... "Yeah, I do want to see them, but-"
"Then let me handle it," Elsa interrupted quietly. "Please. This is important to me. I really do not want our family all split up because of me again. If you want to do something for me while Mama and Papa visit, just be the same sweet Anna you always are. Don't fuss at them. Don't give Papa an evil eye because he says something you don't like. Don't treat me any differently than you normally do-you don't have to...protect or hide me from them. Just you being around-even not saying a word-helps me." Please understand, Anna. Please.
Anna frowned, but she nodded. I don't wanna hold Elsa back from trying to do stuff that pushes her out of her comfort zone, but I still can't help worrying about her. "All right, fine," she said out loud. But if I see Elsa have even one of her panicky anxiety episodes, and I know it's because of something Dad did or said, I'm gonna chew him out for that! And I will protect her from our parents hurting her if I have to, so there. They never mean to make her upset but it still happens. Anna gave Elsa a hug and just held her tightly. "I have got lots of friends but you'll always be my best friend, Elsa," Anna announced.
Elsa didn't think she would ever understand why Anna said things like that-didn't noisy rambunctious Anna ever get tired of her?-but it made her very, very happy all the same. "I'm so grateful to have you back. I know it has been over a year now, but it's still special for me."
Anna didn't like that Elsa still felt like her own sister caring about her and being around her was out of the ordinary, but she definitely understood it. I mean, I feel like that too. Sometimes it's like Elsa's some magical dream and I'm scared I'll lose her again. Like...that mess with the white trolls. She grabbed Elsa's hand and pulled her to her feet. "Well I'm glad to have YOU back. You kind of worry me a lot, but you also make me happy, too."
Elsa smiled. "I suppose it's mutual then. I would agree with that statement." I need to try to not worry Anna, though. She does so much for me, that should be the least I can do. "What exactly do I do that's worrisome? I shall do my best to fix those things."
"Elsa, you don't take care of yourself. Like I know you feel mostly happy and you're not, like, purposely trying to harm yourself, but you never take care of, you know...you. Like when you get hurt and then don't rest. Or, when we're at home, working late into the night and then getting up at your usual stupid early wake up time. That's worrying to me." Anna hesitated before adding, "You also still inwardly treat yourself like garbage. I hate that. I don't want you thinking you don't deserve nice things."
"But I'm just happy, I'm grateful that you're willing to-"
"That's exactly what I mean!" Anna interrupted. "You act like I'm doing something out of the ordinary and heroic for just...treating you properly."
"Do you expect me to take that for granted?" Elsa asked quietly, clearly confused. I don't understand. I won't ever take Anna's kindness for granted. Never, ever.
"Well, noooo, not exactly, but...I guess maybe I do," Anna amended. "You're my friend and my sister. That's what friends do. Take care of each other. I mean, I'm glad that you're happy, but I don't want you to be thinking oh my gosh that nutty Anna is being nice to me, that's so weird and amazing. Or-hey, you stop giggling! It's not funny!"
Elsa tried to stifle her giggles, but she just gave Anna a hug. "Anna, I think you are just going to have to deal with that. It's just...me. You being kind to me does make me happy, and I will be grateful for it. It doesn't mean I think of myself as some worthless thing, it's just..." she trailed off, trying to think of some way to express what she meant. A year and I still can't express how I feel verbally very well. Oh well. "It's just very reassuring when you know you have someone that is always going to be there for you, even if you make horrible mistakes," she said finally. "That and you are always so understanding when I'm...having issues."
Anna scowled. "What do you think I'm gonna do, tell you to get it together and say you're upset over nothing? That's mean and it wouldn't help!"
"Sometimes it is nothing."
"No, it's not nothing," Anna insisted. "It might be you imagining something, but that's still not nothing. It feels like something to you. That counts. You can't help it if you feel yucky sometimes."
Elsa was quiet for a moment, but she looked happy. Anna is right. "Let's go see what the others are doing. They probably think we disappeared."
"Okay. But you just think about what I said!" Anna figured if Elsa was done discussing things, there wasn't much point in continuing to talk to her at the moment because she wouldn't listen. At least she seems happy. That will have to be good enough!
Soon Rapunzel was leading everyone through the streets of Corona on a mini tour. "See, there's the mural that made me first start wondering if I was the lost princess!"
