Description: Everything the show failed to provide. Every single excruciatingly delicious detail of snowells that should have been a thing since season 2.

AN: I made the decision to rewrite the show in order to fit into our precious snowells. Though this is mostly canon, you can expect a lot of filling up plot holes and adding new scenes with twisting those we already have. I will do my best to make this an interesting and surprising reading despite the canon base, so I hope you will enjoy it : ) And even if not, I have to do this for myself : )

Promotional video: go to my profile for the link

There is an entire multiverse of Caitlins Snow out there, yet none of those women are me. Despite the existence of my doppelgangers, I'm still the one and only as are all the others. There is also another version of you out there, multiple yous for that matter, but they're not you. Not really. There are at least fifty Harrisons Wells, too, but only one is mine. Only one of them is the one I truly love and would not know how to live without. And it could've been so close. I might've not even gotten to know him at all. All I knew at the beginning was the version that lived on my Earth.

I have lived many years so far and there are probably more still ahead, but I can tell you right now with perfect clarity that once you find love, true love, the kind that not only seems to bind you physically to someone, but also binds your souls, you should hold on to it. No matter what. Life is messy and complicated and yes, mostly it's just painful. We get hurt, we suffer, we grow, we get stronger, we learn. But it's also extraordinary, amazing and yes, epic.

This is mine. This is my story, but I'm sure you have one that is just as equally terrifying and beautiful and full of feelings. We all have it. Because we're all just humans who try to do their best even though it doesn't always work that way.

So, are you ready for this?

"Dr. Caitlin Snow, Cisco Ramon… meet dr. Harrison Wells… from Earth Two," Barry finished with the proper introductions and Caitlin could just stand there frozen, staring at the face of the man that had died. A man that had meant so much to her once.

The moment she saw him in the cortex she truly thought she was hallucinating and she wanted to ask her friends whether they saw him as well. Yet, before she managed to find her tongue and remember how to speak, Barry introduced them all and there was silence.

Caitlin wasn't new to multiverse. She'd found out about it the moment the first breach was opened and she had been studying it in her free time ever since. Still, she'd never before met a person who actually came from one of those different, yet probably so similar in the same time, worlds. And that first person being Harrison Wells… it was all a little too much. The man she saw standing right in front of her, breathing and talking and… actually walking, though she knew now that the inability dr. Wells had suffered from had nothing to do with the accident that had allegedly left him crippled; that man looked just the same. Only then, as she kept on staring, she could actually see the small differences. His style, the hair that grew longer than dr. Wells had ever let it, the messy locks sticking out in all directions, the way he looked back at her… It was all different.

Her mind was doing its best to register that this man was a complete stranger to her, yet she couldn't seem to just separate those two because of the memories rushing back to her head the moment she laid her eyes on him…

Few years prior

Dr. Harrison Wells recruited Caitlin Snow straight from college. She didn't have to apply for a job at S.T.A.R. Labs nor did she have to look over all of her options even though deep down inside her heart she knew there was always only one choice and that was the place she eventually ended up in. The man was known for his unusual recruiting tactics, so having that in mind, Caitlin did her very best at college at the cost of her social life which was almost non-existent as she kept on studying hard, finishing high school years ahead of her peers and then already doing her doctorates and a PhD. She might've hoped to attract someone's attention with her talent and maybe then work her way up until she would be able to get a job at S.T.A.R. Labs, but never in her wildest dream she could foresee Harrison Wells actually reaching out to her so early and offering that dream job to her.

It was the beginning of the worst and the best thing that had ever happened to her.

Once the offer was made, Caitlin was too excited to even contain herself, acting all jumpy and awkward during the whole interview, yet, she did land the position. There must've been something dr. Wells saw in her all along as he later on revealed to her in confidence that the whole job interview was merely a formality. The truth was that he wanted her to work for him ever since he'd heard of her accomplishments in college.

That first memorable day he welcomed her warmly in her lab – she still couldn't truly believe she had an entire lab at her disposal! – he told her, "Remember, Caitlin, a scientist's work is never finished." She actually carried that sentence – because it wasn't really an advice, was it? – during all the time she spent working for him.

With dr. Wells everything was always unusual - from the way he offered her the job to the way they were with each other, because what was between them seemed to be far more than just a casual work relationship. It wasn't romantic, oh no, but there was most definitely something there. They quickly became good friends and whenever Caitlin felt lost or was simply frustrated with a project that didn't exactly go as planned, he was always there to offer a good word of encouragement. What mattered to her the most was that he believed in her and never stopped, even when she gave him no reasons to. He believed and maybe that was exactly why in the end she always came through somehow, achieving, yet, another great thing.

