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Calendar boy
By miyamoto yui
Part 11 - Getting to you.
Are these really a son's feelings towards his mother?
I wouldn't have known because I didn't know my mother too well. If there was anyone who resembled a mother-like figure to me, it was my grandmother. All I remembered about my mother was that she was quiet whenever she did meditations. And when she was done doing her exercises, she would spend time alone with Hokuto and they'd talk for hours on end.
But the feeling I had with her was warm and tender. She didn't say much to me. And I didn't understand that until now...
But when I looked at Seishirou, he kind of scared me. He wasn't acting like he usually did and I didn't know what to believe. The person who knew everything at his fingertips or the person who looked shocked right now.
For a moment, he was slipping away from me and I didn't want that.
His eyes looked so blank...
...and when he smiled at me, it wasn't with feeling.
This didn't help my worries at all.
Instead, I shook my head, but he wouldn't let go. In slight jealousy, I took his hands away and threw the wig upon his bed and stepped forward in my kimono. With determined eyes and a pout, I took his face into my hands.
"Look at me," my lips said to him as I drank his eyes with my own.
Look only at me...
I thought this, but I dared not say it aloud.
My head hurt a bit as well as my heart at that moment.
Seishirou looked at me, but he cocked his head to one side as he tried to shrug me off. I shook my head in irritation as my lips moved to mimic the words of, "Don't look away from me."
I pulled his head towards me and whispered to his ear lightly, "Please tell me what's wrong..."
I began to grope his suit jacket with my hands as I wrapped my hands around his shoulders while tippy-toeing. I embraced him with all that I could.
If only I could reach you...
If only I could...
At that moment, he began to push me onto the bed. I laid there under him as he stared at me with his hands to either side of me. I reached for his face and really looked into his eyes. Touching his eyebrows, I blinked as I touched the rest of his face slowly.
My thumbs rubbed his eyebrows, trying to erase the lines forming on his forehead. I concentrated on the way he looked.
Pulling him towards me, I blinked at him. Then, I let the kimono fall off my shoulders as I unbuttoned his shirt.
"Subaru-kun..." he said as if he were in a trance and I closed my eyes in hurt.
He was slipping away from me like sand in an hourglass.
At that moment, I felt like I couldn't take him back.
I ran my fingers through the hair on the back of his neck while holding him tightly. He pressed his lips over my heart and I held him even tighter. Then, I whispered into his ear as best as I could, "I love you."
Seishirou was the one doubting now. He asked me, "Is this how you think when you're holding back from me?"
I just blinked my eyes as I felt a tear fall on his back.
Maybe...
Maybe that's true.
Holding back was only a part of my problem.
How could I show my feelings without being too needy? Was I smothering him right now by trying to physically and mentally pull him towards me because, for once, he was looking away from me?
Yes, I was honestly jealous.
But I'm only human, aren't I?
In the curve of his neck, I gave him a kiss with my lips, which were still lined with red, red lipstick. I grabbed onto him some more and this time, he held onto me like a little kid.
"You're thinking I'm getting all strange about my mother, aren't you?" he chuckled as he tried to shake his head lightly.
He pressed his lips more onto my skin.
"Only two people...only two, Subaru," he drifted off while mumbling his words almost completely into my skin.
Was that the person you were talking about? But why does the girl sound more like a lover than your mother, Seishirou? Is there something that I'm not understanding here?
At that moment, he let go and knelt in front of me. Without a word, he began fixing my kimono all over again and did the makeup. And when we left, I took his hand.
Even though there were people commenting about my kabuki-type of outfit, they were just as gossipy over the red mark I had left on his neck. Wondering and wondering if I was a girl or a boy.
But I never really thought of myself that way.
A girl nor a boy.
I was only faced with that because I was with Hokuto and whatever society told me constituted what a boy was. But a mermaid...
A mermaid could be human or non-human.
That was the only true distinction in that society.
I walked into the studio with my arm a bit tighter with Seishirou's. We were passing by the reception room when I suddenly stopped in front of that 'Exit' door again. I blinked my eyes, trying to catch my breath.
"What's wrong, Subaru-kun?" Seishirou asked as he patted my back, trying to support me.
"We have to come back to this door..." I said as I tried to pull myself away from it.
It was sucking me dry.
My aura was reacting to it more than ever...
We ended up going to another location with a large swimming pool. Hokuto put her arms on her sides as we sat in one of the reserved rooms. "They thought my water idea was good, so we moved here."
She was holding a grudge. Boy, she was still annoyed with me.
Seishirou was sitting on a chair, but I insisted on sitting on his lap. So, there I was lying on his chest with Hokuto still holding up one of her eyebrows. A sudden grin came to her face as she rubbed her chin. "So THAT'S why you guys were a little late."
