WARNING: This story contains semi-graphic description of rape and violence if you are triggered by it read with caution

Also English is not my first language, and all mistakes are mine

Bella pov
100 years ago

I think that I will never forget that day, it was just a week after my birthday and Edward and his family had not talked to me all week, that is until he showed up at my door, he said we needed to talk and before I could respond he had me in his cold arms dragging me with him to the forest, a place unknown to me in it

- Bella my family and I are leaving Forks – he stated as soon as we stopped, his voice was cold and final a clear sign that the family he was referring to didn't include me, shocked I couldn't bring myself to say a thing. My boyfriend and practically the only family I truly had were leaving town, leaving without me

- When? – I finally brought myself to say something, Edward had a satisfied smile on his face as if my reaction was exactly what he was waiting for, and that should have been the first sign that maybe Edward Cullen was truly dangerous to me

- That is of no importance to you Isabella, you should be more worried about what is going to happen to you now that my family is not here anymore to care for your wellbeing – he said and for the first time ever since the Cullen family came into my human life more than a year ago I feared then, I feared Edward. He no longer appeared to be charming and caring, no all I was seen now was the beast, a creature so dark and twisted that would gladly rip me apart and do unspeakable thing to what was left, for the first time I wanted to escape, run the farthest away I could of him but unfortunately I knew all too well that I would never make a mile before he reaches me, and in his dark smile I see that he knows it too, whatever he has planned I had no escape of, not when I'm in the middle of nowhere in the Forks woods, not when the only person who could possibly know what Edward is going to do could be in the other side of the world by now

- What are you going to do with me? – I asked trying to do my best to muffle the fear in my words, if he was really going to kill me I was not going to give him the pleasure of my fear, if I was to die I would die proudly, not begging for my life when I know is useless

- I'm glad you asked. You know your blood, it calls me, is like a drug; once I tasted I needed more but my family they wouldn't let me have you not when Esme loved you like a daughter and Alice and Emmett loved you like a sister…But now? Now is just you and me to do whatever I want – he said darkly and again before I could do a thing he was on me, he drop us on the wet floor immediately making me cold, his marble cold skin forcing me on the ground even more as his hands wondered my body as he pleased, I screamed for him to stop but I knew he wouldn't not when I could feel how excited he was by what he was doing, I knew where this was going so I did the only thing I could when he opened his jeans and ripped mine apart, I zoned out, burred my mind the deepest that I could, as I silently cried as the boy that I thought I loved did the most horrible thing with me. My only consolation being his quickness in reach his climax, soon enough he was done, smiling almost caring to my cold drenched body, at this point the only surviving clothes being my bots all the rest was ripped in pieces

- Now, you look so beautiful like this my Bella I think I will let you live, this way you will always know to whom you belong to – he said the same caring smile on his lips

- And I'm sure this will be our little secret don't you, wouldn't want the Volturi to came and deal with the loose ends – he said in an overly sweet voice before a full-on laugh, that was the last thing I heard

-/-/-

I woke up after what felt like days, I was not naked anymore and nor in the forest, but in a stranger's house and after what Edward did to me it was a terrifying sensation

- Hey, calm down I'm not going to hurt you – I turned to the voice, on my right was an at least six-foot-tall Quileute girl, she was cautious in her words and was apparently doing a real afford to look harmless to me, I could see in her eyes that she knew me but even more so she knew what had happened to me

- I'm Leah, Leah Clearwater…I...I found you in the forest – she said, her voice low but clear as if she was more comfortable giving orders than trying to sound, for lack of a better word, harmless, she smelled like forest and salt, a strange scent but not unpleasant. Her hair was strangely short for a Quileute cut above her shoulders, her clothes looked old and uncared for, but what really caught my attention was the scars on her face large whitish wild lines, like animal claws a really big animal claw, they ran all along the right side of her face, the scars didn't damage her beauty however, the dark eyed, dark haired girl was still as beautiful as she probably was before she was mauled

- I'm Bella, Swan – I said my eyes cast down, Leah had found me naked and freezing in the forest there was no way that she would not have guessed what had happened to me and I didn't find in me the braveness to look in the eyes of the woman who saved me

