Hello again! Just wanna say a quick thanks to everyone who read the last chapter! Thanks for still being interested in my little ramblings, it means a lot. :)

Here's another 3 (long) drabbles - the first is set pre-season 1 and features a bit of hurt!Dean and worried!Sam. The second is set during late season 3 and it's a bit angsty, just a warning. The third one is set whenever, and it's got hurt AND sick!Dean (I have a problem) and bigbro!Sam. None of them are connected in any way, I hope it isn't confusing.

Hope you enjoy!

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"Sam! Sam!"

Jessica's shout brings him crashing into reality. He sits bolt upright in bed, panting. The room is dark but familiar. His room, Stanford.

Safe. Home.

He swipes a hand over his face, realizes he's sweating. He can't get his breathing under control.

"Sam, are you okay?"

He jumps, had actually forgot Jessica was in the room with him. In the dark he can just see her silhouette, familiar curly hair and slim shoulders.

"Um, uh. Yeah, I think so." He tries to focus on something in the room, bring himself fully back to reality. The dream is still lurking in his subconscious, still feels very real. Even if it wasn't real, a very real fear is still clutching his heart.

"You were making such a weird noise. Like, growling, almost." She shivers, leans over to turn on the light, and its dim glow gives him the visibility he needs to calm down a bit more. He focuses on the bookshelf, the computer, the door.

Breathe.

"Are you sure you're okay, Sam?" Jessica is sitting next to him with the covers pulled over her knees, she is wide-eyed and looks shaken. He's too shaken himself to feel bad for scaring her.

"Yeah. Yeah, I'm fine. I just had a nightmare." He breathes deep, looks out the window at the dark street.

Breathe. You're home. It's all good. But -

"About what? You want to talk about it?" Her voice is soft but still encroaches on his thoughts.

"Uh." He runs a hand through his hair, tries to focus. Can't shake the dream. "Uh, it was about my brother. Uh, I think I need to call him." He gets up quickly, shoving the sheets off his legs impatiently, and scoops his phone off the nightstand.

"What?" Jessica gets up on her knees, as though about to stop him. She's looking at him like he's crazy. "It's 3 in the morning, Sam. You can't call him now."

Sam shakes his head, flips open his phone anyway. "It doesn't matter. I think he might be in trouble."

"In trouble? What are you talking about?" Jessica looks confused, and then her face softens. "Sam... it was just a nightmare. Come on, come sit and tell me about it."

He hesitates, finger hovering over the scroll button. He's still breathing hard, heart pounding.

Dean, his chest slick with blood, whimpering, on the ground, calling for –

"Sam." Jessica's voice cuts through his re-living of the dream again. "Just calm down for a second, okay? At least come sit."

"Yeah. Yeah, okay." Sam sits back down on the bed, shifts so his back is against the headboard. His phone is still clenched in his hand.

"So?" Jessica sits close to him, her knee brushing his. "What was it about? Did something happen to your brother?"

Sam nods, biting his lip. "Yeah. He was hurt. But you're right, yeah. It was just a nightmare."

Dean's fine, he's with Dad, remember?

"Okay." Jessica puts her hand on his cheek, her skin soft and fragrant. "You can call him tomorrow, right? Or maybe you won't need to. Nightmares are always less scary in the daylight." She kisses his cheek, and Sam finds a smile.

"Yeah, you're right." I'll have forgotten about it by morning.

But he doesn't.

If anything, the feeling that something is wrong is only stronger in the morning. He doesn't wake up until 7:30, with an 8 o' clock class to get to, and he spends precious minutes standing by the bed with his phone in his hand, Dean's number selected, fighting with himself.

Just call him. He'll be up by now, Dad never let us sleep late.

No. He's fine. And let's be honest, he probably won't be too happy to hear from you. Especially over something this dumb. How is that conversation gonna go? 'Hey Dean, I had a dream that you got hurt. Are you okay?' Sure. He won't laugh in my face over that one at all.

He flips his phone shut, sighing, and goes to class.

At 11:30, when class is finished, he almost calls Dean again, but Zack and some other friends show up and he ends up going for lunch. After that, he has another class, and he's not free until 4 o'clock in the afternoon. By that point, the fact that he's still thinking about this damn dream is really starting to bother him.

He gets back to his empty house, picks up an apple off the table, flips open his phone and scrolls down to Dean's number.

