This isn't Love-
AN= I was extremely bored at work tonight and this idea just came to me so I decided to write it up. It probably isn't very good but oh well. If you like it then please review it but if not then don't bother posting hurtful reviews, they will just be ignored.
Disclaimer- I don't own any of these characters besides Madelyn. They belong to Bright, Kauffman and Crane.
Chapter 1- UPDATED
8-year-old Emma Geller sat in her bedroom, playing with her Dollhouse. She was supposed to be in bed but instead she was playing while trying to block out the shouting of her parents at one another. Her 4-month-old sister Madelyn was lying in her crib, seemingly unaffected by the shouting. It was mainly Mom shouting at Dad, who just stood there and occasionally fought back. This had been going on for months so Emma was sort of used to it by now.
"I can't deal with this anymore Ross," shouted Rachel.
"Deal with what?" asked Ross "What do you seriously have to deal with?"
"I can't deal with all this fighting. I can't deal with having to do everything in this house; I'm not Mary Poppins for Christ sakes. There's only so much I can do at once"
"From what I can recall, you are the one that starts all the arguments," retorted Ross.
Rachel sat down on the couch with her arms folded in front of her. "Don't blame everything on me Ross, I'm not the one with the problems"
"What problems do I have? I go to work everyday and bring home the money so you, Emma and Maddie can have everything you want. If it weren't for me, this family would have nothing"
"Don't make out that I bring nothing into the family. I'm the one who bought those 2 little girls into the world. I'm the one who's at home looking after our children. I couldn't work even if I wanted too"
"I'm not saying that, I'm just....God what happened to us Rachel? Remember that magic word. That feeling that we used to share called 'LOVE'?"
"LOVE???? This isn't love Ross. You call fighting 24 hours a day, 7 days a week love? I don't even know what love is anymore, there hasn't been any love between us for months"
"So now I don't show you any love?? All I have to do is breathe and you jump at me. What the hell do you want me to do? What do you want me to do every day to show you that I love you?? Do you want me to get down on my hands and knees and kiss your feet or something?"
"You being a smart ass isn't making this any better Ross," snapped Rachel.
Ross sat down on the couch next to Rachel "Look Rach, I don't know what to say. I don't even really know what started us fighting"
"We're fighting because you expect me to do everything. You just take me for granted every day but I'm telling you right now Ross, if things don't change I'm not going to be here every day"
"What are you saying? That you're going to leave me?" asked Ross. "You wouldn't"
"Do you want to try me Ross?? I am deadly serious. Either things change or the kids and I are out of here"
"Don't threaten me Rachel," said Ross.
"It's not a threat. It's a fact," said Rachel
He muttered to himself "Jesus Christ"
"Jesus Christ what??" asked Rachel.
"Jesus Christ I can't believe this is how we've turned out. I can't believe this is what we've come too. And about that whole 'I don't show you enough love' thing. I don't show you any love because I can't stand the way you've been lately. Why would I want to do anything with you when all you do is bitch at me??"
"You're an asshole Ross. What ever possessed me to marry you for a second time. I must have been out of my mind?"
"Well why are we still married if you feel that way?" asked Ross "Our marriage clearly means nothing to you"
They sat in silence for a few minutes until Ross stood up suddenly. "I've gotta get out of here"
"What??" said Rachel "You're going to leave when we haven't even finished talking yet?"
"We're not talking. All we're doing is bitching and I can't stand it anymore. I need to get out of here before I say some things that I'm really going to regret. And I can't stand being in here with you. I don't know what happened to the Rachel that I fell in love with and married but I sure as hell don't like the new one"
Rachel stood up about to give him a piece of her mind when Emma came barrelling through from her bedroom.
"Daddy, Don't leave me," she cried. "Take me with you"
"Go back to bed Em" said Ross gently.
"Come here Emma," said Rachel, putting her arms out.
"NO. I'm not staying here with you. It's your fault that Daddy's leaving me," yelled Emma.
"I'm not leaving you Em," said Ross, picking her up into his arms "I'd never leave my 2 Princesses. I'm just going out for a little while"
"Let me come with you," said Emma.
"Emma, You're not going ok. You've got school in the morning" said Rachel firmly.
"Come on Sweetie. Let's go back to bed," said Ross "You go to sleep and I promise I'll be here in the morning when you wake up"
He walked through to Emma and Madelyn's bedroom to settle her in, leaving Rachel sitting on the couch, with her head in her hands.
-5 minutes later
Ross walked back out into the lounge room to see Rachel still in the same position as before.
"She's asleep and so is Maddie," he said, standing by the front door.
Ross stood there waiting for her to say something but she didn't so he just grabbed his coat and slammed the door behind him.
Rachel got up and walked over to the window where she looked down at the street and saw Ross walking away. Without even turning back, He just walked away.