- I know, you are Chief Swan daughter, Harry my father is a great friend of his – the girl said in a reassuring voice and I felt my heart lose a beat, Charlie. How was I supposed to tell him this, how could I hid this from him? A thing is to be able to make him oblivious of the existence of the supernatural another is to hid from him a rape a thing that I knew he investigates at least a new case once a week, but I could never tell him, not with the threat of having the Volturi killing him

- Please don't tell him – I asked and even I could hear the despair in my voice, Leah came closer as I started to have what felt like a panic attack her arms at some point came to hold me on a warm and safe hug

- Bella, listen, I swear I will not tell a soul, it is your secret and if you so wish I will carry it to my grave. But you cannot go through this alone and if you allow me I want to be here for you Bella, I will make sure that you won't go through this alone – she said and for the first time since Edward took me to the forest that morning I felt safe again, even if I had just meet Leah I felt somehow that I could trust her and so I let myself drift back to a peaceful land of dreams

-/-/

As the time passed Leah and I became inseparable, Leah was my anchor through all the nightmares and panic attacks, she picked as many fights as she needed with Jacob when he wouldn't leave me alone and she once even yelled at Charlie for instead of fighting for me as a parent should, he would hid behind long hours at work and fishing trips with Billy, and before I Knew three months had passed as I dared believe that the things could actually go back to normal eventually, I was proved that they couldn't, nothing would never be the same

- Can you believe this? Can you really fucking believe this? – Leah and I were on La Push's Cliff that morning it wasn't a particularly cold day but it wasn't quite a sunny day also

- Leah, Sam and Emily are just trying to fix things up, ok more Emily is trying to fix things. But the point is you should at least give your cousin a chance, she is trying – I said trying to reason with the young wolf. Leah had told me about her being a wolf shape-shifter after she let slip about knowing the Cullens true nature, at first I was a little afraid of her being a giant wolf but then she changed for me and I couldn't fear the big grey fur ball she was, since then our friendship was even stronger when there were no secrets between us

- Bella he destroyed my life, is because of him that I'm a shape-shifter, how can I forgive him when I loved the bastard with all my heart and he repaid that by kissing my cousin and giving me this scar in our wedding day, even more so he is so fucking unapologetic about it after that I became so enraged that I shifted and all he does is to say he is sorry but Emily was his imprinting he couldn't resist – Leah had all points in this, at least about Sam. Sam Uley and Leah knew each other for years and of course they fell in love, they were the perfect couple 'til Sam shifted then things got complicated because he couldn't tell Leah and the secrets made their relationship crumble, the final blow was when in the day that Leah and Sam were supposed to get married he kissed Leah's cousin and best friend Emily, Leah got then right in the moment when Emily broke her hand slapping Sam, Leah was furious about it unfortunately so was Sam by Emily's rejection, Sam changed right upon Leah his claws forever marking Leah's face. It was six months after the accident that Leah finally got to confront Sam and to her surprise Emily had moved in with her ex-fiancé who also happened to be a giant wolf who scared her face, that Leah was pissed was a understandement, Sam's behaviour was being of no help too since all he kept saying was that he didn't meant for it to happen it just did, Leah couldn't control the rage and changed she attacked Sam so viciously that he almost didn't survive, The elders were shocked that a female had changed but in the pack law a wolf who wins a fair fight against the alpha is the new alpha doesn't matter the circumstances and so Leah became La Push's pack Alpha.

- Sam may be a bastard but we both know Emily feels terrible about what happened that day – I said calmly, Leah snarled in a non-frightening way

- I hate when you are right – the black haired girl said making me laugh, it was on that moment that a howl make itself heard and Leah with a sigh got up of the floor

- Come little human I will ask Emily to let you stay with her as I deal with whatever is happening now – Leah said helping me to get to my feet, I have been dizzy lately what led Leah to be more careful with me
- Ok – was all I said, Emily's house was close by the beach so we didn't have to walk for long

- Hi Leah, Bella – Emily was a happy and likeable person with her sunbathed skin and black eyes, she was happy as always as she saw me and Leah what made my best friend scowl, Emily became a little down because of it so I elbowed the alpha girl who just looks pissed at me before sending a half smile to her cousin

