Everything was a blur.

From J'onn punching through the ceiling of the hidden corridor and feeling Alex's arms around her, to her getting pushed down onto a bed in the med bay and being checked out head to toe, Maggie had felt it all pass by without registering.

The first time she actually felt like herself was when Alex walked in, talking to one of the doctors in complete agent-mode. The second she laid eyes on her wife, the agent dismissed the doctor with some last directives, and moved up to stand next to her and kiss her forehead. "Hey."

"Shouldn't they check you out?" Maggie asked with a frown.

Alex smiled weakly. "They already did. Clean bill of health, don't worry."

Maggie nodded slowly, her head dropping back in relief. Alex was okay. She was alive, and fine.

"They just want to keep you here for some more blood work. A couple of hours tops." Alex continued. "Then we can go home, grab some food."

"I just wanna sleep." Maggie mumbled, tilting her head so that her face was cupped in Alex's hand.

The agent smiled. "I bet you do. Tell you what – you get some more rest, and we'll talk later, okay?"

"Okay… Love you."

Alex squeezed her wife's hand, and pressed a gentle kiss to her lips. "I love you too, babe."

She stayed until she watched Maggie's eyes droop shut, and kissed her forehead once more before letting go of her hand.

After that, she walked out of the med bay, to the bio lab. She'd been meaning to go ever since she and Maggie returned to the DEO, but had put it off in favor of knowing that Maggie was going to be alright.

"Agent Danvers." She was greeted as soon as she walked through the door.

"You're awake." Alex tilted her head and crossed her arms, stepping closer to the bed on the other side. They had turned the bio lab into a makeshift med bay, connecting wires and IV's to the woman on the bed who was smiling weakly. "Thank you for bringing me back here."

"Thank you for bringing me back." Alex replied as she stopped at the woman's bedside. "Getting you help here was the least I could do."

"Is Maggie okay?" Ada frowned.

Alex's face twitched just slightly, but she nodded quickly. "Just resting up. She'll be fine once we go home."

The blonde sighed and leaned back. After a long silence, she finally sighed. "I feel like we should talk."

Alex crossed her arms once again, but motioned for Ada to start.

It took the woman a while to search for words, but then she looked Alex in the eyes. "I didn't know. And…" She laughed dryly, "…I didn't mean to make things complicated. I thought she was single, I took advantage of that fact. Took advantage of her. I thought she'd be trained to second-guess me, but it wasn't the case."

Alex clenched her jaw, but didn't speak right away.

Ada continued. "I kissed her. Once. To give her the antidote to the poison. But I could have just given it to her and told her, and I didn't. I wanted to kiss her."

"That's enough." Alex cut the woman off. Ada shut up immediately, realizing that it was the agent's turn to speak.

"I am… grateful." Was the first thing Alex said, and it seemed to catch the both of them off guard. "… I guess… I'm lucky that you liked her, because it meant that you kept her safe. And I talked to her every day, but that's the one thing I couldn't do. So… thank you, Ada."

"You're… welcome." The blonde stuttered in reply.

"And I don't blame you." Alex shook her head. "I fell for her the second I saw her. Just… know that me and her have history. That it won't be easy to come between us, and I don't advise you to try."

Ada chuckled. "You think I'm-… No, agent Danvers." She shook her head. "I'm not looking to get disposed of by the DEO. I'll back off, and I'll… try to forget about her."

The last sentence cut deep, and Alex could see the sorrow on the woman's face. But she reached for her hand and squeezed it anyway. "You're always welcome back, Ada. I'm sure Maggie agrees with me. Anytime, whatever you need."

"I'll hold you to it." Ada smiled weakly.

"And… When you get back, give my regards to Clark. Tell him to come by soon."

"I will. I'm sorry it… happened like this. I really am. We… I couldn't save the others."

Alex realized that she was talking about the bodies in the training room downstairs. The rest of the townspeople.

The ones they'd left behind.

"He won't hurt anyone ever again, Ada." Alex said. "You made sure of that. You were willing to sacrifice yourself to save us. To save me."

"It's not good enough." Ada whispered, her eyes glassing over with unshed tears. Alex shook her head. "It'll never be good enough. I know that. But their blood isn't on your hands."

Ada didn't respond verbally, but stared down the foot of her bed. Alex realized that this was her cue, and smiled. "I'll make sure to swing by again later to check up on you. If there's anything you need…"

"Yeah."

As Alex headed for the door, she heard the woman behind her clear her throat once more. "Could you…"

The agent turned around and nodded.

Ada didn't finish the sentence, but she didn't need to.

"I'll send her here when she wakes up, don't worry."

Ada nodded gratefully, and leaned back against the pillows, a smile forming on her lips.

If closure was what she needed, then Alex would be happy to provide it.

"We should have been looking for him."

Alex opened her eyes weakly. She'd been on the verge of sleep, but was sent back by the voice next to her.

She tilted her head to look at the form of her wife next to her. The digital clock next to Maggie's head told her it was well past 2 AM. But the detective was wide awake apparently, and staring at the ceiling.

"What?"

"Dorian. We should have been looking for Dorian. He disappeared, and we didn't care."

"We did care." Alex replied. "We were looking for him."

"If we'd found him earlier we could have…" Maggie sighed, trailing off.

Alex didn't reply. She knew that Maggie was in the phase of trying to find a place where it all went wrong. A tangible thing or event she could actually be mad at, instead of realizing that it had been useless to try in the first place.

"I know how you feel." Alex just whispered.

Maggie actually glanced sideways to look Alex in the eyes, as the agent continued, getting a little closer to Maggie to put an arm across her chest. "We'll get through it, okay?"

"I keep on… hearing his voice in my sleep. Telling me that I'm not clean. That I need to get better. That I need to accept."

Alex had her fair share of nightmares, but none as recent as the face of the Shepard staring down at her and grinning.

The same thing that murdered her was the one to bring her back.

Alex didn't know how to feel about it. But she'd embraced the fact that the Shepard would be on their minds a lot in the following days.

"What do you need, babe?"

Maggie shook her head, her bottom lip trembling. "I- I don't know."

Alex nodded, wrapping her arms around her. "It's okay. We'll figure it out. We don't need answers right now. You just tell me when you're ready."

The nod coming from the head resting on her shoulder made Alex smile, as she rubbed her wife's back. "I love you so much, babe."

Maggie lifted her head to look Alex into her eyes, blinking away tears as she nodded.

"I love you too."

Wrapped up in each other's embrace, it didn't take too long until they both were sound asleep.

The End.