She began to sob loudly, wishing that he would just turn around and come back. She didn't know where he was going, when he was gonna come home. She lay down on the couch with the blanket wrapped around her.
"Was it her fault?" she thought to herself. They had been fighting non-stop since before Madelyn was born. They went without arguing for about a week after they bought the baby home from the hospital, they were in their happy new parents mode, which didn't last very long and ever since then things had just gone downhill.
She felt her eyes closing, as she fell into a dreamless sleep.
(Streets of Manhattan)
Ross is walking slowly down the street, shoulders slumped and his hands buried deep in the pockets of his big coat. It was a freezing night and Ross could feel his body slowly getting colder and colder. He knew that he should go home but he just couldn't be in the same room with Rachel right now. His thoughts were all jumbled up "What did she mean when she said she must have been out of her mind when she married him?" "Did she really love him at all?" "Were her threats about leaving him for real?" "Was he going to be divorced for a 4th time?"
He knew how much he loved Rachel. No matter what they said to each other, He loved her so much it hurt. She was his soul mate and her and the kids were everything to him but once harsh words get said, Things are never the same.
He spotted a Café across the road and decided to stop in and grab some coffee before heading home. They were going to sort out their problems tonight whether she liked it or not because all this fighting wasn't doing them any good. He vowed not to sleep tonight until they had everything sorted out.
He stepped out onto the road, failing to notice the speeding cab headed straight for him and with a squeal of brakes, the cab ploughed straight into him. He blacked out a second after it hit, the last thought before he lost consciousness was "This was it, He was going to die before telling Rachel he loved her, without seeing his kids once more"
(Cut to Ross and Rachel's Apartment)
Rachel was awoken on the couch, from loud knocks coming from the front door. She jumped up quickly and ran to the door.
"Ross??" she said as she pulled the door open, only to see two plain- clothed policemen, holding up their identification badges.
"Can I help you?" she said, looking at her watch. It was nearly midnight.
"I'm Detective Buzzelli and this is Detective Jefferies. Are you Mrs Rachel Geller?"
"Yes. What's going on?" asked Rachel.
"Mrs Geller, I'm afraid there's been an accident," said Detective Jefferies.
"Wha... What?" stammered Rachel
"Your Husband, Ross Geller was struck down by a speeding cab about half and hour ago and has been taken to Beth Israel in a very critical condition. I'm afraid it doesn't look good"
"Noo, Please No" screamed Rachel, before she fainted, Detective Buzelli catching her before she hit the floor.
(Minutes Later)
Rachel came too; She was lying on the couch with the two policemen standing over her. Emma, hearing Rachel's scream had come out from her room and was now standing looking at Rachel.
She sat up slowly, trying to remember what had happened.
"What happened?" asked Rachel.
"Mommy, What's going on?" asked Emma, rubbing her eyes, blearily.
"Mrs Green, Do you remember what we just told you?" asked Det. Jefferies
Rachel racked her brains, and then it came to her.
"Ross!!" she cried, jumping up off the couch. "Take me to my husband please?"
"Mommy, Where's Daddy?" asked Emma, starting to get scared.
"Emma, There's been an accident. Daddy's at the hospital" said Rachel, her eyes welling up with tears.
Emma started to cry, "Is he going to be ok?"
"He's going to be fine Honey," answered Rachel calmly. "We'll go down there now and see him ok?"
"Why don't you come with me Sweetie, We'll wait for Mommy in the police car" said Det. Buzelli, taking Emma's hand. "Is there a coat for this pretty young lady to put on?"
"Here" said Rachel, throwing a purple coat to him, before running through to Maddie's bedroom, picking up the sleeping baby, wrapping her in a thick blanket and heading out the front door.
(Hospital)
Rachel walked into the ICU quietly. Monica, Chandler, Phoebe and Joey had arrived and were outside in the waiting room with Emma and Madelyn.
Rachel saw Ross in a corner bed, Hooked up to machine's with all sorts of wires attached to his body. He had a plaster on one arm and a bandage on his head. She gasped in shock when she saw him. He was as pale as a ghost.
She walked up to his bed and touched his hand. He was so still.
"Ross" she whispered. "Ross, Can you hear me?"
There was no movement, absolutely no signs whatsoever that he was even in there.
Rachel sat down next to his bed and held onto his hand. The tears began to flow down her face as she stared at him. He seemed lifeless, only for the beeps of the machines.
Doctor Raymond entered the room to talk to Rachel and inform her of Ross's condition.
"Mrs Geller, I'm Dr Raymond. I was the first doctor who attended to Ross when he arrived at Beth Israel"
"What's happening? When will he wake up?" asked Rachel as she stood up.
"I'm afraid Ross sustained rather shocking head injuries in the accident. He was knocked about severely and his head got the brunt of the damage. He also suffered some internal bleeding, I operated as soon as he arrived and was able to stem that so that is really the least of our worries right now. Mrs Geller, Ross is in a very deep coma, He is stabilised now but we don't know when and if he will come out of it and at this stage there is a 65% survival rate"
"65% Survival..." stuttered Rachel "Are you telling me that he may never wake up again?"
