"Let's...just...go." Cosima says one night, less than two weeks since they've stopped constantly fearing for their lives. They'd barely settled in, Sarah still grieving Siobhan, Helena and Alison busy with Helena's yet-to-be-named newborns, and… efforts to track down any clone except Krystal had proven difficult.
"Where?" Delphine shifts back on her chair. She'd barely picked at her food, both their minds spinning frantically. All those clones. The treatment. How to distribute it. Would it even work as an inoculation? Or would the already ill clones require more invasive treatment like Cosima and Charlotte did?
Cosima shrugs, smiling. "I don't know… let's just pack, get in the car and drive…"
"A road trip?" Delphine furrows her brow, thinking it over. Perhaps they could, maybe the break would be good for both of them.
"Yeah. A road trip. Just the two of us." Cosima urges, "we'll take a week to get ourselves packed up. And then we'll just go…"
"But…" Delphine reconsiders her protests, perhaps it is best Cosima feels that she is the one convincing her. Maybe this is so needed. She swore they'd done little but sleep and make love for several days anyway.
"We're waiting on information. Sitting around in the lab is just going to make us both crazy. Scotty can handle things. For a week or two." Cosima suggests again.
"Yes." Delphine agrees nodding, it would be good for the two of them. To just have their time.
She lets Delphine load the car, her girlfriend insists on lightening her load. Even planning their first couple destinations. They had a reservation in a little nothing town called Merrickville. Which Delphine insisted was the perfect spot to spend a couple quiet days. Cosima grins to herself watching Delphine load the last of the luggage and equipment into their rented car, a Honda Fit.
"OK. It does have more trunk space than I thought." Cosima admits, opening the passenger door and buckling herself up.
"Did you pack snacks?"
"Yup. Healthy and vegetarian friendly. In the cooler." Cosima responds quickly. It had been the one task Delphine had allowed her.
It takes over an hour to get out of the GTA, but Delphine seems to know where she's going. The GPS they'd gotten just in case remaining unused for now.
"Why out east?" Cosima wonders allowed as they pass the highway exit for Ajax.
"I have no desire to drive through the mosquito capital of Canada." Delphine informs her wryly, "I did research. Lots of it. First Merrickville for a couple days, then on to Montréal… And Halifax. Unless you want to stop in Ottawa?"
"I don't know, maybe." Cosima shrugs. "It is supposed to be the capital, right?"
"Yes. And a liberal city. Montréal too."
"Good. Any music?" Cosima asks, only to watch Delphine quickly flick on the radio and then the CD player. "Oh."
Delphine's music. Cosima's not sure why, but she assumed more than half of it would be in French. But the first song that comes on has her grimacing. "Is that Bryan Adams?"
"Oui," Delphine answers affirmatively, beginning to sing along.
They meander their way east as speakers continue to blare. There's no love like your love. And no other could give more love. There's nowhere…
Cosima wants to whine about the music. Bryan Adams of all things. But Delphine is singing along, her hands gripping the wheel as they continue the drive and she cannot bring herself to stop her. As much as the music is definitely not her style. The early spring seemingly perfect for the drive. It's just one song, right? Cosima thinks to herself. It's got to be a mix CD, this car can take several and she's sure Delphine has planned all of this.
They stop at a couple enroute rest stops, more Bryan Adams is played, and then it morphs into a better mix. French and English. Mostly pop or indie songs, depending on Delphine's mood she supposes.
"Do you want to stop in Kingston?" Delphine asks.
"Why? We've already inoculated Krystal." Cosima shrugs.
"Okay, we'll drive through then."
It's winding through increasingly narrow streets in search of a nothing little town that Cosima begins to feel slightly out of control. A small town? Small towns weren't good for people like them, at least in most countries. Maybe Canada was better.
"Merrickville." Cosima comments at the sign, as Delphine finally turns on the GPS to guide them to their end of day destination. She barely sees the town, and it seems tiny.
"Yes," Delphine responds, humming along to some song Cosima cannot identify as she winds there way to the bed and breakfast.
