A/N GOOD DAY EVERYONE I EXIST. Yes, one of the worst writers on this website is back, and for a good reason. I'm doing another fic. My previous one will be on the shelf of denial for now. I read it back and it's so shit and my OC is so damn unrealistic, that I just might not write it anymore. For those masochists who like that fic, I'm sorry. For the rest of you, rejoice for about 5 seconds. Because I'm doing another Oregairu fic. And now you can cry your heart out. Or just leave, your choice.

For those of you masochists who were wondering where I was, well, I had other commitments. I was writing a book(which I fail to finish even to this day) for a competition, as well as trying my hand at lyric writing for rapping. Also, school, mock exams, depression, laziness and personal life has been knocking me back on hope, motivation and time. But now I'm back. Hopefully you have the good sense to run now, but if you don't, well... Don't say I didn't warn you.( As you can tell, I like self-deprecation)

Anyways, without further ado, have a good one.

(A/N AFTER A/N: IF I GET ANY FEATURES OF SEASONS WRONG IN THIS FIC, I APOLOGIZE, I HAVE NEVER EXPERIENCED THEM BEFORE, AND THE ONLY SEASONS THAT'S IN SINGAPORE ARE "FUCKING RAINY" AND "FUCKING HOT AND SUNNY")

And now, have a good one.

Why do we love?

Do we love to live, or is it the opposite? Although the purpose of 'love' is biologically because we need to fuck and get babies to continue human existence, wouldn't that mean that there would be more people leaving their partners? If the concept of love is for reproduction, wouldn't that mean that a man or woman would go with multiple partners, impregnating or getting impregnated? And why do people want to stay forever and always in the graveyard called 'marriage'? Wouldn't there be a hormone or something like that in the brain that tells us to get another partner? Does that make people who are together beyond their 60's or maybe somewhere older weird? As they haven't gotten another partner and have lived together for that long? Or maybe it's because of bad genes attracting other bad genes so that humanity doesn't have to bear with more of their genes besides with that one couple?

"Hikigaya-kun."

Or is this for the good ol' Yukipedia to solve? Because right now I sure as hell don't have an idea of how this works. Biology is weird, but it shows the human body as the almost perfect system, with little in the way of flaws. Although that is not true to any stretch of the imagination, the media likes to say that we're not flawed, only that no human is 'perfect'. I had to learn that lesson through Yukinoshita, with me seeing her as some sort of superhuman, I realised that even she has weaknesses. Like put a cat in her face and she'll do whatever you want I assume. But also that she actually just wants someone to lean on, because her family didn't do that for her. They didn't give her the support she wanted and so dearly needed, and so she turned to me I guess. I want to save her, I just don't know how.

"Hikigaya-kun."

Actually I don't think that the bad gene thing is possible, since if it was, then what gene does Yukinoshita have?

"Hikigaya-kun!"

I'm pulled out of my thoughts as soon as they begun. Looking to my left, Yukinoshita looks a bit breathless, and is sort of catching her breath.

"Um... Yes Yukinoshita?" Why is our resident ice queen this red and mad?

"I called out to you several times, and you didn't answer, if you were wondering about my breathlessness." I sure was! How did you know? Decent human connection maybe? "Well, what I was about to ask, was if you wanted to go out to get Yuigahama-san a birthday present." Whoa, hold on, I can't just go out to a shopping mall like that, I wouldn't want to do that now would I? That would be a terrible fate for someone like me. Oh, I forgot to point out that it was just me and Yukinoshita here in the club room, as Yuigahama had to go for some wedding. I, of course doubted that she even knew how to behave in a wedding, but Yukinoshita assured me that not even she is that air-headed or stupid.

"Why don't you go yourself? After all, you are a girl, and I'm sure that my suggestion will be worse than yours because I'm a guy." Yukinoshita, of course, doesn't budge to my suggestion fo my inferiority in this subject, however.

"Even so, I think that it would be good to get your point of view, as terrible as it is. Also, you do need to go out a bit, even I know that. And I'm pretty sure that Komachi-chan would be happy for you to go out for once." Are you considering that Komachi doesn't love me? Of course she does! I think... But I have nothing to really combat that.

"Fine, I'll go. But please tell me that you're paying for the gift."

"What else would I be doing for a pitiful creature such as yourself?" Wow, you didn't even give me time to think of a comeback, let alone say it. Seems like ice queen is on full go today. Don't know whether I like that or not, but at this point that's not a problem. I've gotten used to it at this point. It's still fun, but sometimes gets stale. Especially with calling me a pitiful being, heard that a lot from her.

"Well, when and where do we go to get Yuigahama her present?"