"You look the same," Anna teased, tugging Kristoff over to the large mural.
"I do not!" Rapunzel protested, but she was giggling.
"Eh. She might be right," Eugene said thoughtfully, though it was obvious he was trying not to laugh.
Elsa trailed behind them and Olive, who was not saying much but clearly was enjoying all the new sights and sounds in Corona. Elsa wished she had just stayed back at the castle. With Anna and Rapunzel with Kristoff and Eugene, she felt a tiny bit left out, even though she had no wish to have a significant other herself at all and didn't want to talk and talk like Anna did. Also she was quite certain Anna would happily include her if she asked, but she wanted to let her little sister have time with Kristoff. She did not think Olive wanted to talk either, and besides, Olive probably didn't like her anyway.
Anna ran back to Elsa and tugged her over to the others. "Quit lagging behind, Elsa! I want you to have fun too." Then she motioned for Olive to join them too. I wonder if Olive misses that boy that was with her in Dover when she first found us. Elsa I can read, she's just trying to be considerate and doesn't really like talking with groups if she doesn't have to, but I'm SURE she wants to be included.
"Sure is hot," Olive commented. "Can you cool us off, El-Queen Elsa?"
"You don't have to call me that, Olive," Elsa said firmly. She didn't particularly want to bring extra attention to herself and the rest of the group by cooling the air around them though, so she didn't. She would just deal with being hot until they arrived back at Corona castle. "I don't want to draw extra attention to us by using my magic."
"But Elsa, there's literally guards thinking they're being inconspicuous in front of and behind us," Rapunzel pointed out. "People might not be acting all weird around us but they sure know that I'm the Lost Princess and you and Anna are the Arendelle royalty. They're just not bugging us because it's rude."
"This isn't my country. I don't have a right to do that." Elsa thought she probably would have cooled the air like Olive wanted if she was back home in Arendelle, but she also supposed that it wouldn't be as hot there in the first place anyway. In Arendelle most people were used to her by now. In Corona they didn't know her at all beyond being Arendelle's 'Snow Queen' and the Coronian princess's cousin. Even now Elsa felt like there were so many eyes staring at her, and she hated that. I wonder if there is a way I could go around and not be recognized. I think I would like that better.
Anna squeezed Elsa's chilly hand, knowing quite well shy Elsa did not want to attract extra attention if she didn't absolutely have to. "Let's just get in the shade out of the sun. That'll be cooler," she suggested. "Also let's go back soon. I'm tired." Anna really wasn't all that tired, but she knew Elsa was not going to say she wanted to go back to the castle. This wasn't like speaking up for Elsa in Anna's mind; no one was directly asking her a question like before. If that was the case then she would wait and see if Elsa would speak up herself again. I'm just being considerate right now. Elsa would be totally fine if we stayed out longer. She just won't be enjoying herself.
I know you're just saying that for my sake, Anna, Elsa thought fondly, but she didn't say anything. Elsa wondered what her ice dragon Linnae was thinking about as she slept. Did the dragon dream, or was she just sleeping and not dreaming at all? What if those white troll creatures tried to somehow hurt Linnae? "Anna, do you think I should wake Linnae up?" she asked now. Elsa rubbed her sore arm, thinking about the trolls. I feel like something is not quite right, but I'm not sure if there's actually something wrong or if I'm being paranoid...
Olive gave her a sideways glance. "You know something about those white troll creatures that we don't. What is it?"
"I'm not sure. I just have this feeling that something is wrong-I don't know if I am being paranoid or if something is really not right," Elsa said honestly. If it was Anna, she would probably know one way or the other. But I definitely don't.
Anna frowned, but then she had an idea. "Does your arm hurt more all of a sudden, or are you just rubbing it because you're thinking?" That should tell them whether Elsa could tell if something was really wrong or not. We've got to help Elsa learn how to control Linnae soon...I almost forgot...
"The former, but only a little," Elsa said honestly. She glanced back toward the Corona castle; Linnae was still sleeping on the roof and Elsa worried she might either be hurting her dragon by leaving her asleep for so long or the white trolls were somehow attacking Linnae remotely. Or, of course, my arm is just sore and it doesn't mean anything at all. "I think I should go back and check on Linnae."
"Okay. Maybe she can tell us if there's something wrong, Elsa," Anna suggested. "You guys can keep sightseeing! I'm gonna go back with Elsa." She linked arms with her sister and started back toward Corona castle.