"It's cute." Cosima notes, looking at the house as Delphine puts the car into park. Large white house, picket fence, blue door.
"Yes. It is." Delphine smiles, climbing out of the car, "I'll go get things settled inside."
A moment or two later, Cosima becomes bored of waiting, and grabs their smaller overnight bags and follows Delphine in, she leans in the doorway watching her lover sign the guest book as she hands over her credit card.
"Delphine Cormier, two nights, one queen sized bed." The woman behind the small desk comments, tapping away on an old laptop.
"Yes that is correct." Delphine nods, "and this my partner, Cosima." She waves a hand in Cosima's direction as she continues.
The couple running the B and B merely smile at them, but undoubtedly they are read as a couple.
"Enjoy your time here ladies. Feel free to grab some brochures and check out as much as possible. Artist studio tours aren't this weekend, but there is still lots to see."
As Cosima looks at Delphine climbing the narrow stairs up to their room, she finds herself thinking the only thing she wants to see is a shower, and Delphine naked in that bed.
"Do you want to eat?" Delphine asks, after unlocking their room, and shrugging out of her jacket and sweater.
"Kinda… there's something else I want to do." Cosima smiles lasciviously. "Shower… and bed?"
"Bed? Cosima it's barely 3 pm." Delphine teases back, though she knows instinctively her girlfriend isn't opposed to a hay roll before dinner.
As she lets Delphine pull her in, kissing her neck, they strip off their clothes not even bothering to close the curtains on the window.
She pulls Delphine down on the four poster bed, the quilt is pretty, Cosima admits, in a grandmotherly kind of way, but all she can suddenly think of is having Delphine again.
She starts in with the button of Delphine's jeans, popping it open, but she'll need help to remove the tight fabric. Delphine begins to tug them off herself, shedding the layer until her legs are bare, until Cosima tosses off her skirt, throwing her own clothing onto the floor.
"Bra off." Delphine mutters, setting in on stripping the rest of her clothes off. And, she's sweaty, they both are from the drive but she cannot bring herself to care. Delphine's mouth on her breasts, Delphine's nearly bare body pinning her own to this bed, hips moving on top of her as lips kiss their way up to her neck, eventually meeting her own again in a leisurely kiss.
Cosima had thought they'd sated this enough in the last couple weeks, that they weren't quite as desperate anymore. That they could be calm together, but another rock from Delphine's hips has her rolling her lover onto her back, moving to pin her down.
"I'm topping." Cosima says clearly, before dipping her mouth back to Delphine's, letting her tongue trace a delicate line along her girlfriend's lower lip.
"I don't mind just.." Delphine whispers, but she yields the same, argument left unfinished.
She reaches between Delphine's legs, only to pull off the thin piece of damp lace separating her hand from Delphine's sex. She peers down at manicured light brown curls, admiring Delphine's swollen sex. Cosima shakes her head happily for a moment, she should be used to this, she touches Delphine all the time now. Tastes her all the time. Maybe it's time to try something new, a new way of lovemaking, as much as she's been delighted with Delphine. With everything since they came back together.
"What's wrong?" Delphine notices the shift, even in the haze of her arousal she's looking out for her.
"Nothing. I'm just thinking. And happy." Cosima tells her, beginning to play with her fingers at the edge of her sex, teasing against swollen labia, delighting in the wetness that comes so easily now. Will it always? Cosima wonders to herself. How much of this will last? How much will change? She doesn't think her love will, it can't.
She thrust in, leaning down to kiss Delphine again as she does, stroking at her inner walls, trying to be gentle, at least at first.
"Thinking what?" Delphine smiles, moving with her, this rhythm they know well now, practised over the last few weeks, the simple joy they both take in this.
Cosima grins, thinking about it, but maybe this is a good a time as any. "We should get a strap-on. A dildo… I could fuck you with it." She thinks she's suggested something that will delight Delphine, increasing arousal, instead she watches Delphine's brow furrow, and a hand gripping her wrist, pulling her in tighter.
There's a few moments of quiet that follow, she slows her movements. Well that wasn't the result she'd wanted.
