Let me practice on my angst :D

"Why won't you tell your parents about us!? We've been together for nine months now Anna. Nine months!"

A frustrated growl

"I want to Els. I fucking want to but you know how my parents are!"

A sob unable to be held in

"Goddamn it Anna! I love you and I want your parents to know that! To hell with all of their religious shit!"

A glare

"Don't fucking talk about my parents like that."

An unbelieving stare

Silence

Unable to bare

"I understand. Goodbye Anna"

A softly closing door had never been so loud to Anna in her whole life.

The weak morning rays of the sun crept trough the bedroom window. Waking the body that was lying in a messy two-person bed. The clock read 7:32 and an exhausted huff came from the person that was now sitting upright in her bed.

Their bed.

Anna ran her hand through her hair, clearing her throat as she did so. She rubbed her eyes and wiped the tears that still lingered on her cheeks.

A glint caused by the rays of the rising sun caught her eye and they fell on a photo.

There she was

A beautiful platinum blonde haired girl, sophisticated and breathtaking. Standing beside an undeserving fool.

Anna felt the tears well up again and with a heavy heart she got out of bed and went to freshen herself up. She still had work to do after all.

Looking out of her bathroom window she saw people already up and going, children playing or going to school.

It was summer but never before had she felt colder when she woke up without her.

Wasn't it enough that I gave her everything I could?

No, she couldn't think like that. She knew she was at fault. God she should've just told her parents as soon as possible.

She didn't

And now she lost the one person that had mattered the most in the first place.

Her parents were her foundation and it's hard to let go of that

But Elsa had been her future and that should've been everything she'd need.

Stupid approval thing almost every neglected kid craves for.

Wiping her face with a towel she went out and dressed herself. After a quick breakfast, she grabbed her jacket and booked it to the nearest bar and her longtime friend Kristoff was standing behind it, wiping some glasses.

"Hey there Anners, what brings you here at… eight thirty in the morning?" he frowned when he saw the time and judging by the heavy sigh she released as she sat down, he knew she needed some advice. "Kris I really don't know what to do. Elsa and I had a fight again last night about the same thing as always." Another heavy sigh. "But I went too far this time and now she left and I have no idea where she could be. God I said some awful things to her Kris."

The blonde man placed Anna's favorite beer in front of her and patted her head as she let it fall on the bar. "Well feisty I think you should apologize to her, you've known her for ten months. Surely you know where she'd be." Anna looked up at the beer and took a swig from it. Looking outside the big window as she put it down.

She didn't say anything, just looked. It had started raining at some point and a pricking feeling behind her eyes caused her to blink rapidly to get them away. Couples with children or young couples had stuck up an umbrella and walked under it together. So in love. So content

Anna only felt darkness consume her as she watched them have their own little light moment on a dark day.

She looked back at Kristoff who'd gone back to cleaning some glasses.

"Thanks Kris." God even those words didn't hold any of her normal cheeriness and warmth.

Just cold and darkness.

The man only nodded at her and she grabbed her jacket before stepping outside in the pouring rain.

She'd decided to just walk to work. It wasn't even far anyway, just a little music café right around the corner of the street.

She let the rain wash over her as a punishment.

She didn't deserve the shelter that the couples around her got.

After having passed the fifth couple she finally made it to the café

She'd met Elsa here.

Every now and again, the owner let her play something to entertain the guests. She'd brought her acoustic guitar and sat on the wooden stool reserved for the entertainer of that hour. Just warming up she began to pluck on some strings and tuned her guitar.

That was when she walked in.

A woman, dressed in a fancy black pantsuit and black high heels entered the café. Everything seemed to be in slow motion as she walked over to one of the unoccupied tables.

Her platinum blonde hair was in a French braid, thrown over her left shoulder and she was in the progress of ruffling her bangs and slicking them backwards. The obvious pleasure of being freed from her twisted bun displayed on her lightly make upped face. Her eyes opened and it stole Anna's breath away when she saw the icy blue eyes that presented themselves when they met her own teal ones.

Wait.

Her guitar slipped and she scrambled to keep it on her lap and not have it fall on the mini stage. She looked up with wide eyes and awkwardly chuckled along with the patrons as they amusedly looked at her.

What really caught her attention though was the giggle from one of the tables in front of the stage.

She looked and there she was. The breathtaking woman had taken a seat at the front row. Her hand daintily placed on her pink, bow shaped lips as she tried to reign her sounds of amusement in.

Anna blushed and cleared her throat, grinning goofily at everyone but one blonde in particular before starting to strum

Only you… can make oh this world seem bright…

Anna finished her shift and sighed once again as she nursed her beer on the patio, it was a pretty warm night and there were still a lot of people walking around the square. She wasn't going to lie. She'd hoped Elsa would show up there and they could talk it out, apologize, forgive and forget and Anna could finally tell her that she would tell her parents about them and be damn proud while she did it.

It had already been a month since the fight after all

She didn't though

Taking another swig of her beer, she looked out over the square when suddenly, she felt a drop of cold liquid fall on her nose. Just as she looked up at the sky, it broke loose. Rain fell down like a shower and had Anna drenched in less than two minutes.

She sighed but didn't pay it any mind, just sat there and sipped her beer as she watched the last few people run off to shelter.

She deserved this.

Slowly getting up she threw the beer bottle towards the glass bin in the ally next to the café and made her way back to their apartment.