Then, she pointed at the lipstick on Seishirou's neck, who was only too proud to show off how naughty I could become when the situation arose.
I still didn't know why it was such a big deal though. Shouldn't I entertain Seishirou's advances once in a while?
As Hokuto went out for a bit to get the arrangements ready outside, my crinkled my nose and slid my hand to his waist. Then, as Seishirou was smirking at the look I was giving him, he laughed aloud. "Oh...this is getting _really_ interesting."
I leaned up to his ear and touched it with my lips as I tried to say, "Well, what are you waiting for?"
"Subaru-kun!" he lightly scolded, but it was too late as I took his hand and was about to take a hold of his-
"Okay! Show time!" Hokuto said with a wide grin as she proudly came through the door, while I tried to pretend that I was a bit sleepy, leaning on Seishirou, who was twitching at how many interruptions a morning could give to us.
As I got to the pool, I had to kneel in front of it as my reflection was shot. I was told to smile, then give a serious face.
The flashes were endless, but I looked completely away from the camera because the light was so bright.
The director kept on eyeing me every time I tilted my head forward or back.
Then, for the last shoot, I was told to put my feet into the water. The kimono was barely on the surface of the water and it looked like it was floating. I was supposed to lean on the side of the pool so I felt the cold tile against my face as I stretched out.
I looked up to see Seishirou and I reached out for him.
He was still so far away from me.
Well, I thought it was the last picture until they pulled Seishirou, my 'manager', to stand next to me and make myself out to be a damsel in distress. Shouldn't have been too hard...
Seishirou pulled all of the hair to the front, over my left shoulder and some strands were left on the back. The assistants suggested that I put my hand on his chest and I blushed at him, not really knowing what to do with so many people.
Then, Seishirou pulled on my obi a bit and let the kimono fall on my elbows. Holding me close to him, he closed his eyes and put his head over mine. My profile faced the camera as some of the lipstick got onto his white shirt, as if it were a small drop of blood.
"Relax, Subaru-kun..." he whispered as the assistants became fussy over the minor details of this last picture.
Then, as they were shooting, Seishirou tilted his head to the left. As the kimono hung on my elbows and my back was exposed, he pushed the hair a bit and bent me backwards.
"Seishirou-san...?" I asked with a confused face as he lowered his eyes and he began to kiss me.
But I was upset.
It wasn't me he was kissing...
Hmph.
We'll see about that...
--
When we had finished the photo shoot, I gave him an infuriated look. Stepping away from him, I pulled on my sleeves and left to go back to the temporary room set up for me. When he entered, he looked at me with perplexed eyes behind his glasses. As he closed the door behind him, he said, "Hokuto-chan said we needed to talk. Alone."
"Why would we need to do that?" I sarcastically replied while sitting on one of the chairs. I began to fuss over the kimono, trying to wear it properly before going out on that date with the director.
Sitting next to me, Seishirou folded his hands and sighed. "I don't understand why you're upset all of a sudden."
Immediately, I stopped fumbling with my clothing. I stood up and shook my head.
Turning towards him, I saddled myself on his right leg. Pressing my knee in between his legs, I pulled on his tie to pull him closer to me.
"Subaru...kun?" He gave me a side-glance, but he looked at me not in amusement. He was beginning to smirk at the interesting situation before him.
Leaning forward, I scolded, "You have to know your place."
Biting his earlobe, a single drop of blood fell and I licked it.
With this, I finished, "I will punish you later."
I got up and finished fixing myself as Seishirou looked at me oddly. Then, as he was about to say something, Hokuto came in with the director.
"Hello, Sanada-san," I greeted politely while bowing my head.
He smiled as he nodded his head at Seishirou and me.
"Shall we, Sanada-san?" I followed Sanada-san out like a geisha ready to entertain her paid companion.
Taking one last glance at Seishirou, I then turned away with a my chin up and the red kimono dragging behind me.
With bitterness, I remembered Seishirou's last kiss. He wasn't thinking of me at all...
And that wasn't good...
A mermaid's a possessive creature.
So, you're not supposed to look at _anyone_ else but me.
Mother, death, or whatever wouldn't stop me from getting to you, Seishirou-san...
Tsuzuku...
--
Author's note: Twenty days. It was only twenty days since I last updated this fic and it felt like forever!
But I'm back feeling better than ever, so expect this to move a little more quickly (unless school kills me...again).
See, the super duper sweet Subaru's really mental. Isn't he so cute when he's as possessive as his boyfriend? * wink *
Oh, and yeah, if you're going to ask if the name is deliberate Adri sweetheart, yes, it is. * smile * What's a fic without my muse and one that can molest Subaru?
And thank you to my beta reader, Rei-chan!