"There is a chance that may happen Mrs Geller, but there is also a chance that he will wake and have suffered no brain damage at all" said Dr Raymond. "I'm so sorry to bring you this news"
"I don't know what to say," said Rachel "Could I be alone with my husband now?"
"Absolutely. If you have any questions or need anything at all then don't hesitate to ask me. I'm here to help you and I'm here to help Ross"
"Thank you very much," said Rachel as he headed for the door.
He turned around suddenly.
"Could I suggest something Mrs Green?" he asked.
"Yes," said Rachel
"Talk to Ross. Let him know that you are here because it has been proved that people in comas can hear what is going on and sometimes hearing their loved ones voices can help bring them out of the coma"
"Thank you" said Rachel "I will"
She sat back down; absolutely numb at what she had just heard. Ross could die and she blamed herself. If she hadn't of argued with him, He would never had left and he wouldn't be lying here fighting to survive. It was all her fault.
She began to sob softly. She would never forgive herself if something happened to him, if he didn't make it out of here.
"Ross, I'm so sorry" she said softly. "I don't know if you can hear me but I want you to know how much I love you, you may think otherwise but I do love you so much" She reached out and stroked his hand gently.
"You have to get through this Ross, because I know that if you aren't by my side, I won't be able to go on, I won't be able to cope. I really need you to try and get through this, if not for me then do it for Emma and Madelyn, They need their daddy around"
Rachel felt herself beginning to lose it. She knew that this wasn't going to do any good, so she got up and composed herself in the corner before heading out to the waiting room to talk to Monica and everyone else.
(Waiting Room)
Monica, Chandler, Phoebe, Joey all sat tensely, waiting for some news. Emma was sitting quietly next to Phoebe while Monica was cradling a still sleeping Madelyn.
Chandler, Phoebe and Joey jumped up quickly when they saw Rachel walk out, Her tear stained face made them wonder what news she was about to bring them.
"How is he?" asked Monica, standing up carefully so she didn't wake Maddie.
"Fine" said Rachel, looking at Emma.
"He's not going to die is he?" asked Joey
"Joey!!" Phoebe exclaimed, nodding her head over at Emma who was staring at the wall.
"Sorry" said Joey "Hey Em, Why don't we go and get a soda or a candy bar?"
"Ok" replied Emma softly. She stood up and walked over to Rachel, wrapping her arms around her waist "Is Daddy gonna be ok?"
"Of course he is Honey," said Rachel "He wouldn't ever leave his two Princesses now would he?"
"Never" agreed Emma "I love you Mommy"
"Aw Baby, I love you too" said Rachel kissing her head "Now go with Uncle Joey and eat some junk food ok?"
They watched Emma and Joey walk away.
"How is he really?" asked Chandler
Rachel's eyes welled up immediately.
"He's in a deep coma," she said, as she sat down in an armchair "He's got shocking head injuries and Dr Raymond doesn't know if he'll even come out of the coma. There's a 65% chance that he'll make it"
"Nooo" breathed Monica, as she started to cry. "65%?"
"It's going to be ok Honey," said Chandler, pulling Monica into his arms "Ross will get through this"
"I know, you're right," said Monica "He's so strong and he will make it"
"How are you holding up Rach?" asked Phoebe
"I don't know, I just can't believe this has happened," answered Rachel "This is my worst nightmare. I'll never forgive myself if he doesn't get through this"
"Why would you say that?" asked Monica "It's not your fault"
"But it is my fault" said Rachel "Ughh, I think I'm going to be sick. I've gotta go get some air"
She walked away, towards the doors, the others staring in disbelief behind her.
"Why would she blame herself?" asked Chandler
"I don't know" said Monica "I'm going to go and talk to her"
"Do you think they'll let me in to see him?" asked Chandler "Even though I'm not immediate family?"
"Tell them you're his brother," said Phoebe "That'll work"
(ICU Room)
Chandler walked in to Ross's room, screwing up his nose at the Sanitised hospital smell. He hated hospitals and usually did his best to avoid them but here he was.
He sat down in the armchair, next to Ross's bed. He was looking at Ross, thinking he looked like Hell. He didn't know if he should talk to him or something like that.
"Hey Ross, It's Chandler. Listen I don't know if I'm wasting my time here but I just wanted to tell you that we are all here for you. We all love you and want you to make it so I think that's reason enough for you to wake up. Rachel's outside with Monica, She's beside herself with grief, blaming herself for some reason, She said that if anything happened to you that she would never forgive herself. Please don't put her through that ok? You've gotta get through this because I can't imagine what life would be like without you here, You've been my best friend for so many years and I need you to be here for many more years all right? Do we have a deal? You make it out of here and I'll continue to be your best buddy. Sounds fair to me. But I better go now dude before someone realizes that I'm not really your brother and kick me out."