And then she met Ronnie and everything seemed to have changed.

Raymond worked really hard to get Caitlin's attention, seeing that she was way too close with the boss than was considered normal, but in the same time deducing they didn't have an affair. Which was strange, because the first time he saw them together he was so jealous that it almost drove him mad.

It took him months to finally break through the wall Caitlin had seemed to have built around her heart and she finally agreed to go out with him. Things after that escalated pretty quickly as he was the fire to her ice, always convincing her to do something exciting, something new. She even liked that, though at first he thought she'd simply kill him. He made her feel alive again by taking her scuba diving or bungee jumping and despite her hating all those extremities at first, she was incredibly brave and in the end she was always happy, drunk on the adrenaline it gave her.

Caitlin getting closer to Ronnie kind of drove a wedge between her and her boss, which couldn't have worked out better for Raymond if somebody asked him. Then Cisco Ramon joined the team and they all quickly became best friends, leaving dr. Wells behind, buried in his own lab and actually disappearing on them more and more often. He was so invested in the particle accelerator and seemed so distant that Caitlin even begun to worry about him. It was Ronnie who advised that she should stick to her own work and just let the man be. After all, dr. Wells was her boss, not her best friend, nor mentor or father figure and as hell not a potential boyfriend material. Though, of course he did leave that last one out, still noticing how she cringed at the word father.

Despite it all, in the end Ronnie got Caitlin to agree to marry him and they were on their merry way to a happy ending when he finally saw it again. By now he knew Caitlin didn't have any romantic feelings for her boss, but as the accelerator was ready and the job was done, he caught Wells looking in her direction more often than it was acceptable and that bothered him as hell.

Yet, soon enough he didn't even have the time to worry about that since there was a loud bang and everything went to hell.

Despite her own personal tragedy, Caitlin was there for dr. Wells through thick and thin.

She was the first person to come visit him in the hospital after the accident, getting there with her face still puffy from all the crying over Ronnie's death. She was there to hold his hand when it seemed like he was going to break because he couldn't walk anymore. He actually turned his face away from her then, desperate to hide all the emotions playing on it, but he still let her hold his hand. In fact, he held it right back and so strongly that she was afraid it would ache later on when he would finally let go. But she was there. She wanted to show him that she was still standing by his side even though no one else would. He was a pariah in this city, all his employees and all the sponsors retreating, finding other jobs and abandoning the sinking ship that was S.T.A.R. Labs, but Caitlin and Cisco never did. Her own career and reputation meant nothing to her at the moment as she lost everything she could've ever dreamt of. And Ronnie. Ronnie was gone as well. Her father was long dead, too; her relationship with her mother nearly nonexistent, so she had nowhere to go. All she had left were the two friends she hoped she made for life – dr. Wells and Cisco.

So she stayed. And she was there when dr. Wells finally returned to the Labs that now stood abandoned. She saw the disappointment and pain on his face that he still tried to hide and almost succeeded. But not from her. She knew him all too well by then.

She was there when he nearly screamed in frustration, not able to walk anymore and having to depend on his electric wheelchair.

She was there when suddenly life seemed to return to him and he told her with enthusiasm in his voice that she hadn't heard for weeks that they needed to head to the hospital because there was a man needing their help there.

She was there when they transported Barry Allen to the Labs. She was actually the one monitoring his vitals and trying to figure out why he wasn't waking up whereas Cisco was working on a supersuit for the firefighters, still believing the Labs might eventually be redeemed.

And finally, it wasn't just that Caitlin was there for dr. Wells. It was that he was there for her, too. He always offered her a shoulder to cry on when losing Ronnie seemed unbearable. He was always there to urge her forward, to tell her that life would go on and she would find happiness again.

He was just there.