"Tomorrow, 10:30 am. If you go somewhere else or are late, I will get Zaimokuza to sit on you." OKOKOK. I have a reason to go now, which is a will to live after Monday. But the thought of going out on a Saturday disgusts me. But still, I want to live for Tuesday and onwards.

"Alright then." I say with a sigh. "What do you have in mind?" Yukinoshita looks at me, then looks down to the ground. Is she embarrassed, or just thinking? Because this looks like both cases.

"I'm not really sure, to be honest. I would have gotten her something like a bracelet or a necklace. But at the same time, she already has those, so there would be no point." Yukinoshita, with a small blush, looks away from me. Although I do have a solution to that, a solution that I thought was just an idea.

"It makes sense that you wouldn't know what to get for her. After all, you're both two different girls. Both good, but different." Yukinoshita becomes flustered again, and once again, turns away to me(if it's even possible). Shit, I said something embarrassing, I'll just continue. "But, what's important is that she knows that you gave it from your heart. Not because you're obliged to, but because you wanted to. It's like what I explained at our first request with the Valentine's cookies."

"That seems like a good point. But, I still don't know what to get her."

"Considering how simp- I mean, um... yeah. Considering how much she likes cute things, I think you can get her a stuffed bear or something like that." Of course, I had to correct myself, just to be more kind. But the point goes through.

"Although that is a good idea, I don't think you should call Yuigahama-san 'simple', Hikigaya-kun. Think it as more..."

"More?"

"Well...How about...more..."

"Just say you can't think of anything."

"As of now, of course. I could probably think of something not only more kind, but also more realistic than your 'simple', simply because I am significantly more sophisticated than you." Ouch, can't retort that one.

"So, now that you know what to get her, I don't need to go right? My job is done." I just started to relax when Yukinoshita decided to correct me, again.

"No, actually. I would also like your opinion on the plush as well. Also, although I have much more self-control than you, I would like you to come to keep me in check. After all, even I know about my liking of Pan-san, and I would like for you to keep me on track just in case." So even the Ice Queen knows about her rabid obsession.

"Well, fine. I'll come."

"As I said, this is Just In Case. There is no other reason for you to come with me, besides the fact that it would be better for you to get a present for Yuigahama as well." So there is another reason. Okay then.

"Sure sure." I don't mind anyway. Although I would prefer to stay in my room and sleep during the weekend, I guess it's alright for me to go shopping, since I can also pick up groceries and stuff.

"When do we meet again, and were?" Oh god. What have I done.

"10 am, at the shopping mall where we went to buy her a present last year." Oh, nevermind. Maybe it wasn't so bad.

"Don't forget this time, although with your rotten mind, I'm sure you would." GIVE ME BACK MY COMMENT.

"Anyways, we should go." my assaulter stands up from her chair, and starts to pack her bag. "Do not forget where and when we're going, okay?"

"Sure sure. Go ahead first, I'll bring the key back." Yukinoshita gives me a confuzzled face. What?

"Why is that, I wonder. I'll comply though. The key's on the counter, next to the tea. See you tomorrow, Hikigaya-kun."

"Yeah. You too."

As I watch Yukinoshita walk out, I start to realize a lot of things. The way her hair reflects back the light from the setting sun, and the fact that it also swayed with every step, oh so delicately. But as soon as she left the room, I sighed in relief.

Ok, I have a reason for staying here, for a short time, of course. The reason is because... I need to sort out my feelings. I feel something strange for Yukinoshita. For now, I will not say that I like her, because that would be stupid. For now, I will just say that I feel intrested in her. She constantly seems to surprise me in ways that I wouldn't think is possible. Not in the way of shock value or horror, more of how she knows me so well. And with the club becoming less of a torture to go to and more of a home now, maybe it would be nice to know her better. I know Yuigahama pretty well, but not Yukinoshita. After all, you tend to hide things when you're from a rich as shit family, whose mother also is very strict on what her kids can do(from what I see). She seems to have a stranglehold on Yukinoshita and Haruno, something that I haven't seen before. But I still want to know Yukinoshita better. I want to be closer to her, and I still don't know why.

I mean, she is someone I care about, and so is Yuigahama, and I can only hope it's the same for them too. But Yukinoshita is still that cold queen, who does have some vulnerabilities. As I said, she needs that pillar to lean on once in a while, something that I can provide. But even so, is it possible for me and her to stay together after High school? I'll probably stay in Chiba, while Yukinoshita will probably go to Tokyo, or even overseas for her studies. And if she does, the workload will be massive, more her than me, considering that the school that she goes to will probably be more prestigeous than the one that I go to. And for Yuigahama, if she does get into a good university, it will be the same situation.

