Whew! No we're not dead (Even though my laptop has been), but incredibly still 8 months after the actual event SuccubusShinnobi and I are still trying to get back on track after Maria. Now that I was able to recover my files from the dead laptop I will finally be able to finish this and Chemicals before sharing new projects here and in a different fandom. Remember, any shout outs through twitter are welcomed even if it's to give me a piece of your mind about the work. Last_Dragomir

Disclaimer: The characters portrayed in this story belong to their rightful creators while the situations and storyline are solely mine.

Reflections of You

Chapter 11: My Kingdom

Could I have the answers Bo was seeking so fiercely? But what if I wasn't ready for what this entailed? What if I wasn't what Bo missed? What if I'd never be what she wanted or needed? Just a constant reminder of what she no longer had? I shivered at the thought as I felt Kelly move beside me.

"Laurel, you don't need to open that trunk." Kelly whispered and I looked up to meet her eyes. "When Bo gets here we could toss it into the sea."

"I can't…" I whispered shaking my head and caressing the edge of the trunk.

"Yeah you can, it'll be therapeutically and you and Bo-"

"No Kelly. There's no me and Bo. There was Lauren and Bo… it was always Lauren and Bo… I'm not enough." I admitted angrily.

"Nonesense Laurel!" Kelly tried but I shook my head.

"I've seen the way she looks at Lauren and… the way it makes you feel when Bo Dennis looks at you like that… it's… it's indescribable and I know… I know it's not for me. It's never been for me and I know I'll never be…"

"Laurel you're not making sense." Kelly tried but I got up and snatched her box of cigarettes from the coffee table and lit one up.

Kelly huffed in disapproval but grabbed the box from my hands and lit one up herself trying to stay calm as well. The taste I had adored once now was repugnant to me and I grimaced at the stick between my fingertips. It was probably the Nicorette patches working finally. I gave Kelly an even look as she crossed her arms and stared me expectantly.

"It wasn't long ago but I started getting these dreams… and the thing… thing is that they're not really dreams Kelly. I'm having memories." I explained as Kelly tilted her head in confusion.

"Memories? Whose, yours?" she asked and I shook my head frustrated.

"No Kelly, not mine." I frowned as the woman scoffed at me.

"How fucking long Laurel? Did you remember us? Is that why you're here?" Kelly demanded as I nodded.

"Not you particularly, no. It was vague and confusing because it was Katie this time but I remembered you using the name when we first met. It's all shadowy as always but that will come over time." I explained.

"Wait… you haven't been dreaming about Katie? Then who have you been…"

"Hey ladies… oh Lau honey…"Bo's voice came into the living room pleasantly but for me it could've been miles away.

~*~*Take a hit, let it sink in~*~*~*

"Lau honey, babe what do you think?" I heard Bo's voice come into my attention as I looked away from the analysis I was doing to look at her radiant smiling face.

"I'm sorry Bo, I'm afraid I missed that babe." I mentioned with a smile in a tone I now recognize was only for the Succubus. "Could you please repeat that?"

"Well I'm actually afraid to now…" she joked and I chuckled taking my eyeglasses off with a smile as I stood.

"Aw come on Bo, you know I won't be appalled by anything you say. Remember the Manta?" I teased as I reached her wrapping my arms around her neck while we both laughed. "There's scientifically nothing that can put me off from you Bo Dennis."

The gorgeous brunette smiled and nodded looking into my eyes with so much faith and love that it was impossible not to feel my insides churn with love and perhaps a bit of lust. As always the Succubus knew how to make my knees tremble, it must've been in her anatomy or in her molecules to have the exact formula to make me quiver.

"I like my last name, reminds me that I was human once." Bo gave me that devastating smile that would make my heart beat faster and faster.

"It's a gorgeous last name Bo. I whispered as I leaned in and kissed her lips longingly. I melted into her luscious lips as her hands grabbed my waist sending a shock of excitement through me before pulling away and pressing her forehead against mine.

"Then take it." Bo whispered and I furrowed my brow in confusion.

