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"Dean?!" Sam's loud voice woke the whole household. Clamoring and clattering issued from every room as they all rushed in to the living room. Cas nearly fell down the stairs and shortly everyone was gathered around the grumbling man. He rubbed his eyes.

"I killed Adam."

"Where were you?" Bobby asked.

"Well, my uh, wings-" suddenly everyone's eyes were drawn to Dean's wings, or lack of wings to be more accurate "Adam kinda ripped em off. He tortured me a while, but in the end I won." Dean said rubbing his arm awkwardly.

"We can fix it." Sam said moving forward.

"Don't you think I tried Sam?" Dean growled smacking his hand away.

"Why don't we give the two love birds some alone time?" Crowley suggested. Gabe looked at Cas, noting that he no longer had a sickly hue to his complexion. Sighing, he took Sam's hand and led him out. Followed by Crowley and Bobby. Cas moved to sit next to Dean awkwardly.

"Why'd you go and let yourself get sick?" Dean asked.

"Why'd you let yourself be tortured?" Cas countered.

"Torture isn't really an up for negotiation thing, ya know." Dean said.

"Did he want Sam?" Cas asked not giving up.

"He wanted everyone." Dean growled as he stood and began pacing the room. "He wanted to take everything from me."

"Dean-" Cas looked at the broken man before him.

"I killed my own brother." Dean kicked the desk. He smashed his fists down on it and in cracked with a sharp noise that shuttered the entire house. He looked over his shoulder at Cas. "I'm a monster."

"You've never been a monster." Cas said softly. "You've always just been a sweet boy with rough hands and a dazzling smile." Cas said walking over and slipping his hand into Dean's fist.

"What's an angel without wings?" Dean pulled Cas in for a hug.

"Mine."