- Hi Emily, can Bells stay here for a while? I need to see what's going on – my friend said taking of right after, not quite given Emily time to respond, changing in mid-air as she ran to the forest I turned to Emily who had a comfortable smile on her face and send her an apologetic smile

- She is quite something this days – she said almost proud of her cousin but I could hear the guilt in her words, Emily differently of Sam that always insisted that Leah's change was a destined thing that it would happen with or without him, she did take responsibility of what happened that day and felt terrible about it

- Yes she is, and don't worry she will forgive you when she's ready. We both know you are not the one Leah hates and blames for what happened that day – I said to the young pregnant woman, Emily had just told Leah yesterday that she was pregnant and asked the alpha girl to be her baby's godmother hence Leah's need to rant about it today
- Yeah, but Sam will never admit that he is to blame about anything so I took upon myself to do it. I hope the baby helps her to be more forgiven even if we don't deserve, I want Leah to be in my child's life – she said looking at me, her eyes were mischievously shinning

- But tell me Bella when are going to tell Leah that she is going to have her on baby pretty soon? – She asked me and I who had just helped myself into a chair almost dropped to the floor

- What? I'm not pregnant and Leah and I are not like that – I almost screamed to the girl, disbelieve cursing thru my body, I couldn't possibly be pregnant. The only person I had had a sexual intercourse with was Edward and I couldn't sleep alone 'till this day because of it, why would Emily think I was pregnant anyway? It was ridiculous…
That's when I started to pass the least three months in my head, my eyes popping up as the signs started to became clearer, my period had not came in three months, I was dizzy and easily becoming sick, I was always tired and out of nowhere craving the strangest of things, generally involving almost raw meat better if I could taste the blood in it. There was no denial all the signs were right in front of me, Edward had let more than just nightmares behind, I could feel the panic starting to take over me but in that moment I couldn't bring myself to care, I was pregnant, pregnant, of all the things pregnant of the vampire who raped me, god pregnant of a vampire how's that even possible. Could I live with this? Could I kill this child inside of me? Could I see past the way it came to be? God there were so many questions, so many if's and maybe's. I was frozen, didn't know what to do, I could vaguely listen to Emily calling my name, and then her screaming for Leah, I could feel warm and safe arms holding me, and I could hear screaming coming of someone but I didn't know who, it was probably me but I couldn't care not when I was feeling like my whole world had just exploded right in my face

-/-/-

When I finally came back to me Leah told me she knew what had happened, she held me as I cried and she gave me a pregnancy test when I told her that I didn't know what to do

- Before thinking of what to do, we have to be sure – she said but I knew it was only for my benefit, she knew it was true I could read in her eyes, anyway I did the test and sure enough it was positive

- Bella? – She was hesitant and I didn't blame her really, I was looking unmoving to that test for the past thirty minutes

- I guess now we have to decide what to do – I finally said and Leah sighed coming to hug me

- We will, together. I'm not leaving you alone no matter what – she said and I couldn't help a smile into my face as I molded my body to Leah's

- Together –

Leah really did mean when she said together, she was there for all the good and the bad, when I decided to go thru with the pregnancy, all my appointments, cravings, mood swings, when we had to tell Charlie about it, when we found I was pregnant of twin girls, when they started kick and ultimately for the birth of my children as a true partner would. Soon enough Reyna and Ayla were born, Reyna the older was a brunette with bright blue eyes and full lips even as an infant, she was calm and rarely cried if ever Ayla on other hand she was blonde her eyes the same bright blue but hers carried a wild nature inside then almost as if she could explode into a shifter like Leah any minute and true to her "wild" nature the little blonde was feisty and loud where her minutes older sister was calm and silent, Leah would always say the one who thinks and the one who acts to the twins, the perfect due she would say. To my relief none of them had taken to Edward, not physically at least since Reyna had showed in her very first days of life the need to drink blood to be truly satisfied, Ayla on the other hand did eat a lot for a baby but had not showed any interest in blood, she much more liked to be outside much like Leah to my astonishment. And I? I was now a mother and a high school dropout, Leah and I both agreed that with Reyna and Ayla and their parentage was better if we both just dropped, they were our first priority