He hasn't called it once. Not in eight months. Not since he got here. He hesitates, sliding his thumb over the 'call' button, then presses it. It rings two, three times and then is picked up.

"Hello?" Dean's voice is rough, it sounds like he just woke up.

Sam feels a rush of relief. He's okay. Sleeping pretty late, but okay.

"Hey," he says, wonders how he's gonna explain his reason for calling without sounding like an idiot.

"Sam?" Dean sounds surprised, and then his voice gets a little higher, worried. "Are you okay?" There's something other than worry in his voice, too, but Sam can't put his finger on it.

"Yeah, yeah," he says quickly, rolling the apple up and down his thigh. "I was just gonna ask you the same thing." He laughs, because it sounds ridiculous. Here they are both asking each other if they're okay and they're both fine, and they haven't spoken in eight months and -

"Me?" Dean starts to laugh too, and then there's a funny sound, like a little squeak, and he stops. "I'm always okay," he finishes after a second, but his voice is different now, it sounds strained. There's a rustling sound in the back, clothes moving maybe, or blankets.

Sam can hear him breathing, determinedly deep, and narrows his eyes, pressing the phone closer to his ear. "Are you sure?"

"Yeah, I'm peachy. Sam, why did you call?" He says it all in one breath, fast, and then Sam hears him breathe in through his nose, out through his mouth, hard.

Dean is in pain. He knows it, as sure as he knows his own name.

"What's wrong, Dean?"

"Why did you call?"

"Are you hurt?" Sam is sitting forward in his chair now, the apple forgotten on the table. There's silence on the other end of the phone, and he clenches his teeth, looks at the ceiling. "Dean?"

"Why did you call?"

Dean's voice is low, Sam can't read it, can't tell what he's thinking. It bothers him.

"Because. Because I had a... I had a dream. That you were hurt, and I... I got worried." He's annoyed that Dean managed to pull it out of him, even though he hadn't had a good plan coming into this conversation anyway.

There's a long moment of silence, and then Dean lets out his breath. "Huh."

He sounds slightly amused, and surprised, and Sam looks at the ceiling again, waiting, but Dean doesn't say anything else.

"Dean. Are you hurt?"

"I got a bit banged up last night, but I'm good," Dean says quickly, dismissively. "I'm a trooper."

The worry that has been lurking in his stomach all day starts to climb, easing towards his throat, tightening muscles as it goes. I knew it. "What happened?"

"Nothing, I'm fine. Just a couple of broken ribs. Nothing I can't handle." Dean's tone is flippant, but Sam knows his brother too well to be tricked by it.

"Where's Dad?"

"Out." Dean's voice is getting lower now, and quieter, like all the talking is wearing him out.

"You're hurt and he left you alone?" Sam shakes his head, runs a hand through his hair. "I don't understand him, I –"

"I'm freaking twenty-five, Sam."

"I don't care, Dean, that's not the point –"

"Sam?" Dean's voice breaks, just the tiniest bit, but it shuts Sam up instantly.

"Yeah, Dean." Sam focuses on the sink, watches water drip from the faucet slowly and steadily. He can hear his brother's breathing, faster now, hitching slightly every time he takes air in.

"Are you coming back?" Soft, hope and vulnerability laced throughout each word.

"No. Of course not, Dean." It comes out fast, and more annoyed than he'd intended, but it's done. Dean is silent. Sam's heart sinks a little further.

"Okay. Anyway, nice to hear from you." Any trace of vulnerability is gone, Dean's tone is tight and gruff.

He hears movement on the other end, Dean getting ready to hang up. "Dean, wait a sec."

No reply, but he can still hear his brother breathing. "Are you sure you're okay? Maybe you should go to the hospital."

Dead silence, then one small hitching breath. "Bye, Sam."

The line goes dead, and Sam sits at the table in the growing darkness, until Jessica gets home.

X

They get back to the motel room around 7 o' clock, and Sam heads right for the shower, since he won the rock-paper-scissors battle in the car.

It's almost like taking candy from a baby, he thinks, smiling to himself.

It had been a cloudy day up until about a half an hour ago, pouring rain for the entire time they were in the woods, and it had ended up being a very muddy tussle with the wood sprites. Just as they had left the woods, the sun had come blazing out, quickly burning away the remains of any clouds.

