'It's not possible…' Magnus stared at him shocked for a mere moment before hugging him tightly, soothing. "Sh, sh, sh… Hush baby, don't think, it's going to be okay, I'm so sorry…"

"My head…" Alec whimpered softly, hugging Magnus back, holding on to him like a lifeline.

"Hush…" He crooned. "Close your eyes love. Trust me."

Alec obeyed, pressing his forehead on Magnus' chest, seeing stars behind his closed eyelids because of the overwhelming pain.

"I'm so sorry my love." Magnus said kissing his hair, casting a spell to render him unconscious.

He gently laid him down on the bed, and began reversing the spell, hating to do it, but knowing he should, if he wanted the real Alec back.

~o~

Alec was muttering in his sleep, and Magnus sat beside him, running his fingers through his raven hair, trying to soothe him. Even though he was still fast asleep, Alec leaned instinctively into his touch and the Warlock smiled sadly pulling him closer. He moved his head gently, so it was resting on his legs, and he kept stroking his hair, waiting for him to wake up.

'He saw through my spell…' He thought. 'No one should be able to do that.' He couldn't help the proud and blissful grin that formed on his face. 'He loved me so much that he was able to almost break the spell because he knew he should be feeling pain. No one has been strong enough to almost break one of my spells before.' He stopped stroking his hair and leaned down to press a kiss on his forehead. "My Angel…" He whispered mostly to himself, not wishing to wake him, but Alec's eyes fluttered and opened anyway.

"Mags…?" He muttered looking up at him, his eyes still bleary.

"I'm here sweetheart." He crooned, petting his hair again.

To Magnus' surprise, Alec closed his eyes and snuggled closer to him. "Such a nice dream…" He sighed. "It feels so real."

'Oh.' Magnus thought, realisation setting in, before deciding to just go with it. "Baby… Can I talk to you?"

Alec opened his eyes again, looking up at him and then got up abruptly, sitting beside him. "No. I don't want to talk. There's no time. I missed you." He grabbed the warlock's face and kissed him passionately, pouring all his love and longing into the kiss.

Magnus gasped, taken aback once more, his cat-eyes widening. And then with a sigh, he closed them again, surrendering to the kiss, forgetting he was supposed to be telling Alec it wasn't a dream, forgetting he should be fighting to get him back. For a blissful moment, the battle seemed won already.

Alec's hands wandered under and over his shirt, undoing the rest of the buttons and caressing his chest, and Magnus' lust-filled mind snapped out of it.

"Wait…" He muttered against Alec's lips between kisses as the Nephilim kept nibbling at his lower lip.

"I want you…" Alec whispered kissing him again and again, and Magnus almost forgot once more, why he was trying to stop him.

"Alexander…" His lover's name fell off his lips in a broken moan as Alec's wondering hands touched him. "Please wait." He finally managed to get the words out. "Stop."

The Shadowhunter froze, pulling back to look at him, and Magnus felt his heart constrict. His beloved looked so beautiful like that, cheeks flushed and lips red and swollen from kissing, but his eyes… Once more, there was pain and fear in his beautiful blue eyes.

"So it's one of those dreams after all." He muttered, and the heartbroken look on his face broke Magnus' heart all over again.

"What do you mean?" He asked softly.

"This is where you tell me to disappear from your sight because I've wasted enough of your time already."

"What…?"

"I thought it might be different this time." Alec went on, dejected. "But I guess that's the way it always ends."

Magnus looked at him pained, and then deciding that any verbal answer wouldn't be good enough, pulled him closer kissing him with everything he had.

"What…?" Alec muttered afterwards, at a loss for words, not expecting another kiss.

"No." Magnus said breathlessly. "This is not one of those dreams."

"Then why…?"

"I wanted to talk to you. And my mind can't function enough to talk when you're kissing me like that."

"Like what…?" Alec asked, staring at him dazed.

"Like I'm all you need to survive."

"But you are…"

Magnus made a pained sound and kissed him once more. "Alec, my Alec, my Alexander… I'm so sorry…"

"Why?" He asked again when Magnus pulled back from him, still cradling his face softly.

"I need you to listen to me." Magnus said gravely. "And I need you to believe me. This is really important."

Alec nodded, his eyes never leaving the Warlock's. "Okay."

"I love you." He said taking Alec's hands and kissing them, making the Nephilim stare at him in wonder. "I love you, and I need you. I can't live without you. I don't want to."

Alec shook his head. "You don't mean that."

"I do."

"But you said… No. You know what? It doesn't matter."

"It doesn't matter…?" Magnus asked, feeling a stab of pain. "So… You don't care about me anymore?"

"Of course I do! I will always love you no matter what! But this here, now, is just a dream. I won't be swayed by false hopes again. It will just hurt more in the morning when you're gone."

"Alec." Magnus said squeezing his hands. "Look at me. This is not a dream. It's real."

"I don't believe you."

"So stubborn." Magnus sighed. "Fine then. I'm sorry in advance baby." He kissed Alec's hand again as the Shadowhunter looked at him confused.

"What are you talking ab- OUCH! What the Hell Magnus?" He exclaimed, pulling his hand back.

Magnus laughed despite everything, at the scandalised look on Alec's face and reached out to take his hand again. The Nephilim let him, despite looking at him cautiously. "You'd better not bite me again." He said pouting, making the Warlock laugh again.

Magnus kissed the back of his hand to soothe the pain where he bit him and smirked. "I thought you loved it when I did before."

"Not on the hand!" He exclaimed before realising what he said and blushed crimson. "Shut up." He muttered embarrassed while Magnus snickered. "What was that for anyway?" He asked, trying to change the subject.

"It hurt, didn't it?"

"Of course it did."

"You can't feel pain in dreams Alexander."

"Oh…" He said lowly, understanding. "Then..."

"Yes."

"But you said…"

"I know… And I'm so sorry my love. I said many painful things."

"No." Alec said, softly touching his lips. "I'm the one who should apologise. But I need you to know the truth first. Why I did it." He sighed. "I only wanted to know more about you, and since you refused to talk to me, she was the only one who could help me. I know I was wrong to trust her. I caused you pain without meaning to and I swear I'll die before hurting you again."

Magnus kissed him, cutting his words off.

"No. No more talk of dying. I've had enough of that to last for the next ten years. If you want to talk, just tell me you love me."

"Can I show you too?" Alec smiled at him, his blue eyes shining.

"I'd love that." Magnus answered, smiling back at him.

Alec cupped his face, softly caressing his cheekbones with his thumbs and leaned closer pressing a kiss on his forehead. "I love you." He whispered, his voice full of reverence and kissed his eyes that fell closed as Magnus sighed contently. "I love you." He said again and kissed his cheek. "I love you so much." He said once more, before finally kissing his lips.

Magnus melted against his touch as he kissed him back, feeling the pieces of his broken heart healing with every kiss they shared.

"I love you." Magnus said when they separated to breathe, because it was the truth, and because he knew Alec needed to hear it again too, now that he knew he wasn't dreaming. "I love you more than anything. I'm never letting you go again."

The Nephilim smiled at him once more, resting his forehead against his'. "It's a promise."

~o~

For one last time, (last chapter xD) thank you for your lovely reviews! ^-^ Dear guest, you're right! Usually spells are harder to undo, but Alec almost broke it himself, so he made things easier for Magnus that way! ^-^

Thank you all for reading! Until next time~ (Which will be quite soon If everything goes as planned :3)