After Barry woke up, things seemed to have gotten back to normal. Life actually started to go on. Before that happened, Caitlin had felt as though stuck in place, as though the time wasn't moving forward at all and once she saw what Barry could actually do, once she realized that maybe something good came out of the particle accelerator explosion, she actually felt hope and smiled for the very first time since she'd lost everything. It just so happened that she smiled so brightly to dr. Wells and the look she saw in his eyes made her feel all strange inside. She remembered how Ronnie had always teased her that she was so oblivious to Wells having feelings for her, which she always dismissed with a smile, but now… now she just started wondering whether that was actually true. And maybe whether she should be careful. She did care about dr. Wells and a lot, that was no secret, but having actual romantic feelings for the man? She didn't think so. And it wasn't even because he was so much older than she herself was. She wouldn't have a problem with that since her father was fifteen years older than her mother as they were brought together by their love for science, her being a young promising talent and him interested in her brilliance, kindness and beauty. Caitlin sometimes tried to imagine her mother as young and actually nice since the woman she'd become after dad died… The discovery actually froze Cait to the bone as exactly that happened to her after Ronnie, she suddenly realized. Then again, she hadn't alienated herself, she let her friends help her and now, as Barry joined their team and gave them hope for a better tomorrow, she could feel herself getting back to her normal old self. She was getting back to the brilliant and nice and caring person she'd used to be. She just didn't exactly see herself becoming something more to Harrison Wells than his friend. Not that she would admit that to anyone, but there was always something off about him. She did respect him and like him and even love him, but not in that way. There was just something about him that she couldn't quite figure out. Some mystery, a secret, something that he just locked her out of and it wasn't the tragic history of his own love life as his wife, Tess, had died years before he even met Cait. It was something else, she could tell.

It was a horrible twist of fate, indeed, Caitlin thought when she found Ronnie just to lose him all over again. And this time it wasn't even because he had to get away. This time he truly died.

Yet, this wasn't even the thing that struck her the most.

She was actually ashamed to admit that to anyone, but when Ronnie turned out to be very much alive and just metahuman; when they helped him get back to his normal self – well, more or less – being with him didn't feel like something Caitlin felt was the right thing to do anymore. It was more like a duty, a promise she'd once made and needed to fulfill. She did marry him, yes, but the ugly truth was that she knew deep down inside she was only holding on to who she and Ronnie had used to be. And they'd changed over the last year a lot. She'd gone to hell and back, arriving at her destination as a completely new person and Ronnie, well, Ronnie was actually his old self with the slight difference that he had superpowers.

This was still haunting her now after his death. It felt like she failed him somehow. Like when she lost him the second time it didn't even hurt that much anymore, like it was just moving on to another level. Was she that cold? She wondered, actually shaking when coming back in her mind to the last conversation she'd had with dr. Wells – or maybe rather Eobard – she thought bitterly, now seeing that she'd had all those strange feelings about him for a reason. Maybe that was exactly why she could never return his? Because it wasn't really Harrison Wells.

Still, she couldn't handle that now when still working herself up over Ronnie. Because she couldn't seem to love him the way he deserved the second time. Or maybe she hadn't even done that the first time around? With Ronnie she'd been always trying to be someone she truly was not. She wasn't an adrenaline junkie or enthusiast. She'd let him take her to do all those crazy things because yes, she felt better afterwards, maybe she even felt more alive, but wasn't simply love supposed to do that? Why did Cait constantly need to feel more, to feel more excited to be able to be with him? Or maybe she was just broken. Maybe she was different. Maybe after all, she was her mother. Maybe time would tell… She just couldn't seem to think that somehow she let Ronnie down and that if he'd still been alive, their relationship might've actually not worked out in the end.

Finding out the real identity of dr. Wells was the worst.

Caitlin had invested so much into this man. She stood by his side no matter what and regardless of what people were saying about him. She vowed to be there for him just like he was for her and for what? In the end, she was just another person he used in order to reach his goal, having assembled a team of the best specialists to build him a particle accelerator so he could cause its explosion, rendering their careers ruined.

Should she be surprised, even? She thought then, having a clear proof that the man had killed Barry's mother all those years ago; ruining, yet, another life. She was just one more casualty to the whole pile, wasn't she? And maybe if he hadn't recruited her, if he hadn't gotten so close to her and maybe if Ronnie hadn't died the first time because of him, Caitlin wouldn't have changed so much and would've actually been happy with her husband? Or maybe she wouldn't have met him at all.

Too many maybes.

What hurt the most was that she seemed to be the only one standing by Wells's side nearly to the very end, believing in him stubbornly even when the evidence told her otherwise.

She didn't even know why she was torturing herself by entering the pipeline with the intention to talk to the man before Barry would go back in time to save his mother and send Eobard Thawne – because that was truly his name – back to the future. What an irony. She could have this conversation now, but in a while she might actually have an entirely different life as a different Caitlin Snow who hadn't suffered so much. Maybe she would be a scientist in the Labs all the same, just with the slight difference that she would be working for the real dr. Wells. Poor man, she thought, Eobard killed him in cold blood and then took over his body, his identity. She truly couldn't imagine a worse end to a life when death wasn't even the final step, but just the beginning of destroying someone's memory and legacy after they were gone.

