AN: You know, I have to tell you all I don't think I would be the person I am today without all of you. Your constant support amazes me. It's not easy putting yourself out there, on the internet or anywhere, but you all welcomed me with open arms. So, I thank you all. You all are the ones that make me want to write. And, make me want to keep putting myself out there. So, thank you!

~ Polhop

Morgan stared at Gatlin dumbly. Had he heard him correctly? Gatlin was here to help him win back Penelope? Morgan narrowed his eyes. Sizing up the man that sat on the edge of his bed, he couldn't help but feel like it was a trap. Why would Gatlin offer to help him, especially after the display he'd been making since they'd met?

"You don't believe me?" Gatlin questioned.

"Why should I?" Morgan crossed his arms over his chest. He might be going crazy dealing with Penelope but he was not so crazy he'd believe this buffoon.

"It's your choice," he replied. "But, heed this, Morgan. Right now, you'd never get back on her good side. As far you're concerned, she is done with you. When you left her after sleeping with her and telling her and I quote, I love you and I will always love you, you killed a part of her."

The second the words were out of his mouth Morgan's heart sank. The sure venom in Gatlin's voice spoke more to his character than he could have ever imagined. He knew it was hard for Penelope to open up and trust people and for her to lay everything on the line to Gatlin.

Penelope must hate him.

As the realization of his words sank in, he felt like his world was falling apart around him. He hurt her.

"I know it's not going to be easy, and even though you're an asshole I want to help you," Gatlin stated.

Morgan couldn't think straight. "What?"

Sighing Gatlin continued, "Do I think you're a fuckin' prick for hurting her? Yeah, I do. But, here's the thing, Morgan, she hurts because of how much she loves you. I can't even count the amount of times I would come back to our home and she'd be an emotional wreck. Hell, it took me forever for her to even open up to me."

Morgan's eyes softened as he listened to his words. "If I hurt her so much, why are you here? Why are you willing to help me?"

Morgan watched as Gatlin's face contorted into a pain he hadn't seen before. Then his face went hard. "I see the same love inside of you for Penelope that I had for Holly. It's the purest form of love. It's rare, and sometimes that scares us. Scares us so much we make stupid mistakes." He eyed Morgan, making sure his words sunk in. "If I didn't see that love between you two I would have done anything and everything in my power to make sure she was over you."

Derek tried to process the information Gatlin was giving him. He hadn't ever heard of a Holly before. "I, uh, wait a second. Back up, who's Holly?"

Gatlin closed his eyes. Morgan could see the pain written all over him. "Holly was the love of my life. Still is. She was taken from me far too soon by a madman."

Morgan could feel Gatlin's pain as it drifted through the room. "I'm sorry," Morgan said.

Gatlin looked to him. "There is no need to be sorry, but thank you." Clearing his throat Morgan could see him pushing away his pain before continuing. "That type of love is to pure to throw away." Gatlin stared into his eyes. "She died that day you left her in your bed. She might put on a convincing act, but inside she'd be hurting… Just like you."

Morgan pulled the desk chair over to Gatlin and sat. Somehow, he was seeing him in a new light. "So that's why you're willing to help me?"

Gatlin's face hardened. "I'm helping you because I love Penelope more than anything. She deserves a happy ending… and so do you."

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Penelope forced herself to open her eyes. Her dreams that were once fantasies now had become her nightmare. Wiping away the tears from her eyes, she did her best to push away her feelings. At night, she used to cherish the dreams that involved Derek. Now, she was plagued with the night he left her.

Her dream always started out as one of the most romantic things she had ever experienced. Declarations of love, lost and forever. Never failing by the end she'd be left alone, with her heart ripped in two. In that state, her emotions were always so clear, so open, so painful. Years and years, she had loved Derek from afar.

It was cruel for the universe to give her one perfect night with the man she loved only to take him away, crushing her.

"Damn it, Penelope. You are better than this. Better than constantly reliving something that hurts you. Get a grip!" She threw the covers off of her. Making her way to the bathroom, she turned on the shower. After adjusting the temperature. She got in.

Now, that the case was over and the team were on their way back, she was finally allowed to feel again. As soon as the case started, she had placed all her emotions into a box and hunkered down. Even at night, she'd push everything aside.

Penelope closed her eyes as the water washed over her. She felt broken. She had thought she was getting better, stronger even. Especially with Logan's help. Coming back to the BAU was a bad choice. Seeing Derek again, had reopened everything. Then to hear his pathetic excuses…

She finally let the tears fall.

Why wasn't she good enough? How could he leave her the way he did?

"I'll be okay," she said as she started to was herself. "I'm strong. I'm beautiful, and in the end, everything is a lesson. Today when I walk into the BAU I will have my head held high." Taking a deep breath, she reinvigorated herself. "I've got this. And, starting today I will let go of all my past feelings. Today, I start new. Nothing will bring me back to loving Derek."

AN: TOLD YOU Logan is a good guy! Now don't hate me… her POV will make everything all the better in the end lol.