"Take it where?" I asked confused as Bo threw her head back laughing completely inhibited while squeezing my waist.

"Oh Lau, you're killing me! For such big brains, sometimes I…"

"Oh come on, tell me!" I laughed slapping her arm a bit sullenly.

"Take my last name Lau… be my Mrs. Dennis." Bo asked between chuckles as her smile spread bigger. "Lauren Dennis or Katie Dennis I don't really care whatever you want to call yourself as long as you call yourself my wife."

My breath caught in my throat at the magnificence of the Succubus and what she was really asking me. I felt my vision blur with tears as the words caught in my throat with great emotion and excitement. This could very well be the apex of my human existence.

*~*~*~*~*~*~ Trapped and faded nearly there no control I'm giving in. *~*~*~*~*~*~

"LAUREL!" I heard Bo yell as I flinched and pulled away from her grasp shaking my head.

The horrifying thought dawned on me that now not only was I experiencing these memories in my dreams but that there were also living moments that triggered them. I hated how this process went, the constant confusion, the mismatch of perceptions and realities. It was all so rattling that I felt some lives I'd go insane. To not have information one second and a lifetime of it the next in a different time or place was sometimes devastating. It was the fact that this was happening that had me in a catatonic state.

"Lau please!" Bo begged as I blinked and met her eyes.

"Bo." I whispered as her eyes closed in relief noticing that I had come to my senses.

"Yes Laurel, I'm here. You called me and I came, what's going on? You were still and gone for a while there." Bo mentioned still worried as I nodded my head.

"I.. I have to talk to you about that…" I admitted nodding as Kelly agreed with her head from behind Bo. "But first I have to open this. I don't want to do it alone and no offense to you ladies but I don't want to do it here."

"No offense taken." Yorkie offered and Kelly nodded.

"You guys do you, I already did my part." Kelly mentioned as I nodded at her and Bo threw us confused looks.

"I'll explain, I promise. First let's get this in the Jeep." I suggested and Bo nodded.

Between the both of us we took the heavy trunk to the Jeep in the driveway. I was extremely careful with the heavy box as if it held a part of me; perhaps it did. Bo seeming to sense my mood walked slower and more careful than I expected. After we loaded it into the truck and we strapped ourselves to the seatbelts we took off. It wasn't a long ride to my place but I reminded her which directions to take. It wasn't far from hers actually and I enjoyed the place quite a lot but having Bo there would be even better with how I was feeling after reading the inscription on the box. I didn't want to fathom it to be true but at the same time my body buzzed with the expectation of awareness.

Truth was, after last night I didn't want to leave Bo. On the contrary I wanted to stay with Bo, my body ached for her as my soul longed to have her, the issue was that I wanted a part of Bo that I knew I couldn't have. For I was now an addict of her kisses when feeling was behind them, I was slave of her hands whenever she would touch me and for as long I could hold her gaze the look of unabated love that resonated in her soul with each memory that came to me would keep me put. I wasn't ignorant or naïve, I knew the love wasn't for me, but I couldn't go back now that I had experienced it even in my dreams. The problem was, what if I was wrong or damaged? What if this box differed from what Bo wanted to hear? What if I wasn't who she wanted me to be?

_*_*_*_Take you away far from what you know. _*_*_*_

I was angry that Laurel had driven herself here, I could admit that. However I could understand that this was absolutely not the time to bring it up. After I had gotten to Yorkie's and assessed the situation I had found a pretty fragile Laurel. I wasn't too sure what was going on, she had seemed to space out completely in the living room and a huge part of me theorized this is what had happened when we crashed.

We had lugged some sort of trash hunk trunk from Yorkie's and Laurel was insistent we went to her place where she had left me sleeping. I was confused when I woke up to the pounding of the door and when I opened it Yorkie assured me Laurel wanted to see me. I was happy with that fact and took it as relief that she had made it there safely. I wanted to talk to her about the dangers of her driving alone or driving at all, however all that went to shit when she went into shock. Something in the reluctant demeanor of the blonde told me she knew what was going on to an extent. I kept quiet though, if I knew the blonde at all I knew she needed the space.