"There is nothing missing for me." Delphine says finally. clutching Cosima's wrist, keeping her fingers buried deep inside. "Our lovemaking is perfect."
"It… it'd just be for fun." Cosima responds. "Besides, I know you'd like it…" Maybe when they hit a bigger city they can find a sex shop. She'll be able to sell Delphine on it, she's sure. She continues thrusting with her hand braced against her thigh. Delphine likes penetration. Heck, Delphine likes sex with men, why not mix things up?
"I love you. I want you." Delphine emphasizes. "Feeling you." The last words are a low groan and she cannot stop herself from kissing Delphine then, cutting off this misplaced discussion for another time.
Her hands take over, three fingers buried deep in Delphine, stroking into her, as her thumb swipes against her swollen clit. If this is all Delphine wants, at this moment, she's happy to give it to her.
Either way, she gets her lover off in record time. She enjoys the sound of Delphine panting heavily against the bed, pale skin against the bright colours of the quilt. When Delphine moves to cover her, the conversation is temporarily forgotten.
They go for a leisurely late dinner, after showering. The restaurants seem adequate here. Delphine decides, perusing the menu. She'd even ensured vegetarian options for Cosima. Though, part of her suspects she'll be vegetarian too before the end of a year with Cosima. For Cosima.
"You like it?" She asks, watching Cosima look around the room. For such a small town the restaurant was fairly busy.
"Yeah. I mean, it's enough to keep us amused for a couple days." Cosima nods, stretching back into her chair. Hands moving as per usual.
"Good."
It's after dinner they stroll back towards their B and B, Cosima's hand firmly clasped in her own. As she'd suspected, they don't draw too much attention. This town is close enough to Ottawa, close enough to the government workers, and well-paid employees for weekends here to be a thing for all sorts of couples.
Once they're in, door closed, she reaches for Cosima with both hands, yanking her in firmly for a kiss. Cosima yields as expected, settling herself against the end of the bed and allowing Delphine to take control.
"Comme ça?" Delphine prompts, once she's lowered herself onto her knees to crouch between Cosima's legs. She kisses teasingly against her belly as she works Cosima's tights off her legs, already anticipating the answer.
"God yes," Cosima breathes, even as she's leaning back on her hands.
Perhaps this, Delphine thinks, as her mouth moves up a quivering inner thigh, was exactly what going away together was about. Cosima pleased, Cosima in her mouth, she could do this anywhere. But being alone together… that was worth the trip.
In the morning they make love again, slowly barely stirring from sleep before she's slid on top of Cosima again, she rides her fingers to a gradual but satisfying climax, and giggles down at her girlfriend on the bed. Her own digits still buried in Cosima, who seems equally satisfied.
"I think I am starting to like this room." Cosima jokes, using her own hands to draw attention to its kitschiness. The hand embroidered accents, the quits, the doily on the nightstand.
"Me too." Delphine sighs as she lies herself down against her love, she inhales deeply. The smell of their arousal. The smell of their lovemaking. Perfect, she thinks.
"Do you want to go get breakfast? There was that café last night." Delphine offers, fingers lightly stroking from thigh to waist.
"Sounds good. We've definitely worked up an appetite, and the need for yet another shower." Cosima giggles as she pushes herself out of bed, and reaches for one of the thin robes they brought with them. A necessity, Delphine decides, for this sort of gettaway.
She doesn't eat meat in the morning, she copies Cosima's breakfast order and makes do with a soft-boiled egg, toast and hashbrowns. Tea and coffee arrives, served by an older man with a smile, who then returns to the kitchen.
"No meat?" Cosima views her quizzically after the server takes their order and returns to the kitchen between rounds of mingling with customers. So many of them seem to know each other, but she and Cosima aren't attracting any attention, for the most part.
"Not today." Delphine decides, today is for Cosima. For touring around and enjoying this place together. Lunch, Delphine knows, is already decided. And they'll shop and explore, and make love again in the afternoon.
"Are you like… thinking of becoming vegetarian?" Cosima wonders aloud, before taking a long sip of her tea.
