A/N: Hey guys, it's finally here *waggles eyebrows*. I could say a lot about this chapter, but for now, let's just let it speak for itself. It's a long one, so I apologize in advance. (Or do I?)
PLEASE BE ADVISED: there is some mild language in this chapter.
Disclaimer: Don't make money, don't own 'em (Do I have to keep telling you that? Jeez.) (I'm only kidding, it is here intentionally)
"You think that just because you're the son of Bruce Wayne, that you can get away with anything." This varsity-jacket-wearing dumbo in front of them was practically fuming. "Well, you're Gotham's little princess after all, aren't you?" He added with a sarcastic smirk as he took one heated stomp closer and closer and closer towards a placid Damian. "Did you know, Damian Wayne," he spat, "I was the hotshot around here before you showed up?" He cracked his neck, rolling it with a wicked smile. "I'd rather keep it that way."
Raven exhaled slowly as her eyes darted around the hallway. Azar, it seemed like all of Gotham Academy was watching. How did Damian's mere action of bumping into this hotshot get him into this predicament? Undercover her ass. This was Damian Wayne! If he tripped over and broke his nose on the sidewalk (not that he would, ever) it would be all over the Gotham Academy newspaper! Of course he would bring attention to any and everything he did — especially running into this sleazebag jock.
Jeez, she knew it wasn't on purpose either but she knew Damian, and she knew (as a solid fact, she might add) that he was entirely enjoying this soon-to-be sprawl.
And as predicted, when her eyes shot over to Damian, while he wore an overall composure of calmness, there it was, right on that smug face of his.
Damian's signature remark — the first thing she noticed when they battled together. That stupid thing she hated to admit that she...kind of liked.
His signature defiant smirk.
Azar.
"Please," Damian purred, his voice low and husky and so...nevermind, "enlighten me as to how you plan to do that."
He sauntered slowly, lips pursed into a tight line, bright eyes aflame, eyebrow quirked, neck bared, and anger vein exposed. How could someone possibly be dumb enough to pick a fight with Damian? The Bruce Wayne's son? And even as just Damian he was a type A "I'll kick your ass if you speak to me" type of person, let alone the separate brat entity that was Robin.
She wished that she was next to him like in battle, ready to beat up this asshole in front of her, but in the rush of the spectacle, she was shoved into the audience. Just a mere spectator — like the rest of the students. Basically...all the students. The next class had already started too, but apparently no one could resist the urge of watching the battle of Mr. Hotshot versus Damian Wayne. She swore even some professors were there watching, too.
Damn, she didn't want to be just a spectator, though.
She wasn't just a classmate to him.
But here...apparently she was...or had to be. Isn't that what she just told him not even five minutes ago, anyways?
"Do you really want to know, princess?" Mr. Hotshot cooed. There were a few snickers from the crowd. Probably from the other jocks.
They were maybe only a few bodies apart now, and she could see Mr. Hotshot's fist clenching, let alone feel the anger that was seething from his body.
Oh, no.
Damian shrugged nonchalantly, his eyebrow quirked. "Why not?"
Oh, hell.
The jock struck, his fist plummeting through the air.
"What?" He sneered as some "oooohs" were emitted from the crowd.
Her hands were sweating. Why were her hands sweating? She knew this guy was no match for Damian and yet...
"I think you missed," Damian said on a deadpan. There was some more laughter from the crowd.
Of course he dodged it. If only they knew exactly what the boy in front of them was capable of.
Mr. Hotshot sighed forcefully, his upper lip quivering. "Why you little —"
He lunged at Damian. If she hadn't known him she would have thought the delicate frame of his was no match for the beefy, bulky jock. Of course Damian was muscular in his own way, but not like this guy - this guy looked like a horse. She almost snickered at the thought, but then after another miss from the jock she saw Damian's fist clench and - this wasn't going to be good.
"Stop!"
Before a single thought flashed in her mind, she found herself in between Damian and the jock with a stern stare and a heavy breath.
"Rae, don't," Damian grunted under his breath. His nostril flared ever so slightly and she could tell that while seconds ago he was just mildly irritated, now he was fuming. Of course that change in his expression was so minute that only she would probably notice it, but there was also surprise scribbled in his eyes and as she glanced over at the jock, she was damn sure he noticed it, too.
