A bed.
An essence.
A cushion.
Is curious how simple objects can give you so many painful memories.
Owen was lying in his bed. Their bed. At least it was.
Looking to the ceiling, he tried not to think. He wanted to forget about everything and everyone. Everyone except her. A few hours ago, a flicker of hope appeared, just to be destroyed and leave him without the one that certainly was the last option he had to find Amelia.
Tears were falling down his cheeks.
Part of them were tears of pain.
But the most of them were nothing but tears of rage.
What if he would say something?
What if he just would keep his mouth close and would let her explain herself?
With anger and desperation, he hit the bedside table and the lamp fell onto the floor.
He opened the drawer and took out a piece of paper.
The letter he wrote only a few days ago in his attempt to let Amelia know how he was feeling. He started to read it and a tear fell onto the letter. Maybe she failed him, maybe she left him and maybe she wasn't fair with him, but he still loving her. Reading what he wrote, Owen realised that he couldn't lose her, but, maybe, it was too late for it.
And this lonely thought was killing him.
In that moment the doorbell rang and Owen, left the letter on the bed and when he was on his way to the door he almost fell with the lamp he threw before.
In that moment something came to his mind.
When they were into the wood looking for Amelia he almost fell over a big fallen tree. He wasn't sure because it was dark, but he could swear that he saw something similar to holes around the place.
While he was opening the door, he was thinking about what he thought he heard. A voice, like a murmur in the distance.
In that moment, Nathan, who was at the other side of the door entered the room.
"Hey, I thought you wouldn't want to be alone so I came here to support you" He put a hand in Owen's shoulder.
But Owen was absorbed in his thoughts.
A setback.
Holes.
A murmur.
"She's there" Owen said in a loud voice.
"What?" Nathan said not knowing of what was he talking about.
"Nathan,"Owen faced him "She's there. Amelia is there"
"Whe-" Nathan started but Owen interrupted him.
"The wood. She's in the wood. How could I... Nathan I'm sure she's there. I have a hunch."
"But where Owen? We walked the forest from top to bottom!"
"Nathan. I know what I'm saying can seem like a madness. But I have the feeling. I don't know how to explain it, but if I'm right and I don't follow it, I'll regret of it all my life."
With only a look, Nathan accept to go with him. If there's any possibility to find her there, he has to be there with him. He can't lose someone else.
The ride to the wood was silent. Owen spend all of it knocking his fingers against the window. When they finally arrived, Owen could feel a shudder through all his body.
She was there. She had to be. He could feel her.
Death.
What she wanted in that exact moment was to die.
Why all the fighting?
For what?
She was so close. She could almost feel his arms covering her.
She could almost feel the touch of his lips on hers.
But as soon as it came, it left her.
The hope in her was gone. She had an opportunity and she missed it.
Maybe this was the way of the universe to punish her. Punish her for being an idiot. For not telling him the truth when she should do it and no when it was too late.
Now, she was praying to this god in which she doesn't believe that there was still a little hope for her as she felt her strength draining away.
"Amelia!" Owen shouted again.
Walking through the wood he could feel that he was in the right place, he couldn't lose any second.
He started to run while Nathan was finding Amelia in the other direction.
When he saw the fallen tree of the last day, he felt that he was close.
"Amelia!," Owen shouted with all his forces. "Amelia, I'm here!"
Meanwhile, Amelia was almost unconscious, and when she had decided to give up she heard something.
Like a sound in the distance.
But the sound was getting closer.
And closer.
When she heard a clear and loud 'Amelia' coming out of his mouth her heart started to race.
With her few remaining forces, she shout back, hoping this time to be right.
"Owen! I'm here!"
He shouted again. And then he stayed in silence.
Nothing.
"Come on, come on"
Silence.
He was going to shout again when he heared something coming from the front.
He ran, like there was no tomorrow.
"Mia! Mia, tell me something!"
