A:N HEY READERS RE-UPLOADING THE FIRST CHAPTER & I WILL BE UPLOADING THE SECOND CHAPTER TONIGHT. THANK YOU!
Santana Lopez grabs her luggage and heads for the exit of the Ohio International Airport, she checks her phone and sees text messages from her friends telling her how excited they are that she is coming home to Lima. Coming back to Lima, Ohio has been something she's been dreading and had been able to avoid for the past five years but when her best friend Quinn Fabray called her saying that she was getting married and she wanted Santana to be her maid of honor she knew it was something she couldn't turn down. Santana was ecstatic to see her best friend get married and be able to see all her friends again but she knew that meant coming face to face with the girl that haunted her memories everyday for the past five years. Mercedes Jones was the girl that Santana had planned to spend the rest of her life with and because of a huge mistake, Santana can only dream about what could of been. Santana and Mercedes were high school sweethearts and they were the perfect couple in everyone's eyes but all that changed when Santana moved to LA to follow her dreams to become a actress. Santana let the glamour of the Hollywood lifestyle get to her, causing her relationship with Mercedes to change dramatically and before she knew it the one person who meant the world to her was gone.
FLASHBACK
"Mercedes what are you talking about I haven't changed at all." Santana throws her jacket down on the couch, she was a little drunk from her night out with friends partying at various clubs. Mercedes had been waiting all night for Santana to return home, she had been here to spend time with her girlfriend before she had to go back to New York for school. Mercedes was furious with Santana because in the week she had been there, she didn't get to spend any alone time with her girlfriend, Santana would rather go out clubbing with friends than spend time with her. Tonight was the final straw and Mercedes couldn't take all the crap Santana had been putting her through the past four months.
"Your kidding right, all you want to do is go out with your friends instead of spending the little bit of time we have together. How do you think it makes me feel knowing that clubbing is more important to you than spending time with me." Mercedes yells at her girlfriend in frustration.
"That's not true at all Mercedes and you know it. This is Los Angeles and if I want to make it in this business then I have to network with the right people and that means going out to parties with the people who matter." Santana responds.
"San you know that all I ever wanted is to see your dreams come true but you're jeopardizing our relationship because of it and it seems like you don't even care anymore. You barely text me or call me and I can't even remember the last time we actually stayed on the phone and talked for hours like we use to do. After the amazing time we had when you came to visit me last month I thought things were going to change but as soon as you got back to California you were right back to ignoring me. " Mercedes says sadly and hearing the sadness in her girlfriends voice was enough to calm Santana down. Santana walks over to Mercedes and softly grabs her girlfriends face so she could stare directly in her eyes. "Baby I love you so much, I know that things haven't been the same between us and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make things right. I'm sorry will you-."
"What is that on your neck Santana?" Mercedes interrupts Santana when she notices lipstick mark on her girlfriend's neck.
"What are you talking about?"
"Why is there lipstick on your neck Santana!" Mercedes backs away from Santana grasps. Santana instantly realizes what Mercedes was talking about and her heart dropped to the floor.
"Baby I know how this may look but just let me explain." Santana says nervously, she knew how bad this was about to get.
"Go ahead explain yourself Santana Marie Lopez." Mercedes says with her arms folded across her chest.
"Okay well tonight, my friend introduced me to her friend Emily who is a TV show producer and we were all drinking and having fun when she pulled me to the side. She started to tell me how attractive she thought I was and then she kissed me on my neck but I promised you I pulled away as soon as it happened." Santana tries to explain herself but the way Mercedes was looking at her she knew her girlfriend didn't believe her.
"You're lying to me, I know you Santana and your lying to me."
"Baby."
"Only thing I want to hear come out of your mouth next is the truth, tell me the truth San." Santana takes a deep breath, she knew what she was going to say next was going to crush Mercedes and possibly end their relationship.
"The truth is that for the past two month I've been seeing her but I promise you I haven't slept with her."
"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" Mercedes asks Santana, tears filling her eyes.
"No, I'm sorry Mercedes I don't know what I was thinking."
"I know exactly what you were thinking, you were thinking that she was your chance to make all your dreams come true. That you could finally be the star you've always wanted to be. Well I hope whatever part she offered you was worth throwing away everything we have. " Mercedes walks toward the door to leave, Santana quickly stands in front of the door to stop her.
"Cedes stop, you don't mean that! I love you! We can fix this please!" Santana pleads with her girlfriend of four years. "I can't lose you, you are my everything, please baby don't do this."
"I'm sorry Santana I love you with all my heart but I'm done, you showed me tonight what's really important to you."
"Your important to me Mercedes! I fucked up okay and I'm sorry we can't just throw it all away now after everything we've been through." Santana continues to plea, she couldn't believe this was actually happening.