"Maybe." Delphine half-lies, she'd already thought about it. At the very least she knew she'd be vegetarian at home. Perhaps buy a half-dozen vegetarian cookbooks to begin the process. Whenever they moved into their own apartment and out of the basement lab. Perhaps it was time. Whenever they got back.
"You don't have to be, you know." Cosima tilts her head at her. "It should be your choice. Not… not just because of me."
"I know." Delphine nods, breaking off a piece of bread to dip it into the runny yolk. But this is enough to make her happy. A life with Cosima is enough.
She takes joy in watching Cosima eat, watching her poke at the brochures stored on one side of the wall. This, this will be perfect, Delphine decides. The perfect start to the rest of their lives together.
They browse the little town hand in hand, garden statues, antiques, overpriced wooden furniture. Gifts, and all sorts of products made by artists. Pottery, and felted wool, and paintings and tea pots.
"We should get these for Helena's boys." Delphine murmurs, in one shop, only to look up from the baby things to find Cosima at the counter, buying a large hunk of chocolate mint fudge.
"Babe, you have to try this." Cosima tells her, after popping a small piece into her mouth. "It is so good."
Delphine half-jogs over to her, obediently opening her mouth and allowing Cosima to place a small piece of fudge inside. Her beloved is right. It is delicious.
They leave the shop, having only purchased the fudge and return to the street. Next is some kind of arts and clothing shop, the clothes she's not thrilled with, but Cosima tries several dresses on before purchasing one. At least it's not mass-produced, Delphine thinks, as she offers her own credit card to pay for it.
It amazes her how this too, suits Cosima. How her partner seems to fit in absolutely anywhere. Chatting casually with customers and shop owners alike. Delphine watches her poke around the artist galleries, the artisanal shops, smelling each soap and selecting a few to buy. The jewellry too, Cosima handles, whether it's rings made from silver spoons, or artistic earrings, to add to her too-large collection.
"I think it's time for lunch." Cosima comments, partway through the day. The artist studios, many of those they still need to see. But instead Delphine takes her to a place called the Yellow Canoe, where they both choose from the large number of vegetarian offerings for lunch.
"It's good." Delphine tells Cosima, biting into the sandwich she orders. The soup too, is delicious.
"Can I have a bite?" Cosima asks, before she holds out her sandwich.
Delphine wants to giggle, how did they become this domestic? This comfortable with each other? She's never allowed a boyfriend or love to sample from her plate before, all her relationships relatively short, and mostly dull.
Cosima smiles at her, even while chewing the vegetable and goat cheese sandwich she'd been offered. "Delicious."
"Oui." Delphine agrees with a nod. "The soup is very good too."
"And I." Cosima raises her eyebrows pointedly, as she pauses. "Already know exactly what I want for dessert."
Heat rises inside her at the thought, her body reacting to Cosima's suggestive comment. She crosses her legs, and forces herself to finish her lunch. Dessert can wait until after.
"This is perfect." Cosima sighs, still cuddled between Delphine's legs. She's still an addict for Delphine, she knows this well. She could do this forever. She could imagine them older, hair starting to grey, she could imagine them sitting on the dock at some rented cottage, watching the sunrise mugs of tea in their aging hands. She could imagine a hundred vacations, a hundred thousand sessions of cunnilingus, throwing Delphine a big party in their backyard for her 40th birthday, her clone sisters coming in and out of their lives.
"What?"
"It's perfect." Cosima repeats, lifting her mouth from her lover's hipbone.
"Delphine?" Cosima asks, stretched out on the queen-sized bed that the bed and breakfast offers.
"Yes?"
"Do you… want to get married?"
It has been something she's thought about, but only since falling in love with Cosima. "Yes."
"Like… soon, right?" Cosima's voice suddenly sounds small, almost vulnerable.
"Of course." There isn't a doubt in her mind, not one.
"Now?" Cosima looks over at her, seeming very vulnerable.
"Oh. Yes." And Delphine knows it's foolish. Knows that they should wait a year, or two. Or live together and test it out. But her heart wants what it wants. She pulls Cosima up to kiss, tasting herself, reawakening the same urge that had just been sated. Needing her again.