Now or Never
Here Goes Nothing
By,
Gamersweetheart
Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail or any of the characters.
AN: Edited as of 1/31/2019.
Lucy was talking with Levy about what Natsu said the other day. While Lucy was thrilled he saw her as a part of his life forever, she wasn't sure in which way. They've always been on the edge of best friends with the possibility for more but never crossing that line.
"I just, I don't know what to do, if I push him and he turns me down can we go back to how things were before? Can I handle knowing the man I love doesn't love me back?" Lucy whined as panic started to take over. She didn't want to lose Natsu.
"Lucy, stop. Maybe he feels the same way. If he doesn't, wouldn't it be better to know now so you can move on and find someone who loves you back? Think of all the books you've read; do they end with no one confessing their feelings?" Levy replied, hoping she could talk some sense into her friend.
"…" Lucy just put her head on the table.
"LLLLLLLLLUUUUUUSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHIIIIIII" Happy bellow from the front doors.
"If he's here that means…" Lucy didn't get to finish before Natsu walked in, smiling over at her. That damn smile always made her heart rate double.
Levy leaned in and whispered low enough so slayer ears wouldn't be able to hear, "go for it! You'll never know otherwise." With that, she left to go check out the job postings.
Happy came flying over to her for his big hug. Smiling at him she couldn't help but think, 'What would happen if this goes bad? Will Happy still be happy to see me? Could I handle seeing him and Natsu?'
"Happy?" She asked to gain his attention.
He looked up at her waiting to hear more.
"Cou-could you hang out with Wendy tonight? I need to borrow Natsu tonight."
"Aye!" He chirped before flying off to find his favorite white cat to tell her the good news. Lucy smiled, Happy would never ask questions if Carla or fish were involved.
Natsu came over after hearing what she asked of Happy. A little confused he wanted to know what she had planned that involved Happy leaving for the night. He couldn't think of anything he did to upset her.
"What's up, Luce?"
Her heart rate was speeding up each second, she sat there. Why in the world would she set herself up to go through with it tonight? She had to tell him something, the longer she waited the worse it would seem.
"I uh… I need you to come over tonight." She ended with a nervous fake laugh.
'Great, now he's looking at me like I'm crazy.' She thought. 'Smooth Lucy, real smooth.' She mentally face palmed.
"Sure." He smiled before hearing Grey say something he didn't agree with. Jumping up, he raced over to argue with everyone's favorite stripper leaving Lucy to head home and try to calm herself so she didn't chicken out tonight.
As she left, Natsu noticed fear surrounding his best friend... What was going on? He wondered to himself before punching the ice mage in the face.
Making it inside her apartment, Lucy looked around to try and find something to keep her busy. It was only mid-morning so she had all day to kill. Sighing, she went around cleaning everything in her home. Sadly, that didn't take too long. She decided to have lunch before a nice long bath. Lucy spent the rest of the day trying to figure out what to say to Natsu.
Later that night…
Lucy was dressed in a nice dress, it was the same one she wore when she thought Natsu was going to confess his love to her but only wanted to dig a hole. She couldn't help but laugh at that, she dreaded seeing him. She was going to turn him down and now she's in the same dress hoping he doesn't turn her down.
The celestial mage called Cancer to work on her hair. She didn't want it fancy but didn't want the same old look. After about ten different ideas they decided to put half up and curl some strands to frame her face. Once he went back she decided to write a letter. Maybe speaking to her Mother would make her feel better. Even if it didn't, at least it would kill time.
xXx
Hey Mom,
I'm so scared. I kind of did a spur of the moment thing and took Levy's words to heart. As soon as she said go for it, I set up a plan where Happy would be elsewhere, so I could talk to Natsu alone. I'm freaking out! I tried to look good but not overly done, I just wish this was over. If he turns me down I will be crushed but maybe Levy's right. It will hurt less now than if I wait another few years. What if he ends up with someone else?! Okay, this plan isn't looking so bad now. I can do this! I'll find out my answer tonight, one way or another. Hopefully, I'll be telling you all about my new boyfriend in my next letter!
Wish me luck!
Love,
Lucy
xXx
Sealing the letter, she felt calmer. This was the right thing to do. Even if she ended up crushed. Before she could think more on that Natsu knocked on her window before climbing in. Natsu wasn't sure why she was so dressed up. Shrugging it off, he made his way over to her couch figuring Lucy was just being her weird self.
No matter how scared Lucy was she couldn't get over how he'd make himself at home as soon as he jumped in the window. Taking a deep breath, she sat by him on the couch. She was once again stuck in her thoughts until his hand was on her knee, causing her to jump.
"What's going on with you? You've been acting even weirder than usual all day. Is something wrong?" Natsu asked, truly concerned for his friend.