"Oh, my dear, Caitlin," he welcomed her with a smile on his face. It was still strange, suddenly having to look up instead of down at him because he could clearly stand on his own feet now. She nearly forgot how tall he was. "I was beginning to think you wouldn't show."

"I almost didn't," she finally spoke, folding her arms across her chest as though she was trying to shield herself from the effect he still had on her. After all, his betrayal stung worse than anything she'd ever felt in her entire life.

"You know, I never wanted to hurt you," he said to her astonishment.

"But you did. There was never any escape from that," she reminded him coldly. Being this detached seemed like the only way to get through this conversation without breaking down in front of him and she wouldn't give him that satisfaction.

"Oh, my dear, Caitlin," he repeated with a sign while taking off his glasses and looking down at the floor before raising his eyes to meet hers again. "You still don't understand. You were always special. Different. With you I could actually find myself begin to feel again."

"But that still wasn't enough to stop and just stay here, was it?" she followed with.

He sighed again, then rubbed the bridge of his nose before putting the glasses back on.

"And here I thought I was doing such a great job at hiding it, but you were always brilliant, weren't you? And no, that wasn't enough, because I knew you could never love me. You couldn't love the me you used to know, so you would never love the real me either. But just so you know, Caitlin, you won't be happy with him," he then said.

"You mean Ronnie?" she still made sure, her own wedding fresh in her memory.

"You're lying to yourself. We both know he's not the man for you."

"And you are?" she decided to retaliate with.

To her surprise, he chuckled, shaking his head, "Oh, no, but it doesn't mean he's not somewhere out there."

"Ok, you know what? We're done here. I don't even know why I came here in the first place."

"Oh, that we both do know," he disagreed again and she just had to look at him. She always liked the blue of his eyes, so crystal clear as though she could read him easily, but in the end even that turned out to be a lie. She could never get deep enough to find out the truth about this man.

"You will come back to your future, our lives will just go on without you and we won't even miss you," she told him.

"You'll be lost without me. You will soon forget your own potential. Mark my words, Caitlin. And you, above all, will not be truly happy. Not until you find what you've been searching for all this time."

"And what is that exactly?" she tried one more time when turning back to him as she was already on her way out.

"You know it well yourself. It just might take you a little longer to get there as you're a married woman now. Wrong choice there. Again."

"I'm done listening to you," she decided just then, casting him one last glance before leaving.

And the worst part was that he was right. As Always. Go figure.

The next time Caitlin saw his face, it was his real face. Eddie Thawne committed suicide, successfully removing Eobard Thawne from his future line of descendants. The real Eobard was equally tall but he was blond and his face was nothing like the one Caitlin used to know. In fact, he seemed like a complete stranger to her and maybe that was for the best. The Harrison Wells she'd known was a ghost to her and everyone around, dead before they even met him.

Now she was standing in the cortex, minus a mentor who turned out to be a fraud and a husband who died a hero again; looking at the face of the real Harrison Wells with the slight difference that the man had come from Earth Two and was a completely different person.

"Hi," he said after Barry introduced him and it was Cisco who actually responded first, Caitlin still rendered speechless, just buried in her own mind, immersed into her own thoughts.

Until Harrison Wells's eyes set on hers, that was and she noticed the familiar shade of blue she'd used to like so much in dr. Wells's pupils, but yet, this gaze was so different.

Because this man, no matter how familiar, was a complete stranger and somehow she just thought she was screwed once again by an unfortunate twist of fate.

Or maybe she should have known better than that, because this, this was just the beginning of the rest of her life and the answer to all of her problems. It was the answer Eobard Thawne had already predicted.

AN: So, what do you, guys, think? I've been toying with the idea for this story for quite some time now, promising to eventually do it and here we are. I only wrote this so early because of the break we now have from the show. The initial idea had me rewatching the first season, but I figured that would be a little too much if I wrote something about every single episode, especially when this is a Caitlin/Harry story, not Caitlin/Eobard and I wanted to make clear that Caitlin never really had any feelings towards Eobard. I didn't want Harry to seem to be a replacement, an echo of what was lost and could be fixed. I want them to have their own unique and amazing love story : )

Also, before I started writing snowells again, I thought I wouldn't write another fic in my life and now the ideas are just keep flooding my head and it's driving me crazy! The newest one is snowells AU student-teacher romance and meeting after years of being apart. And damn! The idea flourished so much that I am going to write that down and soon!

Not to mention the idea of Caitlin/Eobard other version of season one… damn it! It's all because of the Impossible video I posted of them this morning!