(Cut to outside the Hospital)
Monica walked out the double doors and saw Rachel sitting on one of the benches.
"Rachel, It's freezing out here," she said, as she sat down next to her.
"I know," said Rachel, looking at Madelyn, who looked awfully warm in her thick blanket and Pink Beanie. She began to stir in Monica's arms "It's probably time for her feeding"
"Here" said Monica, handing her over to Rachel.
"Hi Little Girl" said Rachel, a smile coming to her face as she felt Madelyn nestle comfortably in her arms "Hi"
"She's got Ross's features doesn't she?" said Monica
"She sure does," replied Rachel, stroking the baby's face as she hungrily breast-fed.
"So tell me Rachel, Why are you blaming yourself?" asked Monica "There is no way possible that this could be your fault Sweetie"
"You don't know Monica" said Rachel softly "I drove him out of the apartment last night, We were arguing as usual and I told him that if things didn't change then I was going to leave him and take the kids with me. I told him that I didn't even know why I married him again"
"Why did you say that?" asked Monica "Are you going to leave him?"
"Of course not. I don't know why I said it. Because I was angry maybe, because I wanted to hurt him, and now he really is hurting and it's all my fault"
"You poor thing" said Monica, wrapping her arms around Rachel "You can't blame yourself. This was an accident. A tragic accident and I'm so sure that when Ross wakes up, He's going to take you in his arms and tell you the same thing"
"What if he doesn't wake up? What if he dies, thinking that I don't love him? I will never, ever forgive myself, knowing that I made him leave that night. If I weren't such a bitch then he would have been safe at home, in bed with me instead of walking the streets and getting hit by Cab's"
"He will wake up. I know Ross, and I know how much he loves you and he loves Emma and Maddie and he wouldn't go anywhere without saying good-bye first. So you fight a lot, what couple doesn't? Ross does know deep down how much you love him"
"I don't know what I'll do if he does die Monica" sobbed Rachel "I can't raise these girls without him. I can't do it on my own. And most of all, I can't survive without him. I love him so much"
"Ssshhh" said Monica "Don't even go there ok? You married someone who is so strong and he has something to live for, He has this beautiful family that he will live for"
They sat in silence for a few moments; Rachel had many thoughts running through her mind.
"I better go back inside," said Rachel "I don't want to be out here if he wakes up"
"That's the spirit," said Monica "Are you ok now?"
"I am" replied Rachel "Thanks Mon"
Monica watched Rachel and Madelyn walk back inside.
She was being so strong for Rachel that she hadn't even let the realization that her brother might die sink in to herself yet.
She felt the tears start to slide down her face. She didn't know how she would cope if her big brother wasn't by her side. Ross had helped her through so much crap over the years and she would be forever thankful to him for it.
(ICU Room)
Rachel walked in with Emma and Madelyn. She wasn't sure if she should let Emma see Ross like this but decided it was best in case something did happen. She wanted to see her Dad.
They had cleaned Ross up while she was gone; there were no longer bloodstains on his head and body anymore. He looked peaceful except for tubes and wires all over his body.
As they entered they saw a Nurse fiddling around with one of the machines connected to Ross.
"Is something wrong?" Rachel asked worriedly.
"No, Just checking. His condition hasn't changed," replied the Nurse "I'll leave you 4 alone"
"Thankyou" said Rachel
"Are you ok Honey?" she said to Emma, who was standing at the door quietly.
Emma took a deep breath; it was scary for her, seeing her Dad lying there, so still.
"He looks like he's sleeping," said Emma, walking up to the bedside and touching Ross's hand gently "Daddy... Daddy can you hear me?"
"He is sleeping Emma," said Rachel, as she sat down, placing a sleeping Madelyn in her carrier. "You can say hi to him if you like"
"But he can't hear me if he's sleeping can he?" asked Emma
"Maybe, Maybe not" said Rachel "But he could also wake up if he hears your voice"
She lifted Emma up onto the bed, where she sat perched on the edge.
"Daddy, It's Emma," she said softly. "I don't know why you are still asleep but you need to wake up soon, do you know why? Because it's nearly morning and me and Maddie need our good morning cuddles"
Hearing this, Rachel started to cry softly into her hands. Ross had a morning ritual with Emma and Madelyn where he would give them one of his famous bear hugs; Emma always said that she couldn't go to school without one.
Emma noticed Rachel's tears.
"Mommy's crying now so I'm going to give her a cuddle. It won't be anything like yours but I'll try ok. I love you Daddy and I'll talk to you soon" said Emma.
She kissed Ross's hand and jumped off the bed. She then walked over to Rachel and pulled herself into the armchair, on her lap. She wrapped her little arms around her tightly. "Better?"