When she didn't look up to him he grabbed her chin till she was looking right at him. Knowing she wasn't going to get out of this without talking she decided to take a breath. This was it, she'd know what the answer is once and for all.
"Natsu, when you get into a fight you know there is always a chance you won't come out the victor, right?"
"What?! I always win!" Natsu yelled.
Sighing she tried a different approach.
"Okay, when you meet someone new there's a chance you won't become friends with them but it's worth it to try, right?" She pushed on.
This made him think for a moment.
"Well yeah. If you don't take any risks you'd never live and miss out on so many great things." He finally answered her silly question.
"I agree. Natsu?" She quietly asked.
"Yeah?"
She looked at him and tried to memorize everything just in case this was the last time they saw each other. Taking a deep breath, she leaned in and kissed him. It was very awkward, she pressed her lips to his and started moving slowly. She had tears running down her face when she realized he wasn't kissing her back. Pulling away she looked at his shocked face.
"I-I'm so so sorry. I thought… I'm sorry." She shuddered. She got up and walked towards her wall to get away from him. Breaking down as she started crying harder. She just ruined everything and possibly lost her best friend.
Natsu was stunned. Lucy kissed him. She kissed him! Where did that come from, was all he could wonder. He finally snapped out of it in time to hear her say sorry and walk towards the wall shaking.
'What do I do?' Standing he slowly walked over to the crying girl. He put his hands on her shoulders and felt her stiffen.
"Just go. Please just go." Lucy begged while trying to hold in her sobs.
He wrapped his arm around her chest to pull her back against his chest. His other arm wrapped around her as well while he waited for her to stop fighting him.
"Stop! Please let me go… please." Lucy tried once again to no avail.
He held her close as he lowered his head to her neck, resting his forehead there. Turning slightly so he could reach her ear he asked his own question.
"Why'd you kiss me, Luce?"
"I'm sorry. I thought… We've been close for so long I thought maybe you felt the same way I do." She whispered back.
"How do you feel? I feel… at peace when I'm with you. I'm not the romantic guy who woos women. I'm sorry Luce." For some reason, he felt he was letting her down. Natsu felt her keep struggling until she finally stopped. Her knees gave out but instead of hitting the ground, Natsu lowered them to it with her in his lap. He finally started turning her so she'd face him.
"It's fine. It's my fault. Please, I need space. I need time apart so I can heal. Please go Natsu." She needed him to leave. Lucy needed to break down before she could put herself together.
Right when he heard that his heart felt a sharp pain. He couldn't let her go. Not now, not ever! She was his partner, his other half.
"Look at me. Please." He pleaded, terrified he might be losing her.
She shook her head no in hopes he would give up and leave her be. However, that's not what happened. He pulled her chin to face him.
"Lucy, I can't lose you. You became part of me without me realizing it." He whispered while leaning in towards her.
Lucy stared at him with wide eyes till he slowly started to lean in. When their lips touch for the second time. She closed her eyes and leaned into him. The kiss started off easy and slow but quickly grew deeper. All those moments in the past where they feared losing the other, all the times they thought about "more" all came crashing down. Neither was going to let go.
Lucy turned in his lap so she had one leg on each side of his waist. Their lips met with such force, their teeth hit. She wrapped her arms around his neck to pull him closer while his wrapped around her lower back.
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When he rolled over she worried that was it, this was a one-time thing but he pulled her over so she was laying on his chest. She snuggled closer to him by throwing a leg over his body and kissing him everywhere she could reach.
"That was amazing." Lucy sighed.
"It was even better than fighting." Natsu grinned.
Lightly slapping his chest, she smiled at him.
"Hey, Luce?"
"Yeah?"
"Let's go on a mission tomorrow"
"Okay," Lucy giggled back
"While we're gone I'll ask the guild to move your stuff." Natsu yawned.
This made her sit up a bit.
"Why would they move my things?"
"So you can move into my house! We can't just not do this every night and you don't have to worry about rent."
He didn't get why she was confused. They were together now, were they not?
"Natsu, you have to ask a girl to move in with you. Besides, we aren't even a couple." She spoke sadly.
"Of course we are! We have been for a long time just neither of us took the next step. Besides, if you move in with me think of all the books and boots you could buy with the jewels you don't spend on rent." He smirked as he saw her thinking it over.
Giving him the biggest smile she could, she agreed.
"Okay, I'll move in with you. But will Happy be okay with it?"
"Yes, he's asked a few times now for you to move in so he can get fish pancakes every morning."
"You are both lucky that I love you." She said before yawning.
"We love you too, weirdo."
He gave her one last kiss on top of the head before they both fell asleep. Happy to finally be together and excited to see where the future will take them.