Calendar boy
By miyamoto yui
Part 11 - Getting to you.
Are these really a son's feelings towards his mother?
I wouldn't have known because I didn't know my mother too well. If there was anyone who resembled a mother-like figure to me, it was my grandmother. All I remembered about my mother was that she was quiet whenever she did meditations. And when she was done doing her exercises, she would spend time alone with Hokuto and they'd talk for hours on end.
But the feeling I had with her was warm and tender. She didn't say much to me. And I didn't understand that until now...
But when I looked at Seishirou, he kind of scared me. He wasn't acting like he usually did and I didn't know what to believe. The person who knew everything at his fingertips or the person who looked shocked right now.
For a moment, he was slipping away from me and I didn't want that.
His eyes looked so blank...
...and when he smiled at me, it wasn't with feeling.
This didn't help my worries at all.
Instead, I shook my head, but he wouldn't let go. In slight jealousy, I took his hands away and threw the wig upon his bed and stepped forward in my kimono. With determined eyes and a pout, I took his face into my hands.
"Look at me," my lips said to him as I drank his eyes with my own.
Look only at me...
I thought this, but I dared not say it aloud.
My head hurt a bit as well as my heart at that moment.
Seishirou looked at me, but he cocked his head to one side as he tried to shrug me off. I shook my head in irritation as my lips moved to mimic the words of, "Don't look away from me."
I pulled his head towards me and whispered to his ear lightly, "Please tell me what's wrong..."
I began to grope his suit jacket with my hands as I wrapped my hands around his shoulders while tippy-toeing. I embraced him with all that I could.
If only I could reach you...
If only I could...
At that moment, he began to push me onto the bed. I laid there under him as he stared at me with his hands to either side of me. I reached for his face and really looked into his eyes. Touching his eyebrows, I blinked as I touched the rest of his face slowly.
My thumbs rubbed his eyebrows, trying to erase the lines forming on his forehead. I concentrated on the way he looked.
Pulling him towards me, I blinked at him. Then, I let the kimono fall off my shoulders as I unbuttoned his shirt.
"Subaru-kun..." he said as if he were in a trance and I closed my eyes in hurt.
He was slipping away from me like sand in an hourglass.
At that moment, I felt like I couldn't take him back.
I ran my fingers through the hair on the back of his neck while holding him tightly. He pressed his lips over my heart and I held him even tighter. Then, I whispered into his ear as best as I could, "I love you."
Seishirou was the one doubting now. He asked me, "Is this how you think when you're holding back from me?"
I just blinked my eyes as I felt a tear fall on his back.
Maybe...
Maybe that's true.
Holding back was only a part of my problem.
How could I show my feelings without being too needy? Was I smothering him right now by trying to physically and mentally pull him towards me because, for once, he was looking away from me?
Yes, I was honestly jealous.
But I'm only human, aren't I?
In the curve of his neck, I gave him a kiss with my lips, which were still lined with red, red lipstick. I grabbed onto him some more and this time, he held onto me like a little kid.
"You're thinking I'm getting all strange about my mother, aren't you?" he chuckled as he tried to shake his head lightly.
He pressed his lips more onto my skin.
"Only two people...only two, Subaru," he drifted off while mumbling his words almost completely into my skin.
Was that the person you were talking about? But why does the girl sound more like a lover than your mother, Seishirou? Is there something that I'm not understanding here?
At that moment, he let go and knelt in front of me. Without a word, he began fixing my kimono all over again and did the makeup. And when we left, I took his hand.
Even though there were people commenting about my kabuki-type of outfit, they were just as gossipy over the red mark I had left on his neck. Wondering and wondering if I was a girl or a boy.
But I never really thought of myself that way.
A girl nor a boy.
I was only faced with that because I was with Hokuto and whatever society told me constituted what a boy was. But a mermaid...
A mermaid could be human or non-human.
That was the only true distinction in that society.
I walked into the studio with my arm a bit tighter with Seishirou's. We were passing by the reception room when I suddenly stopped in front of that 'Exit' door again. I blinked my eyes, trying to catch my breath.
"What's wrong, Subaru-kun?" Seishirou asked as he patted my back, trying to support me.
"We have to come back to this door..." I said as I tried to pull myself away from it.
It was sucking me dry.
My aura was reacting to it more than ever...
We ended up going to another location with a large swimming pool. Hokuto put her arms on her sides as we sat in one of the reserved rooms. "They thought my water idea was good, so we moved here."
She was holding a grudge. Boy, she was still annoyed with me.
Seishirou was sitting on a chair, but I insisted on sitting on his lap. So, there I was lying on his chest with Hokuto still holding up one of her eyebrows. A sudden grin came to her face as she rubbed her chin. "So THAT'S why you guys were a little late."