About Yuigahama, I know that she likes me. I mean, in the festival, she almost confessed to me. I used to think that it was because I saved her dog, and she was just feeling gratitude. Now I feel like she actually likes me, and if it's a stretch, maybe love? Probably not, but she's infatuated with me, if not something a bit more. Yukinoshita, on the other hand, I have no idea. I know that we've been getting closer since I joined the Service club, but I still have no idea what she feels about me, or what she feels towards me. Well, I just hope it's favorably.

Taking the keys from the counter, I decide to take my leave. Not like I have much to do now anyway, and it's been 10 minutes, so might as well go back home. I just wanted to think for a bit, and no one should be in school by now, so no one to jump from the side of a hallway to talk to me. Okay, that's a bit unrealistic, considering that no one in this school should be able to break down the walls.

Returning the keys to the office, I make my way back home. On the way to the school gates, I see Hayama and Tobe talking happily, and just chilling after football practice. They're surrounded by their general group, minus the girls. I guess they left already, but still, it's still a big group, since it includes the guys from the football team, all wanting to talk to Hayama about their daily things. Of course, since Hayama is the "king" they want to talk to him. I wonder who is the king or queen of the Service club.

As I leave the gates, I see Yukinoshita outside, for some reason. Her fingers nimbly press the buttons on her flip phone, each with a satisfying 'click' sound. Of course, anything would compliment her looks, but the sunset made her look even better in a way I can't describe. Feeling my heart beat a little faster, and my cheeks fluster slightly, I go on my way back home. After all, I don't think she wants to be bothered.

"It's a bit rude to ignore one of your clubmates, isn't it? Is a 'hello' or 'yo' too much for someone like you?"

Nevermind, she doesn't care.

"Considering how engrossed you are on your phone, I assumed you didn't wanna talk." I instinctively say, but really I am a bit happy to be talking to her. It feels nothing like what I had with Orimoto, this feels...genuine I guess.

Like hell I'm telling her that.

"Well, I was texting Komachi-san, she was a bit worried that you weren't home yet. You were in the clubroom for longer than I expected."

"It was only 10 minutes. So why are you here? And couldn't Komachi text me instead.?" Yukinoshita tenses up a bit, but it barely shows.

"Well, Komachi-san told me to follow you to your place for some reason." What. Hold on, I'm gonna call that brat.

"Komachi-san said that she won't be receiving any calls from you, by the way. Once again, I have no idea why." Fuck's sake, Komachi. She will have quite a bit of explaining to do.

"Well, we should get going then. Whatever she wants, I wanna make this quick, and I'm sure that you have things to do anyway." As soon as I say that, we start walking, with her just behind me.

I'm sure that she's thinking the same thing that I am, which is why the hell Komachi is doing this, since she isn't talking at all. If it was to give something, she could have just given it to me to give to Yukinoshita. If it was to tell her something, same thing. So why would Komachi want Yukinoshita at our place? There wouldn't be any other reason for her to want Yukinoshita at our place. Maybe she just wants to talk to her? Then she could just ask for an outing on Saturday, it doesn't need to be today. Or she could go gift-hunting with us tomorrow.

As soon as we reach my fortress, also known as my house, Komachi comes flying out of the front door, in her usual jovial, bubbly, slightly less airheaded than Yuigahama style.

"Yahallo, Yukino-san!" Where's your greeting for your brother? I feel a bit hurt...

"Yo, Onii-chan." That hurts more.

"Good evening, Komachi-san." Yukinoshita replies with a more formal greeting.

"Yo, brat." My god, that feels good.

"Come inside, Yukino-san! Onii-chan, go to your room, please."

"Can't you go to your own room if you need Yukinoshita?" Komachi, you're not making sense.

"Well, it's a bit embarrassing for me to get her to go to my room, so...yeah." You are not making sense, my little nee-chan

Feeling that I won't win against her, I accept Komachi's request, and obediently go into my room, while Komachi and a silent Yukinoshita go to the couch to talk. I need to sleep anyway, so there's no problem now that I think about it. Not being able to hear what they're saying, I lie on my bed in my school uniform, and drift on to sleep.

"Hikigaya-kun..." Is that Yukinoshita?

"I have a lot of things to say to about you. You're an outcast, you're hated by most, you're... you're blunt and straightforward." What's with this? Why is Yukinoshita's face so flushed? What's with that kind of speech?

"At the same time, people don't know the real you. You're selfless, helpful, and you rush to support others, no matter how much it might hurt you truly."

"Yukinoshita?"

"Hikigaya-kun, you wanted something genuine, and I will give that to you. Hikigaya-kun, I love you."

And with that happy thought, I was jolted awake. If only that were to actually happen.

At the same time I woke up, Komachi abruptly came into my room.

"Onii-chan, can we talk?"