God, the response was so natural to her, like an instinct. Now she got herself riddled in this goddamn mess which was probably why Damian turned from playful to serious in the fraction of a second. She looked around her at the appalled and excited faces surrounding them, just a sea of anonymous amused spectators, and she felt so...exposed. Why? She was used to this.
"Oh ho ho, what do we have here?" The jock's voice turned low and gruff as he sauntered towards them. His eyes were no longer focused on Damian but rather glued onto...her. What?
"What a precious little girl protecting her precious little princess."
She felt Damian stiffen beside her. He was growing angrier by the second, she didn't even have to look at him to know.
By this point the jock was a mere foot away from her, towering over her with a lopsided smile. The small thought of how Damian's lopsided smile was far far far more charming washed over her. In this guy's defense, there was no warmness in his smile, more like contempt, or eagerness...slyness, anger, even. His eyes darkened as he leaned in...his face was so close. Her breath hitched in her throat.
"Hmm," he hummed. "You smell good." He licked at his lips. "Lavender, is it?"
He breathed in so very close to her ear and for some reason she couldn't move. Her body was so tense. She felt so stiff. Goddamnit, she was submitted into more intense situations than this, and yet...
"You stay the fuck away from her."
Her emphatic shields were up, she knew it. After all, she couldn't last an hour feeling everyone's crushes and teenage-hormone-inflicted emotions in Gotham Academy. Her shields were up, but yet she felt Damian's anger seething, biting into her shields, so powerful it was almost...painful.
"And if I don't?" This time she felt one of the jock's strong, rough hands push some hair, tucking it behind her ear. That's what Damian would do...
A smirk worked its way across his face. "Hey, gorgeous, what do you say, would you like to go to prom with me?"
...What? Prom?
Oh, prom.
She can't believe she forgot. Prom! The spectacle of the senior class. Where girls would gush over their prom dates, hoping to be asked in a romantic way. Although, she wouldn't be surprised if half of the senior class was trying to gather the courage to ask Damian. Damian...she didn't want to go to prom with this jerk in front of her.
By the second she just felt Damian's anger grow hotter and hotter. Her mouth opened slightly, but for the life of her, she couldn't get words out. Part of her was so stunned that he would even dare to make an offer, even though she was sure it was only to get under Damian's skin, but what really shocked her was that...it was working. Damian was angry. It was making him the sort of angry he felt when Batman would deny him a mission. How...Why...? What about asking her to prom would make him so...furious?
Beside her, she felt Damian shift, and not before long his strapping frame was right next to her and his hand was on the jock and suddenly, with a forceful shove, he propelled the jock back a few feet. He was really, really, really angry. Damian was scary when he was this angry.
As the jock sputtered to a stop, the surprise in his face slowly faded as it was replaced with a furrowed brow and a quivering lip.
"I said stay the fuck away from her," Damian repeated, his voice strained as if he was biting back a growl. This time, it was his turn to saunter towards the jock. He seized a hefty chunk of his Gotham Academy varsity jacket and pulled him in. "Don't touch her ever again." In one swift movement, he threw the jock to the floor. "And just so you know," he added sharply, "she's going to prom with me."
What?
There were many gasps from the crowd and probably many more students with broken dreams of going to prom with the dreamy son of Bruce Wayne.
Prom? With him? What the heck? He didn't ever mention this to her!
"Okay, okay, the spectacle is over!" A professor shouted as he was shoving his way past the sea of students, "get back to class!"
With many grunts and sighs, the crowd started fizzling out.
"Shoo, shoo, come on now, you're all late for class."
He turned to them as he said in a stiff voice. "Wyatt (so that was the jock's name!), please make your way to the principal's office. Damian, come with me."
She opened her mouth to say something, but in the time it took her to do so, Damian turned away from her without saying a word, heck, not even giving her a glance, like "screw this guy". Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. As she watched him slip away, she squeezed out a sigh through gritted teeth.
What did she do wrong?
She groaned, turning away. As scared as she was to do so she needed to find out. It was going to eat her alive if she didn't.
