She watched the morning sun rise over the tops of buildings from her vantage point on the roof of the precinct. Glancing at her watch, she checked the time and realized she had been there for four hours, hiding up on the rooftop, trying to get some peace and quiet. Going home was a gamble, she knew that, but she had done it anyway wanting to go home and rest after a long day at work, and hoping Brian would be in a good mood, but of course, she had been wrong. Opening a new pack of cigarettes she lit one up, no one knew she smoked, and she had quit for a long time, but with the stress of work and Brian she picked her old habit right back up, needing a stress reliever.
"Not so straight laced, huh Lieutenant?" a voice from behind her spoke. She whirled around and found herself face to face with Amanda who was wearing a satisfied smile. "I always knew you didn't follow all the rules." She joked, pulling her own cigarettes from her pocket. "Can I borrow your lighter?" she asked, a cigarette perched between two pink lips, a slight smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. Without answering, Olivia produced her lighter from her pocket and extended her hand. When their hands touched, Amanda's smile faded.
"Jesus Liv, how long have you been out here? You're freezing." She took Olivia's hands in her own, rubbing some warmth back into them. It wasn't until it was pointed out that Olivia realized just how cold she was, she shivered in her thin sleeveless, blouse having forgotten a jacket before hiding on the roof in the early hours of the morning. "Did you go home last night? That's the same shirt you had on yesterday." Amanda questioned, suddenly realizing that something was off.
"Yes I went home last night." Olivia said, speaking for the first time since Amanda had arrived. She wasn't lying, she had gone home briefly the night before.
Amanda stepped closer to get a better look at Olivia, now worried about her boss. She could see a purple tint to the normally pink lips and saw a blush in her cheeks from the cold and a noticeable shiver as her teeth chattered quietly. "Liv, what the hell?" she asked as shed her own jacket and motioned for Olivia to put her arms in. Offering up no resistance, Olivia turned her back to Amanda to allow her to help her into the jacket, when suddenly Amanda gasp and pulled the jacket away, lightly touching Olivia's back. "Oh my god Liv. What the hell is going on?" She brushed her fingers lightly over the bruising that covered parts of her upper arms, little did she know those were only the ones visible. "What are these from Olivia?"
"Amanda… Please, just forget about it, alright?" Olivia said quietly, her shiver much worse now from the nerves she was experiencing. She slowly turned to face Amanda. "Please."
"Please what Liv? Tell me where you got these bruises." Amanda said firmly, she had noticed Olivia changing over the past few weeks, and she had witnessed a few arguments between her and Brian, but she had never imagined this. "Are they from Brian?" she asked, anyway knowing the answer. It turned her stomach to imagine someone putting their hands on Olivia's in any way that wasn't loving.
Olivia didn't answer, she looked at the cigarette burning between her fingers, watched the ashes grow with each passing second. She sank down to ground in front of the brick wall she had been leaning against. Her body began to shake with the sobs racking her body, she hadn't cried up until that point, choosing instead to ignore what was going on, hoping maybe it would stop. Before she knew it, Amanda was sitting in front of her, pulling her into a tight hug and wrapping her jacket around the older woman and rubbing soothing circles on her back.
"Shhh, it'll be okay Liv. It's gonna be fine, you don't have to go back there with him. You're gonna be fine." She hushed, placing small kisses into the soft brown hair. Her heart was breaking. Never before had she seen Olivia so broken, so upset and seeking physical comfort like she was in that moment, her fingers gripping the material of Amanda's flannel shirt.
"I don't know what to do." Olivia cried, leacing a wet patch on the shoulder of Amanda's shirt.
"Hey, look at me." Amanda said, pulling back enough to look Olivia in the face. She brushed away hair from her eyes and gave her a light smile when Olivia looked up and meet her eyes, tears clinging to her lashes. "Everything is going to be fine, okay? You don't have to hold this anymore, I'll call Fin and he and I will go get some of your things and can stay with me for as long as you need. You don't have to worry about anything Liv." She knew she was being bold by telling Olivia to stay with her. They weren't all that close, in fact they were usually arguing, up until recently, things had been tense between them. She just couldn't stomach the idea of Olivia being alone during all of this, she had already been through so much.
"You don't have to do that Amanda, I don't want to make Brian any more angry than he already is with you and Fin going to our apartment and getting my things." She said uneasily, if she was honest she was more embarrassed at that moment then she could remember ever having been before. The fact that she worked sex crimes and told women often how they didn't deserve the abuse they suffered, that they had other choices, but was stuck in an abusive relationship of her own made her feel like a hypocrite.
"Don't you worry about Brian, we will deal with him okay?" Amanda said firmly, wiping away stay tears from Olivia's face. "Alright, let's go inside and get you warmed up while I give Fin a call." She helped Olivia to her feet and they made their way back into the building, into the warmth.
After she had gotten Olivia settled onto the sofa in her office wrapped in a blanket with a hot cup of tea on the table in front of her, Amanda made her way to the cribs to make that important phone call. Checking the time, she figured Fin would probably still be asleep as he wasn't due into work for almost another two hours she called anyway. After three rings he picked up.
"Tutuola." He said his voice thick with sleep.
"Fin, it's Amanda. I need your help with something." Amanda said, knowing that would wake him up quickly. He was always ready to help a friend.
"What's going on?" he said as he cleared his throat.
"It's Liv."
"Is she okay? Where is she?"
"She's at the precinct with me, and yeah I guess she's okay. Apparently Cassidy doesn't know how to keep his hands to himself. I found her out on the roof just a little while ago freezing cold and in the same clothes she had on yesterday. When I asked her about the bruises on her arms she started crying. I told her that you and I would go get her some things from their apartment and that she is going to stay with me for a while." Amanda relayed all of the information she had so far, feeling her anger rising with each word.
"That son of a bitch." Fin said, his anger evident in the way his voice shook. Amanda knew he saw Olivia as a sister and her would do anything to protect her. "I'll meet you at her apartment, I'm leaving now."
"Just wait for me to get there before you go up. You know how Cassidy is, if you rough him up he will report you."
"I'll wait for you, don't worry." She could hear the jingle of keys in the back ground and the slamming of a door just before he ended the call. She slid her phone back into get pocket and made her way to the Lieutenants office to check on her. Seeing that she was sleeping soundly, she quietly closed the door and left Carisi a note on his desk telling him that she and Fin would be back soon in case he arrived before they made it back to the precinct.
As she weaved her way into the morning traffic she felt a lump growing in her throat. She was so angry. Olivia deserved so much better than what she was getting and she couldn't see how someone could treat her the way that Brian Cassidy had. She couldn't change what had happened, but she could make damn sure it wouldn't happen again.