A/N: This story is set two years later but Jane never went to Weller's apartment for the team celebration.
Two Years Later
She had her back to him but she looked the same, well her hair was longer. He waited for this day for two years. He didn't know what kind of reception he was going to get but he did have a secret weapon. His daughter, Ella was in his arms asleep from the car journey.
"Hi, what can I get…?"
Jane turned around but couldn't finish her sentence, she was shocked. There stood in front of her was Kurt, her Kurt. It's been two years since she saw him. Two years since she was told 'you're free'. Two years since she gave up hope of anything else happening between them. He never came after her, which told her what she wanted to know.
For the first six months after she left she travelled around. The first three months she went to Europe, to get as far away from him as possible. It didn't help that she thought about him every day. After her European adventure she came back to the states and decided to see more of the country. She spent months touring the country. Three months into her travels around the states, she opened her motel door to find Patterson and Zapata standing there with two bottles of wine. After her initial shock, she lunged forward and hugged both of them. They stayed like that for a while, when they parted Zapata shoved her shoulder.
"You don't ditch your friends for months! Not one text or call Jane, that's low. The only thing that made us realise that you're fine is the fact that you left a trail and Patterson periodically pulled up CCTV images to make sure it was you and not that your identity was hacked!"
"I'm sorry."
"You should be!"
"Tasha!"
"What? You were thinking it as well!"
"I just thought you would want a clean break…"
"WE didn't want you to leave in the first place…" started Zapata
"But we understood why you did." Piped in Patterson
"Come in."
They settled on the bed, well Jane and Zapata did while Patterson took one of the chairs in the room. Before Jane could open the first bottle of wine, Zapata started to talk.
"Weller's been a grouchy bear with a sore head since you left. He's become more of a workaholic…"
"Only every other week!" interrupted Patterson
"Yeah, Allie and Connor moved back to New York and Kurt has Ella every other week so a 50-50 split. He's a grouchy bear that's his normal persona but you should see him with Ella, he becomes a giant marshmallow. It's sweet. Apart from Ella and the occasional drinks/ team night at his place, he lives at the office…"
"Reade is dating Sarah again. They're doing the long distance thing. Reade has said he would move if that's what it took. Sarah and Sawyer were it for him."
"Weller has been quite good about it. He only threatened Reade once if he hurt his sister again!"
"So tell us about your travels, how have you been?"
Jane told them about her travels, which places she loved, liked and hated and why she came back to the states. No one mentioned Weller again. Jane made sure she kept in contact with the two after they left, regular emails, chats and texts were exchanged but Kurt was never mentioned again.
"He always knew where she was, not that he kept tabs on her or anything. The fact that she wasn't hiding and wasn't off the grid said a lot to him.
"Hi." Said Kurt
"Hi." Replied Jane
They continued to stare at each other, Kurt liking the blush that turned her cheeks pink when she realised it was him in front of her. They were each mesmerized by the other. They don't know how long they stood looking at the other but it was enough time for her blush to recede.
"If you want a date with her you've got a long wait." A customer shouted
"That's a lie you could have a first date but you'll not get a second one…" another customer injected
"That's true, since she's been here, Jane's never been on a second date…" chimed the first customer
"She's probably hung up on a guy that was too stupid to realise what a great girl was in front of him…"
Jane's blush returned full force.
"He was." Whispered Kurt
Jane avoided eye contact then looked back into the blue eyes.
"Would you like to go for a coffee or a meal? Your choice. I'm here all week so I can meet you when you're free…"
"She's free right now! Go on take-off."
Jane was surprised by the generous offer, her boss wasn't known for being lenient with work hours.
"Thanks."
As she got her jacket and bag, Ella woke up and when she turned and looked at Jane with the same blue eyes as her daddy Jane was mesmerized again. Ella smiled hesitantly in Jane's direction.
"She's the pitting image on Sawyer!" exclaimed Jane
"SAWYER!" shouted Ella and she raised her arms above her head
Kurt had the widest smile on his face that she ever saw.
"I know! It still irritates Allie that she takes after the Weller side of the family."
"She has your eyes though."
"Yeah, another thing that irritates mommy right Ella?"
Ella nodded her head.
Jane raised her eyebrow in question.
"What does mommy call you sweetie?"
"Mini Weller."
"Yes she does." Kurt said as he kissed Ella's forehead.
Jane smiled at the bond between the two.
