A/N: This is my first story and I'm very nervous about posting it.
I want to thank OQFixItWeek organizers for giving me the chance to share this story and try to fix what I consider the worst plot A&E came with: Zelena's baby. I needed to try to fix it somehow and I just hope that someone enjoys this. Here goes the first part of the story. The next ones will be posted during OQFixItWeek, but each part might not necessarily fit the prompt for each day.
This is unbetaed and I should be ashamed for posting like this. I apologize in advance for the mistakes that surely you'll find.
I don't own any character of this story … It's all A&E and Once Upon A Time.
Hope you like it, enjoy it and let me know what you think …
-1-
When Regina looks back at her life, she realizes there has been irony everywhere.
As a little girl and then as a teen, she craved for love, for finding true love, to be in love and to be reciprocated by someone who truly and deeply loved her. Ironically, instead of marrying her true love, fate (and her mother) decided that she was doomed to spend years of her life in a loveless marriage, married to a man she didn't love and that didn't love her either.
During her childhood she wished for a sibling, for someone to play during her early years, for someone with whom she could share her little secrets, an accomplice for mischief … and later in her adult life, she wished she could have someone who could be a confident, a friend, someone who can give her comfort and stand by her when needed, someone who could understand her relationship with her mother. But, ironically, again, when she found out she had a sister she realized she would never find companionship, generosity, support or love in her. In fact, her sister turned out to be the one that stood in the way of her happiness and almost compromised it.
But, today Regina feels it's different. Today, she is happy, the nightmare she went through during the last months is finally over and she is optimistic about the future.
Regina's first day in Storybrooke feels different when she wakes up that morning with Robin by her side and that is the first sign that things have changed. She has been used to wake up by herself for mostly, if not all, part of her life.
With the king, they had separate bedrooms and only shared a bed during intimacy and as soon as it was over, she was alone in her bed again … thankfully. With sporadic lovers, it only was sex, so as soon as sex finished, her lovers left her chambers. With Graham, while in Storybrooke, she never wanted him to stay because of Henry; and, with Robin, she didn't have enough time to get used to anything.
With Robin, everything happened terribly fast: one day she was happy, totally in love and the next day she was saying goodbye to her soulmate in the town line seeing him leave with his son and "wife" with a broken heart, a torn page that once gave her hope and with the uncertainty of not knowing if she would ever see him again.
Last night had been the first night, in what felt like forever, where Robin and Regina found some peace and could finally focus on each other. With Henry staying for the night with the Charming's and Roland, with Robin's men, after a day full of emotions, they decided to stay at Regina's house. They ate dinner, cuddled by the chimney, talked about their future, about their children, about the things they were going to do next, as a couple … as a family … together … as they begin to get used to their new reality.
During their time in New York, they only got one time when they had a conversation that wasn't somehow about Zelena or the messy situation they were going through and they really had missed just being with the other one.
They just looked at each other, shared I love you's and made love all night.
Last night had been the first time they were able to have this type of connection after, what she called during all those months, the "Zelena situation" and she realized how they both missed the intimacy. Intimacy that happened that only time in her vault and couldn't happen again, because of the circumstances they had to face later.
Lying in bed by his side, she turns to look at him. He sleeps relaxed, unaware that she is staring deeply at him, grateful that she gets to have another chance and relieved that they could sort things out and still have a chance together.
She is awake. In fact, has been awake for some time now. She couldn't sleep much last night. Her mind was filled of thoughts of what would have been if things hadn´t developed the way they did.
She relives in her mind the last two months. The events that happened since she left with Emma to find Lily and Robin, nervous and excited at the same time of how would it be like to see him again after 6 weeks of not knowing anything about him and how would he react after the news she was about to share with him.
But not even in her worst nightmares (and she'd had a lot in her life) she would have imagined what the meeting with her soulmate turned out to be, what she find out just minutes after hugging him and the road they both had to go through until they found peace again.
"She's pregnant". Those words had reverberated in her ears and in her mind all night long and she still could hear Robin's words, see the smile on her sister's face and feel her world fall apart in an instant.
