A/N: Thank you so much for the love you all showed on the last chapter I posted. I know I caused ya'll some tears, but here is more depending on if its good or bad. This is the final chapter so I hope you all enjoyed this little story. I may have another in mind, but we will see!
Dearest Dean,
I am not sure how much longer I have left. It's been three months and I feel like a damn freight truck has struck me hard. My head hurts so bad and I am sick all the time. I am too the point of giving up. You and Sally deserve better than watching me suffer each and every day. I knew my chances of surviving was low. I feel like I'm dying little by little. Please don't be mad if I don't make it. Promise me that you will find a new love when I am gone. Please.
I love you with all my heart and soul Dean. Please remember that. And please tell Sally that her papi will always ALWAYS love her and watch over her.
Don't be mad, please. I am just tired of fighting with everything I have in me. I am not sure how much more I can take.
Your true love til the end,
Roman
My lover Roman,
Do NOT even think about it Roman. Dammit! We have come so far and you are doing so good baby. Please don't give up. I know three months seems so long, but trust me baby, we are gonna make it. Sally keeps praying that her papi will get better. She knows you are sick and can't leave the hospital until you are better. So, please, I know this is a lot to ask, but you NOT give up Roman. We can beat this. I know you are tired as hell baby, but you still have me and Sally, don't give up. I will do everything in my power to help you beat this, but you will not lose! I refuse to believe you are giving up, this isn't you. So please, keep fighting with everything you have.
My love for you will never die, and no, I will not find another love, you are it for me. So don't be thinking like that.
I am not mad at you, I just don't want to lose you. So please, hang in there babe…for me and Sally…and most of all, for you.
Love you to the moon and back,
Dean
Those were the last letters they wrote to each other before things took for the worse. He slipped into a coma about two days later. And Dean was just beside himself. I knew he was asking a lot of Roman to keep fighting, but deep down, he knew if anyone could beat this brain cancer, he could. He knew he was being selfish, but he didn't want to let him go. So, he told the doctors to do all they can to save him. For both him and their little girl.
The doctors told him that it was basically touch and go right now. That it was really up to Roman whether he wanted to beat this or not. So they told him to expect the worse, but that to also not give up either. They were gonna be facing a lot of challenges, but none that couldn't possibly be beat. So they told him exactly what he can do to make Roman want to beat this. Dean agreed and knew what he had to do.
So, for the next month, Dean would come to the hospital and talk to Roman every day. He was always told that even in a coma, the patient can still hear people talking around them. They just can't respond like they want to. So, on the advice of the doctors, he talked to Roman about anything and everything. Even reading him some of the letters that they wrote over the years. He also talked about how Sally was doing and how she wished and prayed that her papi would get better and come home. She told Dean to tell Roman that she is gonna throw the biggest party for him when he gets better. Tears slowly fell down as he listened to her go on about how she was gonna do the decorations for him.
Dean even brought Sally a few times to talk to him so that he knew she was there waiting for him. He let her talk about her day and how big the park had gotten and what Miss Sarah was doing. She loves to tell him all kinds of stories, so he wanted to make sure it was as normal as possible. But he knew that she knew that he was really sick and could possibly not make it, he didn't want to lie to her, so he told her the truth…that this cancer can kill but there have been people that has beaten it as well. So that gave her a bit of hope.
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"Hey jelly bean, are you ready to see papi?" Dean asked as he pulled into the parking lot. He wasn't sure how they were gonna do this. Dean and Roman bought a new house about two months before he was diagnosed but chose to wait until everything was okay. Now, here he is with Sally, getting ready to move into that house within the next week.
"Yes! I miss him daddy, I want to see him!" she said as he unbuckled her seat belt but didn't move until Dean was ready.
"Okay, let's go and see papi!" he said as he got out and then picked Sally up and headed to see Roman.
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"You want him home don't you?"
Sally nods sadly as she lays her head on his shoulder. He then hugged her tightly as tears slid down his face. This has been a tough road for all of them. But mostly on Dean, since he had to keep a strong front for her. It 's wasn't easy as there were times he broke down and cried in his and Roman's bed at night. Asking God why he wanted to take away the biggest love of his life. He would cry so hard that he would end up falling asleep on Roman's pillow.
Often times Sally would come in and lay next to Dean. She was just as hurt as he was and she would tell Dean that she wishes bad people got this cancer and not her dad. She would often ask why good things happened to bad people and why bad things happened to good people. Dean didn't know how to answer that other than that sometimes it was a test to see if people changed after that. It was a hard pill to swallow because he would wonder that himself. Roman was the kindest, most gentlest bear around, but when he got mad, it was like a wild lion attacking a wild bear over fresh meat that they both killed. He was fierce and protective. Now, its Dean's turn and it was much harder than he ever thought. He needed Roman, he wanted Roman, and by God, he wasn't gonna let him go without a fight.