"Azar," she grunted, heading towards her calculus class. How could she concentrate with Damian being furious at her - ugh - she had to admit it, she absolutely knew she couldn't. She even had an exam, let alone the fact that she wasn't able to finish her homework.
She shook her head and rolled her eyes. Waiting for him to get out detention (because, he was most certainly going to have detention) was going to be awful.
She sighed.
Could her day get any worse?
—
She timed it perfectly. Almost perfectly to the point that she knocked into him as he strode out the principal's door. Any more perfect and they would have collided head first.
"Damian," she gasped in a surprise. Why was she surprised? She expected to meet him here, she knew she would. But her heart - it was beating so fast.
"Roth," he acknowledged. To her dismay, he was looking straight ahead like before and didn't even glance her way.
Her eyebrows furrowed. Roth? She felt...offended almost. He hadn't called her that in a long time...basically since they met. Shaking it off, she stated sternly, "we need to talk."
To be honest, she didn't expect him to agree - he wasn't entirely the type of person to take the phrase 'we need to talk' lightly. He wasn't exactly the best at taking confrontations. To her surprise, Damian didn't even flinch but granted he didn't leave, either, so she took that as a reluctant yes.
Good. Even though she didn't even know what in Azar's name she was going to say to him.
She led him to the rooftop in what seemed to be the most excruciating five minutes of her life (Why was Gotham Academy so large?). He said no word, he didn't even look at her once. He made absolutely no sound, it didn't even sound like he breathed. She even had to check if he was still with her, making sure he didn't slip away from her in the silence. In retrospect, those five minutes would have been the perfect time for her to figure out what the hell she was going to say to him, but in reality she couldn't concentrate because her heart was pounding so adamantly against her ears.
When they finally reached the roof, she shut the door behind her as the cold air began to bite at her cheeks. It was winter now, and there was a slight blanket of snow covering the city. She cursed silently as she realized she wasn't entirely prepared for their venture out into the cold as her scarf and coat were tucked away in her locker, but honestly there were more important things she had to attend to first.
"We're alone...there's no one here."
She sighed heavily, turning to Damian. He was still looking ahead but seemingly watching the skyline now. His expression turned slightly softer, anyways.
"What, Damian?"
His jaw tensed.
"Damian."
Still nothing.
"What?"
"Nothing is wrong," he finally muttered.
"You called me Roth, stop the bull crap."
A soft siren sang beneath them amidst the subtle breeze, and Raven couldn't help but notice how...beautiful he looked in this very moment. His eyes looked so incredible when the light hit them like that and —
He finally turned to her, a little too quickly might she add. While he seemed tense just moments before, his overall aura was rather stoic, but now...now, it was undoubtedly not stoic. She hated to admit it, but she'd rather it have stayed apathetic, as excruciating as it was. As she looked at him, she sensed anger pouring from his eyes. Yes, his eyes were gorgeous, but anger made them piercing to the point it was almost frightening.
His nostrils flared. Oh, no.
"You're so stupid," he hissed through gritted teeth. "Is this what you wanted? Loads of attention? Well congratulations, because you undeniably just landed us on the front page of Gotham Academy newspaper."
What? What? She was flabbergasted. Just moments before he was so silent, and now he just exploded on her? Then again, it wasn't unlike Damian to do so, but still...he never really did so with her.
She stilled.
That's right, he never exploded at her. Dick, maybe, Beast Boy, definitely, but with her, his explosions were rather mild, not earth shattering like theirs.
"What? Wait..." she sputtered.
But...he just did so. Did that mean...what...why? She tried to form a reply in her mind, but nothing semblance of a sentence came to her, so she scoffed as her mouth hung open, probably looking as floored as she felt.
"I..."
She could have just let anger win. Anger was a good emotion in times like these.
"You..."
Still nothing.
Anger it was, then.
"You're blaming this on me?" she spat, finally. "If your pride could just disappear...just...for one second maybe you wouldn't have gotten yourself into this fight in the first place!"
God, that felt good.
"You could have said 'sorry' and scurried along your merry way," she continued. Oh, she wasn't going to stop now, not now since he was pointing the finger at her. "But noooooooo that's not how Damian Wayne operates, now is it?"
