I just thought of re posting this story as I felt that not many readers got the opportunity to read it, I don't know exactly how much its true but just let it start again..I guess you all know that the name of this story is actually "forgive me my weakness" but then it was easy to post with some other title
Disclaimer : I do not owe Beyblade or any characters, the rights about Beyblade goes to Takao Aoki..but I do owe the plotline..
BEYBLADE
FORGIVE ME MY WEAKNESS
BY: CUTETYHIL
Chapter 1
It was late afternoon and the sun was rather hot and the cloudless sky didn't give any sign of good or pleasure. The dodjo was empty and everyone were near beach practicing.
"Oh C'mon Kai, That's enough! We've been practicing since seven and now, its almost six hours. Let's take a break!" Tyson said with fatigue with bored expressions on his face.
"Yeah, that's true lets take a break." Max added
"Hmn" Kai said in his usual tone.
"Now that really spare us with some time!" Ray said in sigh.
Kenny was still typing on his laptop talking to dizzy like an old married couple, the boy should really be given a credit for his hard work, it was almost Kenny who never took a break and was dedicated to his work despite the immense tedious states..
"Hey Hilary! Give me a pizza. I m starving!" Tyson roared.
"NO! You already ate 10..If you eat MORE, you'll probably explode!" she shot back "So calm down and let Kenny eat it, he's really working hard much lately! Take this Kenny" she turned and gave it to him
Kenny took a bite and kept it aside.
Hilary was deep in her thoughts for a while. She just pondered and wondered about what she was thinking lately..
My life's kinda boring, I feel. But despite this, I really try to keep myself busy, but deep down I actually know what I m longing for and from how many months I m confining to myself..Why he had to be very zealing and capturing me..Hmm…I know if I say or confide any of my feeling, he would probably laugh or make fun of me..
She just looked around at the tender grass with a gloom face and then stared at the sky that looked pale..Maybe I can never do it..My fear overtakes me all the time..My inability to confess, my weakness..Her expressions were just readable that she was much worried about something and it offended her..However nobody tend to notice that.
"Well now! Break's done." Kai said abruptly
"Who's up next?" Max asked.
"Who?" thay all said in unison looking at Hilary who was deep in her thoughts and didn't seem to hear them.
"Hilary, are you alright?" Tyson asked with a bit concern.
Suddenly she was broken from her thoughts and looked at them .."What happened?"
"Haven't you prepared the schedule, Hil?" said Tyson.
"Oh! Yeah! Its Ray and Kai up next!"
"So what's up Hil? Is anything wrong? You seemed to be busy lately in your own world.." said Tyson.
"Well, nothing
"Hmm..its okay if you don't wanna tell'
"Thanks."
She could feel the pain overtaking her and her depleting patience and immense longing to admit Tyson. She just stood up and said,
"I m not feeling alright guys. I'll be back later. Pls, manage without me!" she said with much difficulty and is almost in tears and runs away without waiting for a response from them..She ran a s fast as she could and finally reached alongside the beach that they went sometimes..She sat down on her knees and closed her eyes..Slowly and slowly, tears fell from her eyes and it then became rapid rolling down..She could feel the cool breeze of the sea and the water waves touching her knees..She stayed at least for an hour in which she shouted to herself..
"WHY? WHY? WHY? Why cant't I" and cried sometimes within those screams…She tried to act normally when she was around them all the time and tried her best to hide her feelings when she was especially around Tyson..Now when she felt she couldnt take it anymore or hide it and she'll wait for much long to confess anything..
Escaping nights without you with shadows on the wall
My mind is running wild tryin' hard not to fall
You told me that you love me but say I'm just a friend
My heart is broken up into pieces
'Cause I know I'll never free my soul
It's trapped between true love and being alone
When my eyes are closed the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor
Why oh why tell me why not me
Why oh why we were meant to be
Baby I know I could be all you need
Why oh why oh why
She just decided to stay quiet for sometimes and not quarrel with him for any silly things as they did usually..She stood up eventually, eyes closed yet face down walking straight ..Suddenly she stops feeling some one's presence in front of her..She opened her eyes and looked ahead..She was none other about she was thinking about..She slightly fidgeted and and looked down..
"Are you crying, Hil?" he asked in a stern tone.
She was shocked and wonderstruck. Had he been watching her all the time..
"Tyson, why are you her?" she said in a weak tone.
"I will not ask you whats the matter Hil, cause I know you won't let me know but all I know is no matter what it is, I just have one advice for you..Be brave..Listen to your heart and do not fear about the consequences..Just do what you want and don't worry..In the end , everything will be alright.." he said in a cheerful face holding her shoulders..Her eyes filled with tears..She bore her head in his chest and began to to cry..She could feel the warmth of his body she was desperately needing to wipe all the grief, she longed to saty this ay forever. Tyson stood calm expecting her to finally confide in him..After a few minutes, she removed her head and faced him..
"Are you alright now?"
He wiped away her tears gently with his fingers and passed them through her hairs soothing them and comfort to her tangled mind..
"Tyson.." she said in a low voice.
"What is it Hil,"
"What if you said doesn't bring any good result.."
"No matter what happens, good or bad, you have to face it..It much better than keeping quiet. I m always with you" he said in a reassuring tone" Now lets go home and feel free to say it whenever you wish. I ll try to help you out aanytime.."
"I have something important to confess to someone." She spoke
"Who?"
"Y-YOU, YOU, TYSON."
"Me?" You mean you have to talk, ask, discuss or confess something with me?" he asked in a confused tone..
"Yeah!"
"What is it? Is it really important? Tell me fast!" he howled.
"If you have a positive reply, don't do anything or just push me away." She said in a light tone and bore her head in his chest again
"What Hil?" he asked softly..
