JJ glares at the back of her father's head as he cuts the pieces of the lasagna to serve. The three people sit at the table, JJ angrily stabbing her food as Will sits awkwardly next to her. She'd do anything for one of Spencer's random facts or Penelope's excited babbling.

"Where is everyone?" JJ wonders, it's to quite in the house.

"out, now Will what are your plans for the future." Will looks startled to be addressed by his girlfriend's father and looks to JJ for comforts but finds none.

They end up just riding around in his car with the windows down and the music blasting. It's a cool Friday night. Luke finds his eyes wondering from the street to Penelope, whose blonde hair is blowing in the wind.

"What?" she asks noticing his eyes on her. "Eyes on the road."

He clears his throat, turning his focus back on the road ahead. Their neighborhood is approaching and wile he'd like to be in her presence all night, he knows he should probably get her home, besides he needs to feed roxie and check up on his abuela.

He walks her to her door, she complains, because of course she does.

"I literally just live right next to you." she says giggling a bit, Luke thinks her laughter is the most beautiful noise ever.

"I guess I'll see you at school." he says when they reach her door.

Tucking one of the few blue colored strands of her hair behind her ear, she turns away from to open her door as he walks away but quickly turns around.

"Luke!" Penelope skips the rest of the way towards him, wrapping her arms around his waist.

"Thanks." She whispers. The hug is warm and gentle, Luke can feel the tension leaving his body, he never wants this feeling to go away

Will looks Rossi in the eye addressing his question, "After graduation I plan on joining the police academy."

Dave grunts and JJ isn't sure what her dad thinks of Will's aspirations.

"And your plans with Jennifer?"

This time Will is confident in his answer, "I plan to marry her someday."

It's not his finest moment but Rossi drops his fork and JJ avoids her father's glances. The tension is only relieved when they hear the rattling of the door unlocking.

"I'm back." Upon hearing Penelope's cheery voice, JJ releases a breath she didn't even know she was holding.

Meeting her sister in the hall she starts whisper yelling. "Where have you been, dad's been holding Will hostage."

"with Derek." Her face turns red when her mind drifts to the part of the night that wasn't spent with Derek. JJ notices, off course notices.

"Wait did you to finally get together?"

"What? No!, he's with Savannah, they're having a baby?"

"Wait, when did they get together and a baby?" Penelope rolls her eyes.

"If you came to school for more than three seconds you'd know they've been together for a while, the baby is on the down low, so could you like not say anything." Snaps Penelope.

JJ was always close to Penelope, she loved getting to be her older sister, she as much as she hated being younger to Emily. She admits she hadn't been home, or anywhere near her siblings for the past few months but being in the house where her mom had raised her was just too much. Penelope wanted to plaster pictures of their mother everywhere JJ couldn't stand to look at them.

"Pen, I'm sorry, I know how much you liked him."

"Come on, didn't you say you left Will with dad?"

With Penelope in the mix the atmosphere is less tense, until Rossi's phone rings.

Penelope sighs sharing a look with JJ, before addressing Will, "That's his work phone."

"Kitten, I'm sorry I have to go, the case is urgent."

"They always are, you know there's a thing called vacation time." she runs up the stairs to her room and slams the door closed.

David fights himself on staying for a few minutes, smoothing things out with his daughter, and being a few minutes late. He leaves just as Aaron comes in, Noticing JJ and who he assumes is Will, looking sullen he decides it's best to let his questions go and head up to his room.

"Do you see why I never invite you over?"

Emily is not only hung over she's, hung over and in a house she doesn't remember arriving at. Everything is blurry and her head hurts. The room stinks, or maybe it's her, she can't tell. She can't find Kate, but then again she's not looking too hard either. She's on the floor, tile, by the cool feeling underneath. Closing her eyes she moves her hands around wildly, as if Kate will magically appear. Finally gaining the courage to open her eyes, she finds herself in the bathroom. The smell is defiantly coming from her. Standing cautiously she maneuvers her way around the tiny glass pieces on the ground. The bathroom's mirror is in one piece, so she assumes the glass is from alcohol bottles.

"Kate?" she shouts before winching.

"Kate?" she tries again, Emily groans, this is not how she saw her Saturday going. Checking her phone she sees a message from Penelope telling her that their dad was out on a case, again. She tries calling Kate, when her friend doesn't answer she calls out for her again, leaving the bathroom she runs into a solid figure.

"Kate?"

"Sorry not Kate." A deep voice

"Definitely not Kate." The boy laughs at her.

, "Could you not laugh some of us have a hangover"

"Sorry I'll laugh quieter next time."

"Do you happen to know whose house this is?"

He laughs again, stopping at her glare. "It's mine, the names Ian Doyle, Emily right?"

"How do you know my name?" some may call her paranoid but with her dad's career choice it really wasn't.