"Much better" said Rachel "Much, Much better"
AN= I was extremely bored at work tonight and this idea just came to me so I decided to write it up. It probably isn't very good but oh well. If you like it then please review it but if not then don't bother posting hurtful reviews, they will just be ignored.
Disclaimer- I don't own any of these characters besides Madelyn. They belong to Bright, Kauffman and Crane.
Chapter 1- UPDATED
8-year-old Emma Geller sat in her bedroom, playing with her Dollhouse. She was supposed to be in bed but instead she was playing while trying to block out the shouting of her parents at one another. Her 4-month-old sister Madelyn was lying in her crib, seemingly unaffected by the shouting. It was mainly Mom shouting at Dad, who just stood there and occasionally fought back. This had been going on for months so Emma was sort of used to it by now.
"I can't deal with this anymore Ross," shouted Rachel.
"Deal with what?" asked Ross "What do you seriously have to deal with?"
"I can't deal with all this fighting. I can't deal with having to do everything in this house; I'm not Mary Poppins for Christ sakes. There's only so much I can do at once"
"From what I can recall, you are the one that starts all the arguments," retorted Ross.
Rachel sat down on the couch with her arms folded in front of her. "Don't blame everything on me Ross, I'm not the one with the problems"
"What problems do I have? I go to work everyday and bring home the money so you, Emma and Maddie can have everything you want. If it weren't for me, this family would have nothing"
"Don't make out that I bring nothing into the family. I'm the one who bought those 2 little girls into the world. I'm the one who's at home looking after our children. I couldn't work even if I wanted too"
"I'm not saying that, I'm just....God what happened to us Rachel? Remember that magic word. That feeling that we used to share called 'LOVE'?"
"LOVE???? This isn't love Ross. You call fighting 24 hours a day, 7 days a week love? I don't even know what love is anymore, there hasn't been any love between us for months"
"So now I don't show you any love?? All I have to do is breathe and you jump at me. What the hell do you want me to do? What do you want me to do every day to show you that I love you?? Do you want me to get down on my hands and knees and kiss your feet or something?"
"You being a smart ass isn't making this any better Ross," snapped Rachel.
Ross sat down on the couch next to Rachel "Look Rach, I don't know what to say. I don't even really know what started us fighting"
"We're fighting because you expect me to do everything. You just take me for granted every day but I'm telling you right now Ross, if things don't change I'm not going to be here every day"
"What are you saying? That you're going to leave me?" asked Ross. "You wouldn't"
"Do you want to try me Ross?? I am deadly serious. Either things change or the kids and I are out of here"
"Don't threaten me Rachel," said Ross.
"It's not a threat. It's a fact," said Rachel
He muttered to himself "Jesus Christ"
"Jesus Christ what??" asked Rachel.
"Jesus Christ I can't believe this is how we've turned out. I can't believe this is what we've come too. And about that whole 'I don't show you enough love' thing. I don't show you any love because I can't stand the way you've been lately. Why would I want to do anything with you when all you do is bitch at me??"
"You're an asshole Ross. What ever possessed me to marry you for a second time. I must have been out of my mind?"
"Well why are we still married if you feel that way?" asked Ross "Our marriage clearly means nothing to you"
They sat in silence for a few minutes until Ross stood up suddenly. "I've gotta get out of here"
"What??" said Rachel "You're going to leave when we haven't even finished talking yet?"
"We're not talking. All we're doing is bitching and I can't stand it anymore. I need to get out of here before I say some things that I'm really going to regret. And I can't stand being in here with you. I don't know what happened to the Rachel that I fell in love with and married but I sure as hell don't like the new one"
Rachel stood up about to give him a piece of her mind when Emma came barrelling through from her bedroom.
"Daddy, Don't leave me," she cried. "Take me with you"
"Go back to bed Em" said Ross gently.
"Come here Emma," said Rachel, putting her arms out.
"NO. I'm not staying here with you. It's your fault that Daddy's leaving me," yelled Emma.
"I'm not leaving you Em," said Ross, picking her up into his arms "I'd never leave my 2 Princesses. I'm just going out for a little while"
"Let me come with you," said Emma.
"Emma, You're not going ok. You've got school in the morning" said Rachel firmly.
"Come on Sweetie. Let's go back to bed," said Ross "You go to sleep and I promise I'll be here in the morning when you wake up"
He walked through to Emma and Madelyn's bedroom to settle her in, leaving Rachel sitting on the couch, with her head in her hands.
-5 minutes later
Ross walked back out into the lounge room to see Rachel still in the same position as before.
"She's asleep and so is Maddie," he said, standing by the front door.
Ross stood there waiting for her to say something but she didn't so he just grabbed his coat and slammed the door behind him.
Rachel got up and walked over to the window where she looked down at the street and saw Ross walking away. Without even turning back, He just walked away.