"I'm sorry but there is nothing you can say to make me stay, goodbye Santana." And with those last words Santana watches the love of her life walk away.
END OF FLASHBACK
Santana thought about that night everyday for the past five years and everyday she wished she never met Emily, because she knew that if she didn't her and Mercedes would still be together. Santana tried for months after their break up to get Mercedes to forgive her but Mercedes was too heartbroken to give Santana a second chance and the once inseparable couple were now just distance friends who didn't even speak to each other. The last she heard was that Mercedes was living in New York somewhere but she hadn't been in touch with any of their friends from glee club except for Rachel.
Santana was about to call Quinn who was supposed to pick her up from the airport but then she sees her best friend pull up in front of the airport. Quinn hopes out of the car and runs into Santana's arms. "Wow Q, I didn't know you missed me this much." Santana jokes with her best friend of fifteen years.
"Of course I miss you! I haven't seen you since we came to visit you last year." Quinn says to Santana, pulling out of the hug.
"Well I'm here now, can we go get something to eat or something I'm starving."
"Did you forget that we're having dinner at Rachel's dads house tonight. The whole wedding party is going to be there."
"Oh yeah I forget that was tonight."
"Yeah so let's go we still have to help Rachel get everything ready for tonight," Quinn grabs Santana's bags and puts them in the trunk of her car, then they both get in the car.
"So how is Rachel doing these days? She hasn't gotten tired of you yet." Santana remarks.
"She's doing great, Remember I told you she teaches glee club at McKinley now. Her glee kids are actually pretty good not as good as us of course but still good.
"That's good, I still can't believe you two are actually getting married." Santana says as they continue down the road towards Lima.
"I know, I don't think anyone saw it coming." Quinn responds.
"Oh no, we all knew you two were going to end up together, we were just wondering when you two would finally get your head out of your asses and figure it out."
"Oh whatever, you guys had no clue we would end up together."
"A blind man could see the sexual frustration between the two of you. I mean come on Q, you drew a pornographic picture of her on the the bathroom stall."
"I guess your right, anyway we aren't the only couple that was supposed to end up together." Quinn implies, Santana rolls her eyes at her comment.
"Don't even go there Q." Santana warns her best friend, she wanted to avoid talking about Mercedes for as long as she could.
"I'm just saying everyone knows you two are soulmates, you need to win your girl back." Quinn encourages Santana. Quinn knew how much Santana loved Mercedes and she also knew how much it was hurting her best friend even though it had been years since the breakup.
"She's not my woman to win back, that ship has sailed and we have both moved on with our lives."
"Oh really, then how come you still wear that watch she gave you at our senior prom." Quinn says pointing at the watch on Santana's wrist. Mercedes had given Santana the watch on the night of their senior prom.
"It's a great watch that's why, it has nothing to with her." Santana lies, taking off the watch and putting it in her pocket.
"Whatever you say Santana, I just don't understand why you won't try to get her back. I know how much you love her."
"I tried that already Q, for months I begged her to take me back and she didn't."
"That's because the wound was still fresh, its been five years now."
"Look Quinn I don't want to talk about her anymore, I fucked up and she broke up with me..that is how our story ends." Santana turns and looks out the window Quinn doesn't push the subject any further, she knows Santana's limits.
"Anyway, are you dating anyone back in LA?" Quinn asks to deter the conversation from Mercedes.
"Nope, I don't tie myself down to one girl but there are a couple of ladies that I'm having fun with."
"You mean a couple of young ladies you are sleeping around on." Quinn interjects.
"It's not sleeping around since I have not committed myself to any of them. I let them know from the beginning, I don't want a relationship I'm just looking for a fuck buddy." Santana says with a grin on her face.
"Don't you ever get tired of that, jumping from one woman to the next." Quinn asks her eyes focused on the road.
"Mhm let me think about that for a second." Santana pretends to seriously think about the question, rubbing her chin as if in deep thought. "Of course I don't, I get to bang hot young women anytime I want, how could I possibly get tired of that."
"Alright you keep putting your dick in every girl who wants it and one day you're going to have a girl show up to your door step with a baby in her arms." Quinn warns Santana, her best friend had told her countless stories of her sex-escapades. Although Quinn didn't mind her friend having fun she just wanted her to be careful.
"That's never going to happen, I put on a magnum every single time..extra large magnum I might add." Santana winks at Quinn.
"Eww your so gross, I don't care about the size of your dick Santana."
"You're just jealous that my dick is bigger."
"Whatever I'm not insecure at all about what I'm working with, plus I get no complaints from Rachel." Quinn winks back at Santana.
"That's only because she hasn't seen me naked..yet anyway." Quinn reaches out and punches Santana in her left breast.
"Ouch Q, damn." Santana complains, rubbing her aching breast.