He flinched.
"Raven, just..." He pinched his nose bridge, shaking his head. "You should have let me handle it, not get yourself involved," he countered.
"I was trying to make sure you didn't land your butt in detention! And this is the thanks I get?" she scoffed, shaking her head. "You are so unbelievable sometimes."
"Tt." He shook his head, rolling his eyes.
Oh, he was rolling his eyes at her?
"What is your problem, Damian?"
"I'll answer that when you tell me why you lied to me."
She stilled, and she felt her heart reach an utter stop. What? What the heck was all this nonsense? First blaming her for the fight, now accusing her of lying to him? She tried to piece everything together but it was too much, it was too puzzling, her mind felt like it was spinning. She was so dizzy. Lying to him? When? How?
"I...don't know what you're talking about."
"Yes, you do." He turned to her, giving her a blank stare as if to reiterate his previous point, as if to pry the answer out of her, and it probably would have worked except for the fact that she was honestly floored. What lie could she have told him in the past few minutes? About the fight? She didn't think the fight was her fault. It wasn't her fault whatsoever.
She shook her head. "I don't understand."
Chuckling softly and rolling his eyes again he turned to the skyline. "And you say I'm difficult," he muttered under his breath.
"I'm not trying to be difficult!" she protested. "I've told you before, I'm an empath, not a mind reader. Must I remind you what that means?"
"No, Raven, I know what it means," he snapped with a mocking tone.
God, he was being difficult right now -how could he accuse her of such?
"Okay, then, stop acting as if I know exactly what you're talking about."
He paused, shook his head, then hissed out a sigh. Turning to her, he brought his bottom lip between his teeth, and in a less stressful moment, she would have marveled at how hot it was.
"You don't really care about the Gotham Academy newspaper, do you?"
What? What was he getting at? For Azar's sake she was getting so sick of this emotional roller coaster he was putting her through. First the fight, then lying to him, now the newspaper?
"...What?"
"Being on the front page, dead center, talking about us. You don't really care about it."
"What?"
She couldn't even count how many times she said 'what?' at this point, let alone differentiate when she merely thought it or said it out loud.
"That's absurd," she scoffed, "of course I do. The whole mission —"
"The whole mission thing, I get it," he interjected curtly. "You and I both know that it doesn't actually matter that we're together a lot. In fact, it's actually what would speed this process up exponentially."
"But Bruce..." she whispered.
Damian chuckled again.
"Father isn't stupid. He knows teenagers, and he knows that telling us to not do something would, in fact, encourage us to do it."
He wasn't wrong...especially knowing Damian, that was something he always did. But, even so...
Her eyebrows furrowed. "That's crazy."
"No, it's not," he stated on a deadpan. "He could have just sent me. Or you. Or Beast Boy for all that matters. Why us? Why us together?"
Her eyebrows kept furrowing to the point that she was sure they were touching now. "...Do you expect me to have the answer to that?"
He looked at her with one of his blank stares again, then clicked his tongue.
"Because he knew we couldn't help but become close at the Academy." He paused. "Admit it, Raven. I'm the closest one on the team to you."
Okay, he was right, but she wasn't going to tell him that.
"Oh, don't be so cocky," she mused instead.
"I'm not," he said, his voice sounding a little tight. "We share a similar past. It's only natural that we've become close."
He kept being right about everything, and it was really starting to piss her off.
"Whatever."
"It was intentional from the start. Deep down I'm sure you knew it, too."
He paused again and shot her a glance that looked almost... hurt.
"So...you lied to me. Why?"
How many times was she going to shake her head in disbelief throughout this conversation? "I don't—"
"There's no Gotham Academy newspaper within Wayne manor, Raven," he scoffed. "You think I didn't notice that you were ignoring me there, too? Being on the cover of the newspaper, that's bull shit. I just told the whole Academy that you were going to prom with me, and you haven't mentioned that once."
Shit, he was right. God, why did he keep being right? Everything was happening so fast, so fast, so many things were happening...she had forgotten all about that. She fisted the hem of her skirt as she looked up at him too sheepishly for her liking.
"I was going to..." she whispered.