She began to sob loudly, wishing that he would just turn around and come back. She didn't know where he was going, when he was gonna come home. She lay down on the couch with the blanket wrapped around her.
"Was it her fault?" she thought to herself. They had been fighting non-stop since before Madelyn was born. They went without arguing for about a week after they bought the baby home from the hospital, they were in their happy new parents mode, which didn't last very long and ever since then things had just gone downhill.
She felt her eyes closing, as she fell into a dreamless sleep.
(Streets of Manhattan)
Ross is walking slowly down the street, shoulders slumped and his hands buried deep in the pockets of his big coat. It was a freezing night and Ross could feel his body slowly getting colder and colder. He knew that he should go home but he just couldn't be in the same room with Rachel right now. His thoughts were all jumbled up "What did she mean when she said she must have been out of her mind when she married him?" "Did she really love him at all?" "Were her threats about leaving him for real?" "Was he going to be divorced for a 4th time?"
He knew how much he loved Rachel. No matter what they said to each other, He loved her so much it hurt. She was his soul mate and her and the kids were everything to him but once harsh words get said, Things are never the same.
He spotted a Café across the road and decided to stop in and grab some coffee before heading home. They were going to sort out their problems tonight whether she liked it or not because all this fighting wasn't doing them any good. He vowed not to sleep tonight until they had everything sorted out.
He stepped out onto the road, failing to notice the speeding cab headed straight for him and with a squeal of brakes, the cab ploughed straight into him. He blacked out a second after it hit, the last thought before he lost consciousness was "This was it, He was going to die before telling Rachel he loved her, without seeing his kids once more"
(Cut to Ross and Rachel's Apartment)
Rachel was awoken on the couch, from loud knocks coming from the front door. She jumped up quickly and ran to the door.
"Ross??" she said as she pulled the door open, only to see two plain- clothed policemen, holding up their identification badges.
"Can I help you?" she said, looking at her watch. It was nearly midnight.
"I'm Detective Buzzelli and this is Detective Jefferies. Are you Mrs Rachel Geller?"
"Yes. What's going on?" asked Rachel.
"Mrs Geller, I'm afraid there's been an accident," said Detective Jefferies.
"Wha... What?" stammered Rachel
"Your Husband, Ross Geller was struck down by a speeding cab about half and hour ago and has been taken to Beth Israel in a very critical condition. I'm afraid it doesn't look good"
"Noo, Please No" screamed Rachel, before she fainted, Detective Buzelli catching her before she hit the floor.
(Minutes Later)
Rachel came too; She was lying on the couch with the two policemen standing over her. Emma, hearing Rachel's scream had come out from her room and was now standing looking at Rachel.
She sat up slowly, trying to remember what had happened.
"What happened?" asked Rachel.
"Mommy, What's going on?" asked Emma, rubbing her eyes, blearily.
"Mrs Green, Do you remember what we just told you?" asked Det. Jefferies
Rachel racked her brains, and then it came to her.
"Ross!!" she cried, jumping up off the couch. "Take me to my husband please?"
"Mommy, Where's Daddy?" asked Emma, starting to get scared.
"Emma, There's been an accident. Daddy's at the hospital" said Rachel, her eyes welling up with tears.
Emma started to cry, "Is he going to be ok?"
"He's going to be fine Honey," answered Rachel calmly. "We'll go down there now and see him ok?"
"Why don't you come with me Sweetie, We'll wait for Mommy in the police car" said Det. Buzelli, taking Emma's hand. "Is there a coat for this pretty young lady to put on?"
"Here" said Rachel, throwing a purple coat to him, before running through to Maddie's bedroom, picking up the sleeping baby, wrapping her in a thick blanket and heading out the front door.
(Hospital)
Rachel walked into the ICU quietly. Monica, Chandler, Phoebe and Joey had arrived and were outside in the waiting room with Emma and Madelyn.
Rachel saw Ross in a corner bed, Hooked up to machine's with all sorts of wires attached to his body. He had a plaster on one arm and a bandage on his head. She gasped in shock when she saw him. He was as pale as a ghost.
She walked up to his bed and touched his hand. He was so still.
"Ross" she whispered. "Ross, Can you hear me?"
There was no movement, absolutely no signs whatsoever that he was even in there.
Rachel sat down next to his bed and held onto his hand. The tears began to flow down her face as she stared at him. He seemed lifeless, only for the beeps of the machines.
Doctor Raymond entered the room to talk to Rachel and inform her of Ross's condition.
"Mrs Geller, I'm Dr Raymond. I was the first doctor who attended to Ross when he arrived at Beth Israel"
"What's happening? When will he wake up?" asked Rachel as she stood up.
"I'm afraid Ross sustained rather shocking head injuries in the accident. He was knocked about severely and his head got the brunt of the damage. He also suffered some internal bleeding, I operated as soon as he arrived and was able to stem that so that is really the least of our worries right now. Mrs Geller, Ross is in a very deep coma, He is stabilised now but we don't know when and if he will come out of it and at this stage there is a 65% survival rate"
"65% Survival..." stuttered Rachel "Are you telling me that he may never wake up again?"
