Disclaimer: I don't own SM.

A/n: I'm sorry for not updating, and admittedly this is only being updated because I feel as though someone still remembers this fic though it hasn't been updated and deserves to be forgotten. The continuity of this story is for the persons who reviewed reminding me to update. It seems I picked the wrong story to focus my attention to since this one seems to have more readers. Now on to the story…

Chapter 5 Some Thoughts

"Look at what you've done. Now instead of spending my evening with 3 beautiful women I spend it with a monkey like you who cant handle HIS women." Darien said annoyed.

Jadeite ignored him and spoke. "Darien my friend, what are you doing with a nice girl like Serena?" He asked seriously looking at his friend in the eye. They were alone in the restaurant now, the girls' food were left starting to get cold and untouched. 

"What kind of question is that?" Darien asked suspiciously leaning back on his chair.

"You know what I mean." Jadeite shrugged.

"No I don't. And did you just call her nice? After she slapped you? Never knew she could be fierce, like a wild kitten." Darien smiled affectionately at his last words.

"We have to talk man. This is serious." Jadeite said with a shake of his head.

"Alright, then talk. I'm listening." Darien prodded.

"From what Rei used to tell me, Serena is a nice, sensitive, innocent woman." Jadeite placed some emphasis on the word nice and innocent that Darien scowled. "She is also very caring and loyal as you can see and I've come to respect her from the stories Rei has told me and from what happened this eve. She obviously cares a lot for her friends and that means that she cares a lot about you too." Jadeite pointed out.

Darien's face broke into a smile. "Really? You think?" He asked eagerly.

Jadeite coughed choking seeing his friend in a strange light. "Do you care for her?" Jadeite asked outright.

"Hell, I love her." Darien confessed.

Jadeite raised a brow. "Are you sure?" He asked skeptically. "What is love to you Darien? Maybe you're confusing it with lust." He pointed out.

Darien glowered. "Is my IQ that low, you think?" He asked sarcastically.

"Let me rephrase it to you. How deep is your definition of love? Cause I'm sure the flimsy portion of love that you think you have for Serena is not even a quarter of the love that she might have for you at the moment." Jadeite asked trying to help his friend. "I made the same mistake too. And I've regretted it and still am paying for it." Jadeite added softly.

Darien looked at his friend doubtful, and saw some truth. "Maybe your right." Darien agreed quietly.

Jadeite gave a nod satisfied at his progress.  "I think my little insight on your situation would make up for the fact that you're spending dinner alone now would it." He said with a smirk letting his friend do some thinking.

***

Darien walked the streets in deep thought. "I love Serena, I do." Darien repeated to himself. "I do…"

"Maybe you're just in love with the untainted picture of her in you. And that's what you love not her. Or maybe you just lust after her innocence as well and can hardly wait her anticipated surrender to you. Or you would just love breaking her heart and would take deep satisfaction watching those tears fall from those blue orbs, down to those porcelain cheeks, further down to her heart like icy pricks."

"No, not like that. I'm not doing this to hurt her. I promised not to hurt her." Darien's fist clenched.

"But you are hurting her, one way or another you will hurt her. Though she might not know it now you will hurt her and she will leave and disappear from your life. Wake up Darien. She will be gone when she finds out! And it will be your entire fault. Can you take that? "  His mind taunted him agonizingly making him see his mistakes.

"She wont find out! Because I'm going to change, I'm going to change just for her." Darien vowed.

***

Serena sighed as she leaned against the railing outside the balcony of Darien's apartment. She felt bad missing dinner with him but cannot desert her friend though Raye kept insisting for her to go back. Serena's mood brightened when she saw him walking back to the apartment a few steps from afar.

And then Serena frowned. A woman, who was moderately pretty but with an envious figure broke free from her group across the street and ran to Darien throwing herself at him. She gave him a kiss on the lips that Darien didn't return, his eyes intent and unwavering. He barely gave notice to the woman, patted her on the back slightly and left her pouting.

That gave Serena some comfort but not much. The doorbell rang and Serena hesitantly answered it knowing it was Darien. She opened it anyway since it was his apartment anyway.

A smile was etched in her face though it hurts. It was one thing to know that your boyfriend is sought after by a gazillion women on the city but to see them throwing themselves shamelessly at him especially pretty women could give anyone insecurities.

"Hi Darien. Who was that girl?" Serena asked lightly even pleasantly.

Darien looked at her blinking. "Oh, her. Just a girl."

"Just a girl?"

"A distant relative then." Darien said dismissingly.

"Oh." Serena nodded, relieved but in her heart she knew something was wrong. She looked at him and gasped. "You're drunk!" She exclaimed. She showed her displeasure with a frown.

"Not totally!" He defended. Then he lurched.

Serena made an eek sound and tried to catch him. She stumbled a little since he weighed more than her by several pounds.

"Everything's going to be different now Ren. I swear I'll make up for being such a bastard. I wont lie to you; I'll be the perfect boyfriend. I swear don't leave me!" His earnest speech started to border on begging on the last part.

"Ok, ok. I wont leave." Serena promised. "What lies have he told?" Serena wondered for a moment, before her thought became more occupied in taking care of him.

A/n: As you can see, I still haven't changed the title. I'm still planning to, but I thought that at this point now nobody would remember this story if I change the title now. I know that this story isn't perfect, I have gotten some input that gave me idea that this story is a little off but if you guys are still interested I would do my best on finishing this story. Review! 

P.S. I typed this story in a rush so there are bound to be some spelling/grammar mistakes.