'Well stop being a pervert." Quinn demands.
"Fine." Santana answers, she wanted to make a sarcastic comment but she didn't feel like getting punched again.
The two of them spend the rest of the ride in peace back to Lima talking about everything going on in their lives until they pull up in front of Rachel's old home. Quinn helps Santana carry her bags inside the house, Rachel is in dining room getting things ready for the dinner party.
"Babe we're here." Rachel Berry turns around and smiles at them. She walks over and gives Quinn a quick kiss before Santana embraces her in a hug.
"Well Ms. Rachel Berry you are even hotter than the last time I saw you, Quinn is a lucky woman." Rachel chuckles at Santana comments, the two had became good friends senior year. Santana felt horrible for all the bad things she said about Rachel in the past and was always trying to make up for it.
"Thank you Santana, you're looking beautiful as always. How's LA treating you?" Rachel asks as she leans into Quinn's side, Quinn puts her arms around her fiancee.
"It's been pretty good, just finished filming my movie that's coming out next year so things couldn't be better."
"That's great Santana, you know everybody here is so proud of you."
"Thanks Rachel that means a lot." Santana replies. "How's everything going with the glee club? Quinn says you have a pretty good group of kids this year."
"Yeah we have a couple of kids that are super talented, I'm just happy I get to watch them grow into wonderful young adults. The same way Mr. Shue was able to do with all of us."
"Yeah, glee club I really miss it sometimes." Santana says thinking about all the great friendships and relationship that was formed because of Mr. Shue and the glee club.
"I'm glad you said that because Quinn and I..well I had the idea that since everyone was going to be down for the wedding that we can get the old glee club together. All of you can help mentor the new glee kids and it will be so much fun to have all of us back singing and performing like the good old days!" Rachel beamed. Rachel was so excited about the idea of the new glee club kids and the old glee club getting together.
"That actually sounds like a fun idea, you can count me in." Santana agrees.
"Yay! Now I just have to get everyone else on board, this is going to be so much fun!" Quinn smiles down at her overly excited soon to be wife.
"Alright, so what do you need my help with, for the next week I am at your service." Santana announces.
"Actually Santana, Quinn and I will handle everything for tonight you had a long flight so just go rest upstairs." Santana let out a sigh of relief, tired from the six hour flight and just wanting to take a quick nap.
"Don't have to tell me twice." Santana says grabbing her suitcase from off the floor.
"But make sure you are down here before the guest start arriving at six." Quinn tells Santana before she rushes upstairs with her suitcase in hand. Santana was so glad that she could get some rest. Not only did she need rest but she needed to prepare herself for the inevitable. After five long years Santana was going to be reunite with her one true love.
LATER THAT NIGHT
Santana was having a great time catching up with old friends and making new ones at the dinner party. All of her friends from the glee club have arrived and they were having a blast reminiscing about old times. In fact she was having such a great time that it actually slipped her mind that Mercedes was coming to the dinner party. That was until she felt a light tap on her shoulders, she turns around and standing right in front of her was Mercedes Jones.
"Hello stranger." Mercedes greets her and Santana couldn't get her mouth to move to say anything. She was actually face to face with the one person who was able to capture her heart. The fact that Mercedes was looking absolutely stunning in this tight red dress wasn't helping Santana much either.
"Santana you okay?" Mercedes asks concerned.
"Yeaah um hey Cedes, good to see you."
"Good to see you too Santana."
"You look so fine in that dress." Santana blurts out. "I mean you look nice, the dress is nice." Santana tries to recover.
"Uh thanks San, you look amazing as well." Mercedes says.
"Thanks." The two of them stand in a moment of awkward silence before Santana speaks.
"Cedes I just want to say I'm sorry about everything that happened. I never meant to hurt you."
"Santana it's okay that was a long time ago, like you use to always tell me everything happens for a reason." Mercedes says but Santana can still see the pain that was in her eyes and it broke her heart.
"How you been, I feel like you fell off the face of the earth. No one seemed to know what you've been up to these past five years."
"Yeah I had a good reason for that but um I recently just moved back to Lima from New York. I was offered a teaching position here at McKinley so I'm back for good."
"Wow that's awesome Mercedes, I didn't know you were ever interested in being a teacher. For as long as I can remember you wanted to be in the music business."
"Well a situation happened that made me see that I have a true passion for kids and now I'm McKinley's new English teacher. Its not as glamours as being a Hollywood actress but I love it." Santana was shocked to hear that Mercedes was now a teacher, she remember countless times back in high school when all Mercedes could talk about was becoming the next Whitney Houston. Even though it was hard for her to believe Santana knew that Mercedes didn't do anything unless she was truly passionate about it.
"I would ask you about what's going on in your life but I feel like I know everything. Seems like you are on t.v or in the magazines every week."