She thinks now on the irony of Robin's words, when she thought she would be the one saying something similar.
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"So…" says Regina almost about to burst into tears while trying to content the increasing feeling of nausea and dizziness that increased when she heard her soulmate said the words "She's pregnant".
Just after hearing those words, it began to feel as if she was watching a movie or somebody else's story. The pain, the disappointment, the rage, the desperation, the sadness … all those feelings kept flowing through her body at the same time. The only way her mind found how to cope with those feelings without collapsing was to pretend she was witnessing somebody else's story and not hers.
He only answers "Yeah".
She can tell he is devastated. He can't even look her in the eyes or keep his head up. He has the attitude of a broken man. And in fact, he is broken and feels humiliated.
He had just found out that his real wife and mother of his son, the woman he once loved, was killed by the same woman that had been impersonating her for months, the same woman that has deceived him during that time by making him believe his wife had come back and, as if things weren't already complicated enough, after weeks of common life it just happened that he got her pregnant. So, the very same woman who killed his wife was now carrying his child … and was his soulmate's sister.
A nightmare.
He thinks on the irony of all this. On how he left Storybrooke because of a complicated situation that apparently had only one way to be solved and how now, weeks later, he is in the middle of a sick, twisted and even more complicated situation that seems has no way to be fixed. Ironic, indeed.
Still they must face the current scenario, address it directly and talk like civil people, so Regina continues "So, you moved on … with her."
After minutes staring at Robin and after seeing him take generous sips of scotch, she can say that Robin is still in shock by this whole situation. She can feel his confusion, his anger and his embarrassment.
And indeed he is, among other feelings, ashamed for not noticing this "Marian" wasn't his Marian.
She waits for Robin to say something … anything, but he only gets to say "Hhhhmmm" and continues avoiding to look her in the eyes.
So, with a tone in her voice that leaves no doubt that she is also angry, very angry … and disappointed … and is making efforts to control herself, she says "Really Robin, pregnant? Couldn't you just buy a condom in a drugstore? For God's sake even teenagers are taught to do so! I'm angrier with you for knocking her up than for sleeping with her!"
And it's ironic that she brings up that issue when she quite remembers the first and only time (or "times", because that night in her vault, and the next morning, it was not an only time) they made love he didn't even suggest using protection and since she knew there were no chances that she could get pregnant, she just didn't mention it at all. And in fact, she thinks, their lack of protection that night and next morning … well, that would be a conversation for another time. The current situation is already too fucked up to add more fuel to the fire, even though she is dying inside her and has to deal with a lot by herself.
Robin only gets to say "A condom?", with a look of interrogation in his face that reminds Regina that Robin wasn't long in Storybrooke before he had to go to New York and she didn't have any time to teach him the technology of the land without magic (she only got to teach him how to use a cell phone and some artifacts in the kitchen), least of all the one regarding safe sex and birth control.
Regina sighs and reminds herself that Robin is not the one to blame. In fact, he is another victim and collateral damage in her insane sister's search of revenge against her, so she should not focus her anger towards Robin. If there is someone guilty, that person is her sister.
And she begins again "I'm sorry Robin. I should apologize to you and not blame you. This is about Zelena getting her revenge and taking my happy ending away from me. She just hurt you because of me. I promise not to judge you. You thought she was your wife, but still I need to know everything that happened between the two of you. When did you begin sleeping with …?" she stops not knowing if she should say "Marian", "your wife" or just "Zelena", but the only word that leaves her mouth is "… her?"
Robin begins talking with a broken voice "I'll tell you everything, Regina. Anything you need to know. This whole situation is insane. I … I know this child has no fault and doesn't deserve this either. No one should conceive a child through deception and lies. I … I need time to figure out what to do and I need your support. I can't go through this alone."
He almost begs her with tears in his eyes and adds while he brings his hands to the side of his head "I… I just can't, Regina … the choices I made thinking she really was Marian and now, I found out this witch just killed her… She didn't only lie to us, but Roland, do you know how confused he will be? How will I explain this shit to him? I… I'm ashamed for saying it, but I just want to kill this witch … and I can't… because she carries my child."