But...she didn't, even though she had every opportunity to before when they were arguing about who started the fight, hell, he even mentioned the newspaper, but she couldn't dispute the undeniable fact that she didn't bring it up once since he proudly announced it to the crowd.
She opened her mouth to say something, but a heavy sigh from Damian stopped her immediately.
"You're afraid of me, Raven."
Afraid?
"No, I..."
Wait...wait...she was.
Part of her knew that, but she was in so much denial that she had almost believed she wasn't. She was afraid of him. Well, maybe not of him, but she was afraid of the way he felt about her, afraid of the way she felt about him. Afraid of what could have happened, what couldn't have happened. Afraid of that Saturday when they could have...kissed.
"I..."
"You're a bad liar, do you know that?" he stated, smirking a little. "Your fingers always fidget when you lie. You especially like to twist your hair or play with the hem of your skirt. You purse your lips a little more but your eyebrows become less expressive. You—"
"Okay, okay! I get it!" she spat.
God, why did he keep being right?
Plus, he kept putting her on the spot when he knew she hated it. Why wouldn't he just shut up?
"I guess...spending time at the Academy and at the manor and...just...all this time..."
He was looking with her with curious yet stern eyes and part of her had to keep pushing away the thought that a small strand of his hair was unkempt due to the breeze and how attractive he looked in this moment.
"Remember, I can tell when you're lying."
She clicked her tongue. "Give it a rest, would you?" she huffed.
At this point she wanted to squeeze his throat or cover his mouth with...anything...anything to just make him shut up. But as the seconds ticked away, the more she believed her hypothesis to be true. He was doing this on purpose. He wanted to make her angry. And it was working. He took some pointers from that jock earlier, didn't he? Like that jock, he knew exactly which buttons to press to get on her nerves. Why was he doing this to her? It was all getting too much. The newspaper, prom, the fight, the fact that they could have kissed, his goddamn strand of hair that she wanted to push out of his pretty face. Azar, she just wanted this all to end.
"Fine," she grunted, waving him off. She felt a blush flare across her cheeks, but at this point, she didn't even care to hide it. "Maybe I've...enjoyed this...experience. Maybe I don't want to be exposed because I know that'll mean this mission will come to an end..."
She really hoped that answer was sufficient enough. Taking him to the rooftop was to confront him, but it was only turning out to be him confronting her, and she couldn't take it much longer.
"Sure, me too."
She stilled, her breath catching in her throat.
Him, too?
Wait...did she hear that correctly? Him, too? She was so focused on getting him to shut his mouth that it didn't entirely register in her mind what she just said. She just admitted to him that she liked spending time with him...and he agreed. He felt the same way. About what, though? Enjoying his time here, with her, or not wanting the mission to end. Or both?
"And...?" Damian prodded.
"...And what?"
He let out a soft chuckle but there was no humour in it.
"There's something you're not telling me."
She was really starting to get sick of him expecting to know what he was getting at, and him being right about practically everything, and him just prodding her relentlessly.
"What?"
"Listen, we're both enjoying our time here, that's obvious," he said, his cheeks turning red, but before she could really see it, he quickly turned his head away. "But why would you lie to me and make up an excuse about the newspaper? You keep avoiding my question, Raven. Why were you ignoring me?"
Oh.
Oh, that.
She couldn't even relish in the fact that Damian was blushing before she felt like someone had thrown her into a brick wall. Her mind felt fuzzy but oddly clear. Thoughts were rushing through her head but one loud one stood out amidst the rest. She didn't want to focus on it, but it was screaming at her, screaming at her so loudly...she wanted it to shut up, she wanted him to shut up, she just wanted to hide, she just wanted this to end.
She wasn't going to tell him she liked him. Hell, no.
"There's...nothing more I want to say," she murmured.
But why wouldn't he just give up? She was visibly distraught, she knew Damian could tell, but why did he keep pushing her? What did he want from her?
His voice turned into its agonizing know-it-all tone again. "I can tell when you're lying. Tell me, Raven."
Her mind kept reeling. Why wouldn't he let this go?
"What do you want from me? What more do you want me to say? I just...stop, please."
God, at this point she was practically begging. And she never begged.
