Miyuki stared in envy as they walked down the hall. They looked so happy. She looked so happy. His arm was around her shoulder. They were talking about something, laughing, smiling. Miyuki opened her locker, the first thing she saw was a picture of her and Tatsuya smiling. When he was happy with me and not her. Her! "What change" I thought. I grab the picture, ripped it to pieces and threw it in the nearest trash walk towards class. I enter my class walk towards the back of the room right next to the window. I sat on my desk and look outside. It was a rainy day. The sky were grey and the lighting strike every two minutes are so. It's like the sky knew my whole world was falling apart and was feeling sorry for me. Like the great God's was crying for me. I turn back to the front and notices Mari writing on the board. "sigh" I stared at the window again and stared daydreaming about Tatsuya again. I started to question everything again.

After everything we been through! How can he do that? How can he tell me she adores me? Why would you tell me you love me forever but then turn around and walk away? How can he act like he never have feelings for me? Why is it so easy for him but for me it feels like I'm dying each day!? It feels like my heart was torn out of my chest and chew on in front of my eyes while my blood spills threw her fingers. The she devil fingers! I want to know how so I can do the same. So I can stop waiting for him to come back to me. So I can stop getting butterflies in the pit of my stomach every time he smiles to our friends and stop the feeling of me trying to stop my insides from puking out when he kisses her. I want to be that. I want to be that girl but I'll never will be. They have more chemistry then I ever have with him. He sees me as a sister. Nothing more, Nothing less.

I just wish we can go back in time and start new again. Even though I never regret how we first met, I do wish I could of met you a better time maybe I would have been your girl that you were going to be madly in love with. Maybe I could have been your true love. I would always have this emptiness in my heart and I'll walk day and night with a fake smile. But if that means I can see you walking the halls everyday with a beautiful smile then it's worth it. Your happiness is what I always wanted and cherished even if I'm not the one that can give it you. I love you Tatsuya and I hope your happy with Mayumi.