NAGISA

Fear, Anxiety, Heat, Pleasure. Nagisa felt them all as Karma's lips crashed into his. He felt his knees beginning to buckle. Karma was going for the killer moves. Nagisa's mind started to flood with the images of last night making him shiver under the intense kiss. Nagisa's mind was also flooded with all the memories he had of Karma. Every small touch, every glance, every awkward goodbye. His mind began to run around itself in circles. He saw his vision begin to darken, feeling only the heat of Karma's lips on his.

~a few hours later~

Nagisa felt warm. He sat in the weird comfort of the strange bed feeling almost like he was floating. He felt as though he had no care in the world until his brain started to wake up. Nagisa couldn't stop the chain of images from flooding into his head. The rape, the pain, being found by Karma and Koro-Sensei, waking up in the hospital, the fear that his secret was out, trying to run, and being caught by Karma. Nagisa shot up from the bed screaming. He sat hugging his arms as violent shivers racked his entire body.

Suddenly, Nagisa felt his body wrapped in strangely familiar and comforting tentacles as he heard his teacher begin to speak words of comfort to him. "Shh..shhh, Nagisa-kun, you are safe. Everything is okay, Nagisa. Remember, breath in...breath out." Nagisa tried to start following the instructions with pain searing through his body as oxygen finally pushed back into his lungs. "Good, Nagisa-kun. Just like that, breath in and breath out. Everything is okay." Nagisa felt the tears already forming in his eyes. "Koro-Sensei.." Nagisa started to croak out. "I feel like my...entire...life is just...falling apart.." Nagisa trembled out between sobs.

"I..feel so...dirty and worthless..." Nagisa broke down sobbing into his teacher's chest. Koro-Sensei said nothing, allowing Nagisa to cry until he slowly began to settle down with only slight hiccups. Slowly, Nagisa once again felt his world getting heavy. He must have been sobbing for what felt like a lifetime of tears he has kept locked away forever. He felt as a wave of drowsiness began to take him over again and fell slowly into a heavy slumber.

KARMA

Karma felt the tears sting his eyes. Koro-Sensei instructed him to not enter the room. He sat with his head between his legs as he listened to the sobs of the now awake Nagisa. He felt pathetic. He wanted to comfort him. He wanted to hug him and tell him he wasn't worthless. He wanted to tell him he loved him, that everything would be okay. He had messed up and he knew it. Koro-Sensei warned him of the jealousy burning in him, that they had both felt. Karma had attacked him with words unable to control it. He would not make the same mistake twice. He listened intently as he heard Koro-Sensei once again lay Nagisa down and tuck him in under the covers of his bed.

Karma slowly opened the door and peered inside. "Is he okay, Koro-Sensei?" Koro-Sensei looked at Karma. The worry was very apparent on his non-changing facial expression. "Karma, I know you know that I grew up in a place that this happened more that it ever should... I have seen people both succumb to the pain and grief they feel. I have seen people able to do miraculous things and pick up all the pieces and have a wonderful life not letting the nightmares destroy them." Karma stared silently at his teacher, waiting for him to finish. Koro-Sensei would only breath shortly before finishing. "I have also seen people become filled with malice and turn into monsters." They both glanced over at the now sleeping teen and then turned to look once again at each other making the silent agreement that Nagisa would not be taking that path.

Koro-Sensei left the room allowing Karma to sit next to Nagisa's bed. His teacher's last words filled his head. "Karma, I think it will be okay for Nagisa to wake up next to you this time. You must be gentle though. He obviously cares for you very much. Call me as soon as he wakes. I am going to begin my investigation on the monsters that did this to him." Karma sat quietly next to the bed looking down at Nagisa. The desire to protect him filled his bones, his heart and soul. He would protect Nagisa. As he made the silent pack, he put his head down on the bed holding Nagisa's hand and felt his eyes begin to get heavy.

NAGISA

Nagisa's eyes began to flutter open. He felt once again the surge of memories begin to flood his mind but not as intense as the first time he woke. He felt a weight on his hand and looked down to his surprise to find Karma sleeping sitting next to the bed with his head sitting on his hand. Nagisa felt a flush on his face as he remembered the kiss they had shared. His heart panged with embarrassment, followed by the memories of the harsh words they had shared before the kiss. He felt torn between anger and joy. He wanted to push him over and run and get out of this place forever not wanting to see him again and at the same time not move a muscle. He felt the soft breath of Karma's snores on his hand. Nagisa was never so confused in his life. He felt dirty and broken but at the same time his heart fluttered with every breath and movement from Karma.

He sat silently for a unknown amount of time. He found himself all of a sudden putting his hand ever so softly through Karma's hair allowing his warmth to temporarily fill the gaping hole he felt in his heart. Nagisa watched as Karma's eyes began to slowly open. He quickly withdrew his hand but felt it get caught by Karma who snapped his head up. His eyes were no longer filled with the cold malice from their last engagement but replaced with a warm determination and kindness Nagisa saw so rarely in Karma's eyes. "Hey", Karma said softly sounding as though he was testing the waters between them without wanting to cause even the tiniest wave. "Hey.." Nagisa replied softly. His voice was raw from the earlier sobbing. "Nagisa..." Karma started. "Don't" Nagisa quickly interrupted.