"I'm not going to stop until you tell me why you've been ignoring me."
Exhaling sharply, she ran her hands through her hair, "I just...I'm gonna go."
There she was, running away from him. Again, and again, and again. If she could just confess she could end this all, but she was so stubborn and so scared. She wanted him to like her back, why couldn't she just admit that to herself? And if he didn't, it wasn't like the world would crash around her, at least she could tell him, at least she would be brave enough to, instead of running away, like everything else in her life.
But her fear always won.
She turned around to head back to the door but -
He grabbed her wrist and spun her around so forcefully that she knocked into him and had to steady herself by clutching his chest. Part of her wanted to let go so she could run away, but her knees felt so weak, too, she felt like she would turn into a puddle if she let him go.
"No, Raven, you're not running away from me this time."
"Please, just stop," she pleaded, shaking her head.
"Raven..."
"I said I don't want to answer you, okay? Just let it go, just let me go. You can't have the answer for everything. The world doesn't work that way."
At this point, she felt tears welling in her eyes. Why was Damian being so cruel?
He paused, looking away. His jaw clenched, and he slowly turned his eyes up, but when they met hers, she saw something different in his eyes. Something she never saw before except for the small spark that appeared for the fraction of a second on that Saturday. It demanded her to stay put, no matter how much she wanted to run away. How could he do that with just one look?
"You...like me, don't you?"
He tore his eyes away again, but he couldn't hide the fact that his cheeks turned bright red. Not this time.
What?...
What was happening? If she thought she was dizzy before, it wasn't even remotely close to the way she felt now. She was never in a centrifuge, but she was sure that it would feel exactly like this. Her breathing was hard and heavy, like there was a force pushing on her chest, and it was making breathing become exhausting.
What...How...what did he mean by that...
"Of course I like you...you're my friend," she stuttered.
There she was, still running away.
He bit his lip again and - please, just make it stop.
"No, not like that," he exhaled slowly. "Like more than just a friend."
She was so confused, was he the real empath here? How could he just read her thoughts like that? Was she really that transparent? There were so many thoughts running through her mind, but he didn't let her process any of it.
He sighed and relaxed his grip on her shoulders. She didn't even realize he was holding her. Damn it, her heart, she wanted it to slow down. But it just kept on beating faster and faster.
"I'm sorry for pushing you, Raven, I just..I don't want us to run away from it."
Us?...
What did he mean 'us'?
"What...What do you mean?" she gulped.
Really, what was happening?
"Come here," he whispered softly.
It was so silent that she could have missed it, but she was also staring at his lips and they mimicked his words. They looked so soft...
His grip tightened as he pulled her in. They were so close, so very close...like they were on Saturday. A sharp exhale escaped her throat as her eyes met his. There it was again, that look, that spark. God, he was so beautiful, it hurt.
He tucked her hair behind her ear like then. He smelled like he did then. His warmth enveloped her like then. It was all the same. Her powerful heartbeat, her labored breathing, the way the light hit his eyes, the small scar on his right eyebrow, his hand lingering on her cheek. It was all the same...except...
He leaned forward, slightly brushing her forehead with his..his hair was so soft...he smelled so good. His sigh tickled her lips before he pressed them into hers.
Except...
He just kissed her.
A/N: FINALLY HERE YOU GO, YA HUNGRY SHIPPERS.
It was a little cruel of Damian to do it that way, I feel, but I think he also knew that Raven would never admit anything herself. He's such a mean boy sometimes, I feel bad for Raven, but he was right about her running away from everything so *shrugs* it was the only way for her to finally admit her feelings to him.
It was bound to happen and it couldn't wait another chapter so HERE. THEY FINALLY KISSED OKAY. Side note: had to make this happen before it happens in the upcoming JLD movie *waggles eyebrows* (I don't know if it will, just hoping)
Another side note: Damian's got some moves, doesn't he? I canon him to be the oddly romantic type that is actually quite smooth when he wants to be. Although I initially wanted him to say something along the lines of "I want to kiss you", I also just thought it better if he were to just do it in a spur-of-the-moment type thing. He knew Raven wouldn't spill her feelings herself so he pressured her into admitting it, but when she wouldn't, he broke first.