It wasn't until I had helped her lug the trunk inside her house that I took a good hard look at her. Laurel looked damn good in those jeans and boots but the best part was the way my tanktop fit her like a glove making my Succubus roar in approval. I knew it wasn't the time, really, but the woman just knew how to set me ablaze as she peeled the jeans off her luscious body. Her eyes met mine after the innocent action she tended to do when we were alone and a small smirk left her lips while she ran a hand over her hair.

"I guess I must seem crazy." Laurel smiled as she started and I chuckled shaking my head.

"Not at all, I mean I've met crazier by a long stretch." I admitted and this made her laughter run through the house.

I loved the sound but more I loved the fact that her shoulders had relaxed and that her posture let go of it's tense stance and I knew I had broken the ice. Her eyes were tentative as she measured me with a good gaze. I smiled reassuringly before walking over to her and wrapping my arms around her with a smile. I felt her melt into my arms with a sigh as I chuckled and kissed the top of her head breathing her in.

"Come on babe, you can tell me anything. I've told you crazy theories and here you are. Why would you ever think it would be different between us?"

"I'm scared Bo, I'm scared of what will be, what isn't… I'm scared for us… what if I'm not what you're looking for?" Laurel's voice came out vulnerable and strained and I held her tighter.

"I thought we were over this babe. You are what I want." I assured her and found myself meaning it even more so after almost losing her.

"Maybe we should sit down… I should probably talk to you before we open that." Laurel mentioned with disdain as she looked at the box once more.

"If you're scared of what's in there we don't have to open it Lau… We can just chuck it and continue our lives as we have…" I offered as she smiled and shook her head.

"I wished that was true Bo, but unfortunately it's not. This is happening no matter what." Laurel explained leaving me confused.

"What do you mean?" I asked as the blonde took a long sigh.

"I just… I hate how our lives are this complicated." Laurel lamented reminding me of a different time.

"Lau.." I smiled letting the deja vu wash over me. "We are messy. We're complicated, that hasn't changed."

She took a deep breath while I noticed she had led us to the couch. We took a seat and Laurel seized me up once more before holding my hands. She traced my skin with her delicate fingers as her eyes searched mine letting my words wash over her before she kissed my knuckles with her soft lips. I didn't want her lips distracting me but I could see it was to no avail. I felt the surge in my libido before I could control it and before I knew it I saw hers spike to mirror mine. Laurel's speed left me breathless as she lunged forward expertly catching my lips with her luscious ones in a searing kiss. I was instantly craving more as I pulled her closer and moaned into her mouth while her teeth grazed my bottom lip with gusto.

When she pulled away from my lips and attacked my neck I sighed hard and raked my nails down her back under her shirt. I wanted her with an animalistic dominance that wouldn't go away. I always knew that Lauren was my soulmate deep down and I fought it so long for fear of ruining it. Now Laurel was in front of me: tasting, smelling, sounding and moaning just like Lauren but her hands were rougher, her touches were firmer and her energy fed off mine in this insatiable craving for the blonde it was like she was my match, she could sustain me, she could (wo)manhandle me if she so desired. That made me crazy, so much so that I was franticly lost in her and couldn't think of why we were here.

I pushed her beyond the couch until she was laying beneath me and trembling at my touch as I feathered it now down her ribs ghosting my fingers to her hip bones. The sound she made was reminiscent of another time and yet the boldness in which she took my hand and pressed it against her wet underwear was new. I moaned loudly and almost recoiled as a memory of the last motel flashed before my eyes. Lauren pulled my face towards her seemingly knowing where my mind had gone and then looked into my eyes. Her lips were parted as she panted softly yet lustfully while my fingers continued their torture applying pressure at the soaking fabric.

"I want you to Bo." Laurel admitted candidly as her aura set the house ablaze.

"Fuck" I breathed as I moved her underwear and slipped my digits deep within her.

The way her head slung back and her lips parted while her eyes closed and her hips shifted to take me all in had me trembling. I was in a daze of memories and reality that was making me reel. This was something that had always drove me crazy when done by the Doctor and now here it was driving me nuts again.