Karma looked at him not in pity but in determination. "Listen, please, I am not going to ask why, not until you want to tell me if you're ever ready. I am never going to force you to do or say anything. What I did yesterday was terrible of me and I am so incredibly sorry. I just want you to know that I am going to protect you. I am here to give you whatever you need." Karma breathed only quickly before continuing. "I don't want to lose you, Nagisa. I know I have been distant the past few months. I have been denying these feelings, afraid of them." Karma looked deeply into Nagisa's eyes. "Nagisa, I love you. I want to give you everything and anything and I am so terrified of losing you. I acted like a complete jerk and I regret it so much." Karma began to cry again. "Please, Nagisa, stay with me. I promise to take care of you."

Nagisa looked into Karma's eyes. He had been expecting a rematch from yesterday. He felt his heart begin to ache and the wall he had ever put up crumbling. "Karma... I love you... but I.. I am so dirty, Karma... I had to do it to get out of.. that place... I am so sorry..." Karma grabbed Nagisa and pulled him into a tight hug. "Shhhh, it's okay, Nagisa. I promise that no matter what you are feeling, inside your heart I will be here to carry it with you so please... stay." Nagisa looked up at Karma and nodded letting himself fall into his warm and strong embrace.

~Time Skip~ 1 year later

KARMA

"Guilty"

on all counts.

Karma felt as Nagisa's hand squeezed his. The discomfort of seeing the 5 predators that had raped him made him scared and nervous about being here. Karma watched as relief flashed upon his face as he watched the 5 men being hauled off to prison. Karma leaned over placing a kiss on Nagisa's head and squeezed his hand in return. "You did it, babe. I knew we would get them." Karma looked over at Koro-Sensei who stood next to them in his incredibly ridiculous disguise face glowing. He stood proud as his investigation effort had led the police right to the pigs who had raped Nagisa. He had never been so proud to call someone a teacher, a mentor, a hero in his eyes. Nagisa's eyes were wet with tears of relief and happiness to finally be able to move forward from this nightmare for real.

Nagisa had obtained a restraining order on his mother. With the help of all the overwhelming proof and the support of all the teachers for class 3E, it was a simple process. Nagisa moved in with Karma. His parent was more than willing to help a friend of Karma's who was in trouble. When they had learned the nature of their relationship, things had gotten a bit tense but Karma's mother had fallen in love with Nagisa. Even Karma's father had opened up to him and they had become overjoyed with the idea that Nagisa would join their family in the future.

The night the trial ended Nagisa had made the first move. Karma never mentioned or pressured Nagisa for sex. Actually, Karma never made any advancements other than kissing and the occasionally surprise hug very much letting Nagisa decide the progression of the relationship. Nagisa had entered the room at midnight. Karma's parents had left that night for an overnight trip and would not be returning until late the next day. Nagisa crawled into bed and began kissing Karma deeply. Karma had felt his erection already begin to form thinking he would just relieve himself again later after this late night surprise. When Nagisa's had crept under the waist band of Karma's boxers, Karma had felt himself gasp at the sudden movement. As if waiting for Karma's approval, Nagisa's hand hovered ever so lightly over his penis.

Karma lifted himself ever so gently allowing the tip of his cock to graze Nagisa's hand. Nagisa did not waste a moment and began to pump Karma's erection. At the same time, Nagisa took his fingers to Karma's mouth and told him to suck them. Karma took his fingers into his mouth and sucked them. Nagisa took them back quickly and reached behind himself and began to prep himself. Karma squirmed as he listened to the moans beginning to escape Nagisa's mouth. The sounds were so utterly sweet and made him squirm under Nagisa. He grabbed Nagisa's head in his hands and kissed him greedily.

He felt as Nagisa pulled back and watched as he climbed on top of him hovering once again ever so slightly over Karma's now throbbing penis. Karma looked into Nagisa's wild eyes and kissed him again as he slowly lifted his hips up. Nagisa immediately started kissing him back also lowering himself onto Karma until he was buried to the hilt. They sat for a moment allowing themselves the chance to adjust to the feeling. Nagisa was so unbelievably warm and tight. They sat only a moment longer until Nagisa leaned over to Karma and whispered in a voice that almost made Karma come at that exact moment. "Fuck me."

Karma stood flipping Nagisa onto the bed and began to thrusting into him deeply. He felt as Nagisa pushed back on him wanting more, hungry and eyes wild. Karma sped up fucking him into the bed. Nagisa screamed in pleasure and Karma had realized he had found his prostate. He continued to ram Nagisa in the same spot over and over. The room filled with only the sounds of his moans and Nagisa's cries of pleasure. Karma began feeling the burning in his penis knowing his climax was moments away. He reached down and started to pump Nagisa's penis watching Nagisa's back as it arched up and felt as a warm liquid began to pump over his hands and onto Nagisa's stomach. Karma only thrust a few last times until he felt his own climax spill into Nagisa. He pulled himself out and plopped down next to Nagisa and they had both fell into a blissful sleep.

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Thank you for reading! I am so sorry it took so long to finish this fic! I also apologize if it seems a bit rushed. I kinda had aloooooot of trouble with this fic. Originally, I had intended a lot more angst...buuut I got extremely busy at work and I may have sorta kinda started my next project which is my current obsession of LevixEren from 'Attack on Titan' or as you may know as 'Shingeki no Kyojin'. Sooooo, I decided to end this fic a bit more quickly than I intended instead of not finishing it at all! Thank you again for reading!

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