Even though Elsa hadn't moved in yet, she practically lived there.

Guess that won't happen any time soon now will it?

Every step hurt, every couple she encountered burned and all her thoughts made her feel heavy.

She was deep in thought when she encountered a neon sign sticking from a building where loud music and lots of loud voices were heard from. She looked at it and saw a bouncer standing in front of the club.

Perfect.

Her name was Alice

Anna woke to a warm body on top of hers and brunette hair splayed over her and the pillow. She groaned at the light headache and sniffed as she pushed her hair back. Looking down she confirmed what she already knew that had happened and sighed.

The body on hers began to stir and Anna prepared herself.

The brunette looked up and smiled gently at her, which slowly turned into a mischievous grin, her bottom lip caught in her teeth.

"Good morning stranger"

Anna smiled for the first time in a month

She looked Alice in the eyes and she felt another wave of pain, hers were blue too but they didn't even hold a candle to her favorite shade.

She so hoped it had been her favorite shade with her favorite person

She and Alice dated for about four months when Anna caught her.

Anna came to surprise her girlfriend because she'd recently gotten a promotion when she found that she was already 'celebrating' with one of her colleagues

It didn't matter.

"I deserved this" was all she'd said before leaving Alice, deer caught in headlights look and her sheets covering her naked body. While her assistant was looking away awkwardly.

She wasn't as hung up on this as she was on Elsa but it still hurt

Didn't help that she still hadn't heard a single thing from the blonde

But that was okay

She deserved it

It finally happened.

She was tuning her guitar on the bar stool when the bell above the café door tinkled again, she didn't look up, she didn't want to. Months after almost getting whiplash every time the door opened she'd learned it would just be better to not get her hopes up anymore.

She leaned closer to the microphone and cleared her throat "Hey everyone." Her voice was so foreign, even to her "this is a song that I wrote about my own stupidity for losing the best thing that could happen in my life" that goddamn burning feeling behind her eyes again "hope you like it" sarcasm laced her voice as she counted in her head

Woke up this morning, can't shake the thunder from last night
You left with no warning and took the summer from my life
I gave you my everything, now my world it don't seem right
Can we just go back to being us again?

The tears were there, she could feel them running down her cheeks already, she took a deep breath and ignored the stinging in her heart as she steadied her voice and carried on. It was all she seemed to be able to do these days anyway.

'Cause when I'm sitting in the bar
All the lovers with umbrellas always pass me by
It's like I'm living in the dark
And my heart's turned cold since you left my life
And no matter where I go
Girl, I know if I'm alone, there'll be no blue sky
I don't know what I'm doing wrong

Her eyes dared to sweep across the audience but her vision was blurred because of the tears that were still gathered there. She blinked and went back to focusing on her playing and singing. It was all she could do from completely breaking down. To free the pain and numbness that she still felt. Nothing had any meaning or color anymore, even Alice hadn't managed to brighten her up to her old self again.

Only one person could do that

And Anna had driven her away.

'Cause baby, when you're gone
All it does is rain, rain, rain down on me
Each drop is pain, pain, pain when you leave
It's such a shame we fucked it up, you and me
'Cause baby, when you're gone
All it does is rain

She looked outside but odd enough it wasn't raining this time, in fact, it was a perfectly sunny afternoon. Not a cloud in the sky and no couples shielding themselves from pouring rain.

It was as if a curtain had finally opened, letting every bit of light inside again.

And it feels like, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
And it feels like, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause baby, when you're gone
All it does is rain

Anna was dumbfounded, she didn't feel heavy or sad, even the numbness had begun to ebb away and she didn't feel clouded anymore.

She could finally breath

Hope now began to bubble up in her once again and she blinked when realization caught up to her. But no. It couldn't be. She shouldn't bring her hopes up like that.

So, she played

Without a care in the world

Tried to find shelter here in the arms of someone new
But I'd rather be there under the covers just with you
'Cause you were my everything
Now I don't know what to do
Oh, I'm caught up in the storm

She grew sad again, she did do that didn't she? Was it cheating? They technically hadn't broken up. Anna had no excuse for her behavior but she needed distraction, it wasn't something she should've done and she and Alice never really were that serious but they still had sex.

Guilt is such a tearing feeling

She continued the song, playing for Elsa, herself and everything she'd done. Putting her everything in it as she emptied herself, laid herself bare and beat herself up at the same time.

She deserved it after all.

And it feels like, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
And it feels like, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause baby, when you're gone
All it does is rain

Anna strummed for the last time and tapped her guitar, quickly wiping her tears away as she finally dared to really look up.

Her breath was taken away the moment she did

She'd caught her favorite shade of blue.

Elsa's eyes were just as tear filled as hers, a small shy smile adorned those bow shaped lips Anna loved so much. Everything she loved so much was right there.

She saw tunnel vision as she put her guitar down and slowly stalked over to the table where they met all those month ago. Where they had their first coffee together and where they planned to go on their first real date.

When Anna finally reached her Elsa was standing too. Still looking so perfect in her black pantsuit and heels.

Elsa didn't waste any time and pulled Anna close, but far enough to still be able to look the redhead in the eyes

They didn't have to say a word

Their eyes said it all

How sorry they were

How much they loved each other

And last but not least

How it had been raining since the day they were gone from each other's life.

And for now, that was enough

They deserved this, after all.

Did I do any good? Gonna try and do this one-shot thing more, I kinda like it :)

~M