The symphony of her pants and moans urged me to go faster with immense care. I could almost feel the connection to my Lauren and how it used to be but Laurel's eyes were fully emerald by now reminding me of the Succubus within her. With one swift movement she grabbed me by the back of the neck and pulled herself upright parallel to me while taking me knuckle deep making me gasp and hiss. Her lips captured my lower one sucking and nipping while riding my hand. I was about to comment how hot this had me but the words stuck in my throat as I watched her eyes flash back to caramel twice with my movements. I heard the blonde in my arms gasp pulling me closer, her lips trembling at my ear now as I felt her close to coming undone.

"My Queen." She breathed making me shiver and my Succubus roar.

"Close your eyes, welcome to my Kingdom"

The next sequence of events were selfish on my part, and in retrospect perhaps I shouldn't have pushed so far but in the end there was no turning back.

I flicked my finger deep within her and found what the Doctor and I liked fondly to call 'the button'. I knew the kind of deep animalistic orgasm it would bring to this beautiful body and like the lustful creature that I was, I indulged myself bracing for the reaction. The way her fingers coiled around my shoulders while her nails dug into me was so familiar I felt myself tremble with the oncoming orgasm of my own. Jesus she hadn't even touched me yet!

We became a thrashing trembling mess as we both coiled and crested close to one another, gripping heaving bodes still clothed. It was bliss and agony as I could recall every sight, every sound, every moan, tremble of her breath, the very way her walls would contract against me, the way her musk smell hit my nostrils deliciously. It was too much and not enough as I watched flash after flash of countless time where I had made Lauren come undone this way to the very same reactions.

_*_*_*_*_*A single sip, my mind moves miles_*_*_*_*_*_*

I trembled as orgasm after orgasm hit me in droves and I felt Bo's content chuckle from above me. I felt so lightweight and happy that it made me forget whatever had been troubling me before this. Bo tended to have that effect on me and as I looked at her naked body before me I couldn't help but bite my lip wanting to take her again.

"You're giving me the eyes again Doctor." Bo purred and I laughed languidly.

"I want you Bo." I purred and sighed longingly.

"But you're spent, I need to give you a break." Bo gave me that devastating smile as my heart twisted in pain at the reminder of my humanity.

"I don't want a break, I want you." I insisted with a smirk as Bo smiled widely leaning down to kiss my lips with happiness.

"I want a baby Doctor Lewis… soon to be Dennis." Bo put out there as I felt my heart hammer fast with the thought of such a thing.

Did I dare? To think of a small little raven haired girl in boots and a little leather jacket strutting about pretending to slay something… That would be a sight my heart would probably not be able to take. I would absolutely love a small one with the love for books I could give her and the total self-confidence and overall badassery Bo could. I sighed happily as I looked into the brunette's soft expectant eyes; she was serious.

Before I could relish the happiness of the moment the scene shifted. I looked around confused. The lighting was different and the room was not the one I was just in, but I knew it this time that this was a memory as vivid as the day Lauren lived it… Or did I? I knew I was in a cabin, it was a resort where we had come to get away from the bustle of life. For some reason I felt like I didn't want to relive this and yet here I was powerless to do so.

I could hear the birds in the horizon and I leaned out of the balcony where I was standing as it overlooked the forest where we were camping out. It was a place in the outskirts of the city but peaceful enough that we wanted to retreat to it. I was worried I remembered, I was worried because I kept getting these intense headaches lately that I couldn't ease at any cost. Bo had suggested it was too much work and that a holiday was in order. I took the more scientific route and went to my primary care physician who did a battery of tests. I didn't want to self-diagnose and I was taking advantage of the apprentice Doctor I was training under Dyson's request. Truth was the Fae needed a Doctor with my brilliance even if I couldn't be it.