"I'm in your Russian class; you always sit in the back."

"Well I'm just going to get an uber."

"I'll see you around?" she nods yes even though her gut is telling her to put some serious distant between herself and this man, but she can't help but be drawn to him.

Its around noon when Emily gets home, and she's greeted by the sigh of he sisters in the living room, JJ's feet are spread out across the couch and Penelope's sitting on the floor with Sergio on her lap.

"Hey Em!" Emily tries not to cringe at Penelope's loud voice, not wanting her to notice the state she's in

"Where's dad?" Penelope and JJ share a look. "Right stupid question."

"Do you want to watch tv with us, we're having a Disney marathon?" Penelope asks sounding much younger than she is.

"No thanks Pen, I'm going to head up to bed."

"but its noon?"

"Come on Emily it will be like before." JJ states, the before mom dies goes unspoken.

"Please." They beg.

"Sorry I really just want to sleep." They don't deserve to see their big sister hungover so, she turns around quickly, so she doesn't have to see the hurt on Penelope's face and pretends she can't hear her huff of 'she's acting just like dad now'.

Spencer's smart like he could have graduated high school at twelve and college sixteen. A part of him resents his dad for not letting him speak a couple of grades, but that's not the point. He's smart enough to know how addiction works but it doesn't stop him from being where he's at and really despite his knowledge he can't really explain how he got here.

About a year ago…

"Is dad going to be home?" Penelope asks no one in particular.

"Sorry Pen, he had a case remember?" Erin states to her youngest, from the front seat of the car.

"In Alaska? Did you guys know that between 1900 and 2014 Alaska had 51 serial killers, most of them happening between 1980 and 1900, its fascinating really…"

"Spencer!" Emily, JJ and Matt groan from the very back of the vehicle"

"as fascinating as that is Spencer now is not the time." Aaron states before turning in his seat from the passenger side to look at him before turning towards Penelope.

"I'm sure he'll be home soon."

" yeah right." Emily grumbles

"You said that last time."

"Kids!" Erin shouts above their chattering but her yell it to late as a car swerves into them causes the car to spin and everything goes black.

When Spencer wakes up the first thing he notices is the extreme pain in his leg, the next is the blood coming from his twin sister's chest.

"Penelope!" he yells.

"Spencer? She whispers weakly

"Penelope its going to be okay." although he doesn't know how his sister has glass in her chest and he can't move his leg.

"Spence?"

"JJ!"

"Are you guys okay?

No, no they're not. "Kind of? Are you?"

"There is glass stuck to mine and Emily's face I think Matts okay, he's still breathing, wait kind of?

"I can't move my leg and I think Penelope just stopped breathing.

Spencer remembers everything from that night, it's a curse really. Matt, JJ and Emily made it out relatively ok. Only needing stitches on their face and arms from where the glass penetrated the skin, Aaron's ribs were bruised. Spencer himself had need surgery for the broken leg and Penelope's lungs had been filled with blood. And their mom hadn't made it back at all, dead on impact.

Hours after the car crash…

The first thing Spencer see's when he opens his eyes is Aaron wide awake in a chair, while JJ's head is resting on his bed.

"Spence? You're awake!" JJ says sleepily.

"Where's Matt, Emily, Penelope and mom?"

"Matt and Em are with Penelope." JJ tells him.

"and mom?" JJ looks to her brother not wanting to be the one to break the news.

"Guys where's mom?" but he's afraid he already knows the answer.

"Spencer she's dead." Aaron says calmly as JJ burst into another round tears.

"No no.."

"Spencer are you okay?"

He wants to yell and say no he's not okay his mom is dead and is father is nowhere in sight but all that comes out is,

"My leg really hurts."

Spencer thinks this is where the substance abuse started. The doctors prescribe him Dilaudid after awhile he didn't need it for the pain, at least not the physical kind. It made him feel floaty, so he kept using it, but the doctor wouldn't prescribe anymore and that's when he told himself it was over, but it wasn't. Tobias, an upperclassman was dealing, and Spencer found himself trading his brain in for drugs.

Matthew stood in front of his destination completely still, clutching the envelope his father had given him in his hand. Most of the information in it wasn't knew, his biological parents were murdered a fact his was painfully aware of. Matt had never really felt the need to search for the people he shared blood. David and Erin Rossi had always treated him as if he were their flesh and blood; and he had more than enough of siblings. He takes a moment to briefly wonder if the death of another parent is the reason for his sudden soul searching. Finally gaining enough courage he walks up the steps and knocks on the door.

" Hi, In-Shook Jong?" he pauses looking up at the older lady. "I'm your grandson"

A/N: I'm so sorry this took so long, I've been really sick, my blood levels dropped extremely low and we couldn't figure out why. I'm going to try an update this more regularly but I don't want to promise anything.