Ella looked at Jane and when their eyes met Ella buried her face in her daddy's neck. Kurt and Jane shared a smile. They left the coffee shop together.
"So where do you recommend we go so that we can talk?"
Jane stared at him and whatever she saw in his face made up her mind.
"What about my place? I'm assuming you already know my address?" Jane asked
Kurt nodded his head.
"Can I give you a ride?"
"Yeah, that would be great."
They got into his rented SUV, some things never change thought Jane with a smile. She watched as Kurt strapped Ella into her car seat.
"No daddy!"
Jane watched as the happy child turned into the sad one when Kurt fastened the straps. The lone tear that rolled down the chubby cheek was nearly her undoing, and then the trembling lip followed. Jane didn't know how Kurt could withstand those things but he double checked the straps but Ella was frowning and she crossed her arms in defiance- such a Weller thing to do that it made her smile.
"Ella Bella how much does daddy love you?" Kurt asked in a sing song voice
Jane watched as Ella flung her arms as wide as possible.
"This much!"
"And more…" stated Kurt
Ella giggled as if this was a routine thing which it probably was.
"…and that's why you need to be in your car seat ok?"
Ella showed her stubborn side by just staring at Kurt.
"Ella Bella?"
Kurt tickled her and she caved, her laughter was so sweet. Kurt placed a kiss on Ella's forehead.
"Remember daddy loves you."
"Love you too daddy."
Another kiss to the forehead.
Kurt got into the driver's seat and programmed the GPS for Jane's address. He could feel Jane's eyes on him so he turned to look at her.
"I knew you would be a great dad."
Kurt smiled at the compliment.
"But how do you resist the tears and pout?"
Kurt chuckled.
"You have no idea! At the moment she doesn't know what power she has over me so it's easy but I'm already dreading her teenage years. She's an easy going child to be fair. She knows she has to be in the car seat and it's for her own safety." He whispered
At Jane's place Kurt took out Ella's 'go bag', Jane looked at the pink travel case with characters on it that she didn't recognise- no surprise there and raised her eyebrows.
"Ella has her own 'go bag'?"
"Oh with a kid, it's a must."
Kurt took the 'go bag' and went to get Ella out of the car seat. He carried Ella in one arm and pulled the pink case with his other hand. He refused Jane's offer of help. They made it into Jane's place and he was pleasantly surprised. It was actually a home. She had some personal items which made it feel lived in. He was afraid that this place would be the same as her last safe house.
"This is a nice place."
"Thanks."
Kurt placed Ella on the sofa and Jane was surprised that she just sat there. She watched as Kurt brought the pink trolley to the sofa and opened it, Jane was amazed at what she saw. There seemed to be activities for the toddler. Kurt took out a pad of paper and a box that contained some colourful markers easy for a three year old to grip. There were dolls in the case, she really wanted to see Kurt play with those, she knew without a doubt that there was nothing he wouldn't do for Ella even if that meant playing with dolls. She also saw some plastic containers with snacks for the little girl. Then there were a few changes of clothes as well. What Jane didn't see and that surprised her was diapers. Surely Ella wore diapers but where were they? There was no way Kurt would forget them so Ella mustn't need them anymore, which shocked Jane even more.
"Ella, can you please draw a picture for Jane while daddy and Jane talk over there?" Kurt said as he pointed to the kitchen table.
Ella nodded her head enthusiastically, she took the paper and the box of colouring supplies and sat on the floor by the coffee table and was immersed in her drawing. Kurt placed a sippy cup with juice which he had filled from a larger bottle onto the coffee table along with a container of grapes.
Once he was sure Ella was fine and had everything she may need they moved to the kitchen. Jane looked at him in awe.
"What?" Kurt asked
"You're amazing."
Jane blushed and she noticed Kurt's ears turning pink.
"I mean…you're an amazing dad. It comes second nature to you."
Kurt chuckled.
"This is two years of work. You should have seen me at the beginning, it was not pretty, and luckily Sarah took pity on me, Allie and Connor and helped us out. All three of us were clueless until Sarah stepped in."
They settled at the table, Kurt choosing a chair where he could still keep an eye on Ella and Jane perpendicular to him. Kurt was surprised when Jane placed a cup of hot steaming coffee in front of him just as he like it. He took a sip and was pleasantly surprised.
"I can make coffee you know!" exclaimed Jane when she saw his surprise.
Kurt looked sheepish.
"I need to ask you a question and then I'll explain everything." Kurt watched as Jane nodded her head. "Are you seeing anyone at the moment?"