Listening to Robin asking for her support and admitting he needs her to help him go through this situation, breaks her heart, but seeing him how devastated and broken he is, makes her almost forget that she, as well, has a lot going on, so she just takes his hands, looks directly into his eyes and says "We'll work this out… together".
At her answer, he smiles and begins to tell her how his time in New York was.
He tells her how he felt when he left Storybrooke with the only purpose of saving his "wife's" and "Roland's mother's" life and not because he chose to. He shares the devastation and hopelessness he felt when his happy ending was ripped away from him.
She hears, watching the tears gathering in his eyes, that being so heartbroken made him decide to focus the little energy he still had trying to get used to the land without magic and to survive in a world he knew nothing about.
He continues telling her that he found difficult to connect with Marian and he thought it was him, but then he realized this lack of connection was also with Roland. He tells her that he noticed that Marian seemed to avoid little moments of mother and son interaction, especially bath time and bed time with Roland and that she was careless with his son, even making him skip lunch or dinner.
He shares with her how this lack of connection seemed to end each day after Roland went to sleep and that Marian tried to be intimate with him by all means, but he refused each time, because he wasn't in love with her and because of the love he once had for Marian, he didn't want her to be a replacement of what he couldn't have with Regina.
Regina listens with attention not daring to interrupt this moment, holding his hands tightly and only letting go of his hands to put into her mouth some candies from time to time.
He continues and tells Regina how those intents made him so uncomfortable that he decided to sleep in Roland's bedroom but still "Marian's" (she notices he still names her as "Marian") attempts continued and with every rejection her reaction was worse. He tells her how she yelled at him, blaming him for still being in love with Regina. He tells her the situation at home was unbearable and he only found comfort drinking at night and holding up just because of the memories he had of the time he spent with her.
He describes how he thought that was not how he remembered his wife, but he assumed her behavior was triggered by the stress she went through with the Snow Queen's curse, finding out her husband loved someone else, trying to adjust to a new world and trying to get used to technology she didn't understand. He opens up to Regina and says he knew something was off, but never would have guessed what was really happening.
He still has strength (but Regina notices he doesn't look at her … he is ashamed) to tell her that one night, a month after their arrival to New York, he drank way too much and passed out on the couch waking up the next morning in Marian's bed … naked… and how he assumed it happened the obvious. He still doesn't look at her when he tells her that Marian (he still names her "Marian") remembered him how they spend the night together with a big smile… a night that he didn't recall at all despite the efforts that he made.
He shares with her, with tears in his eyes, how just a few days ago Marian came home and gave him the news about her pregnancy and how she reacted when he asked her if she was sure.
That was it. He had shared how things happened and now both should figure out how to handle this mess.
So, after a couple of minutes in which Regina has been thinking deeply she says "Okay Robin, this will sound odd, as if you are in some sort of interrogatory, but I'm trying to sort some things out and as my sister is a liar, manipulative, mentally unstable bitch I need to ask some questions and I need you to answer honestly".
"Are you sure you don't remember having sex with her?" asks Regina.
"No, Regina. I don't remember. But it's not the first time I don't remember my actions when drunk, so that's why I believed her."
Regina continues and from the look on her face Robin can feel that what comes next won't be easy "Robin, I hope you understand that I really need you to ask this and I'm sorry, really sorry for this …" says Regina pausing an instant as if trying to find the right words for what she was going to say next "Hmmm… and, before, Robin? … hmmm … Did you have sex with her in Storybrooke after finding out your "wife" was back?"
Regina waits for an answer that comes after some seconds "Regina, do you really need to ask that?" Robin raises his voice a little, not yelling, but loud enough to show his discomfort and maybe this is the first time he has the courage to look her in the eyes "I think you already know the answer, Regina and if you don't I can't find a reason why you came all the way here to find me".