Evony had insisted on calling in case anything came up and I knew she would keep her promise. We had become frienemies since the whole Hades debacle and I was glad to have her in my corner in this case. I chuckled at the irony before I got a blasting searing hot pain in my right temple. I grabbed at the side of my head in immense pain as I crouched before collapsing to the ground. I cried as my heart hammered in my chest until the pain was so much it was not there anymore. Or maybe I wasn't there anymore.

_*_*_*_* A single spark it ignites my heart. _*_*_*_*_*

The blonde had put her head back to gather her bearings as I stood back up to catch my breath. That had been a rush I wanted to do it again. I stood to stretch and try to recall what were we talking about when my eyes landed on the huge hunk of trash on the middle of the room. I leaned down trying to read the scribble but couldn't. I felt Laurel moving about behind me and I turned to ask her about the box, or perhaps more sex but she was not there nor in the kitchen. I walked down the hallway knowing she couldn't have gone far and saw an open door which I had never been through before. It looked much like Lauren's lab but it had all kinds of weapons, machines, knives, arches, bombs, gunpowder and much more. However the more I looked around the more horror gripped me as my voice caught in my throat in fear.

The blonde had bypassed me for the lab as she stood catatonic in the middle of it. To my horror she had the trusty knife she kept in her thigh holster gripped tightly in her hand. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think, I couldn't move but I could see Laurel's movements, I could hear her muttering. My blood ran cold as I her voice reached my ears.

"It can't be we need more time! I wanted more time!" she demanded in tears now and I almost started crying recognizing Lauren's words in her mouth when we got told she was sick.

I saw with horror how the blonde in her hysteric trance grabbed a knife. I wanted to run to her but proof of the agility she possessed as a warrior her movements were too quick for me and I only reached her in time to see her eyes open wide and her gasp at the pain she had inflicted upon herself. The knife was now deep within her and a thick string of blood ran down her hand.

"Stand back Bo!" Laurel pushed me away and fell forwards from the move.

I wanted to reach for her, mend her, heal her whatever it took but I knew better from the fierceness of her tone. I had to let her process things her way, this was a major difference between Lauren and Laurel and one I had to respect.

"Lau-"

"Shhhh, I need a second." She interrupted me as she held her head almost to steady it.

"Laurel you're bleeding! You just stabbed yourself, you don't have a second!" I tried desperate as I watched the blood trickle from her wound.

"Calm yourself Isabeau it's a minor laceration to my left bicep, had I been a human still the nerve and muscle damage would be severe, almost irreparable. However I am confident with the Succubus abilities in my body that it will merely leave a small pink scar to match your own." Her voice came level, clear and in a tone that sent chills down my spine.

My heart hammered in my chest as my breath came in ragged gasps while I stared at the blonde heap in the floor. I wondered time and time again if I had EVER given Laurel my name. I couldn't possibly from the top of my head remember each interaction with her and I honestly didn't think I had but yet… I mean, not that I was famous, but perhaps Acacia or maybe someone somewhere had uttered it in Fae talks?

"What… are you… what?" I stupidly muttered incoherently.

I watched her pull her hair back from her face and the instant her eyes met mine it was as if I knew and yet I couldn't let myself think it. I watched her lips twitch into that slow seductive smile accompanied by a hum and I could've sworn I would have a heart attack from all the differing emotions.

"I've rendered you speechless once more." I watched her take a deep breath and stand while looking around as if in a new way. "I really do need to take care of this… I've been through worse but it's not ideal."

Her eyes met mine again and I opened and closed my mouth like an idiot.

"I thought I'd be more horrified than this… the more the moment drew near the more I realized there was no need." She smiled at me and walked over to where the counter was. "Hand me that metal briefcase beside my extinguisher. It should be heavy and fragile so be careful."

I did as she instructed without a single word. I was confused but I wasn't, if that made any sense. I think it was partially wishful thinking hoping that my wildest fantasies would come true. I only snapped out of my trance as I heard the blonde laughing and looking around the workshop.

"Wow! What a badass!" she said with a smile. "I am a genuine badass, good for me!"

"Laurel are you alright?" I dared to ask as I grew more and more worried. Maybe the blood loss had been more significant that I thought. Maybe I was just jumping to crazy conclusions in my head.