"Typical," Dean had grouched, standing beside the Impala, covered in dirt and blood in what looked like equal measure.

I don't think there's a single inch of me that isn't covered in mud, Sam thinks tiredly. The hot water feels so good. I wish I could stand under it forever, he thinks wishfully, but shuts it off as soon as he's clean. There's a very grumpy and tired brother waiting out in the other room, and he is so not going to be impressed if Sam uses up all the hot water.

Plus, he has to take a look at those cuts and scrapes Dean picked up, even though his brother insists they're nothing. Towel slung around his waist, Sam heads out into the main room to grab his bag.

"All yours," he calls, but there's no reply, and after a quick scan, Sam sees the room is empty.

He lets himself panic for all of one second before going to the window and looking out, and there's Dean, sitting on the front of the Impala in the parking lot. Sam huffs out a relieved breath and knocks lightly on the window, raising his eyebrows when Dean looks over.

Dean gives him a half smile and doesn't move, so Sam gets changed quickly and goes out, carefully closing the door behind him.

"Hey. What're you doing?"

Dean is still sitting on the front of the Impala, looking off at the horizon. "Nothing." He shrugs a little in his muddy jacket. "Just looking."

Sam follows his gaze to the brilliant gold and orange sunset, then looks back at his brother in surprise. "You're watching the sun set? Mr. Macho Man? Isn't that a bit chick-flick for you?"

"Yeah well." Dean smiles a little, doesn't look at him.

He doesn't sound quite right, and Sam studies him for a moment, how pale and soft his green eyes are in the fading sun, the smears of blood along his jawline thrown into sharp relief, his hair slowly drying back into sandy blond. There's a sharp, keening ache in his chest suddenly, and he clears his throat.

"You should go shower, Dean, and I should take a look at those cuts –"

"Sam, just –" Dean's voice breaks suddenly, and Sam looks at him so fast he almost hurts his neck.

Dean's still not looking at him, his gaze firmly fixed on the horizon, but there's something new in his face now, something young and afraid and brutally honest.

"What?" Sam's almost afraid to ask.

"I just wanna sit here for a bit, okay? Please?" His tone is determinedly light, but Sam can see through it like glass. The ache in his chest deepens.

"Yeah, okay," he says quickly.

Dean glances at him sideways, his eyes still soft. "Just for a bit, okay? Then you can do whatever."

Sam nods, swallows. "You want me to go?"

"No." Dean says it without hesitation, and Sam half-smiles and perches on the front of the Impala next to him.

They sit there in silence for a long time, the sky slowly turning from gold and orange to pink and purple and red, the air getting steadily cooler, and Dean clears his throat suddenly. "You know what's funny?"

"What?" Sam looks at him, he thinks maybe Dean's eyes are too shiny.

Dean smiles and shakes his head a bit. "You know how many of these things I've seen? Hundreds, right? And honestly I never really thought anything of it, of any of them. It's only now that I know this might be one of the last ones I see that I – that I realize how lucky I was to see all the others." He smiles, but there's no joy behind it.

Sam can't answer. There's a vice around his chest, crushing his lungs into nothing. He always wants to know, begs to be let in on his brother's thoughts, and yet every time Dean gifts him that rare glance into his mind, Sam can't think of one good thing to say in return. In the face of Dean's fear and acceptance of his mortality, all he can do is stare at his brother - his fiercely strong, terrified brother - and say nothing.

A few minutes later, the sun sinks out of sight behind the trees, and Dean clears his throat roughly, stands up.

"Okay. Come on, Sammy, come play nursemaid." He throws a winning smile at Sam, his green eyes determinedly bright, but all Sam can see behind his brother's familiar features is the leering face of death.

X

It's almost funny – almost - that after a whole day and a half of valiantly refusing to admit he's getting sick, carrying on with preparations for the hunt as though it's all fine – but with a sniffle, a squint, and clearly a sore throat – it's a rabbit hole and a broken beer bottle that takes Dean down finally.

They're tramping around in the woods, trying in vain to find a trail or something for the spirit bear, and Sam is really hoping they won't find it seeing as Dean is in no shape to hunt. He's wearing his warmest jacket despite the fact that it's a least 15 degrees and sunny out, he keeps swiping at his nose with his sleeve, and his eyes are all unfocused and glassy.

Oh, and he can't stop sneezing.