"There is a chance that may happen Mrs Geller, but there is also a chance that he will wake and have suffered no brain damage at all" said Dr Raymond. "I'm so sorry to bring you this news"
"I don't know what to say," said Rachel "Could I be alone with my husband now?"
"Absolutely. If you have any questions or need anything at all then don't hesitate to ask me. I'm here to help you and I'm here to help Ross"
"Thank you very much," said Rachel as he headed for the door.
He turned around suddenly.
"Could I suggest something Mrs Green?" he asked.
"Yes," said Rachel
"Talk to Ross. Let him know that you are here because it has been proved that people in comas can hear what is going on and sometimes hearing their loved ones voices can help bring them out of the coma"
"Thank you" said Rachel "I will"
She sat back down; absolutely numb at what she had just heard. Ross could die and she blamed herself. If she hadn't of argued with him, He would never had left and he wouldn't be lying here fighting to survive. It was all her fault.
She began to sob softly. She would never forgive herself if something happened to him, if he didn't make it out of here.
"Ross, I'm so sorry" she said softly. "I don't know if you can hear me but I want you to know how much I love you, you may think otherwise but I do love you so much" She reached out and stroked his hand gently.
"You have to get through this Ross, because I know that if you aren't by my side, I won't be able to go on, I won't be able to cope. I really need you to try and get through this, if not for me then do it for Emma and Madelyn, They need their daddy around"
Rachel felt herself beginning to lose it. She knew that this wasn't going to do any good, so she got up and composed herself in the corner before heading out to the waiting room to talk to Monica and everyone else.
(Waiting Room)
Monica, Chandler, Phoebe, Joey all sat tensely, waiting for some news. Emma was sitting quietly next to Phoebe while Monica was cradling a still sleeping Madelyn.
Chandler, Phoebe and Joey jumped up quickly when they saw Rachel walk out, Her tear stained face made them wonder what news she was about to bring them.
"How is he?" asked Monica, standing up carefully so she didn't wake Maddie.
"Fine" said Rachel, looking at Emma.
"He's not going to die is he?" asked Joey
"Joey!!" Phoebe exclaimed, nodding her head over at Emma who was staring at the wall.
"Sorry" said Joey "Hey Em, Why don't we go and get a soda or a candy bar?"
"Ok" replied Emma softly. She stood up and walked over to Rachel, wrapping her arms around her waist "Is Daddy gonna be ok?"
"Of course he is Honey," said Rachel "He wouldn't ever leave his two Princesses now would he?"
"Never" agreed Emma "I love you Mommy"
"Aw Baby, I love you too" said Rachel kissing her head "Now go with Uncle Joey and eat some junk food ok?"
They watched Emma and Joey walk away.
"How is he really?" asked Chandler
Rachel's eyes welled up immediately.
"He's in a deep coma," she said, as she sat down in an armchair "He's got shocking head injuries and Dr Raymond doesn't know if he'll even come out of the coma. There's a 65% chance that he'll make it"
"Nooo" breathed Monica, as she started to cry. "65%?"
"It's going to be ok Honey," said Chandler, pulling Monica into his arms "Ross will get through this"
"I know, you're right," said Monica "He's so strong and he will make it"
"How are you holding up Rach?" asked Phoebe
"I don't know, I just can't believe this has happened," answered Rachel "This is my worst nightmare. I'll never forgive myself if he doesn't get through this"
"Why would you say that?" asked Monica "It's not your fault"
"But it is my fault" said Rachel "Ughh, I think I'm going to be sick. I've gotta go get some air"
She walked away, towards the doors, the others staring in disbelief behind her.
"Why would she blame herself?" asked Chandler
"I don't know" said Monica "I'm going to go and talk to her"
"Do you think they'll let me in to see him?" asked Chandler "Even though I'm not immediate family?"
"Tell them you're his brother," said Phoebe "That'll work"
(ICU Room)
Chandler walked in to Ross's room, screwing up his nose at the Sanitised hospital smell. He hated hospitals and usually did his best to avoid them but here he was.
He sat down in the armchair, next to Ross's bed. He was looking at Ross, thinking he looked like Hell. He didn't know if he should talk to him or something like that.
"Hey Ross, It's Chandler. Listen I don't know if I'm wasting my time here but I just wanted to tell you that we are all here for you. We all love you and want you to make it so I think that's reason enough for you to wake up. Rachel's outside with Monica, She's beside herself with grief, blaming herself for some reason, She said that if anything happened to you that she would never forgive herself. Please don't put her through that ok? You've gotta get through this because I can't imagine what life would be like without you here, You've been my best friend for so many years and I need you to be here for many more years all right? Do we have a deal? You make it out of here and I'll continue to be your best buddy. Sounds fair to me. But I better go now dude before someone realizes that I'm not really your brother and kick me out."