Breaking the silence and coming from a few metres from him, a clear "I'm here" sounded.
Owen's heart almost stopped. She was there. It was her.
And running. He arrived to what seemed like a big hole.
"I'm here!" She said all the loud he could.
She heared steps and, when she thought she wouldn't be able to se him again, Owen's face appeared.
Tears were falling now down her cheeks.
"Owen... please don't leave m-..." And while speaking she became unconscious.
When she woke up, she was in a bed.
She opened her eyes slowly and could feel someone holding her hand. She turned her face and saw Owen sitting next to her.
She moved her hand.
"Amelia!" Owen said, and without losing a minute he approached her.
"Owen, where I am?" She recognised the room as a hospital room. In that moment she saw the IV on her arm, and she tried to get up.
"Hey hey, slow down, you're too weak to get up," he said caressing her cheek "you need to rehydrate and replenish strength"
"Owen I wanted to say that-"
"Shhh, we don't have to talk about this now. The only important thing now is you. Get well and we will discuss this When you have the strength to be the usual Amelia." Owen joke. "Now, come back to sleep and rest. I won't leave your side. I promise"
And with a smile in her face, Amelia close her eyes.
4 DAYS LATER*
Owen opened the front door to let Amelia enter their house.
It was still the same as always, she thought.
She felt like she was in heaven.
A dream come true.
"I'm going to have a shower" she said while looking at him.
"I'll wait here" and with a sweet look, she entered their bedroom.
How she missed that room. Their room.
When she entered she saw the lamp onto the floor. And also a piece of paper in the bed.
She approached, and sat in the bed, holding the paper in her hands.
Her name was written in the front side of the paper, and when she opened it, she saw it was a letter.
"Dear Amelia, I need to talk to you. I've been trying for five days and I can't find you.
It gives me some shame to express my feelings like this, but I feel that if I don't say it, I'm not going to be able to do it.
First of all, I want to thank you, because above all you make me feel like I could do anything. You give me wings, Mia.
Do you remember when I said that I would always be with you?
I did not lie to you and today I keep it.
Remember when I said from January to December?
Today you still being the best thing I had and I have.
I noticed more loving us than the argues and the problems, of course.
Although sometimes it was idiot and I only played with fire.
Mia we're two. You're my half, I can't be complete without you. If you die, I die. If you fail, I fail.
If we are wrong, we are wrong together, and that with you can't be bad.
Maybe you will never read this letter, but, there's something I need to say to you.
You make my days brighter.
Maybe I did not show it to you but never stopped loving you.
I know maybe it's not the way I would like to tell you this, but if I don't say it now, maybe I will never be able to say it.
Forgive me if it's late I only say what I feel.
My heart is suffering and you know what it demands me?
Looking you to the face and tell you all that I never told you."
At this point Amelia was full of tears.
In that moment Owen entered the room and saw her looking at the letter he wrote a few time ago.
"I-I.. " Amelia's voice broke, and no words were coming out of her mouth.
Owen stayed there looking at her and a few seconds after, he turned and started to walk away.
"Owen wait"Amelia said, and Owen stopped, but he didn't turn around. "I wanted to say you that I'm sorry, I'm really sorry... I- I know that I don't have excuse but I was scared, I felt like if I faced you, I would end broke. I needed to think and I needed to be alone to realise what I really wanted."
Owen turned around and she continued talking.
"And if you missed me I missed you triple.
And I swear Owen that I love you so much that it hurts.
I know that my attitude sometimes makes you want to kill me.
And you, Owen, the only one who got to hold me,
You never missed me but I deserved it,
I missed you, I yelled at you and you were still there.
Showing a thousand reasons every day.
You stayed close knowing always to what you were exposing yourself, and -" Owen approached her and interrupted her with a kiss.
A kiss which show all the fear, desperation and pain he felt the past days.
A kiss full of love.
"You love me again" Amelia said when they separated.
"I never stopped."