Olive didn't say anything for a few minutes, but then she spoke up. "I think I'll go back too. I'm supposed to be here only for dealing with the magic issue and then return home eventually, and I want to see what Linnae says."
Rapunzel and Eugene exchanged glances, and Kristoff shrugged. "The other girls are probably right," Kristoff pointed out. "Linnae may be able to give us some more information we won't be able to get otherwise. The rock trolls at home might be able to help too, but we can't talk to Grand Pabbie until we get back to Arendelle."
"Linnae, please tell us what's wrong," Elsa said quietly but firmly awhile later. The dragon continued trying to shelter Anna and Elsa with her wings and made a frustrated snorting noise. "Don't snort at us. We need information, and you are the only one that has it."
You left me asleep! Those creatures were trying to make me turn on you but they could not wake me up! Linnae's 'voice' sounded frantic to Elsa. They said I was useless and a danger to you and that was why you had not woken me up. It hurt. You need to get rid of me for now and bring me back later!
Elsa inwardly cringed and patted Linnae's nose. The dragon blinked at her sadly. "I'm sorry, Linnae," she said softly.
"What did she say, Elsa?" Anna asked. I know Elsa's dragon is sad, but I can't understand her.
Do not tell her, Elsa. Please. I do not wish her to know. Linnae sat and put her front paws over her icy eyes. You should get rid of me and bring me back once you have mastered your magic. You had no business making a life construct like me then. You still do not. Not yet. I am sorry, Elsa, but it is true.
Elsa fiddled with her skirt nervously. "Linnae said to please not tell you..." What am I supposed to do? Isn't dissolving Linnae cruel? I'd be killing her. She says I can bring her back eventually, but what if I'm never an ice master? What if I can't? I don't even want to be part of that League of Seven thing. Is it possible for me to be an ice master and not be part of it?
"...Oh." Anna couldn't help feeling a little hurt, because Linnae was from Elsa, and Linnae not wanting her to know something felt like Elsa herself not wanting her to know something. Then she felt Olaf hugging her leg, and that made her feel better because Olaf was also from Elsa. Linnae seemed to retain more of her creator's fragile easily hurt emotions than Olaf, who mostly just had Elsa's childish and happy emotions, and represented his creator's and her sister's happy childhood memories.
Linnae was a guardian construct, not merely a companion like little Olaf, and she felt useless when she couldn't or wasn't allowed to protect 'her' humans. Evidently leaving her asleep-and hearing things from those white troll creatures-did not help one bit. Anna decided she felt bad for the ice dragon-and Elsa, because those feelings must also belong to her to some extent as well. I'm going to ask her about that later. Elsa's dragon feeling like that is bad enough, I won't have Elsa feeling that way too. "Linnae, just at least tell Elsa everything, okay? We need your help," she said gently, patting Linnae's neck.
The dragon blinked at Anna. Tell Anna all of what I say. I have changed my mind. She is trustworthy, Linnae informed Elsa. We are lucky to have her.
"Linnae says you are trustworthy," Elsa told Anna with a smile. To Linnae she 'said', Yes, we are extremely lucky to have Anna. "The problem before was that the white trolls were trying to force her to turn on us, but they could not wake her up. However they were also telling her some cruel things and it made her upset." She paused before adding quietly, "And she's still saying I need to get rid of her and bring her back later on after I have mastered my powers."
Anna frowned. "Maybe she's right, Elsa. I mean shouldn't Linnae know that better than us? She's purely from your magic, so she's probably got better magical knowledge than you do consciously, and I don't mean that as a bad thing, I just mean your regular human self can't consciously know everything having to do with magic. I don't think it's mean if she knows you'll bring her back once you're able to safely. Right, Linnae?"
Linnae nodded and nuzzled at Anna's hair. Inform Anna she is completely correct, Elsa. Your ordinary human self has tried too hard to suppress her magical knowledge for too long. You did not practice as a child and your good instincts are not enough yet.
"I can't just kill her!" Elsa protested. That is just horrible. Why is this even a discussion? "Linnae says you are 'completely correct'," Elsa said softly.