Regina is about to interrupt again, but she only has time to open her mouth when she hears Robin talking again "Regina, I will say this only once. The last time I recall sleeping with someone, it was you and that night meant everything to me" This confession makes Regina blush slightly and smile and Robin can't help but think how he missed that smile, but he continues saying "I have never had sex with any other woman since I met you and I don't remember having slept with Marian either here in New York or elsewhere. If I'm in this situation is because I've been deceived".
"I'm sorry Robin for intruding in your privacy, but I needed to ask. When you thought your wife had come back, you said to me that you had a vow with her and that vow comes also with marital life…. that's why I asked".
Robin remembers clearly the day when he came to Regina's office and practically dumped her and it makes him feel angrier, now that he knows it was Zelena all the time, but he has no time to say anything (and is grateful for that) because Regina continues with her questions "Okay. Did you see any results of the pregnancy test? Did you go to a doctor with her to confirm her pregnancy? How far along is she?" continues asking Regina.
"Holy shit, Regina! How would I know that? She said she was pregnant and I only asked her if she was sure. She got annoyed but she said she was my wife and that we had slept together and I had no reason to doubt her. What's a fucking pregnancy test, anyway? In the Enchanted Forest we don't have doctors to confirm what a woman knows… we only call the midwife when the time comes!" answered Robin utterly annoyed by the interrogatory.
"I'm sorry Robin, I had to ask. Please, understand that Zelena might be lying. This realm has ways to confirm pregnancy, even time of conception, with a level of accuracy that would surprise you, and there are means to figure out paternity. Science, biology and technology in this world will help us find some answers…. And this is something that Zelena doesn't know and surely isn't expecting. So … should I continue?"
Robin nods and answers an almost imperceptible "Go on" and Regina continues.
"So, you don't recall having sex with her and have only her word about the pregnancy?" she reaffirms herself asking again the same information Robin had just answered.
Robin nods again and Regina asks "Are you sure when you woke up in her bed was a month after you arrived here? … I think it's too soon for her to realize she is pregnant within the next …hmmmm …" she makes some math in her head and finishes "… one or two weeks? … but I'm no doctor".
"Yes, Regina. I'm quite sure. That night specifically I got drunk because it had been a month since we last saw each other. I wanted to call you and she found out and forced me to delete your contact. She said that if I ever tried to contact you again, she would leave taking Roland with her" he answers, but before Regina can continue with her questions he adds "… That's why I asked her if she was sure about being pregnant, because I still do not picture myself having sex with her after the things she said to me that night … but, I was too drunk"
"Okay. Hmmmm … Did she meet other people here in New York? Did you see her talking with someone you didn't know? Did she, even once, not return home by the time she should?" continues Regina.
"Well, in the mornings she went out to run some errands, grocery shopping and was looking for a pre-school for Roland. It seemed she didn't find a pre-school that she liked, because she continued searching … at least, that's what I thought. She never went out at night. However, she had two free afternoons for herself. She told me she was attending some activities at the community center, to try to understand this world better, its people and habits. I thought it would be good for her."
Regina looks directly to him trying to hide her doubts and to sound sure of what she thinks it's best "This is what we're going to do. I will ask Emma to take Roland back to Storybrooke, to your men. Roland must stay with your men until we get back. He will be safe with them and for any contingency there's Emma that has magic. He will be safer away from this bitch. Zelena, you and I will stay in New York until we know for sure if Zelena is really pregnant and if she is, if the baby is yours. In New York, you will be safe, Zelena has no magic, the only thing she has been using with a little magic is the necklace with the glamour spell but now that we have it, she has no magic with her and she doesn't know this world like I do. Still without my magic I have leverage here."
Robin hears to Regina with attention, nodding from time to time. He is amazed how easily it seems for her to organize her thoughts and come up with a coherent plan. No doubt she is a natural leader and despite what she did in her years as the Evil Queen and still as Storybrooke's mayor, people continue trusting her decisions.