- Bella? Has been some time since we saw each other – I was with Reyna and Ayla on La Push that morning Leah had needed to come down the reservation because apparently a vampire was invading their territory and thankfully it was not the Cullens since I wanted to Edward to never know about my children

- Jacob, yes Leah and I have been with our hands quite full this days – I said pointing to my kids, Ayla quite content playing in the dirt and Reyna sleeping soundly on her stroller her skin I had noticed softly shining, luckily nothing too noticeable

- Oh, yeah I heard Emily bragging about it, had hoped it be a lie though – he said with what I think he thought to be a charming smile, too bad charming smiles didn't have any effect in me anymore

- Yeah, sorry to disappoint – I said not really sorry at all, he smiled again and this simple gesture started all the alarms in my head, why was he here if there was a vampire in the reservation? Where was Leah if the treat was no more? I looked carefully to Jacob, hi had a very relaxed posture and a "charming" smile, not a good sign. I took Ayla from the floor strapping her back in the stroller with her sister, Ayla must have felt the tension as she made no fuss about it

- Bella… -

- Jacob where is Leah? – I asked cutting the young Black boy, he was taken back for aminute before his smile slipped off his face and anger sat in its place

- She is not a problem anymore Bella, actually I believe she must be dead by now, and you should be a good girl and be by my side, the true alpha of this pack – he said arrogant, Ayla cried in the stroller as if she knew what was happening, I didn't dare to move, not with Jacob's eyes glued to my babies

- What have you done Black? – I asked putting myself defensive in front of my girls, he laughed looking at me

- She's been dealt with, and you Bella, I talked to Sam and he let me keep you but these little abominations you have, they have to die – he said coming closer to us, I knew I didn't stand a chance against him but I would die before he touches my daughters

- Back off Jacob – I said and he laughed again

- Not going to happen, Isabella, your vampire half-breed freaks will die, and you will be mine, have my children – he said and in a swift movement he changed to his wolf form sending me in the air, as I flew I saw Jacob came closer to my girls on the stroller. I felt all my body heat up as all my instincts came to life, and a moment later I was on the floor but I was not a human anymore I was something else, something stronger and faster as I threw myself on Jacob throwing him away of my children, the wolf was confused for a moment before he looked at me if possible his eyes bulged as he howled. I didn't give him the time to attack me as a moment after he's calling to the others I was on his throat red blood staining his russet brown fur as my fangs dig deep on him

"Bella" I heard in my head weakly, I knew it was Leah's voice so I let the now unconscious Jacob fall on the ground, looking up I saw on the verge of the forest a blood-stained and battled Leah and on her side was Victoria who's to my surprise was helping Leah stand

"The redhead is helping us, Sam and the rest of them, they betrayed me we have to go" Leah said and I in my new body agreed looking at my children, Ayla had her chubby hands in the air asking me to take her what I did a moment later with my mouth, taking the metal holder of the stroller I lifted both of my babies, Victoria nodded her head before taking more of Leah weight,

-Let's go – she said making me even more confused but as I heard the paws of the wolves coming closer I obeyed her running away of Forks without looking back.

It was hours later when we could no longer sense any of the wolves that the five of us stopped, Leah was mostly healed by now and my children were famished

- Bells you need to change back, neither me or Victoria can give them what they need – said Leah sitting on a branch in the middle of the forest that was serving us as hiding, nodding I did what the wolf girl instructed me, returning to my human form I was naked and so Victoria gave me her jacket, she had a warm smile as she did it what I had to admit was comforting

- It's not much but will serve for tonight, after we talk I will find a town to hunt and to stole some clothes for the both of you and things your children are in need of – said the redhead in a tick European accent
- Thank you, for everything. But I must ask weren't you supposed to want to kill me? Why are you helping? – I asked as Ayla sucked my breast hungrily, the redhead vampire laughed a little looking at my less behaved child

- Why would I want to kill you, Isabella? You did nothing to offend me – she said in a calm voice, my head inclining in confusion

- Edward killed your mate, wouldn't you want revenge – I said as stupid as I felt