Sam sighs loudly as Dean sneezes for at least the tenth time in the past five minutes, and stops walking.

"Dean! That's enough, okay? We don't have to do this today. We should never have come out here. You're clearly not feeling well, and –"

"Sam, I swear, if you don't stop telling me I'm sick, I'm gonna make you sick. I don't know how, but I swear I will. I'm fine. Just - stop." Dean throws a glare back over his shoulder, and then trudges along ahead of him, head held determinedly high.

Sam huffs at his back. "If you'd said that without stopping to sniff in the middle, I might actually be scared."

Dean makes a growling noise that Sam guesses is supposed to sound intimidating, but really just sounds pathetic, and keeps walking. He's not even walking straight anymore, Sam thinks with some amusement. He's kind of leaning to the left, cause his balance is probably off, maybe an inner ear thing or something, and he's just about to say something else when Dean abruptly trips and lands on all fours with a grunt of surprise.

Sam almost laughs, but Dean stays down just a second too long, and it's not funny anymore.

"Dean! You okay?" He jogs the few steps toward his brother, and Dean is slowly sitting back on his heels and oh crap. There's blood all over his right hand.

"Oh crap, Sam." This is followed quickly by a thunderous sneeze, and a shiver shakes his brother's whole body.

Sam crouches beside him and grabs Dean's arm, pulling his hand toward him. "Just what I was thinking, Dean."

Dean's hand had come down right on the edge of a broken beer bottle when he fell, thrown here by some partying teenagers or hunters or something, and now there's a gaping bloody slice right across his palm, bleeding quite heavily by this time. Sam doesn't really have that much trouble with blood, but his stomach drops anyway. It looks deep and painful. His brother is staring at it with wide, glassy eyes, his expression somewhere between shock and confusion.

"What the hell did I -?" He's looking around almost comically, as though searching for an invisible assailant.

Sam huffs, pointing as he searches through his pack for a clean rag. "You stepped in a damn rabbit hole, Dean."

"Wha-?" Dean's tired eyes land on the offending thing a second later and he glares, his whole forehead scrunching up. "Damn rabbits."

"Yep, it was their fault, Dean," Sam snaps. He's going from sympathetic to pissed real fast. He finds a rag and yanks it unceremoniously out of his bag, grabbing Dean's hand again as he makes an attempt to look closer at it.

"Stop stretching out your palm, Dean! You're making it bleed more!" He's not sure why he's suddenly so pissed, maybe it's cause he didn't want to do this today anyway and Dean is way too sick to be out here and yet somehow, he'd convinced Sam to come out here anyway, and now he's gone and got himself hurt and now this is gonna mean a whole afternoon at the hospital. Cause it's gonna need stitches, no doubt about it. He doesn't relish waiting in the emergency room for a few hours with a sick, grumpy Dean. "This, this is why we shouldn't have come out today," Sam goes on. "This is gonna need stitches. Give me your hand."

Dean frowns at him, his expression vaguely hurt, but holds out his hand readily enough. "It doesn't need stitches. I'm fine."

He sounds so congested and tired and wrong and normally that would make Sam feel bad, but suddenly he's tired and frustrated and really wishes Dean hadn't been such a stubborn ass about coming out here.

"It does need stitches," he snaps, jerking Dean's hand toward him. "Don't even start."

"Wow, you're grouchy," Dean says, sounding amused, and Sam wraps his hand a little more forcefully than planned, keeping a firm hold on his arm as Dean winces and tries to pull away.

"Stop being a wuss. Yes, I am grouchy, Dean. Because if you had just listened to me for once, and put off this hunt until you weren't choking on your own bodily fluids, we wouldn't be in this mess, alright? But no, you had to be Mr. Macho 'I never get sick' Man, and now we're going to be stuck in the hospital for the next few hours, and that's exactly where I don't want to be right now, Dean, so you might want to just shut up with the smartass comments for one goddamn minute."

Dean flinches as though Sam had hit him, his eyes wide and wounded, and doesn't wince or make one single sound again while Sam finishes with his hand.

Refusing to feel guilty, Sam picks up his bag in angry silence and starts the walk back to the car, and Dean follows him without a word, the only thing breaking the silence his sneezes every few minutes.

He tosses the keys to Sam and gets in the passenger side of the car without arguing even a little, and huddles in his coat miserably, injured hand cradled in his lap. His eyes are lowered, and he doesn't even look at Sam as his brother folds himself into the car.