You would not be killing me, Elsa. I am from you. You are not dead. Your magic needs help. I believe getting rid of me would help you at present. You are so worried about not being able to keep me from being...poisoned. If you recreated me later on you would be easily able to do that. Linnae wrapped one of her big icy wings around Elsa. Elsa, you need to do what is necessary. You cannot risk those creatures gaining control of me. It would be dangerous for you and it would hurt me. You dissolving me temporarily would not hurt.
Elsa buried her face in Linnae's neck. "What if you sleep again? You said they couldn't wake you up," she said now.
No! No! That is torture. I would much prefer you get rid of me for now. I would just be...gone temporarily, back inside you as part of your magic with no separate consciousness, and it would not hurt me. Those creatures scare me. You know I am just a facet of your own emotions. Therefore you can bring me back anytime you wish later on. Linnae paused and then added, I know that you are scared of the League of Seven. You well should be. But you can master your powers and not be part of it.
Elsa jumped and glanced at Anna. "I'm worried about Anna."
You should be, 'said' Linnae, but it wasn't her voice. Then Linnae shook herself all over, like a dog might, and stared right at Elsa. Do it now. You need to protect Anna. The creatures will kill her through me if they feel like it. Do you know what she is?
Elsa stepped protectively in front of Anna and pushed her little sister behind her. Anna reached for Elsa's hand and gave her a strong squeeze. "She's not magical. Linnae, tell those trolls they do not need her for anything," Elsa ordered. Elsa ignored the worried looks from Corona guards and Rapunzel's parents and her own. Elsa, be ready for anything. Anything.
"Yeah, I'm useless. Super useless to the trolls," Anna said quickly. "They said so!"
Linnae fidgeted and seemed to be fighting something. Yes, she is useless to them on her own, but she also controls the most powerful mage currently alive. One that is-sorry Elsa-not very knowledgeable about her abilities. That makes Anna dangerous to them. She makes you stronger. Much.
Elsa glanced back at Anna, who was still holding her hand. What do I do now? She bit her lip and just said quietly, "Anna, I want you to go inside and take care of our parents and Rapunzel's. Now."
"No, I'll stay here, I trust you and-"
"Anna, do it now. I mean it!" Linnae roughly pushed her over, and Elsa shoved Anna out of the way to safety. Elsa stared Linnae in her icy eyes. Linnae, tell me the truth. You, not those creatures. Am I capable of keeping you safe?
Linnae closed her eyes, her wings twitching nervously. No. You cannot yet. Please, Elsa, they will make me hurt you or Anna. They are not allowed to directly hurt or kill non-mages themselves, but their society rules let them use me to do so. Linnae's head snapped towards Anna and their parents. Elsa! I can talk to you but I cannot control what I am doing. You might not care if I hurt you, but you will care if I hurt Anna.
Elsa kept her focus on the dragon, deciding to trust Anna to take care of anyone in the area. Ask them what they want from me to let all of us be, she asked mentally.
Linnae stared at her and seemed to relax slightly. We need to be able to control how that amount of power is used, a troll said through Linnae. You must never be part of the League of Seven. You must stay away from your power multiplier or kill it.
Elsa bit her lip hard, having a sick feeling she knew just what that "power multiplier" was. It's Anna. I know it's Anna. She glanced over at one of the castle windows; Anna was standing there with their mother, waving and giving her a thumbs up. Closing her eyes, she concentrated hard and sent back, What will you do if I decline? The white trolls were magical creatures; she should be able to mind-message them as easily as she did her dragon, right? Elsa stumbled back when she felt many replies flooding back.
Kill the power multiplier.
You won't decline.
Force you to return here.
The fire mage will die.
Time may change slightly.
Elsa put her hands over her ears, as if that might stop the onslaught inside. Stop it! Stop, stop, stop. It hurt, and she had no idea how to shut the messages away and force it to stop. This wasn't her usual magic use, and love will thaw wasn't going to fix it. Ice flooded through her, as if the attack was external instead of inside.
Olive hadn't heard or seen most of what had just transpired when she walked over to Linnae and Elsa, but she knew enough to know that Elsa magic trouble meant she should probably fetch Anna. "Linnae, what happened?"
I cannot fix it. She experimented with something new with her magic with the wrong creatures. Linnae stared at Olive and then lay down. Get Anna. She may help. I am going to sleep. Torture is preferable to harming my humans I must guard. Elsa's ice dragon was determined to do whatever she could to keep the people she loved safe, even if it hurt her.