(Cut to outside the Hospital)
Monica walked out the double doors and saw Rachel sitting on one of the benches.
"Rachel, It's freezing out here," she said, as she sat down next to her.
"I know," said Rachel, looking at Madelyn, who looked awfully warm in her thick blanket and Pink Beanie. She began to stir in Monica's arms "It's probably time for her feeding"
"Here" said Monica, handing her over to Rachel.
"Hi Little Girl" said Rachel, a smile coming to her face as she felt Madelyn nestle comfortably in her arms "Hi"
"She's got Ross's features doesn't she?" said Monica
"She sure does," replied Rachel, stroking the baby's face as she hungrily breast-fed.
"So tell me Rachel, Why are you blaming yourself?" asked Monica "There is no way possible that this could be your fault Sweetie"
"You don't know Monica" said Rachel softly "I drove him out of the apartment last night, We were arguing as usual and I told him that if things didn't change then I was going to leave him and take the kids with me. I told him that I didn't even know why I married him again"
"Why did you say that?" asked Monica "Are you going to leave him?"
"Of course not. I don't know why I said it. Because I was angry maybe, because I wanted to hurt him, and now he really is hurting and it's all my fault"
"You poor thing" said Monica, wrapping her arms around Rachel "You can't blame yourself. This was an accident. A tragic accident and I'm so sure that when Ross wakes up, He's going to take you in his arms and tell you the same thing"
"What if he doesn't wake up? What if he dies, thinking that I don't love him? I will never, ever forgive myself, knowing that I made him leave that night. If I weren't such a bitch then he would have been safe at home, in bed with me instead of walking the streets and getting hit by Cab's"
"He will wake up. I know Ross, and I know how much he loves you and he loves Emma and Maddie and he wouldn't go anywhere without saying good-bye first. So you fight a lot, what couple doesn't? Ross does know deep down how much you love him"
"I don't know what I'll do if he does die Monica" sobbed Rachel "I can't raise these girls without him. I can't do it on my own. And most of all, I can't survive without him. I love him so much"
"Ssshhh" said Monica "Don't even go there ok? You married someone who is so strong and he has something to live for, He has this beautiful family that he will live for"
They sat in silence for a few moments; Rachel had many thoughts running through her mind.
"I better go back inside," said Rachel "I don't want to be out here if he wakes up"
"That's the spirit," said Monica "Are you ok now?"
"I am" replied Rachel "Thanks Mon"
Monica watched Rachel and Madelyn walk back inside.
She was being so strong for Rachel that she hadn't even let the realization that her brother might die sink in to herself yet.
She felt the tears start to slide down her face. She didn't know how she would cope if her big brother wasn't by her side. Ross had helped her through so much crap over the years and she would be forever thankful to him for it.
(ICU Room)
Rachel walked in with Emma and Madelyn. She wasn't sure if she should let Emma see Ross like this but decided it was best in case something did happen. She wanted to see her Dad.
They had cleaned Ross up while she was gone; there were no longer bloodstains on his head and body anymore. He looked peaceful except for tubes and wires all over his body.
As they entered they saw a Nurse fiddling around with one of the machines connected to Ross.
"Is something wrong?" Rachel asked worriedly.
"No, Just checking. His condition hasn't changed," replied the Nurse "I'll leave you 4 alone"
"Thankyou" said Rachel
"Are you ok Honey?" she said to Emma, who was standing at the door quietly.
Emma took a deep breath; it was scary for her, seeing her Dad lying there, so still.
"He looks like he's sleeping," said Emma, walking up to the bedside and touching Ross's hand gently "Daddy... Daddy can you hear me?"
"He is sleeping Emma," said Rachel, as she sat down, placing a sleeping Madelyn in her carrier. "You can say hi to him if you like"
"But he can't hear me if he's sleeping can he?" asked Emma
"Maybe, Maybe not" said Rachel "But he could also wake up if he hears your voice"
She lifted Emma up onto the bed, where she sat perched on the edge.
"Daddy, It's Emma," she said softly. "I don't know why you are still asleep but you need to wake up soon, do you know why? Because it's nearly morning and me and Maddie need our good morning cuddles"
Hearing this, Rachel started to cry softly into her hands. Ross had a morning ritual with Emma and Madelyn where he would give them one of his famous bear hugs; Emma always said that she couldn't go to school without one.
Emma noticed Rachel's tears.
"Mommy's crying now so I'm going to give her a cuddle. It won't be anything like yours but I'll try ok. I love you Daddy and I'll talk to you soon" said Emma.
She kissed Ross's hand and jumped off the bed. She then walked over to Rachel and pulled herself into the armchair, on her lap. She wrapped her little arms around her tightly. "Better?"
"Much better" said Rachel "Much, Much better"