"I will instruct Emma, if you approve, to give Roland a forgetting potion. It won't make any harm to your son. It will just make him forget the time since her "mother" came back until now. He won't remember finding his "mother" again, the Snow Queen's curse, leaving Storybrooke and certainly not his life these past weeks in New York. I think it's better for him not to go through the loss of Marian a second time…. Of course, unless you think different …. And, if Zelena is pregnant with … hmmmm … your child, we will figure out how to handle this with Roland, later".
Robin notices first the tears gathering in Regina's eyes and the expression of pain in her face the moment she says "your baby", but then he realizes Regina has just said "we" and he puts aside the feeling of uneasiness and smiles with hope that maybe not everything is over and that they may still have a chance to be together.
"Everything's fine, Regina. I will talk to Roland and maybe you can help me contact Little John. I need to explain my men the whole situation… Oh, shit! … they won't believe this … and, hmmm … Regina, I want to apologize for yelling at you earlier, when we were in the apartment. I'm truly sorry … please forgive me." He says rubbing her hand while talking to her.
She only smiles and says "I understand, Robin. Things had been really stressful for you the last weeks."
Regina has been trying to hide her need to burst into tears since she sat with Robin in that bar and doesn't know how much time she will be able to be in control of her emotions and this doesn't go unnoticed by Robin. He admits the situation they're going through is complicated and has been a surprise for her, but still there's something off with Regina. She is only drinking water (and for a conversation this heavy, usually she would have drunk at least two glasses of scotch by that moment) and is sucking on from time to time some lemon candy … that's not her … she avoids sweets and she has gone to the bathroom like four times since they arrived here. She had changed some habits and definitely he could say something is different with her, so he asks "Regina, are you okay? I know this is something stupid to ask, but I can feel there's something more … something you're not telling me."
"Damn soulmate connection!" Thinks Regina to herself, because indeed there's something she should tell him, but it's not the right time now with Zelena's pregnancy between the two of them, so she only takes his hands firmly and says "Let's first figure out if she's pregnant and if you're the father. Then we shall talk".
And as she stands up from the chair to leave she tries to make things more natural and comes up with an "Okay, thief, let's move, we don't have all day! We need to talk to Emma and then to Zelena, but first we need to go to a drugstore to buy something".
And with that they leave the bar and stop in the first drugstore they find in the way to the apartment, where Regina buys 3 pregnancy tests from different brands. Regina explains Robin how a pregnancy test works and Robin is marveled of the things available in this land and how Regina has get to know all these.
He tells Regina that he is sure Zelena hasn't used one of those "pregnancy detectors" because he should have seen the box or the little stick in the bathroom and he hasn't.
They arrive to the apartment minutes later and find Roland playing with Emma and Lily totally unaware of the whole situation. Bless the innocence of being five! Emma and Lilly have managed to take Zelena away to one of the rooms, just after Regina and Robin left, so that they won't need to explain Roland who the redheaded lady was and where was his mom.
While Emma and Regina talk privately, Robin does the same with Roland, explaining him that he will be going back to Storybrooke and that he and Regina will be going later, because "there's no room in the car for all of us". Roland is excited to return and to go to live in the woods again and doesn't even ask about when his mother will be joining them… so, that part is easy.
Robin and Regina make Roland's bag and within the next hour Emma, Lily and Roland part to Storybrooke, with clear instructions of what to say and what to do when they arrive.
Once Emma, Lily and Roland have left the apartment, Regina and Robin walk into the room Zelena is in and close the door behind them.
This won't be easy.
"So, Zelena you're pregnant", says Regina with a voice that would give chills to the toughest of people and surely does to Zelena.
"Yes, indeed I am, sister. I have been here 6 weeks playing the perfect wife with your soulmate and I guess you know what husband and wife do in the bedroom, don't you? You were married once. I wonder why you never got pregnant..." She has that smile in her face, a smile just in between mockery and insanity "… Maybe the king didn't desire you, sister? Or had a mistress? Or maybe he just couldn't get it up? Or is it that maybe you just can't have children?" finishes Zelena looking fiercely at Regina, with her eyes almost about to pop off their orbits. The hate, the envy, the rage … all there in one look.