Olive was puzzled but nodded. "Got it. Q-Elsa, let's go find Anna. Come on," she said firmly. When Elsa didn't answer, she hesitantly reached to just guide her inside, but immediately jerked her hand back, her skin crackling with bitterly cold frost. Elsa was absolutely freezing, even though her magic wasn't leaking out at all or otherwise making what Elsa called a power mistake.
Anna, who had been watching from the window, ran to find a blanket and then darted back outside shouting Elsa's name. "Hey, Olive, go inside and calm everybody down, okay? Tell them everything's under control and Elsa just hurt herself doing so. That'll be fine."
"...Is it?" Olive asked dubiously.
"Yes," Anna said pointedly. "Just do it. My sister can handle this." With help. My help, Anna thought to herself. Those stupid trolls told us as much.
"She can't even hear us. How-"
"She doesn't need to hear us! Please, Olive, just do as I say! I'll explain later." Anna waited until satisfied that the plant mage had gone inside and Linnae was sleeping again before turning her focus back to Elsa. I may not know what happened, but I know I can help her.
Elsa was still standing there with her eyes scrunched shut, her hands over her ears, not really registering anything going on around her. Please make it stop. I'm scared I might pass out or something and they'll control me too. Or read my mind.
It really hurts. You're not getting in my memories, you ridiculous creatures!
WE CANNOT DO THAT! the creatures screeched in frustration. Elsa yelped in pain and surprise, and she somewhat sensed someone picking her up. What...stop. What if it's-why can't I stop this, I know it's possible...
Anna glanced around and then just headed for the nearest empty clean stall in the stables. That would be quiet and safe, and it had been nice in there talking to Elsa earlier. Then she ordered the stablehands to leave, saying they could go consult King Thomas if they questioned listening to her, knowing her uncle would back her up. To her surprise, they all immediately obeyed her. Wow. They actually listened. I'm impressed. Once she was sure no one was around, she began talking to Elsa, not caring whether she could hear or not. "Elsa, you're not panicking. Shut those stupid creatures out and come back. I know you can. Maybe your magic can force them out and not let them talk to you. Cause I know that's what is going on."
I have Anna here with me. She came back. Relieved tears ran down Elsa's cheeks, and she felt safer in Anna's warm arms. Elsa, you need to tell her what's wrong or she can't help, some bit of logic told her. I don't know how. Can I talk? It's like I can think, but I'm lost somewhere under an...an avalanche of horrible things. "I...I can't...ex...explain what-"
Your useless human is going to die, one message stood out to her, blazing like fire.
Elsa's words broke off entirely. Anna didn't press for more; she just hugged the older girl close and didn't let go. Try again, Elsa. Anna is here. They are trying to hurt you and it's working. "I...can't...shut..it...off. It...it hurts. Literally and-Anna I can't lose you!"
"You're not going to lose me. Hey even if I died you get to see me again eventually. You know that." Anna could tell Elsa was still freezing, but she wasn't shaking so much anymore.
Not eventually. I would let someone kill me if I lost Anna, Elsa thought vehemently, but she was not going to tell Anna that. A sudden thought slammed into her. The white trolls wanted to kill Anna because they wanted to control her and steal her magic. If she was dead, they could never do that. They needed her alive but helpless, not dead and gone. It may be morbid, but I don't care. It's true. She messaged back to the creatures, You lay one finger on my 'power multiplier' and I will die. You will never have a chance to control me. I swear it.
The horrible messages abruptly ceased, as if surprised by getting an answer. You would kill yourself for an ordinary human? Ridiculous.
Elsa smiled and relaxed. Check. I have a weapon against those things, so there. She messaged back darkly, I have attempted before. That "useless human" saved me. You touch her and there is nothing to stop me, you horrid things. Anna had told her she should accept her weaknesses and use them to her advantage? Fine. She would then. "Thank you, Anna," she whispered.
A gravelly voice replied, We will abide by this. We will not touch the girl.
See to it that you don't, Elsa shot back.
"I knew you could do it," Anna said now, rubbing Elsa's shoulder, trying to get her to relax. "What...fixed it? And are you really okay?"
"You did. I told them if they laid a finger on you, I would die." Elsa's quiet voice was confident and matter of fact.