Then, she pointed at the lipstick on Seishirou's neck, who was only too proud to show off how naughty I could become when the situation arose.
I still didn't know why it was such a big deal though. Shouldn't I entertain Seishirou's advances once in a while?
As Hokuto went out for a bit to get the arrangements ready outside, my crinkled my nose and slid my hand to his waist. Then, as Seishirou was smirking at the look I was giving him, he laughed aloud. "Oh...this is getting _really_ interesting."
I leaned up to his ear and touched it with my lips as I tried to say, "Well, what are you waiting for?"
"Subaru-kun!" he lightly scolded, but it was too late as I took his hand and was about to take a hold of his-
"Okay! Show time!" Hokuto said with a wide grin as she proudly came through the door, while I tried to pretend that I was a bit sleepy, leaning on Seishirou, who was twitching at how many interruptions a morning could give to us.
As I got to the pool, I had to kneel in front of it as my reflection was shot. I was told to smile, then give a serious face.
The flashes were endless, but I looked completely away from the camera because the light was so bright.
The director kept on eyeing me every time I tilted my head forward or back.
Then, for the last shoot, I was told to put my feet into the water. The kimono was barely on the surface of the water and it looked like it was floating. I was supposed to lean on the side of the pool so I felt the cold tile against my face as I stretched out.
I looked up to see Seishirou and I reached out for him.
He was still so far away from me.
Well, I thought it was the last picture until they pulled Seishirou, my 'manager', to stand next to me and make myself out to be a damsel in distress. Shouldn't have been too hard...
Seishirou pulled all of the hair to the front, over my left shoulder and some strands were left on the back. The assistants suggested that I put my hand on his chest and I blushed at him, not really knowing what to do with so many people.
Then, Seishirou pulled on my obi a bit and let the kimono fall on my elbows. Holding me close to him, he closed his eyes and put his head over mine. My profile faced the camera as some of the lipstick got onto his white shirt, as if it were a small drop of blood.
"Relax, Subaru-kun..." he whispered as the assistants became fussy over the minor details of this last picture.
Then, as they were shooting, Seishirou tilted his head to the left. As the kimono hung on my elbows and my back was exposed, he pushed the hair a bit and bent me backwards.
"Seishirou-san...?" I asked with a confused face as he lowered his eyes and he began to kiss me.
But I was upset.
It wasn't me he was kissing...
Hmph.
We'll see about that...
--
When we had finished the photo shoot, I gave him an infuriated look. Stepping away from him, I pulled on my sleeves and left to go back to the temporary room set up for me. When he entered, he looked at me with perplexed eyes behind his glasses. As he closed the door behind him, he said, "Hokuto-chan said we needed to talk. Alone."
"Why would we need to do that?" I sarcastically replied while sitting on one of the chairs. I began to fuss over the kimono, trying to wear it properly before going out on that date with the director.
Sitting next to me, Seishirou folded his hands and sighed. "I don't understand why you're upset all of a sudden."
Immediately, I stopped fumbling with my clothing. I stood up and shook my head.
Turning towards him, I saddled myself on his right leg. Pressing my knee in between his legs, I pulled on his tie to pull him closer to me.
"Subaru...kun?" He gave me a side-glance, but he looked at me not in amusement. He was beginning to smirk at the interesting situation before him.
Leaning forward, I scolded, "You have to know your place."
Biting his earlobe, a single drop of blood fell and I licked it.
With this, I finished, "I will punish you later."
I got up and finished fixing myself as Seishirou looked at me oddly. Then, as he was about to say something, Hokuto came in with the director.
"Hello, Sanada-san," I greeted politely while bowing my head.
He smiled as he nodded his head at Seishirou and me.
"Shall we, Sanada-san?" I followed Sanada-san out like a geisha ready to entertain her paid companion.
Taking one last glance at Seishirou, I then turned away with a my chin up and the red kimono dragging behind me.
With bitterness, I remembered Seishirou's last kiss. He wasn't thinking of me at all...
And that wasn't good...
A mermaid's a possessive creature.
So, you're not supposed to look at _anyone_ else but me.
Mother, death, or whatever wouldn't stop me from getting to you, Seishirou-san...
Tsuzuku...
--
Author's note: Twenty days. It was only twenty days since I last updated this fic and it felt like forever!
But I'm back feeling better than ever, so expect this to move a little more quickly (unless school kills me...again).
See, the super duper sweet Subaru's really mental. Isn't he so cute when he's as possessive as his boyfriend? * wink *
Oh, and yeah, if you're going to ask if the name is deliberate Adri sweetheart, yes, it is. * smile * What's a fic without my muse and one that can molest Subaru?
And thank you to my beta reader, Rei-chan!