Then she turned and my world was upside down and burning everywhere with the heat of a thousand suns as she shone her golden warm aura on me, bathing me. My breath caught in my throat and purposely as if trying to show me, I watched as the blonde cleaned her hands in a very meticulous way. She then proceeded to fix some gloves on her hands and expertly with the ease of someone who has done this their whole life she removed the knife and stopped the bleeding in a swift movement. Before I knew it she was cleaned up and suturing herself with the reflection of the marble countertop. Badass indeed, but then did I dare to assume that there was something more to the precision of her movements? Almost Doctor like?

"You know, it's funny how one minute you can be nowhere and then here again so incredibly self-aware." The blonde mentioned in passing as I tried to process the information. "It was so hard to remember, such a thick amazing fog around every detail, it was like retrieving it from a hostile camp of war."

"You've hit your head and lost a lot of blood…" I started but she shook her head.

"I know. I know that Bo, but neither of those events were serious. I hit my head but not enough for a concussion and I stabbed myself merely to snap myself out of a haze." She explained before dabbing herself with a bandage and putting her tools down while taking her gloves off.

I watched her sway her hips towards me and look at me in a way that made all the hairs in my body stand in disbelief.

"I cannot begin to express how insane it is the fact that I feel in my soul that it's been decades since I have kissed you or held you and yet I remember holding you against my skin moments ago while you made me yours." She breathed in front of me and I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"Laurel… please…" I begged hoping this wasn't some sick twisted joke.

"Bo… as much as I like the name you know it's not what you call me." the blonde challenged as I started laughing almost in hysterics while I cried at the same time."

"It can't be right? I mean…" I laughed wholeheartedly as I watched her face mirror my joy. "Doctor Lewis?"

"Your Doctor Isabeau." she breathed as she wrapped her arms around my neck and we melted into a searing all-consuming kiss.

I felt the tears roll down my face as her lips molded with mine without missing a beat. It was slow and sensual and her hands roamed my body as if to remember any and every nook and cranny of my skin lit ablaze. I wanted to protest, to let her know I was confused, but all I could do was kiss her with the intensity she was giving me. She was right, it had felt like forever and no time at all. I could just taste her essesence so divinely there was no question in my mind. The balance was right this time and her scent was perfect. Before I could protest her hands had busied taking my shirt off and then my jeans. Her lips traveled to my neck as my head fell back in pleasure. The room was on fire with her aura.

"Please Lau I-" I tried from a lustful haze that didn't let me breathe let alone think. All I could think was Lauren.

"Fuck even recently I've always loved when you call me Lau." She hissed from my neck as I tried to think about the importance of that through her fingers torturing my skin.

I pushed the blonde away slightly, not enough to be away completely from me but enough that she would at least let me think. I saw her caramel eyes dark from the lust in them as her lips held a perfect pout.

"I need to know, as weird as this sounds, that Laurel isn't trapped in your head or lost into the ether or… I mean I have you back, I can feel it and that's great and I love that but…" I started not really knowing how to continue. How could I explain to Lauren that I loved Laurel too? What if that really amazing person was gone forever?

"But you want Laurel too…" she finished for me with a small understanding smirk and I was instantly ashamed. I never deserved Lauren.

"Shhh hey, hey there, where'd you go babes?" her voice reached my ears and it was such a tone that it reminded me of the bolder blonde I had recently met. My eyes searched hers as she nodded.

"I don't deserve you." I actually whispered this time and she chuckled before kissing my lips gingerly.

"Actually, I don't deserve you Bo. You loved me even when I wasn't quite me. I don't want to get into specifics right now but bottom line would be that you can rest assured that I'm ready to pick up where we left off." The blonde enunciated the words I had told Laurel not so long ago and I felt the relief wash over me.

"Wow…" I whispered as she nodded and started kissing my lips once more teasing my now half naked body with her hands.

"I've missed you Bo, I need to remember every inch of you, every sound, every sigh. I want it all Bo, this time you hold nothing back." Lauren challenged making me shiver with desire as the room lit ablaze with her lust.