"Do you love me? Like I do.."she said in a soft and weak tone almost in tears..Tyson gapped shortly yet pulled her much closer. . .it was short lived. . .he soon pushed her way and very harshly with harshness that was never meant..
"I think I gave my my answer..Its no!" he said in a sharp distinct tone.. "I m sorry but I never knew you were worried about this confession.."..Hilary looked btoken as if every part of her became numb, her heart stopped beating or else that she would slip away, collapse..Her heart shattered into pieces and fell that her life is ruined, no purpose why would she live..She stared at him with immense hurt and said.." Ok-ay.."she said in a stammering fidgeting painful tone..
It was a weakest reply and turned back to go..He was still staring at her when she turned to leave,..she turned back and said, " Thanks…for your advice..'
She turned and started running towards her home..After running for a few minutes she ceased and there was nobody around, the dead silence od f the sunset.. She leaned against the pole letting her tears falling freely….
She laid on her bed in despair wondering about the each thing just that happened, each moment coming back in her mind, each word repeating and echoing in her mind..She wished if it were nightmare…But it was just the crying, but the blocked nose and wondering if she still loved him or its just the hatred for hurting het..
…
Oh man, what have I done..I've hurt her , very badly..she'd hate me the most I really didn't mean it..I was really reluctant to do it..At first, I accepted her and held her but then I pushed her when that sense dawned upon me that I felt strange and how everyone would react at it…Others are many..they could even use her against me as my weakness or do something to her..I really do wanted to confess you but I just ended up hurting her like anything…Oh! Damn this..
Hilary didn't woke till eleven in afternoon, she was scared what she will feel or how Tyson will react at this..That jerk must have told this to everyone till now..I know Tyson you don't love me, at al you cleary rejected me..You could be perhaps just a good friend that's all, nothing more than that..even I cant live my life whole this way with tears and regret and falling for someone else, that's just a disgusting thought..What am I suppose to do?...The answer is just act normally as if nothing happened as if what he said though hurted her but she have overcome that depression and won't let him destroy the still beauty of her life..it was a tough one yet..I don't have a choice except of accepting whatever happened and to move on
I she got up and got ready and headed to doojo being calm as she could. The guys were chatting except Kai and Kenny who were working on computer and he standing against a pole closed eyes, as usual..Tyson was in state of busily chatting with Max while ray listened to their conversation..When Hilary entered, Tyson was almost staggered and gapped. His eyes were fixed on her, she behaved as if nothing happened..
"Hello everyone!"
"Hi Hilary.." Kenny, max and ray greets her
"Isnt everyone practicing?"
"No Hilary, Kai gave us a day off.."
Max explains cheerfully..
"Oh! Okay!Thats nice"
"Hil, Hilary, are you just alright?" Tyson asked a bit concerned
"Yeah1" she replied sarcastically not even looking at him..she walked straight to Kenny and sat beside him..
"Chief, Can I sit here without helping you?" she asked
"Yeah! Sure!..I don't mind of course.."..Kenny feta kinda strange..She sat quiet for sometime..Tyson constantly looked at her trying to read her what was she upto but was interrupted by Max or Ray..Hilary took out here earphones and plugged I her ears and played the music..Down, Moonlight shadow, Enchanted..
Those provided some comfort to her..She wasn't enjoying it as usually she did and she plugged off them when she felt someone calling her..It was Max..
"Pls, can I listen it too..I kinda feel really bored.."
"Sure!"
She gave his one of those two and he plugged in sitting beside her.."WOWW!this is really amazing..I kinda driven off to the skies!"
An hour passed and nothing moving happened, Tyson kept on glaring at both of them..
"c'mon dude snacks time!" Grandpa came out and cheered..
At the table, Tyson desperately wanted to talk to her, but she just chose to ignore and kept on eating despite his constant passing of tart and pastries..After sometime they hang out in the dojo…
Time passed by and soon it was sunset with birds chirping..
"Oh Hilary, I forgot to ask you,You weren't feeling well yesterday, is everything alright now?" Ray questioned.
"Thanks ray, I m fine.."
She said non chalantly.
"Hmn..Thats good..Actually you went so suddenly saying this and everyone were worried about you..'
"Oh…I see…sorry "
They turned to see Tyson approaching him..
"Hey! What up guys?"
"Nothing Tyson, Hilary wasn't feeling well yesterday, remember, so I was just asking her out, remember eh?"
"I m fine, Ray!" she said sharply..
Now there was awkward silence between those three, they looked at each other except that of Hilary who was staring down, and her pale skin that looked more dull,Ray shrugged asking Tyson if he had done something wrong to her, in response, Tyson walked away..
"Ok Ray, meet you later.." Hilary ventured out of the dojo and started to make her way to home..She closed her eyes and whispered to herself..Though my heart feels so heavynand my eyes cant produce any tears any more, I just did that I thought about…I completely neglected him,,..yeah tys, nothing happened, NOTHING..My life will move despite your refusal..
She stopped.
She felt her forehead collide with someone's and her toes with his, when she opens she saw him..
Why it always had to be you…
"Tyson.." she whispered..
"Hilary, are you alright? I just wanna say you to forget about yesterday!" he said in a calm tone..
:Huh?" she gapped.
"We'll be friends as we used to be, I wanted to tell you this.." he said in a regretful tone..
"Fine." She said in that hurt voice and started walking away eyes down..
You think this is just easy..Thos hurts more than you can think..You've no idea what I m passing through
Tyson stood still for sometime and went back as if not shameful for what he's done. I'm sorry hil, but I just cant, though I love you very much..Maybe I'll loose you but I do hope for good and I'd confess when the right time comes..I know you are trying too show that you are strong and not to show how it broke you, but its just the same for me, I m not that strong either, it just happens as anyone'd perceive….