"Okay jelly bean, let's go see papi, shall we?" he said as he put her down and held her hand. "You are such a big girl and I am proud of you, okay?"
"Love you daddy.." she softly said as both her and Dean walked to go where they needed to go.
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20 minutes later, they got to where Roman was.
"PAPI!" Sally screamed as she took off running.
There, in his head completely shaven with two scars down each side of his face, sitting in his wheelchair, was Roman, who, as tired as he has been for the past six months now, smiles that million dollar watt smile as Sally ran to him and carefully got up and hugged him.
"Hey baby girl…." He said as he held her so tightly as tears started falling down his face. "I've missed my favorite girl!"
"I've missed you papi!" she cried as she held the death grip on him. And that didn't bother him either. He missed her touches and her hugs.
As he hugged her, he looked up at those blue eyes that was filled to the brim with unshed tears and hold out his other hand to grab his. Dean took his hand and intertwined their fingers together for the first time since he went into the hospital. "Hey baby…." he swallowed hard as he squeezed their hands together.
Dean, with those tears finally falling, smiles as he bends down to where Roman and Sally was and leaned into Roman and planted a long a waited kiss on him. How he missed this, how he waited until this day to come.
He releases the kiss and places his forehead on Roman's…."Hey handsome…"
Roman releases Sally, "baby girl, will you go with this nurse and get me some chips and water for me? Can you do that while I talk to your daddy for a moment?"
"Yes papi!" she said as she gets off of Roman and takes the nurse's hand and headed down the hall to get what Roman requested.
Once the coast was clear, he pulls Dean in and plants the most passionate kiss he had as both started crying. "I missed you do much Dean, you don't have any idea how much I missed you!" he mumbled as Dean carefully wraps his arms around Roman's and leans into the kiss. "I fought for you and Sally, just like you told me too. I didn't give up…I didn't give up….I am finally in remission and hope to stay that way for the rest of my life."
"I know you didn't baby, I knew you could beat this. I know how hard it was on you. That coma you were in helped you heal the way you needed too. I am so fucking happy you are still with us. I can't believe I still have you baby…you are a true fighter in every since of the word."
"It's all because you never gave up on me when I wanted to. When I couldn't go any further, you kept pushing me to keep fighting when I didn't want to. I owe you so much baby, and I am gonna make sure I repay you for the rest of our lives."
"You don't owe me nothing but your love, that's it. That's what husbands do, they support and love in sickness and in health. I took those vows seriously. I wasn't gonna go anywhere. I knew you were gonna win this fight, and you did. I am so so proud of you!"
Roman breaks down and sobs as Dean holds him closer. He truly didn't think he was gonna win this battle, but he did with the love and devotion of Dean, the one man who never let him down in this whole thing. He is forever grateful.
"The only thing I ask, is to grow your hair back….." he jokes as Roman nudges him.
"I know, I look hideous without my hair…these scars…" he says as he closes his eyes to fight back the tears again.
"These scars are your battle scars that you beat, you look handsome with or without your hair," he leans up and kisses those scars on each side of his head. "It shows that you beat one of the hardest cancer out there. Shows that you didn't let it beat you, that you beat cancer with everything you had. Be proud of your scars, shows you come out on top and that you will stay on top."
Roman opens his eyes and sees the love shining in Dean's eyes as Dean pulls him in and hugs him tightly. "You are my hero Roman, remember that. You will ALWAYS be my hero…"
Roman smiles as he hears Sally…"Papi, I brought you some sour cream and onion chips and room temperature water!"
Roman leans over and places a kiss on Sally's head. "Thank you babygirl!"
"Are we ready to go home?"
Roman takes both hands on the wheelchair as Dean stands up and takes Sally's hand. Roman then pushes himself up and with the help of Dean's arms, he starts to walk for the first time since he went into the hospital, making Dean cry more. Roman gently wipes his tears as he leans in and kisses Dean's cheek….
"Let's go home to the new house, I am ready to live again….."
Sally takes Roman's other hand and with the help of the nurses behind him, decending down the hallway and out of the hospital for what they hope is the last time.
There you have it! Hope the wait was worth it and that those tissue boxes got some good use! I will be updating Lost and Found soon, I am sorry that its taken so long, I wanted to get this done first! Hope ya'll enjoyed this story! Let me know what you think!