"Don't believe everything you hear, I'm not as bad as they say." Santana jokes.
"I don't, I know the real Santana Lopez." Mercedes answers seriously. "I'm really proud of you San."
"Thank you Cedes." Santana responds. Santana couldn't believe that after five years Mercedes is standing right in front of her, all the feelings she had for Mercedes came rushing back all at once. No matter how hard Santana tried to push Mercedes out of her mind with every girl she slept with, it never worked. Santana wanted nothing more than to grab Mercedes in her arms and kiss her and tell her how much she loved her.
"Would you mind going to talk somewhere more private." Mercedes asks Santana bringing her out of her thoughts.
"Yeah of course, we can go upstairs to the guest room." Santana answers nervously, it has been five years since they've seen each other and Mercedes was acting like nothing had happened between them and now she wanted to talk in private. Santana didn't know if this was a good or bad thing but she was just happy to be around Mercedes again. Santana makes her way upstairs with Mercedes following closely behind, once they get up to the room Santana closes the door to drown out the noise coming from the chatter downstairs. Mercedes sits down on the edge of the bed and Santana leans against the bedroom door. Santana could tell by the way that Mercedes was biting her lips that something was seriously bothering her because she only bit her lips when she was either nervous or scared. Santana just waits patiently for Mercedes to say something but when she didn't Santana decides to speak up first.
"Mercedes whats going on, I know the way things ended between us was horrible but you can still tell me anything." Santana tries to comfort her ex girlfriend with her words.
"I know..it's just that I know your probably going to hate me after I tell you this and I don't know if I can go five more years of us not talking to one another." Mercedes says with tears now starting to roll down her cheek. Santana walks over and sits next to Mercedes and rubs circles on her back to put her at ease.
"Cedes I could never hate you, even after our break up I still couldn't hate you. Just please tell me what's going on, please." Mercedes takes a couple of deep breaths trying to gather herself together before she let out the secret that she has been holding on to for the past five years. A secret that caused her to stay away from Santana and all of her high school friends for years.
"San, we have a daughter." Mercedes finally spits out and Santana looks at her like she was absolutely crazy.
"Wait say that again because to me it sounded like you said that we have a daughter which would be pretty impossible since you and I haven't had sex in five years."
"She's four years old Santana."
That one sentence hit Santana like a ton of breaks and her heart dropped to her stomach. Santana became so angry all at once that she didn't know what to do with herself.
"No no no no no..your lying you wouldn't do that to me."
"San I'm sorry." Mercedes says softly, that's all it took for Santana to explode.
"Your fucking kidding me right! I have a daughter and your now telling me this! How could you keep something like this from me!" Santana yells jumping off the bed to angry to sit down.
"I didn't plan for it to take me so long to tell you!" Mercedes yells back, standing up as well.
"Oh really so when did you plan on telling me huh? When she was graduating from fucking high school!" Santana rages on pacing back and forth.
"I know San and I'm sorry but I was going to tell you when I found out that I was pregnant but I was so angry at you that I couldn't even bring myself to call you! Mercedes answers back."Then when I would see you in all of the magazines and all over t.v, I didn't want to interrupt your perfect life with a child."
"My child! You had no right to make that decision for me and you know I'm not that type of person so don't even try to use my success as an excuse."
"I know it was wrong and you have every right to be mad at me right now." Mercedes says hoping that Santana would calm down.
"Oh no we are way beyond that point, I am fucking furious!
"As you should be but I can't go back in time that's why I'm trying to fix things now!"
"Great timing Mercedes! I've missed four years of her life that I can never get back!
"I wished I can take it all back but I can't!" Mercedes pleads.
" I can't believe you Mercedes! Who in the hell do you think you are to keep me away from my child!"
"I'm the girl who found out when she was four weeks pregnant that the love of her life was seeing someone else behind her back!" Those words cut Santana deep and she didn't even have anything to say back.
"Every year before her birthday I told myself that I would call you and let you know that you have a daughter but I let my anger and pride get the best of me. So I'm here to make things right and do whats best for our daughter because she deserves to know who you are." Mercedes walks over to the desk beside the bed and begins to write something down on a piece of paper.
"Here's my number, call me when you have calmed down and your ready to talk about this without all the yelling and fighting." Mercedes places the note on the desk beside Santana who didn't speak but just stared at Mercedes. There was too many thoughts and emotions running through her mind at the moment and all she could do was stare.
"I really am sorry Santana and I understand if you want to hate me forever just don't be like me and let your emotions distract you from who really matters in all of this." Mercedes walks over to the door but pauses just before she opens it. "By the way in case you were wondering..her name is Aliyah." With that Mercedes walks out of the door and for the second time Santana watches the love of her life walk away.