- James? No, he wasn't by any means my mate. We weren't even a coven, I was just travelling with them back to my Family in the UK, I've been travelling on my own for some time seeing the world and its evolution, after 50 years it became dull so I was making my way back when I stumbled across Laurent and James. By the time he decided to hunt you down I was already in Seattle – said the European woman in confusion, and I couldn't feel more stupid, of course, Edward would lie about this, god I should start taking all he ever said as a lie

- But why did you came back if you had nothing to do with James and Laurent? – asked Leah carefully holding Ayla as I gave my breast to my always behaved Reyna the little girl was gentle and silent as she feed differently of her sister

- Was Isabella actually, my mate and grand part of my family is of feline shifters like her so when I put my eyes on her I knew what she was. At first I was convinced in not intervene but I could feel you were

oblivious to your true nature, and after I caught wind spread cheatings about your Bambi killer's friends leaving you I just couldn't let such a youngling fending for herself so I came back to Forks to find the wolves attacking this young one – Victoria said pointing to Leah who growled under her breath

- Traitors, they tried to kill Bella and the puppies just because they couldn't handle the fact that if I made then my heirs they would automatically be the next alphas if they somehow changed someday – said my best friend rendering me surprised

- What? - I asked looking at her, Leah just signed

- I was going to make Ayla and Reyna my heirs in the eyes of the elders, so if I died for some reason or another they would not be mistreated by the tribe, Billy told Jacob and he told Sam, Sam was set that after my death, a thing he was planning in arrange for quite some time I must say, he and his heirs would be the alphas since Jacob and his line had renounced the tittle, but then I ruined his plans by taking Bella's children as my own in the eyes of the Quileute tribe – the wolf girl explained

- You were going to do that for us!? Leah that is huge, what about if you had your own children if you found your mate – I said shocked the Quileute girl just laughed

- Bells, Ayla and Reyna are mine, doesn't matter if I made then on you or not. I am their mother as much as you will allow me to be – Leah said with a caring smile to my girls, and for now that was enough to put me at ease. We were safe, Victoria had answers and was on our side, and Leah was at my corner as always.

-xx-

In the morning as she said the night before Victoria got to the closest decent sized town to hunt and stole the things we would need when she came back her eyes were bright red and she had diapers, warm baby clothes and clothes for me and Leah

- Is not much, but we will be running all day, with some luck we will reach Canada by dawn – the redhead said giving Reyna a blood bag, after yesterday and how the British vampire risked her life to save ours we decided to trust her and told her the truth about the twins to say that she was amazed by it was an understanding

- I still can't believe, hybrids of vampire and Shapeshifters. In my many years I heard of human-vampire hybrids, some tales of vampires and fae having children with impossible powers, even a whisper or two about wizards and werewolves or Veelas but never I heard of such a thing as a vampire and a feline shifter producing a life even more so twins – said the British vampire still holding Reyna, my child with her thirsty sated let herself sleep on Victoria's body

- It seems this young one prefers a cold body instead of a warm one to sleep on – I laughed at the statement

- Yeah, Reyna likes more the cold and the calm, Ayla on the other side prefers the warm and chaos. Like wine and water – I said looking to Ayla who as always was playing in the dirt with Leah both of then oblivious to ours looks

- It seems to me that Reyna your first born carries the vampire gene on her, and Ayla your second born child has your shapeshifting gene. But how much diluted they are in each one of them just time will tell – said Victoria and I just could agree

- I want the four of you to come with me, to my family I mean – she finishes abrupt making me almost lost myself in what she was saying
- What? Victoria no, you helping us the way you already did is enough… -

- As you Americans say Bella "I call Bullshit", you and Leah have two very special children, no money, nowhere to go, and as long as Leah lives she's the La Push pack alpha so the wolves will hunt her and by proximity all of you down. Please come with me, I already talked with them when I was in the town this morning they were delighted in having new people on the house, Daniela was even already planning the house expansions for the four of you. So please come with me – Said the redhead vampire and I could only look to my little family, for then I would do anything

- For my children's wellbeing I will do anything, so yes, we will go with you Vic – I said looking at my soon to expand family, Victoria jumped happily and started to rant of her family members, she reminded me of Alice in that moment. No, I was starting a new life I would not bring the Cullens with me on this, so I just stayed there listening to Victoria's happy rant, to Leah's softly talking with Ayla and the deep breath Reyna had when she sleeps.

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