AN: Hey, guys! So I just want to apologize for not posting recently, I have been super busy. I have recently started writing my own novel and all my focus has been on writing my book as well as other things. I plan on slowly getting back into posting and writing fanfiction so bare with me. Anyway, I have been blown away with everything that has happened on Riverdale. Oh My God! Okay, okay, I'm sure you want to read this chapter, I know you all have been waiting a long time for this chapter so here it is. ***REMEMBER, most of these chapters have been written before episode eight so some things might not be the same, but I am going to try to make things the same for future chapter.***

Disclaimer: I don't own anything, only the plot.

Chapter Five

Being home has made her feel so much better. Yet, she still feels empty. More empty than she has ever felt. Maybe it's because Juggie hasn't been by once. She has only heard from him via texts, just texts, no phone calls, no visits, just texts. At first, she didn't mind, but now she minds. She wants to see Juggie, but he refuses to come and see her. Every time it's I can't. No. Please don't ask. She has gone sick of those responses, she just wants to see Jughead, but he doesn't want to see her. She doesn't understand why he doesn't want to see her. She has spent so many nights wondering why Jughead won't come and see her. Does he even realize that he is breaking her heart? She just wants him here, holding her in his arms, telling her that everything is going to be okay, but he hasn't done that and she's just… She's ready to give up on him, she doesn't want to give up on Jughead, Juggie, but he's leaving her no choice. He has completely cut her off. Why would he cut her off? Does he really plan himself for the accident? No, he shouldn't. This is why she wants to talk to him, in person, so badly because she wants to set the record straight. This isn't his fault, it was never his fault. Betty doesn't blame him, not at all. She wishes that he would visit her, but he doesn't instead she is left to wonder what he is doing, only hoping that soon he will come to his sense. That's she can really do is hope.

"I'm guessing by the tears that he still hasn't come," Veronica says, walking into the room and sitting on the edge of Betty's bed. "Don't worry, Betts, he'll come around."

"Ronnie," Betty says, wiping her tears away. "You say that every day and every day goes by and he still hasn't come. I just want to see him, Ronnie. You have no idea how much I miss him. Before, he was there every single day and that stupid accident happened and now all he does is text me, and he barely texts me. I hate it."

"Oh, Betty," Veronica says. "Everything's going to be okay. He'll come around, you just have to give him time. He watched you get hit by a car, for all he knew he was watching you die. That must have been dramatic for him. He needs time to digest everything that has happened."

"It's been two and a half weeks since we last saw each other," Betty says. "Two and a half weeks since that stupid accident happened and he hasn't come by to see me once, Ronnie. I don't understand, we pretty much spent every minute, every night together. He told me that he loved me. He told me that he loved me some many times and now that something bad has happened, he disappears. He's out of my life just like that and I hate that."

"Betty," Veronica says, taking Betty's hand. "Were you and Jughead having sex?"

"Wow, you know how to get to the point," Betty smiles through her tears. "Yeah, we had sex a few times before the accident. Every time he told me that he loved me, it wasn't just sex. It was more than that, but now it's gone and I don't know what to do. You've seen him at school, what has he said to you?"

"Oh," Veronica says. "Well, there's something I have to tell you. It's about Jughead."

"What about Jughead?" Betty asks. "Is he hurt?"

"No, he's fine, sort of," Veronica says. "Well, he got suspended."

"Suspended?"

"He got caught drinking on school grounds," Veronica says. "He's also been banned from the Blue and Gold for a month."

"Oh my god," Betty cries.

"There's also one more thing," Veronica pauses. "Since his suspension, nobody has been able to find him."

At that point, Betty collapses in tears. Veronica looks at her friend, she can't help, but feel sorry for Betty. The boy her best friend loves is nowhere to be found. Betty loves Jughead and he isn't here because he blames himself for the accident. Veronica doesn't say anything, all she does is hug her best friend as she continues to cry in her arms.

Suspended. He got himself suspended because he got caught drinking on school grounds, something that could have gotten him expelled, but he was only suspended instead. He also managed to get him banned from the Blue and Gold for a month. Great, with Betty not in school and him suspended, there's not going to be a paper. How could he be so stupid? It's because he has been dependent on alcohol just like his father. Over the past few weeks, he's become more and more dependent on the stuff and he hates himself for it. He knows that he shouldn't be drinking this stuff, he should have never touched it, but he did and now he can't get through an hour without having a drink. It's already destroying his life. It's funny because he would always chew out his father for drinking and for breaking their family apart, but now all he can find himself doing is drink, just like his father, he has ruined his relationship with Betty. He hates himself for it, but he can't stop. It's become so bad that he has stopped talking to his friends, her friends, their friends. Every time they would only talk about one thing: Betty. They would talk about how she was doing, how she was improving, who was going to bring her her assignments after school, how her parents were dealing with the whole thing. Apparently, Betty's parents, Alice and Hal, have changed. They aren't as strict has they once were, most likely because of the accident. Of course, he would know that if had gone to visit Betty, but he can't. He can't be in the same room as her. He knows if he would go and see her, the only he would see if the accident. It's always her rolling over the car's roof. And then he would remember who he had seen getting out of the car that hit his girlfriend and that's when his drinking got bad, once he started, he couldn't stop. He doesn't remember most nights when he gets completely drunk. He never remembers.

It's killing him, really. He knows he should stop and not just for him, but for Betty as well, for his girlfriend. He hasn't seen her since the accident and he completely, one hundred percent hates himself for it. They were, are a couple, a secret couple, before the accident, they were having the time of their lives, he loved her and she loved him and they would show each other in so many ways. The first time they had sex, it was wonderful and then they kept having sex, every now and then, but every single time they had sex, it wasn't just sex, it was always making love to her. He memorized every part of her body. She was his. He's not sure she is his anymore. He doesn't even know if they are still a couple. After the shit he has pulled, she probably doesn't want to be his girlfriend anymore, which only makes what he knows hurt even more.

He should have stuck around longer. He should have been there for her, but instead, he left, went searching for the car with Cheryl, whom he hasn't talked since that night. After, after he should have gone back. He should have gone back to her, but he didn't because he's a fucking idiot. At the time, he was in shock, he had watched his girlfriend hit by a car, he thought, he thought he was watching her die in front of him. He will never be able to get that memory out of his head. He was lost that night, so much had happened. Not just with Betty almost dying, but because of what the two of them had found out…

He brings the beer bottle up to his lips, the fifth in an hour. He chugs most of the bottle before placing it on the coffee table.

He wants to forget.

He can't handle it anymore.

He knows he has lost Betty.

There's no getting her back.