Regina doesn't even have time to answer because Robin intervenes "The thing is, witch…" and both Zelena and Regina turn at the same time to look at him surprised of the angry tone in his voice "… I don't remember sharing a bed with you … ever, so you know, the land without magic has another type of magic, one that you aren't aware it even exists and that we are going to use on you".
Regina adds, staring directly at Zelena in the eyes "In fact Zelena, this world's magic is called knowledge, science and technology. Do you see this little stick here in my hand? .." she says holding in one of her hands the pregnancy test "… well, this little thing can tell us using a single drop of … hmmm … fluid … If you're pregnant or if you're not. If you're pregnant, magic in this land will tell us exactly how far along you are and who is the father of your baby without any doubt …. So, listen to me very carefully Zelena, there's no way you will get away with this. Either way this unfolds, believe me, you and I won't be seen each other ever again."
Zelena's face is pale now, she surely hadn't expected something like this. Robin and Regina can feel how nervous and angry she is, almost about to lose the little control she still has, but Regina continues, not giving Zelena any time to reply.
"Maybe this land can't punish you for Marian's death, because we can't prove it happened, it will be difficult to understand in a world without magic and there's no corpse, but … if this happens to be true and your baby is Robin's … well, having sex with someone and taking advantage of a person while unconscious or drunk, without explicitly and willingly giving their consent for such act, is a crime and is called rape and you most certainly will go to jail for it. Your baby will be born in jail and as soon as it is strong enough, the baby will go to live with Robin … jail is not a place to raise a son or a daughter, so as a mother you'll understand that taking the baby away from you will be its best chance. You will see your baby again when you get out of jail, hmmmm ….maybe in 10 or 15 years from now, luckily a little earlier if you behave well in jail, and when that happens your son or daughter won't even recognize you … be sure, we will use any tool the system in this land provides us to put you in jail if you sexually abused Robin. So, Zelena it would be better for you if you were just lying about this baby, because if this is Robin's baby things will turn out to be pretty bad for you."
Regina is facing Zelena, standing very close to her, face to face and is well aware that she has Zelena's total attention because Zelena hasn't even dared to blink since Regina began speaking.
Regina continues talking to Zelena deeply and slowly, as if she wants to be sure Zelena heasr and understands without any doubt each word that leaves her mouth and if looks could kill, well … Zelena would be very dead by now.
"… And if it happens that you're pregnant with somebody else's baby or not pregnant at all, what we are going to find out soon, let's say that you will have to learn to live by your own away from us and if you dare to get close to my family again … I swear to God, Zelena that there will be no place in any realm for you to hide from me. I'll find you and will crush your heart without blinking and still will be back home for coffee!"
Zelena recomposes herself quickly, hides her nervousness and concern, and replies quickly "Regina dear, you are lying. I can tell how desperate you are and for the first time maybe you are jealous and envy what I have", she walks forward and when her face is almost touching Regina's she continues "You are jealous because I will have with Robin what you can't have with him, dear."
Robin immediately gets closer to Regina and puts his arm around her shoulders while saying "Look, witch, Regina doesn't have to be jealous. She doesn't need to pretend to be someone else to have me. She can have with me whatever she wants."
"Are you sure, thief?" replies Zelena turning to look at Regina "I see… You haven't told him the truth yet" and turning again to look at Robin, who can't hide his surprise, she continues "Well… it seems, your girlfriend hasn't been totally honest with you. Actually she isn't able to have everything she wants. There's one thing I have that surely she wishes, but she won't have ever: a child of her flesh and blood!"
Robin looks surprised, but doesn't respond. Regina has an unreadable expression and doesn't answer either. Both have gotten to know Zelena and they aren't playing her game, so, Regina answers quickly "Don't think you are so certain of what I can or can't have, Zelena … you'll most surely be surprised! I strongly recommend you to save your energies for later. You'll need them."
She takes in her hand again the pregnancy test that she left moments before over the table and continues "Now, Zelena we will both go into that bathroom and I'll watch you pee in this stick. In 5 minutes we'll know if you're pregnant".
TO BE CONTINUED ...