"Elsa! Why'd you say that?!" Anna sounded horrified. Elsa, what the heck?! What is she even thinking? Is Elsa okay? Why would she admit something like that...?
"Because they need me alive, that's why." Elsa was quiet for a moment before she added, "You told me I should accept and use my weaknesses to my own advantage instead of...hating myself for them." Maybe I shouldn't have said that...
"Yeah, I did, but...I know you weren't exaggerating, and I don't like that. Elsa, what if something happened to me that was ordinary causes or something, like if I got really sick? I don't want you to...do that..." Anna clutched Elsa tightly.
Elsa was silent for a long time before she answered. I'll be honest. Anna won't be angry, and I know she would understand. "I don't think I would last very long if something like that happened," she said slowly. "I think I could try for awhile, but I'd just...I couldn't...stay here without you. I think I'd die without me...you know...purposely doing anything." At best I'd just be a shell of myself and go back to my room and wait. Just wait. I can't function right without Anna.
Anna had nothing to say to that, so she just sat there with Elsa for awhile and was quiet. Of course Elsa had said that. It was Elsa. She might be happy now, but that just shows how much she's not okay. I hate it. I don't want Elsa to rely on me like that. She doesn't have any value she places on herself at all. She's happy but still doesn't think to fight for herself. She just fights for herself because she wants to protect others. "Are you...okay now?"
"Yes. I think that I need to do what Linnae wanted though. That was horrible. No wonder Linnae said she didn't want to go back to sleep. I still have an awful headache, but I'm okay," Elsa said truthfully. I may have Anna to help me, but I don't think either of us can help Linnae like Anna did for me. She was quite sure that Anna could help her because she was just a human girl, albeit one with magic. Linnae was only magic, and she wasn't strong enough by herself to stop the white trolls from hurting or controlling her because Elsa hadn't created her properly since she did not know how.
"You can...talk to those creatures, but you aren't a telepath. That means most likely Olive and maybe Rapunzel can too. We shouldn't try that obviously, but I think we should go to see our trolls immediately when we get home." Anna knew Elsa did not like the rock trolls, but there was no other source for them to get troll knowledge from. Kristoff knew some things, but not everything.
Elsa sighed deeply and studied her hands. "I need to assure our parents and Rapunzel's that everything is all right. Then I need a nap, I think. Tomorrow we go home. I've left poor Kai and Gerda to deal with my responsibilities at home long enough," she said firmly.
"Elsa, do you really feel up to traveling tomorrow? If you de-create Linnae, it'll take awhile to get home," Anna pointed out hesitantly. And everything is not all right. I can't say that, but...I don't think this is really over.
"Kristoff has the power crystals from the rock trolls. It'll be fine." Elsa looked down at her hands and then at Anna. "Will you...ah, stay until Linnae is...gone? She loves you too. I want you there." Elsa's big blue eyes shone with tears. "I know I made Linnae, but I still really care about her. I don't want to get rid of her."
"She'll just be sort of back sleeping inside you as part of your magic, Elsa," Anna said gently. "You aren't killing her, you're just letting her be at peace until you're able to recreate her safely."
"That's like saying it would have been okay to kill me...before, because I was hurting."
"No it's not. Linnae's not a human, she's a magical life construct you can create and de-create at will. Whatever emotions and life she has are extensions of yours. And," Anna sounded choked, as if she were trying not to cry, "you can bring Linnae back anytime you want. I wouldn't be able to do that for you."
Elsa gave Anna a hug. "It's okay, Anna. I'm not going anywhere as long as you're here. At least not...because of me. I can't promise nothing will happen to me, but I can promise it will not be because of...that," she assured Anna. Never again. I won't hurt Anna by doing that to myself again.
"Thanks, Elsa. I know it, I trust you. Let's go give Linnae some help 'til you can bring her back again safely. I'll stay with you. I know she's like your guard pet and you really care about her." Anna pulled Elsa back over to the sleeping Linnae.
Elsa woke Linnae up, and the dragon seemed to be startled and literally jumped over the two girls before wrapping one of her wings around them. Thank you, Elsa. Did Anna help you see sense?
"She did. Also, I now understand why you didn't want me to leave you asleep right now." Elsa stroked Linnae's icy nose. "I'm really sorry, Linnae."