Sam eyes him for a few seconds, notices he's shivering. "You cold?"

Dean doesn't answer, eyes firmly glued to his feet, and Sam sighs, switching on the heat and pulling off his own jacket. His anger is fading with every second despite his best efforts to keep it in place.

When they get to the hospital, Dean follows him into the building silently, flushed and dejected, and Sam leaves him in one of the chairs while he checks them in. Dean's injury is quickly deemed not that important, and they're added to the waiting list, so Sam goes back over towards his brother, eyeing him on the way. Dean is sunk low in his chair, his jaw tight, and he doesn't look up when Sam sits down next to him with a sigh.

"Could be a while," Sam says. "How's it feel?"

"Fine," Dean replies shortly, doesn't even look at him, and Sam stares at the side of his head for a long moment, then reaches over and grabs his hand from his lap.

"Dude, get off!" Dean sounds pissed, and exhausted, and Sam ignores him, checking that the rag is still tight on his brother's hand and it's not too soaked with blood yet.

"Does it hurt?"

"No, it feels like a kitten is licking it. Yes, it frigging hurts, Sam! What –" Dean's tirade is interrupted by him sneezing explosively, three times in a row, and after the last one he curls over in the chair, bringing his good hand up to press on his forehead, and a small sound – maybe a whimper – sneaks out.

Sam hears it. He looks at Dean for a second, watches the muscles work in his brother's jaw, and then shakes his head with a rueful smile.

"Dean. I'm sorry I yelled at you in the woods, okay? I was just frustrated."

"You were a friggin asshole," Dean growls, glaring at him from under his hand. "I'm not a baby, Sam, I'm –" He starts sneezing again, doesn't bother to try and hide his whimper of pain this time. "My freaking head is gonna explode, Sammy."

"Dean, just chill for a second." Sam is torn between amusement at his brother's ability to argue even when he's feeling terrible, and sympathy at how bad Dean is clearly beginning to feel. "Lean back, just rest your head on something." Sam gently pushes his shoulder, and Dean goes fairly willingly, letting his head drop onto the back of the chair, his breath hitching miserably.

"This blows. Hey, let's just go back to the motel. You can stitch up my hand, okay? Please? I won't even try to elbow you in the gut this time." Dean peeks at him through squinted eyes, hopeful, and Sam smiles at him, amused at his brother's attempt to bribe him.

"Not this one. It's really deep, Dean."

Dean's face falls, Sam swears his chin quivers a bit. "I just wanna sleep," he croaks, frustration and weariness making his voice crack, and Sam pats his chest.

"Just go to sleep then. It's not as if you've never slept in an uncomfortable chair. We're probably gonna be here for a while."

Dean bats away his hand, his eyes shooting death rays, and he's almost pouting. "Get off, dude." He's wilting quickly despite his complaining, illness making him shivery and miserable, and he's quickly getting to that I'm gonna be impossible just because I don't feel good phase.

Sam sighs, looks across the waiting room at a father sitting with his small son, the boy sleeping peacefully against his father's arm.

Amazing that a five year old kid is easier to deal with than Dean.

But to his surprise, only a minute later, Dean's feverish head drops against his shoulder, heavy and warm. "Fine. You can be my pillow then," he says grouchily, shifting his body so that he can lean more comfortably on his brother, and Sam, quickly getting over his shock, takes the opportunity to touch the back of his hand to Dean's forehead.

Hot, but not too hot.

"Stop," Dean growls, his head getting heavier.

"You stop," Sam replies, rubbing his chest once before picking up Dean's injured hand again, and this time Dean doesn't resist, his hand limp in Sam's.

He doesn't try and pull away at all, only wincing slightly as Sam checks the wound underneath. If anything he's curling closer, because he keeps getting heavier on Sam's shoulder. His furrowed brow is slowly, slowly smoothing out, despite or perhaps because of Sam's gentle ministrations, his breathing getting deeper and more even, and by the time Sam gently sets his hand back down, Dean is completely asleep, his face smooth and relaxed and young.

Sam lets out a relieved breath, sharing an understanding look with the father across the way.

Maybe not so difficult after all.

x

So yeah... Sam could probably have stitched up Dean's palm no problem... but for the sake of hospital cuddles, Sam's useless today.

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