Jane looked into his bright blue eyes and said.
"No."
She watched as he breathed a sigh of relief.
"That's great, neither am I just in case you were wondering. I wanted to ask you to stay two years ago. Stay with me and the FBI but I knew that would be unfair to you. From the moment you came out of that bag you never had a choice and I wanted to give you that choice Jane. I thought two years would be ample time for you to choose your way in life and if after those two years you still wanted me and the FBI then I would know it was because you want it not because that's the only thing you know. So do you think we can make a go of it?"
He looked so happy, she just sat there in shock, she honestly couldn't believe what she just heard. She didn't know how long she stared at him but eventually she came back to the present.
"You thought it was best for me?"
Kurt nodded.
"So you didn't trust my feelings for you?"
Kurt's smiled dimmed a little.
"It's not that I didn't trust them…it was more of the fact that you didn't experience them with anyone else…"
"So, how many people was I supposed to experience it with? 1, 2,…, 5 or 10?"
Kurt knew he was drowning and he finally understood what Sarah and Allie had been trying to tell him over the last couple of years, that his plan was stupid.
"I…I…I…"
"You what?"
"I wasn't actually thinking of an exact number…"
"But as long as there was at least one more then that would be alright?"
"I just wanted to make sure you wanted to be with me and only with me."
"I've wanted to be with you since the first time I kissed you!"
"That didn't stop you from sleeping with Oscar though!"
As soon as the words left his mouth he realised he messed up on several levels. Jane sat there in utter shock. After a few moments she started to speak.
"He threatened you! He was going to kill you! That would have killed me! I wouldn't let that happen to you. Every time, every time I was with him it didn't mean anything, it was just sex nothing more. I felt more during our first kiss than all the times with him. It was just a physical thing. I knew that if we were ever going to be together then it would be more than all the times with Oscar. After each time, I felt guilty as I felt as I was betraying you, cheating on you. I knew my heart wasn't with Oscar but I was lonely. I just found out it was my idea. Do you know what that did to me? I always thought we knew each other quite well we always seemed to understand the other and knew what the other was thinking before…before everything went to hell. But maybe I was wrong. I can't believe you actually thought that…what I would be happy to see you after two years telling that you did it for my own good!"
Kurt winced.
"Jane…"
"NO! Just don't."
Jane buried her head in her hands to gather her thoughts, when she lifted her head she looked into Kurt's eyes and she saw the hurt in them but she couldn't do anything about that at the moment. She was mad. Really mad.
"The guys at the coffee place were right. I was hung up on you for the last two years. Every date I went on, all I could think was the fact that they weren't you! All I can think about now is the fact that we could have been really happy these last couple of years. We would have had our first kiss as a proper couple, our first date, our first time…"
Jane turned to look at Ella, who was still busy drawing at the coffee table, and then back to Kurt.
"…together, our first argument, our first make up. We could have been clueless together when it came to Ella. But no, you took that from us. YOU."
"Jane…"
"I think you better go now."
Kurt sat there for a minute trying to save this relationship before it started but he couldn't. He stood up and went to get Ella and her stuff together.
The next thing she knew Ella was by her side with a colourful drawing in her hand. Jane picked her up and sat her on her lap and took the paper from her.
"WOW Ella, this is so beautiful and colourful. Can you explain it to me?"
"This is daddy, you and me."
Jane made out the tallest figure with blue dots for eyes, there was another figure made from different colours and they had scribbles over every part of their body, Jane realised these must have been her tattoos. Then there was the small figure between the two, it seemed as if she had her arms open wide in the picture and yellow curly hair. The drawing brought tears to her eyes.
"Thank you so much! I love it. Can I keep it?"
Ella nodded her head and her curly hair bounced. Jane stood up with Ella in her arms and walked to the refrigerator and with Ella's help chose a magnet to stick the picture to the refrigerator door with. When Jane walked back to the living room Kurt was standing there with Ella's 'go bag' ready. They walked out together, Jane watched as Kurt went through the same routine of getting Ella into her car seat, she saw Ella hold her hands as far apart as possible. Jane kissed Ella on the cheek and waved bye to her, Ella returned the wave enthusiastically. Jane closed the door and was left with Kurt standing by her. She had no idea what to say so said nothing.
"Take care Jane. Be happy."
With that Kurt kissed Jane on the forehead before getting behind the wheel. They stared at each other via the wing mirror then Kurt started the SUV and drove away.