No, do not be sorry! I am happy. I shall help your magic be stronger too once I am just part of your powers again. Linnae sat in front of them expectantly and just blinked peacefully at Anna and Elsa. Hurry up before they take me over again, Elsa. I want to say one last thing. Tell Anna I say thank you for caring about us. We would not exist without her.
Elsa smiled a bit. "Linnae says, 'Tell Anna I say thank you for caring about us. We would not exist without her'," she said quietly to Anna. Linnae nuzzled Elsa's hair, and she stroked the dragon's neck. I still don't want to do this for now, but I know it's the right thing to do.
Anna will take care of you, Elsa. I shall be just part of your magic until you are able to bring me back. I am not sad, and I am from you, so you should not be sad either. Linnae was clearly okay and happy at the moment and would continue trying to reassure her worried creator. Tell Anna I say, I am trusting you to keep Elsa safe. And tell her I say goodbye for now.
"She also says to you, 'I am trusting you to keep E-Elsa safe. Goodbye for now," Elsa relayed Linnae's message to Anna, her voice shaky. Come on, Elsa, you know this is right. Do it now before those creatures hurt Linnae again. You're going to master your powers and bring her back. "Good-bye for now, Linnae. We'll see you s-soon."
It is not good-bye. I am part of your magic and you are not dissolving that, obviously! You can protect Anna without me for now. I love you, Elsa. Linnae's 'voice' was calm and happy now.
Anna squeezed Elsa's hand. "Don't worry, Linnae, I'll do my absolute best to keep her safe. I did help get her out of the white troll lair, remember. She's safe."
Linnae nodded and contentedly closed her eyes as Elsa lifted her free hand. Anna and Elsa shall be safe and I shall be back soon. The ice dragon dissolved into blue sparkles of Elsa's magic, and Elsa nearly stumbled backwards into Anna at the sudden rush of her own magical power inside her. Like Linnae had said, she was simply back as pure ice magic again inside Elsa herself.
Elsa wondered briefly if creating powerful life constructs like Linnae somehow drained her own life force.
"Whoa, are you okay?" Anna asked, clearly concerned. That was so...simple. Why is Elsa able to do that so easily? What if it hurt her? She frowned and kept an arm around Elsa's shoulders.
"I...I think so. I just wasn't expecting to feel like I was receiving magic instead of using magic..." Elsa let Anna guide her back inside, thinking she would just nap for a bit before mulling it over any more. What have I done? I know I didn't hurt Linnae, she said so and I could feel that, but...
"Oh. Well I mean that makes sense, Linnae was alive and from you, so she gave the magic you gave her back to you," Anna pointed out. Right? That must be it! I'll ask Kristoff what he thinks.
"I suppose." Elsa sounded 'off' to Anna, and Anna squeezed Elsa's hand as they went back to the guest room they were staying in while in Corona castle.
"I think maybe you should take a nap, Elsa. Would you like me to tell Rapunzel's parents and ours what happened?" Anna offered. If Elsa is not feeling great she needs to sleep. Maybe if she knows I'll take care of stuff for her, she will be willing to rest.
"...All right." Elsa smiled ruefully and shook her head. "My magic feels extremely awake right now, but the rest of me doesn't." She curled up on her bed and closed her eyes. "Thank you for making Linnae and me happy." We'll go home in the morning. I will figure everything out there. "And yes, please tell them. I trust you."
Anna decided she would go explain like she has offered, and then ask Kristoff about life constructs. Elsa saying her magic felt awake and the rest of her didn't kind of disturbed her. "Okay. I will. And, um...just, thanks for trusting me. It means a lot."
Elsa blinked in surprise at Anna. "Well, you're welcome, but...lots of people trust you."
"Maybe, maybe not, but you don't trust lots of people, so having your trust is super valuable. Besides you're my sister and I like to have my sister's trust." Anna paused before adding, "I'll go tell everyone what's what, but then I'm coming straight back here. Okay?"
"Okay."
A/N: I know I originally planned for Anna and Elsa to get home to Arendelle this chapter, but I had so much trouble figuring out how to write Linnae's disappearing for now. I finally decided it was best to keep it simple and to the point, because, well...it IS simple. And a little too easy for Elsa to do, which she doesn't like. No worries, Linnae isn't "dead"; Elsa can bring her back eventually if she wants to.:)
There will be some actual action next chapter, so hopefully it will turn out better than this one...Next chapter coming sometime soon!